:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Wednesday, October 30, 2002 ::

OMGGGBOF!
oh my goodness, gracious great balls of FIRE!
i'm actually writing in here again. probably cuz i have nothin' else to do....
this is a good place to schedule and have "keep in mind" stuff on...
well, since my last blog i've been avoiding blogging cuz this thing was meant to be all about my encounter with Depression. Now, i'll make it into a "keep in mind" thing so that when u talk to me, u can ask me, "Hey, how's it goin' with that one project?" Why a project u say?, cuz i'm usually doin' or at least plannin' a project.....
well.... right now, my away message says this:
"gee golly gosh....
not a lot of peeps on-line.
must be mid-term week.(*scratch head)
I have to pee. .brb
back
so anyway,
i love midterms
i get the most sleep out of the whole school year... other than vacation time, but usually there's some project for school which i still do for the last minute. It's kewl cuz after midterms, there's actualy NO WORRIES at all!!!!
well, i am away, so if u wanna chit-chat or talk about vvhatevers, i'm up for it....
just stay on-line."
yup that's what it says.... so errrr. midterms are great! except dang Civics .. i have HW so i'm goin' to stall and procrastinate again...
That reminds me. Peeps get confused with the word procastination and that other word.... ummmmm crap i can't rememeber. it starts with a P and has the same idea but different definition.... same idea ? different definition? what's up with that? well, yeah, i was goin' to explain the difference but i think faster than i type, so i'll save the burden from my hands..... well that other P word means somethin' like stealing one's ideas and not using ur own words.... Copying and all that...
To copy one, is to gain none.
Yeah, ok so anyway.... i'm happy again.......
errr things to keep in mind....
+ I have to return to ROP one day.... If i return, i have to make a quick montage to Billy Joel's "We didn't start the Fire"(good upbeat song)...
+ I gotta keep up my support as Verbal Support at St. Joes....
+ I gotta write a script for Martine, Nychel, and Kate.... no time now, i'll probably get start writing more ideas in Dec.
+ Make the Music Video for my friend's band, District (longbeachdistrict.com)... That's been stalled cuz i needed clips from the Vid Game Half-Life....
+ I have to help with the production of my friend's idea for a movie: Sex-Lies&Life....
+ Write my script for Lit class..... it's really tight and i've had this idea since freshman year.... i should put bits and pieces here some time, but.. i dont' want anyone to steal my ideas.
*fart
+ I'm filming stuff for PCN starting Nov. 21st..... I'm Public Relations with Dominic.... i dont'know how i got that... but yeah,....kewlio.....
+ And other secret stuff: like saving the world... but almost everyone knows that i'm involved in worldly ...stuff...... yeah so... blah
errrr. songs? peeps usually recommend songs...... Ahh hell y not? u don't like my songs then don't listen sheesh......
Billy Joel's "We Didn't Start the fire"
Any remix of the song "Time after Time"
Faye Wong's "Eyes on Me" & the remix. "FFVIII"
Emilia's "Big, Big World"
Abba's "Take a Chance on Me"
Chicago's "You're the Inspiration"
The Beatle's "Hey, Jude"
Shirley Walker's "I Never Even Told You" (BATMAN: Mask of the Phantasm)
my friend's band DISTRICT songs(ask me for a CD, if ur really interested)
These songs are some that r just entiresting at the moment....
Seriously, my preference is harder music (not too hard, but hard)... not really soft.... unlike da POP TEEN IDOLS out there.... they just over exaggerate their music.. it's crap.... they say they have it bad, but i don't believe it's that heart-breaking.... it's just out for the white girls..... hmmmm maybe i don't 100% mean it that way, but vvhatever... Christina Aguilera was kewl, but now she's gettin' too ghetto......... i do Not really like HipHop or Rap..... there r exceptions to those though........ some have really good rythm to it... Punk is gettin' old and some of them r gettin' too much like da POP TEEN IDOLS out there.... Ex. New Found Glory.... talkin' about love... how love hurts, how you don't need her/him to love.. blah blah blah...... F IT... i'll let fate choose that for me...... I gots no time to waste anymore on that shiznets, i'll let it come when it does come. Right now, I'm concentratin' on my own shiznets...... i'm not goin' to deny it, i do get lonely, but hey..... that's what friends r there for... to kick it with u.... as for a special gfriend.... i have no one in mind.... i need it, but not to the point where i cry over it.... i dislike when peeps use their profiles to say OH HOW SAD AND SHIZNETS... well dang.... it's not a MOVIE..... ur all corrupt by the ideals of a happy ending, tragic ending, romantic ending movie!!! hard to get away from movies now, but it's hard to say ur not influenced by it..... i am, but at least i know what reality is....shoot stop spreading the guilt and sorrow.... move on,... dont' wonder just do...... but think first... dont' wonder... dont' waste time... ask and get ur answer.... don't get frusterated if u don't like the answer. u asked and u got ur answer... if u demand, well, yeah, it shows initiative, and if u use the right moves and tone of voice u might impress them but dang.... that's risky.....also..... just be urself... compromise with the other..... that's what it's all about... sacrifice a little, get a little, and maybe get more than what u want...... well, anyhoot....i should practice what i preach, but i don't cuz i don't have anythin' or anyone to practice on.... but what really annoys me are Proms... F IT...... it's supposed to be fun.... it should be one big party.... Proms are like... its' an obligation to stay with ur date... just to be courteous and all.... that sux... if ur date sux, the whole night sux, but if u have to choose wisely u may have an OK night(just cuz u wasted ur time by "choosing wisely")... but if u do, u may not get who u want (it backfires) and u might as well just stay home or be a stag.... a group of stags r kewl cuz ur not alone and ur in packs.... nothin' can bother u cuz ur with a bigger group... but what i'm sayin' is ... y does proms have to be so .... not formal, but ... y do u have to ask someone out to go to a formal? cuz it's formal, cuz u ask someone out... that's what bothers me. if u kick it that special guy and girl... great! no one will bother u if u show some PDA, not too much PDA(that's just dang, ur makin' peeps who feel bad already feel worse)...but those who choosessomeone, not as great as u wanted it to be, well, ur one night that's supposedly big, isn't anymore....... and to those who always complain about not having someone, shut it and just be a stag.... go with a group of stags of course but hell.... yeah well... its' still months before then.... sooooo vvhatevers..... things change..... i MAY oppose what i say on this in the future but yea.... i was kinda repetitive before, but i'm just tryin' to say what i say.....
OK
back to music: so RECAP: Seriously, i'm into harder music.....
Honestly, I have no ideal music...
yeah, and stuff like that...
U hear about that teacher from that one place who did an observation noting that the most students who does trouble or low grades are african-americans and they say he's racist.... well, he DID do an Observation, and he is noting what he has seen from his experience... vvhatever
and then a year or 2 ago, some black families wanted compensation money for what their ancestors have endured back in the days.. W.T.F.!?!?! they're just takin' advantage of equality now... abusin' it.... yeah i'm ramblin' again but vvhatevers........
so y is it insulting to say "midget" to a .... midget? just wonderin'... no hate, just curious.....(Pandora's Box, cat that gets killed, blah blah blah) y do they prefer the words "little people" or that other word i can't remember.... dang.... anyway.... what do u say about families? black families or african-american families? So conPusing........ yeah well,...... ok...... i guess i'll shut up now....
Honestly, i don't intend HATE... it's just hard to ask a question in which u/i wonder about nicely......
hmmm....dont' WONDER, don't ASK... well F U then... i will wonder and i will ASK.... i wanna know.... Ignorance is bliss..... well, if it is.... i don't want bliss.... i want to know what everyone knows, even if it causes pain(i'll take the risk, i may regret it, but i am i askin' it upon myself and i'll take responsibility for it)(Again, Pandora's box...)
vvhatever
Holloween.... Third annual patrol around my neighborhood.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:33 AM [+] ::
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