:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Tuesday, April 08, 2003 ::

man, i've been bloggin' daily now... crazy shiznets... anyhooo...
it just brought to my attention that... geez, my cousins r gettin' older now.... 2 almost 14 year old girls... 2 almost 13 year old guyz... i mean whoa..... one pair is graduating 8th freakin' grade and the other will graduate the next year... man,... and they all seem so immature still.. i don't know y.... or somethin'
vvell, they're not immature, i know, but it just seems like, ... was i like that when i was there age?... geez, i remember 6,7,8 grade, and the.... drama....(dumb word to use, but anyhoow)..... and they're most likely experiencing the same things..... es like whoa... kinda likea whoa...
dude, i'm really summerizing how i feel about this, but es kinda likea whoa.. man... woman... whoa....
*look down, shake head..... look up = whoa, yo.... whoa...
they're startin' high school, and heck... i remember freshman year cuz es so recent, but far away, yo.... whoa, yo... whoa... and now they're gettin' into high school... whoa, yo... whoa... ya'know, es kinda likea whoa, when u watch someone so old or so young, and still think u know what u know... ya'know?..... man, my lolo and lola r here, and i don't know what they feel... cuz ALL of my family is at work or school... and they're here... watchin' TV or what not things...crazy shiznets.. sux a bunch... whoa, yo... whoa... and then my lil cousins... some so angel like and the other DEMONIC!!! WHOA, MAN... WHOA... but is the younger they start the better?... ya'know, get that phase of life over with... so then, the angel becomes WHOA, and the WHOA becomes an angel... kinda likea crazy shiznets, yo... whoa, man yo... whoa...
(i should be doin' my HW.. .but HA... anyway)
whoa, man yo... whoa

a lil bit about me...
(i'm openning up a bit... that's y the title of this site is the way it is...)
i feel somewhat distant from all my cousins... all my dad's side lives in Michigan or up north... My mom's side, vvell, the rest of her side moved here in CA in the past recent years, and the distant cousins r still in the Phil
==== OK sister just interrupted me: Terrie B... singer of My Ruin a Hard Rock band District has been playin' with (there shirts can be bought at Hot Topic... they're not well-known band, but they're like well in between wealthy-famous and underground music... mostly underground,.. i don't know i just listen, i dont' go into deep with music... i'm the movie guy... anyway..... my sis asks me how old she is... guessing, i say 28... no,higher, ... 38 yuP... my sister says" ISN't tHAT OLD?" ... in my mind... mixed ideas;, no set response.... thought it related to what i was just talkin' about kinda ====
... ok... and the distant cousins r still in the Philippines... vvell... let's see. .... (where should i start... i just deleted alot cuz i thought it would sound conPusing)
most of my ... ok... with my dad's side... simplest.... suprisingly my titas and titos (aunts, uncles)'s names r easy to remember... F A R M E R S... it just happened to be that way... Felecia, Annie, Renato(my dad), Marie, Edith, Roland, Stella.... Felicia, married to white guy: divorced, 2 children...'84, and ??? '87<... Annie... crap ... ya'know this would take along time.... one of my titas r in the process of divorcing... my Tita Stella married a black man... how kewlio is that?... and then was killed by an aneurism by MR (ASK ME , I TOLD SOME PEOPLE ALREADY)... he IMed me a chain letter the night before, and my only black uncle died, met him once... Marie lives in Selinas, Ca... Roland and my dad r the only boys and Roland isn't married, and since my dad has the Jimenez name, it passes down to me... so since i'm the only boy in the family, i'm the only one that can bring the name down...... (if any of this is conPusing, by all mean,s don't try... i'm just.... uhhh what's the term i read lately?... "venting?"
; vvell it seems i'll be in my hot room for a loooong while...)
so yeah... 2 older sisters and me,... i'm the one bringin' the name to the next generation which doesn't seem..... io;hars;???asdfssdhasdfhasdilasdhfa;ubve*slamming fingers on keyboard...
ok ook okook.. ujmmmm.... yeah, they live in Michigan and one family lives up north, but the purpose... FINALLY THE PURPOSE is to say that i feel distant from that side of the family...OK... :-P... i could've just said that, huh?
my mom's side: ok.. there's more tito and tita on that side so i won't go through too many detail i guess....... let's see...
ok... most of my cousins here r FEMALE... so not too many testosterone here.... i don't think i spelled that right... ok.. soooo.....let's see... my sister '81... then my cousin...'83(born in the PI;then moved here),... then my cousin's child '84(don't think about my family relations too much, i'm leaving out a lot of peeps.. i'm just talkin' about those who were born just before and after me...).... ME'85 first boy born in US since... '78>? THEN... dry spell i guess i dont' know.... no wait!!! CRAP... ok....OOKOKKOKKOKOK.... (i'm mentioning those who i know that can speak... err well english? cuz they were born here, or have been here for more than 10 years...) (if i'm conPusing u: GREAT!!! cuz i'm just speakin' my mind.....) ok...ummm then '89 = the 2 girls... then '90 the 2 boys... then ... '91a boy... then '92 the DEMONIC girl... then... '95 the girl... '99 another girl... and then... '02 another girl... ok so... what i'm saying is... i don't relate to my cousins too much and i feel distant cuz they're mostly FEMALES... and i guess they're age range is off.... the one born in '84 lives far ways... like 30-40 min. drive so i don't see her too often, and she's with her Pnays over there... ok so... and there' one boy cousin from this side who was born in '84 but he lived everywhere, and the last i saw him was like 2-3 years ago.. for only like 5 hours... and the last time i saw him before then was about April '94... ok so i feel distant from him too... and then there's the boy cousin who was born in '78>??, the older boy cousin who lives nearby, but he's married and has 3 daugthers... the the '89, '95, '99... and his family name is goin' to be gone too if he doesn't get aboy soon.... and then the other boy cousins who r younger, ('90) r in 7th GRADE now which really suprise me, and i see how they act and I KNOW i didn't act like them, cuz i'm the quiet type.. and i used to boss them around and blah blah.... vvhatever... vvell can't really relate to them too... and then my schooll
i live in EAST long beach, it's a nice and clean place and all... stereotyping: it's the white side place... i like where i live, but i'm just sayin' how i am to be... thas all... "venting", remember? (man, it' s hot in here... *turn off light; turn on lamp light)... (oh yeah, the reason i'm writing this is cuz i just read my cousins xanga... whoa, they know xanga... vvhatever... (computer age is faster, the younger generation learns more and more...) what she writes suprises me, which shouldn't... but it does, but vvhatever... and then i compare each cousin and note where they live... influences... i can't stop it... but that's what makes the world different, which isn't bad, but... like i said before: i'm not academically smart, i'm analytically smart, by means, i like thinking... and not everything has answers that can be understood or comprehended by the mind... so if UUU don't like to think... vvell let me do the thinking... .... sacrifices?(<~don't worry, i was just thinkin' about somethin' else)....)
ok so.... i went to a... i guess, white school... i was the shortest kid,.. which wasn't bad necessarily... the only asian, other than the vietnamese girl, but she's kewlio and all.. anyway... vvhat else... what was the purpose of this blog?.. o yeah...i guess that's it... there could be more to be said, but it's more like this subject relates to this, relates to this.. etc. etc... bleh blajldhfa blah bleh bleeh blah blue... and i'm THINKIN' that it's startin' to be like that...
i was tinkering on explaining y i donned the mask and explain y i have 3 lives, and not 4... (.... ahh i debated whether to state the 4 or 3 lives, but ahh vvell since i'm here, i mightsen vvell say it: work, liesure, school, love.... ) aww corny shiznets, but hey,... things may be better said read, then spoken.. *shrug... i don't know... learning is one thing, understanding is another... although what i said isn't true, so dont' go by that... let me rephrase into something better...
,....... . .,.,.,..,. ., ., .,, thinkin', ponderin', construing, analyzing, wondering, ...,,.,.,..,
ok okok : everyone can't know everything unless ur omniscient... nah... that sux too...... *sigh.. ok ok ok
vvell, not everyone can think the way I, or like I, do, cuz the Future... supposedly shouldn't be wasted thinkin',... unless u have some good spouse, friend, partner to take care of ur money problems, cuz the world is mostly based on money, and if u become a monk, vvell i don't have time for that either, cuz vows and living in isolation and not of it's morales i can't live up to.... and.... ummm ya'know,... ummm when ur an Adult, i guess,... u can't think like this, cuz u have to have jobs... but and... vasdlasf *blank...
dude, i need a ..... [end]


c-ya:-)


-j

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