:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Tuesday, May 27, 2003 ::

what am i waiting for???


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:17 PM [+] ::
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i'm ANTSY!!! hhahahhahaAHAHAHHAHAHHAAAA..... it's an actual word!!!
what DIABOLICAL SCHEME!!! *clench fist in air mothafreakas!!!
WAHHHHH!!!
*tearing up!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:04 PM [+] ::
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it's sucking my life dry... parched... vastless... vastful of nothing... the last few dayz... nothing...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:00 AM [+] ::
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If everyone has that special someone,
then it proves i'm the nicest guy in the...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:48 PM [+] ::
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i wish and pray for a lot of things... does it come true?
No. Why?
Reasons pending. I wish and pray someday i will...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:12 AM [+] ::
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i have learned helplessness...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:55 AM [+] ::
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tryin' to hold in ur crap is a waker upper.....
it can also show some moves of 'dorky dancing'.....


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:38 AM [+] ::
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OMG...
on ELIMIDATE, i sure as hell wouldn't have chosen Julie to be kicked out... COME ON!!! SHE WAS LIKE THE CHILL IDEAL GIRL, MAN!!!... all the other girls were slutty... vvhatever it was just me... Julie looked like short, sensible, pretty girl out of the 3... sux a bunch... vvhatever yo...

i'm almost there... or not... or not not.... bleh


what about the checkins?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:16 AM [+] ::
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it's not over until May is over...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:10 AM [+] ::
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You are Professor X!

You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
brought to you by Quizilla

i got Gambit, and Cyclops also, cuz ya'know? some questions have 2 different answers i want to put... or 3 or ..s.sf4..or not??? or not not not.???.. not... ... or somethin' like that...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:50 AM [+] ::
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yay... i'm not lagging... kind of...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:16 AM [+] ::
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if my mood were on a line graph, it would be plummeting...
and nooo, it's not because of PCN, that was never a significant problem to me... and to those who think i'm not there because i'm "scared"... nooo i'm busy editing other videos that happen to be due for me by Saturday... so there... Believe me or not, get ur facts straight and ask from the source; not just from others...
fellow psycholololologists may know what learned helplessness... :-/
things happen for reasons which aren't known... i like that, but eventually i want to know y...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:24 PM [+] ::
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I hate ... or dislike:
"God helps those who help themselves."
screw that shiznets,yo... yoette.... if i could help myself, then i wouldn't be askin' for God's help...
But I am askin' for God's Help... am i gettin'?... kinda likea NO!!!... freaks-in-a- freakin' mythologies
ok so... now what? eh?... What's it goin' to be then, eh?... o k... so es kinda likea now what?...

or am i just being prepared for somethin'... that would be entiresting, very...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:19 AM [+] ::
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i feel happy and hopeful!!!

*thumbs up!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:03 PM [+] ::
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scared? of PCN? noooooo....
since i'm not workin' directly on it anymore, i'm workin' on other obligations i'm tryin' to live up to like Footloose and currently 2 late projects in Economics and another subject... and tryin' to get my D to a C in Lit class....
|:-D... kewlio...

soo... to all ya'll PCN people...
I caN mAkE RIcE: it's nicole, michelle, randy,
BATMA17: kewl, thanx
I caN mAkE RIcE: and all the college people
...later...
I caN mAkE RIcE: also.. like eddie and joanna and them are pissed at you
I caN mAkE RIcE: but they're nothing
BATMA17: but i've never even talk to them (i dont' even know who they r formally)
BATMA17: that's what annoys me, they get pissed off cuz of what "others" say...
BATMA17: what about the other side of the conflit
BATMA17: true, i probably won't win even after they hear my side, but at least it gives me a peace of mind that they actually spoken to THEE problem

i'll be back monday... no wait... yeah, monday... not tuesday... i'll be there for wednesday, thurs, fri. and sat... that's what the supposed plan so far...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:53 PM [+] ::
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while breakfast warms up i'll take note, an overview what i'll write in Puture blogs...
cousins from PI
Starcraft
Life
Growing Up
Current situations
what i've done the past week and what i plan to do...
and that's about it... f


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:06 AM [+] ::
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One day i shall update somethin' somethin' about the somethin'... ya'know?
but i'm busy as freaks-in-a-mythologies...

this is what i'm doin' now...

_______________________________
Name: j

Birthday: 617
Location: LBC
Mood: guess...


Favorites (Right Now)...
Colors: BLACK
Decade: 80's?
Cold Beverage: Pepsi

Alcoholic Beverage: there is very few i have tried, but supposedly Corona is a good choice
Movies: too many to say
Book: any BATMAN novels i've read thusfar

TV Show: Justice League (never watched it in a long anal time though);
24 ~ that's a good show too

Month: december
Piece of Jewlery: i dont' wear jewelry
Band: miscellaneous (not a band name)

Food: good food

TV Channel: i don't watch TV that much anymore suprisingly
Store: i dont' shop too much either
Cartoon: BATMAN
Subject: Literature (my first D)
Radio Station: i prefer my cds =p (me 2!)

Season: summer = swim; winter = if had a gf, bodyheat

Relative: HA!
Car: BATMA17mobile

#: 4

Current...
Clothes: it's not BATMAN attire suprisingly, but my pooh blankie is around me...
Location: Computer
Taste: Morning Breath
Smell: dust?
Worry: nothing ... really
Thing I ought to be doing: hw & studying, editting, planning
Make up: make up work? or makeup make-up? either way,... yes/no...?
Amusement: doing this...

Desire: hmmmm....
Love: eBeryting
Boy/Girlfriend: hah! no. HA!
Last Kiss: not applicable

1st Thing That Comes To My Mind...
Red: heat
Rain: hard
Michael Jackson: face
Sunshine: Mario
Beach: sand
Socks: punch
Love: eBeryting
Money: an unwanted need
Hurt: inside and the stomach,... or the intestines?... or the anus? or anal? vvhatever

Do You Believe In?...
Love: suuure
At first Sight: possible
Fate: yeah
Higher Power: yeah

Music's Power Over The Soul: influential
One Person's Ability To Change The World: suuure; but is it recognized/known to all... does it have to be?
Santa Claus: of course, i just can't seem to be awake when he comes, AND he hasn't given me any gifts the past years :-(
The Easter Bunny: there's an Easter Bunny?
Tooth Fairy: not anymore, dammit
Aliens: of course.. jen and a gay friend of mine

Magic: suuure
Math: scary to think that eBeryting can be broken/reduced into numbers

Miscellaneous...
Lucky Number: ???
Sign: gemini's twins
Eye Colour: brown
Piercings: scars

Have You Ever...
Ran away: HOME? through the window; then straight to the front door.
Monsters? YEAH!!!, until i find their weakness
Broken someone's heart: if i do, i brung them to hospitalie
Cried when someone died: no; but i feel anguished when it's a stupid "accident"
Broken a bone: someone else's?
Drank alcohol: in a decent manner................
Lied: of course... not... or not??? or not not???
Cried in school: yes i have, but not in high school... pshhh...

With The Opposite Sex...
What do you notice first?: what they're doing...
Last person you slow-danced with: a friend

The Last Time...
Showered: not today... ummm yesterday

Had a great time with the opposite sex: actually this morning

Do You Ever...
Sit by the phone all night?: a while back
Save AIM conversations?: yeah
Save e-mails?: yes

Wish you were someone else?: just to understand another POV
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: just to understand another POV
Cry because of someone's mean words?: it's a breaking point

Have You...
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Made out w/ JUST a friend?: no
Been in lust?: of course, i am human ya kno like whoa, ya'know, yo?
Used someone?: ends to a mean
Been used?: most dubicably
Cheated on some one?: no
Been cheated on?: ???
Been kissed?: what do u mean?
Done something you regret?: but of course

Who Was The Last Person...
You touched?: my sister, she couldn't get the dang printer to work...

You talked to?: sister

You hugged?: Kara,... entiresting, very

You instant messaged?: whatishardcore
You kissed?: N/A
You yelled at?: i dont' yell, but i'm afraid i'm turning into my titas and titos because their yelling is normal conversation
You laughed with?: sister
Who told you they loved you?: hmmm.... mother dearest

Do You...
Colour your hair?: i have once...

Have tattoos?: currently, no, but i had those that rub off eventually

Own a webcam?: my camera can be a webcam, i think...
Ever get off the damn computer?: eventually
Sprechen sie deutsche?: i thought that was german
Habla espanol?: No ( 2 languages at once! amazing.. entiresting, very)

Have You/Do You/Are You...
Stolen anything?: just to get the thrill feeling before
Schizophrenic?: HA!
Obsessive?: HA!
Compulsive?: HA!
Obsessive compulsive?: HA! HA!
Panic?: not totally
Anxiety?: yes and a lotta stress as well
Depressed?: yes, Depression attacked me the week before oct262002...
Suicidal?: HA!
Obsessed with hate?: haTe is bad
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore?: dream? no
Dream of doing those things instead of just doing them?: dream? no day dream?
If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: paradise... i suppose
Who do you want to kiss?: eBeryone
_______________________________

yeah, i'm busy... :-P


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:56 AM [+] ::
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oh hey, now i remember what i was thinkin' about:
Y i'm
i think it's my voice... whenever i hear my voice on a recorder or somethin' i sound like a geek ,,... it sux a bunch... i don't think it sounds like me, but it is... the sound of my voice sux... and i have a fat face now... and i'm getting bigger... i dont' excercise and i eat too much now a days... this sux a bunch... that's y i'm like crappy....
crap.... that sux... oh vvell.... now what...... i do not know, fo sho! fo sho? fo sho!!!
o o k
i'm goin' to try and take a nap again...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:00 PM [+] ::
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I was goin' to take a nap, but what the heck... i'm here...(3:23PM)
let's see... what was i just thinkin' about... crap i forgot... there was a purpose to this... let's start with what i'm thinkin' right now:
i have to work on my Lit project, ... crap where's my progress report, i still have a D in Lit. found it... ok so... i have to do the mouse trap project, BraveVision? and Footloose stuff... all by tomorrow
then there's Economics project, and autobiography for Religion, and memorization for Drama class... and do the script for Kaminsky's class... no more PCN for me because i'm Dishonorably Discharged... I hope they chose the right reasons y; i can think of y, hopefully they too chose the same reasons... anyhoo... true i did lag... true, i wanted a good script... I wasn't goin' to give them a bad script PERIOD!!! so ... on Thursday... i was somewhat excited and... exhilarated, because it was the second day coming back to PCN practice after being absent for almost 4 weeks... so i was into everything, and i was loud and joking around... but some people don't understand the joke, and i laugh when people don't get it, so... sux for me, sux for them, but still fun for me... ahh crap, what's the other thing i thought of... oh vvell... so i heard that she wanted to write the script because i was lagging, so i openly expressed, OK SHE WANTS TO DO THE SCRIPT HUH? and the way it came out was too loud and not meant to criticize, humilate, or make fun of... it was just a statement showing that i understand that she wanted to do the script... so once i said that, i realized my tone of voice and went "oh-shItzer, that didn't sound right" so i braced myself for a come back... which she did very vvell...
She has this stare and when she stares, she stares good, and i commend her for that stare... her eyes dont' blink and she knows what she's talkin' about and her eyesr very well detailed that u can see her lens and color eyes... reminded me of a tiger... TIGER EYES... that's what she has, she has tiger eyes... vvell i evaded the defense mechanism my own way, and vvell, she needed to vent... i see her as the only one screaming her voice out at everyone to quiet down... especially me,... whoops... Michelle isn't there cuz she's sick... Randy's "iono", and edward kinda lost hope... sorry man, so she's like vereally vereally vereally stressed out and doesn't have time for fun... but me... i take seriousness as fun, but that doesn't mix well... so she got her resentment out and attacked me personally(BATMA17), instead of the subject at hand (the lagging script)... but i was fine with that... but it sux cuz now she has to do the script with someone else, which puts extra loads of work on her... vvell, i'm still there to help... and i know how it feels to get loaded with work...
I'm just halfway done with the first act of Footloose and i'm supposed to be done by THIS SATURDAY... and then i have to film Show Choir and edit that... and film and edit PCN all before May purty much... oh kay serra serra... vvhatever will beee will beeeeeeee.... o k ummm what else... there was really somethin' else on my mind... i can't remember dammit...... o ok vvell this isn't it, but another thing that happened, i went to PCN today and i find out i'm Dishonorably Discharged so i just went home and took a nap in my car, because i locked myself out of the house.... whoops....
hmmmmm vvhat was that thing i was thinkin' about..... crapsidy yo.... o k ... ummm hmmmmmmmmm
So much to do, so.... little ... time i give..... i guess i'm out, yo

dammit i was goin' to wash my car too... oh vvell...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:45 PM [+] ::
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slit me with a card in the neck; YEAH; YEAH (repeat many times happily)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:09 AM [+] ::
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. . . What is my spectrum? I am blue: My main color is blue. I am a little bitter when people choose a blissfully ignorant aproach to life. I try to see things for the way they really are. . What is my spectrum?

WORD!!!
DAG YO!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:07 AM [+] ::
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we were like
I SwEeTyPiNaY I: "I WANT BATMAN TO DO THE SKIT!!"
BATMA17: YAY!!!
I SwEeTyPiNaY I: 'WHY WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM?"
BATMA17: *clap clap clap
I SwEeTyPiNaY I: "HE'LL DO GOOD

i can't win them all, but i don't intend to win... Cuz if there's a winner there's a loser... and i dont' want peeps to lose... There are problems of being neutral... and yes, it does suck a bunch, but with those who support... i don't take it for granted...
MAKE USE OF IT... :-D *thumbs up!!! thank ya vetty mucho eBeryVody
what an exhilarating day, very...
oh yeah, i work in mysterious ways...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:20 PM [+] ::
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Exhilarating...
I smiled my rot all the way home...
I sang along with the tunes such as Third Eye Blind and Abba...
There r reasons y things happen, but will UUU be able to comprehend it?

ENtiresting, very...

I'm gone c X-Men too yo./..


One more thing...
I don't apologize, I make a compromise :-D


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:00 PM [+] ::
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please don't pity me because i know i'll be okay...in the end everything will turn out fine... ill be in a chipper mood again and ill hold my head up and smile again. i may hurt now, but these things happen. not everything can go my way. with these life experiences, i gain life lessons. if this is how it goes then that how its goes. i cant change that...

word...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:27 AM [+] ::
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hopefully for the rest of the month or just for the time being, i'm goin' to be ANTISOCIAL a bit just cuz i have a grips of obligations to fulfill...
if u commit, deliver
just one other thing on my mind... i need a poll, survey, majority decision...
To go or not go to Prom... TAG IT...
reasons for or against the motion r optionally mandatory applicable
Deadline: 24 hours from NOW... 5:18AM


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:18 AM [+] ::
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Shaolin Soccer is such a worth while movie...

i'm the King of... California...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:17 PM [+] ::
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