:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Wednesday, July 30, 2003 ::

since the issue revolves around close peeps, i GUESS it's ok to inform those involved...
a forewarning...

i don't know what i'm doing... actually i do... u think i've never done this before... i have...
others have trusted me and they were strangers, crazy trust, eh?
u gots to trust me... the reason that it's buggin' is that there's a gut feeling of mine that this has to be resolved quick and -=- painless -=- ??? or else... bumbumbum, dun dun dun kind of deal ya'know???

if something happens, sh-- maybe i shouldn't have... but this is it... i don't know what the f--- i'm doing... haha... but not...:-P
conPused? COME ON!!!... ok this line is pointless.... disregard it...

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everyone can, but who does?
I can, and I will do... but the blehghghing part of it is... will i do it right?
but vvhatever i do, it's for the good... even if i lose something / everything...

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collateral damage... that's what pulled me back before... but the only way to ease that pain is that those whose been damaged is... accept it??? hmmmm... hard to say, as always...

There is Fate, but how far will it take me... too many coincidences have takin' place... but where do i go from there???
remember my July 28 blog??? i wrote that even before i confirmed anything... eh... all this paranormal higher being crap...
what the world needs now, isn't love... love has been used so many times that it's worthless... as for i... i'm preserving it... corny shiznet??? maybe to u, not to me...
there's got to be trust.... and faith... and blah... this post is being longer than it needed to be...
just reread in between the two lines...

peeps keep reminding that i think of others too much... i may be a pryor, be nosy... but i'll be neutral...
i guess... and i think that i'm just trying to stop it before ..... .... ... .. .

how can i stress this enough... i made busy-ness cards!!! it's not JUST for show and fun... it's a calling
NEED ME??? CONTACT ME...
but ur right,... maybe u don't need me... vvell... prove me wrong then mothafreaka's...

(note to self: i probably just screwed myself over...)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:07 PM [+] ::
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Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:33 PM [+] ::
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hey it's raining... kewlio to the max, luv it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:56 PM [+] ::
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An inch of time is an inch of gold.
Fortune Cookies r so right to the max...
:-/


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:12 PM [+] ::
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i just thought of the most philisophical things... vvell, maybe not the most... but it's more like DUH... but it's an OHHH because it's actually being told... like "it's and unwritten rule"... vvell here i am, writing the ... guidelines down... i didn't wanna write this all at first but i thought of all the other philosphers and was thinkin' "if i dont' write it down, no will ever know" so here i am trying to write down every thought... granted i might won't get it all down... it's only debatable cuz of feelings, nothing more but feelings... okokok
(first off, who wants to tune my dad's g-tar? contact me ...)
okokok...
Things happen for reasons unknown...
the thing that we can control is our feelings and actions...
accept it, it won't change, u MIGHT just make it worse...
in other words... sux to admit kinda but we're not divine... we're human... feelings are good, but taking it to negative towards others is bad... accept it... express ur feelings... express ur freewill... not onto others... get it??? don't involve others unless they voluntarily/willingly agree... u don't know till u try??? ur right... i'm right... excuse me :-P
principles... they're more like guidelines... practice what i preach... to all those who tell me this: your right to the max... but like everyone else, not the truth is 100% told... that's where the ifs and depends differ from every situation... similar, but not... but it can all end... IF u just accept it...
i need to accept the consequences and unfavorable actions... but u don't know till u try... it can be predictable,... but it can not also... gahhh it's all so simple, but we just refuse to accept it...
changing what is i think those "crazy" people r people who just got close to the truth... not all of them, but some of them... and the reason they got sick in the head is cuz the won't accept what is... insanity right???
now honestly... we wish we can make do without necessities... and we want what we don't have... we're human, accept it... and when we have it, we use it, and discard it... sux right? right... accept it... but i, myself refuse to accept it... i believe... or i think i believe can change it... i sound all revolutionary and all or not but vvhatever... but then i'll miss out on what i want... u think i can make do without? maybe i can, but what else can there be... it's like i'm taking the road that leads straight into a deadend... and i'm trying to break through that dead end... maybe i don't have enough willpower... maybe i'm just human...
that's what human nature is... or not... :-/ i'm not thinking straight gahhhh... *sigh...
i try to practice what i preach... collateral damage... i've said before it sounds as if bad outweighs th good... only by not trying will i suck... and i can accept it's my fault... crap mult. things went through my head contradicting the other... i don't know WTFreaks-in-a-mythologies i'm saying... IGNORANCE is BLISS, i can't stress enough on how much i agree to it... but since i know little, i want to know more... i'm just that kind of person... who thinks... who likes to think... and i'm afraid i'll lose that... don't know y... i'm crazy remember?... to all u people, remember a time when ur alone... and just thinking... what would people think if they knew u were thinking... honestly, i believe we'd all think we're just all crazy... but hey, i'm here saying right here...

or

i can be the only crazy one and everything i say is false... what seems right is wrong... but ya'know what? i don't know anything... or not???

risks is what is needed... and when the mood is right... u just gotta say F--- IT...

to all who read, don't say anything unless u can back it up... oh, i can back myself up... may sound like unreasonable stupid reasons... and that's the feeling of it... but as always... i'm right, and ur wrong... i contradict myself too, so u MAY have the advantage of defeating me... but who's up to it... no one thinks as i do... i dont' think as u do... so who's goin' to take me down and slap sense into me??? this is a good time to say f--- it...
stop reading here... if u continue to read, u wouldn't have known unless i said so...

u CAN all leave me on my own to my own destruction... (destruction? maybe i'm goin' the right direction, it's just the obstacles r unbearable...)

yeah.. HHAHA... lost my train of thought... f--- it... it's hot in here... and everything i say is BS... or not...
wait a minuet... i forgot... this is my purpose...
i'm here for u to help u understand... understand what? ... it's all the eye of the beholder... and u know what???... i'm not solving necessities or world resources... GROW up, or am i???

ookokok don't get it good, if i just say i'm talking BS and every word is meant to conPuse u??? i'm right... now that i say i'm here to conPuse u, do u still trust me??? hard to say, eh???
conPusion and shame for so long it has cause me pain... <---if i were to tell u i'm singing, would u believe me??? i am not... or not... HAHA so conPusing... so much more to say on my mind, but... *shrug...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:59 PM [+] ::
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O k� the tapes have been lingering for too long� just like on my Apr. 29 blog� I refer to that� I need to get sh� done� I am a lazy sons of an A-hole� I don�t even clean� just my own dishes and room� shooooot� I believe that if u just do ur own crap� everything would be clean� vvhatever� since nobody asks and I have a feel of talking about myself� I�ll just elaborate as much as I can� ya�know???� Hopefully, I won�t lag anymore and stuff like that� ya�know???� okie dokie pokie� elaborate a lot for, hopefully, the long brief (? haha) period of time, in which I�ll be productive� :-/

O k� elaborating, even though it doesn�t ask� I�ll elaborate�

Section 1: GENERAL
1. Name: Jeremy (haha, no one doesn�t really know the full name so I�ll just talk about� w� type about my first name�) my mom named me after an actor she liked at the time� Jeremy Irons� o and� I never hear any good Jeremys, persay� ahhh� too much� I�ll stop elaborating there� haha�� I�ll just say there�s a lot of bad Jeremys� rapists, porn, etc.
2. Nickname(s): vvovv� so many� o k BATMA17(the N was takin� by the comic book character), little J, j (derived from little J), DJ, Double J, Jerms, Jermany, Dork, dorkuss, that guy holding the camera, JJ STOKES (Petrov), u over there, *waves arm to signal to come here, wierdo or weirdo, Sushi (first day of school of Freshman year; 7th period Study Skills; Ryan Perez talking to Augusto and Raul), that kid walking around with a BatCape(SJHS), HoodMan(Mr. Brindle telling me to clean up trash), Sushi BATMA17:the shorter version GarciaParra (GarciaParra - Augusto and others ummmdared me to go up to the cheerleaders and say really loud "GARCIAPARRA!!!" and walk away... the football game was giving out Nomar Garciaparra advertisements and stuff), Ron Jeremy, Jerry (my friend's grandpa or uncle repeating my name), Jermey, Jeremie (o k, now I�m just writing what people think my name is or how they spell it, not vereally nicknames)
3. Feet size: 10-11
4. Do you have a crush: many (so much for elaborating�) wait� do I?� not how many?� what an idjut� vvell, the answer is � of course�
5. Birthday: June 17, 1985 (my sister asked... y dont' they have like a conceive day?... and i said... cuz u dont' know when the actual sperm reached the egg, it takes time... and then... u really wanna know what day ur parents did it?!?!? ahhhh ewwww OHHHH!!!)
6. Age you act: varies
7. Where Do You Live: Long Beach
8. Where you want to live: a nice place
9. Birthplace: Memorial hospital, I believe
10. Favorite Salad Dressing: I suppose ranch�
11. Ever gone skinny dipping?: no� I need to workout, (I say I do and I plan, but I never do it� everyone can, but who does??/)
12. What are you watching?: the computer screen with words appearing after another�
13. Last person you talked to: Mother.
14. Favorite movie: (too many to say)
15. Favorite Book: (too many to recall)
16. Favorite Type of music: (same as 14, 15)
17. Favorite types of cars: not too into cars� just something that looks kewl, who cares about the inside, jk� as long as it doesn�t give me problems�)
18. Favorite Saying: freaks-in-a-mythologies, If I were an animal, I would be a toothpick� (there�s a lot more out there, hehehheh� so much for elaborating�:-P)
19. Favorite Fast Food: (almost all out there)
20. Favorite Ice Cream: currently Mint Chip, Chocolate Chip, or Neapolitan�
21. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: none, I hear European beer is the best though
22. When Do You Go To Sleep: I like the night, and I don�t wanna grow up� so the past few days, I�ve tried to wake up early� I only succeeded yesterday, and I didn�t like it� I guess I�ll just sleep when I�m tired� but if I say that, then It�s all the time� damn lazy procrastination and all�:-/ saddened to the max�
23. Most Embarrassing Moment: I don�t believe it�s THEE most embarrassing Moment,� and when I recall, it shouldn�t have been� but uhhhh� June 17, 1993, I believe (yes, I can cry if I want to)� every year my mom takes the birthday person to church� it was the last week of school and I didn�t really wanna go to church with my mom� I�d rather go with my fellow classmates to school� so the church is located on the school anyway and I cried cuz I didn�t wanna go to church� then as mass was about to begin� the assigned class of the day went to mass� that assigned class was my sister�s class so most of them knew me� I just cried some more� eh, it�s over now�
24. Stupidest Person you know: ME
25. Funniest Person you know: varies�
26. Favorite holiday: Christmas... it�s cold and it�s good time to snuggle up, but I wouldn�t know:-P� no school, no work(supposed to be)�
27. Favorite Food: good food�
28. Favorite Song: vvhatever the trend is� just go with the flow�
29. Favorite Television Show: since high school I rarely watch TV, but good shows to watch r Justice League, CSI, and Amazing Race 4�
30. Favorite Radio Station: normally KROQ, rarely, vereally rarely POWER (if u have a comment on this :-D and I know at LEAST one of u readers do, please tag and state ur crisis of situation of sort or� stuff�), everything else is purty equal�
31. Favorite junk food: eh,� usually chips and soda, pizza, microwave able or conventional oven foods� haha!!! I�m the master at cooking those��
32. Favorite sappy love song: hmmm, let�s keep this BATMAN related� I Never Even Told You � Shirley Walker� is that a love song???
33. Favorite color: BLACK� although it is a combination of all colors, I thunk�
34. Favorite Shoes: eh� vvhatever I bought�

Section 2: THE FUTURE
1. School: California State University of Long Beach� but if I change majors it could be Dominguez hills or� somethin��
2. Where You Want To Live: I believe I�ll never leave Southern California, LA area�
3. How Many Kids Do You Want: 6� to name each on after the letter of BATMAN� HAHA I�ll elaborate here� okokok� B - the first must be a girl� I kinda like the name Brianna or Bethany or somethin� or maybe Barbra??? Eeyuck neBermind� cuz it is a BATMAN character name� � A - if it�s a girl Arianna???�. or a boy Azrael??? Haha� it�s a BATMAN character name� in the dictionary, it�s Asriel which mean help of God� T � MUST be a girl.. I�ve always like the name Talia, another BATMAN character name� if it's a boy, which i PRAY NOT...(vvell pray if i even get with a girl errr woman... ahhh opposite sex... female... o k...) it it's a boy.... a BATMAN character is Timothy/Tim... eh... M � don�t know� another A � vvell, hard to say on the second� if the 2nd was a boy, then this MUST be a girl... then� N � if it�s a girl, Natalia, it�s a Sims name, supposed to be based off of Talia� or maybe Nora� if it�s a boy, Nemo� haha� that IS a kewl name!!!� IF the first child is a boy, hopefully not, or not???� I don�t� know� then Nemo would be first� Nathanial� ahhh vvahtever�. vvhat a freakin� loser eh?� vvell, let�s elaborate more�
I got the idea from my dad�s family� they didn�t plan it but it just happened to be like this� the siblings with him is in this order.. Felicia, Annie, Renato(my dad), Marie, Edith, Roland, Stella�.Now, I don�t� want to spoon food� uhh.. whoops HHAHA� food spoon� wiat�what???.. ohhhhh HAHAHa.. wait.. I Porgot� spoonfeed!!! Whoops� :-P�. ok� I don�t� want to spoonfeed ya�ll cuz I know u have ur brains� I hope or not��
Ok so� my dad and Tito Roland r the only boys� my dad only has one boy, me� Tito Roland isn�t married, I feel freakin� bad for him too� sux a bunch to the max� so since I�m the only one that can carry on the family name, it freakin� sux a bunch� it doesn�t annoy me on a daily basis, but when it comes up (such as now)� it makes me paranoid� I�ll probably be like my Tito Roland :-/ sux and saddened a bunch to the max� *whistle whew��..
4. What Kind Of Job Do You Want: I did ideally want to be a Film Director or ANYTHING at all in the movie busy-ness� I�ve always wanted to be apart of it somehow since Approx. 2nd grade or Kindergarten� BUT now, just this year, I�m having my doubts on it� :-/ practically each family member in my family has some sort of medical, or works at a medical place� and the rest r mechanics in the airport� so� yes, I am the oddball of the family� I like the classics, like a pocket watch� that�s y I bought a BATMAN pocket watch� just like back in the day� 20�s 30�s� Karma? Reincarnations??? Vvhatever� anywhoo�. Maybe somethin� along CSI� working with the hands� I would do those, but I�m afraid of putting the wrong person in jail or have guilt trip or anxiety on messing up a person�s life� I think I think� haha� I think I think about more of the bad things than good things in life� not to be pessimistic, cuz I consider myself more of a realist� I know there r the good things, but I guess I am afraid� probably of not the dark, or paranormal� but afraid of failure� (u can apply that to everything about me�)
5. Wedding song: uhhh, I�ll just have noel and dominic write that� (Turn around� )
6. Song in your head: Eternal Flame�by the Bangles, is it??? Don�t know� it�s hard for me to dl now� I guess� damn it, oh vvell� it was good while it lasted�

Section 3: HAVE YOU EVER
1. Done Drugs: 2nd hand, ya�know??? The smoke gets in the way of the oxygen� It�s bad, I don�t� bother doing those things�
2. Run Away From Home: in a sense yeah� got pissed went out the window� I knew I didn�t have anywhere to go anyway, so I just went back to the front door, just to prove to mother that she best be careful with her mouth and actions� HA!!!
3. Hit A Girl: no, �but if it�s a life and death situation, u gotta do what u gots to do
4. Lied: no :-j
5. Stolen Anything: yeah� they�re free!!!
6. Broken A Bone: no, I can�t...actually, yeah... chicken bones... i heard that bone marrow is good for ya...
7. Cheated On A Test: yeah, but not too good with it� I just take the F� *shrug� and say next time I�ll study, but wait high school�s over� eh, I�ll study for college� we�ll see�
8. Cheated On A Boy/Girlfriend: no� never had the chance to anyway, and I hope I�m not tempted to� my fear is actually having more than 1 girl like me (HA!!!), cuz then if neither understands the situation and makes ME choose� it would hurt either or�. But if they understood, one would get hurt and live on OR they would stand by my side and stuff� uhh losing concentration on my point� vvhaever�
sooo� I guess I�ll choose neither or none(depending on the (low) number), better if we all get hurt, or one gets hurt??? all or none?/? eh� too many ifs and depnds here� but if the girl really underd� wait lost my thought� honest�
9. Gotten Drunk: maybe just a lil faded, but I don�t� drink a lot nor often� I�m the damn driver, and u noel� u should�ve drank at least once before getting ur license� that�s how I thought when I was� peer pressured � into doing it� cuz if u don�t have ur license u won�t drive� but anyhoo� I�m usually the driver and proud of it� and no matter who u r� (Note: get bags for vomit JIK in my BATMA17mobile� I mean� JIC.. Just in case�) I�ll drive ya, if I�m available� it�s just a thank you to all those who drove me even if u didn�t know me� around or to my home� when I didn�t have my license�
10. Been With Two guys/girls At Once: yeah�
11. Been In The Hospital: yeah�
12. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: hmmm� never really cried, but they did tear up� but helping them makes me feel better,� ahhh clich� everyone else probably says that� but vvhatever � I hide in a mask� :-/ but it�s a beacon of light to show that I�m there� ahhh blah� so much to say�
13. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: not really, just closed my eyes, and think and think� I waste water that way, but it�s relaxing� I think that�s my number one place to think, followed close by second for just before sleeping
14. Gone to Church: at least once a week�
15. Never slept during a night: yeah, I miss those dayz� err nights� I believe I started sleeping late around 3-5th grade� and then my peak for really staying awake� or sleep after school then wake up then go back to sleep was 8-11 grade� now adayz� it�sl ike� I don�t� wanna grow up� I kinda answered this question in a previous� uhh thing above� just scroll up�
16. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: yes, my dad got a motorcycle because of the movie Top Gun, and he ONLY ride it around the block� he only road it out in the road no more than a couple of times� my mom was afraid of it and knew it was a waste so she made him sell it� I rode it around the block with him�
17. Been to a camp: camp?� Basketball camp� it was alright, I felt dorky� eh� camping in the woods?� I memember when I was younger once�
18. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: yeah, but someone in the group would order somethin��
19. Seen someone die: on TV, other than that� it�s Classified�
20. Gone a week w/out shaving: yeah
21. Didn't wash your hair for a week: maybe at the most 2-3 dayz� but that�s when I had shorter hair�
22. Broken something valuable: I believe so� yeah, my dad's g-tar... that was a mah bad... i wanted to play something, but then... :-( ... maybe that's y don't play ... or not???
23. Thought you were in love: thought�? Infatuation counts?� then yeah, many�
24. Streaked the streets: no
25. Screamed at someone for no reason: yeah, it�s funny� or when in a loud place or a cell phone�
27. Been hurt by a guy/girl you loved: eeyuP, failure is not an option� so if I don�t choose� or try� then I won�t fail, persay� get hurt trying, or not tryin at all� :-P
(hmmmm� it�s almost over now, it's over... i can't escape it... apathy can ease it... apathy will allow me to be free, but ruin me... at what cost� I do not know� fo sho� fo sho??? � fo sho�)
28. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: yeah�hmmm yeah I talked to this one girl, she�d call me, she lived in San Jose� we had those awww online liking blah things� but I was always cautious and skeptical� she was a friend of a friend, that�s how we met online� but anyhoo� it was a turn off when me, her, her friend were talking� and then they tried to talk in numerics, stupid, y in front of me?, but it�s a good think I knew numerics at the time� �I really need to uhhh 51770153 now� and I was like aww man, this sux� but then I thought about it, told her and stuff and she was like sorry� she sounded more sad and then never spoke a lot since� vvhatever� and then!!! Haha stupid online stuff�I was right in the first place� I�m inhuman, Liza confirmed it along with many others� I�m never right� (but u don�t� know till u try)� anywhoo� chris bravo� hrmmm� maybe I shouldn�t have mentioned his name� ehh vvhatever� I won�t go into detail with him� but I warned him � and now they�re both hurt� and Bravo, IF U READ THIS, which I highly doubt cuz we never talk about anything anyway anymore� she still wants her necklace back� send it back to Oregon� uhhh ahhh don�t bother, reader, � if u say, that�s messed up� pssshh.. vvhatever it�s no big of concern with ya� but eh� I said it�

Section 4: WHICH IS BETTER
1. Coke Or Pepsi: Pepsi
2. Cats Or Dogs: cats� but babies r always the �here�s a word� ADORABLE (too many peeps say cute toooooo much)� so kittens and puppies r a plus but when they get older� I tend to see their adorableness� eh� and I�ll have a pet, if I�m not the one taking care of it�s crap� literally� everything else about �em es kewlio�
3. DVDs or VHS: DVD, just cuz of the special features� and the chapter selections, but I feel bad, cuz VHS is being extinct :-/ � I like keeping memories� it�s hard for me to throw away �trash� as others would say�
4. Deaf Or Blind: hmmm after much thought� ahhh neBermind� hard to choose�
5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: eh� no preference� which reminds me� the only thing close to swimming I�ve had is my bathtub, but just as relaxing with the music and all� the last time I swam was the Philippines and before that was the Footloos�. errr� Bible Study�
6. Television Or Radio: eh� I like visuals� I�m a visual learner� Television.. TV�
7. CDs Or MP3's: eh� since MP3s will most likely be limited from now on� CDs
8. Apples or oranges: apples�

Section 5: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
1. Took a shower: before blogging�
2. Cried: vvell, in the dream I had last night� it was like whoa I was crying so much tears and � uh kulangot??? Eh� it was a good cry� it�s like all the crying I�ve been holding just went out� so much crying that u know when u gasp for air� it�s hard cuz u wanna put out than put in� but that was a dream� I teared up from waking up from it� but actual tears coming down� eh� couple years ago� when I couldn�t take my sister�s teasing anymore, even though it was a little thing, but little things add up,� ya�know???, but yeah, I�m kinda sad that I can�t cry anymore� it�s hard for me to cry� cuz before I also made a vow not to cry unless it�s really meaningful� I guess I haven�t cried recently, cuz it wasn�t the meaningful� *shrug�
3. Watched a Disney movie: Pirate of the Carribeam � Curse of the Black Pearl� oh and that other movie The Haunted Mansion the music in the preview IS the music of BATMAN RETURNS� listen�
vvell� when u get the chance�
4. Given/gotten a hug: as always� with good friends�
5. Been to the movies: yuP, yuP� my sister and her BF r still getting used to paying for movies�

Section 6: WHAT IS
1. Your Fondest Memory Of This year: :-/ undecided really� the year�s not over� thus far�
2. Your Most Prized Possession: anything BATMAN I suppose� eh� that�s the closest thing of me being considered Materialistic or� ummm what�s the �disease� of buying too much� uhhmmm�..Influenza??? nono haha� that�s a medical term� Porgot what it�s called�
actually� friends r always the best� cuz u don�t see them everyday unlike annoying family members, and u make every moment count, I suppose�
3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest: a good, lasting conversation
4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast: vvell-cooked hashbrown� with other stuff� but hashbrown�
5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: eh,� vvhatevers� good food�
6. Your Favorite Slow Song: anything!!! Cuz I can DANCE to slow songs� but if I only had a partner worth holding to� *shrug
7. Your Ideal BF/GF: not BF, � ok so� ideally, she�d understand me, preferably without asking, but es kewl if she�d ask cuz she wants to know� she has to adapt to me� I only say this, cuz I adapt to SO MANY other things� I guess it�s hard to understand, but adapting to me would help a bit� or a lot� if she can put up with me and my antics, vvell hey, vvhatever goes ya�know???�

Section 7: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
1. Bill Clinton: the president in which I THINK he wasn�t that bad, cuz I think he lowered taxes a bit, but everyone else says he sucked, not because of the scandal� and stuff�. In one quote �in years time, he�ll be considered one of the worst presidents ever�� *shrug� something to the same mistake as Thomas Jefferson� cuz they both lowered funding for military, which saved money, but at the same time� provoked attacks on US� ex. War of 1812 and 9/11 (I don�t� see(understand) how 9/11 is the FIRST attack on US soil� eh� vvhatever)
2. Love at First Sight: eh, there has to be some truth to it in order for it to be said�
3. Abortion: pro-choice� but u BEST think about adoption at least!!!� I mean, come on� no questions asked at hospitals� just give it to them�
4. Teenage smoking: peer pressured people that have no will power� I say it�s bad, but it�s their own will power� who am I to say something??? yeah, I�ll say something, but if they�ll just listen� cuz I�m always right� :-P� ummmm one more thing� lemme think� I Porgot dammit�. Damn� shooooot� o yeah!!! (�evil triumphs when good people do nothing��)
5. Pot: with plants� or other artsy stuff, ya�know???
6. Eating disorders: yeah, some people use it to escape, such as alcohal and sleeping a lot a lot� but it�s a temporary solution�:-/
7. Rap: not too into it� bopping my head is all u�ll see me dancing� except� a Billy Joel song� we�re I�ll go crazy� although it may not be considered dancing� more like a .ummm� aneurism� or� ummm a tick� or that other word� oh SPASM ATTACK�. Honest!!! That�s y I don�t� freakin� or can�t freakin� dance� I can�t move in rhthym to music� ehh�. I can�t shake my thang, naw wha ah mean?
8. Marilyn Manson: entiresting, very�
9. Premarital sex: as long as ur together forever � Semper Fi (Always Faithful�)
10. Suicide: Vincent Van Gogh� �this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.� hmmmm�. *rubs chin� hope they thought it through� but overall, no� *scratches neck�
11. Drinking: didn�t I answer this before???... o wait no I didn�t last time it was mentioned, it was about drinking before my license� I�ll tell when I realized I was somewhat faded� but this was like a year or 2 ago� ummm someone asked me a question� I had gum in my mouth and was wearing my glasses and holding the drink� I meant to put down the drink, take out the gum, and answer the question� instead� I took off my glasses, spat out the gum (more like fell out of my mouth), and drank while answering the question� :-P� I just finished that bottle and that�s aboot it�
12. Death: Evil backwards is to livE� get it get it?� so does that mean,� evil hides in living� or if u weren�t to live, that�s evil� which goes to the suicide thing� vvhatever� my fear is dying stupidly� ya�know???� ummm overall� I�m not goni� to die� vvell, yeah I will, but I hope and wish for a productive lifestyle� or, I dont� know, everyone will know my name and stuff� die with an impact� or die without anyone knowing I have an impact on them� eh� who do I impact?� compliments greatly r appreciated, but PLEASE don�t� say it cuz I appreciate it, say it cuz u mean it A LOT, not a lil� I guess� eh�
babies and other die because I guess there purpose is to show those living what not to do� by example and consequence� blah blah blah�
DEATH� always wondered� I�ve always thought of it, ur mind and thoughts wonder� it�s just ur eyes r forever closed� just like ur laying in bed before u sleep� ur mind will wonder forever�.hmmmm
So if u go to heaven� can u have any tempting wishes u want� or do u still have to do this obligations stuff (sounds lazy, eh?� mah bad)�. Eh� vvhatever works out for the best� eh??? *exhale�

everything here is literal� but there�s always the ifs and depends� :-/
there's also the fact that i can't type everything that should or want or need to say...
as always, the thoughts work faster than my bod...
(*NOTE: this isn�t the blog entry that�s meant to be the long one� cuz this has like an outline and stuff� ehhh let�s see if I still write that entry I�ve been talkin� about, then maybe u�ll get what I�m talkin� about� or not�)

o and one more thing� ( haha anyone watch Jackie Chan Adventures???)
I WANT to remind myelf and others on this July 13 post�

Steeeves A Robot profile:
The moment that you start worrying about what others will think about you because of what you do or how you act is the moment you give up on yourself. To worry about other people's thoughts is a suicide wish in and of itself. Stress will come with worrying which will lead to false identities and therefore leading to people not realizing their full potential in how great and wonderful they can be.


c-ya:-)


-j

hmmm false identities� if I�m not BATMA17, then who am I???� I shall keep the name, but will always question it� or not� :-P*shrug�


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:44 PM [+] ::
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"You've been talking to yourself a lot lately."

whoa, whoa... have i??? i guess i have cuz there's no one else to talk to...
last stone, remember???


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:26 PM [+] ::
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Just watched the music video to "The Quiet Things No One Ever Knows" by Brand New. I thought of this... if u and ur mate were to be in some sort of event in which u died and ur mate was critically injured still fighting for their life... and u had a chance to choose whether they survived or died along with u in a very short/limited amount of time, what would u choose???
(CHOOSE NOW...)
or not...

i wouldn't be able to choose... hard to say... a lot of pros and cons... i, myself, am indecisive... reader, do u really want me to elaborate??? cuz i know u have ur own brain, i don't want to spoonfeed u with my thoughts... so if u wanna discuss about it, just ask...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:24 AM [+] ::
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You're Kago-chan! You're TOO cute, and want
everyone to know it! But you'd never steal the
show. ^^


Which Member of Minimoni Are YOU?
brought to you by Quizilla

*shrug... Minimoni rules!!!... and they're pretty young... entiresting, very...
o and my comment, about the "Do you need a boy/girl friend now?" i ... wait hold on....
yeah, neBermind... i'll just say that "let nature takes its flow." is what i've .... ummmm yeah
WAIT CRAP... stupid... haha... dammit... can't delete it... like i've promise... now i remember y i didn't comment on it before...
shItzter... shoots-in-a-mytholgoies... freaks-in-a-mytholgoies... GREEK MYTHOLOGIES... grr to the max ya'know??? now ya'know,... or not??? haha... just waitin' and tryin' to sleep soon...*exhale... eeyuP... okie dokie pokie

vvovv, it's mid-July... saddened to the max...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:58 AM [+] ::
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see? simple talks help... i feel betta AND...
here's something... ask me about me... and i'll tell u... that's my venting...
but REMEMBER, i can save u anytime...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:08 PM [+] ::
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Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

entiresting, very... but it's just a quiz... haha???
:-P


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:50 PM [+] ::
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so i have a bad temper over little things, vvhatever... we all do... little pet peeves... majority can get over it, few can't becausee,like me i'm considered a perfectionist... f--- it... and 'scuse my language u piece of sh-- haha... or not...
o k so... i'm freakin' hot and i choose to be... my mom's a bi0tch and ruined everything... yeah, cleaning my room pisses me off... now u know: dont' do it... especially moving things around... they're out for a reason...

fate blha... dude, u dont' know how much i was goin' to vent, but this thing just made me not want to vent... saved me? maybe... fate? maybe... i'm not goin' to fight it today, i dont' freakin' feel like it... things happen for a reason... so her pissing me off prevented me from venting... this is sooooo not the MAIN reason, but f--- it it still mattered... f---....

last stone, i'll live...
leave me alone, but don't...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:25 PM [+] ::
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F---!!! I WAS GOIN' TO F---IN' TALK ABOUT MY F---IN' WEEK, BUT WHEN I GOT HOME LESS THAN 10 MIN. AGO, I FIND MY F---IN' ROOM ALL NICE AND CLEAN AND F---IN' REARRANGED... F---IN' MOM... PIECE OF shItzer!!! ALL THE TAPES I'VE BEEN WORKIN' ON WERE IN CERTAIN ORDER AND SHE JUST F---IN' PILED IT IN A F---IN' BOX... F--- UUU... AND NO... I'M NOT F---IN' THANKFUL PIECE OF SH--... F--- UUU...


F--- ME!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:02 PM [+] ::
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� What's your Inner Goddess Color?? � Jen

VIOLET represents the seventh and highest quality a person attains
- noble spiritual aspiration.
Its planet is Jupiter, rules the metal tin and the jewel Sapphire.
In its medical action it approaches the realm of ultraviolet.
It cools the nerves, is magnetic and antiseptic.
Purple and violet speak of honor,
spirituality and self-esteem.




entiresting, very...
highest quality a person attains... antiseptic... haha i can prevent ur boo boos... if u'll just listen... or not??? Spiritualistic, rn't i always?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:24 AM [+] ::
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I ain�t sayin� shiznets�
Freak that shItzers�
I ain�t sayin� anythin��"=
Let�s see what I can say before I forget� Ummmm help others before... wait wait... "help urself before helping others"... freak thats shiznets...everyone got their problems, and i ain't lying... (ain't ~ been sayin' a lot in this blog) but help myself first? nahhhhh... others r more expressive... so to help those who ask for help before helping those who don't say nothin'(anything) at all... i'll help them ... because then once i fix there problem, they can help with my problem... but it wouldn't work that way cuz once their problem is fix, y burden them with my problem.... es kinda like this... i figgur dis... haha... i've always said it's hard for me to explain... i'm goin' out on a limb i guess and if u dont' get it now, don't think about it later... there's ...ummm lemme thing somethin' better than stones... ummmm... colors.... rocks.... shooooot... ummmmm... ok ok ok... there's 10 stones... right right... haha i'm goin' whoa over this one..... ummmm :-P.... one stone can help one other fellow stone.... right right.... (stones=people... a-duh a-der) and once that stone is helped... it doesn't have to help other stones, unless it wanted to... but vvhatever... yeah, vvhatever.... ummmm so in the end.... 8 stones r helped and there r 2 left... haha... (y am i using stones???) okokok.... so only one can help the other... so one helps the other... and then 9 stones r helped except one... so that stone doesn't get help... but if its will is strong, it'll live... so yeah... 9 stones helped... 1 not helped... but they all live.. haha... the end..... BLAH.... ok soooooo... ummmm treat others as u want to be treated... blah blah... what other quotes and proverbs and antics and stuff r out there... ummmm be good to those who u meet on ur way up, cuz u'll meet them on ur way down... ummmmm,.... dudes... dudettes vvhat else... i had other stuff on my mind, but it all got lost cuz i'm talkin' about freakin' stones... *shrug... *scratch head..../ *yawn....... o yeah!!!
soooo..... i'm good at assuming, i assume.... cocky maybe... but i only assume vvell because i think of all possibilities including far-fetched ideas.... yes a meteor or aliens can come one day and destroy or renovate... shoooot... that's a possibility... feelings can be stronger than principle... haha copyright me on that one.... vvhat else, vvhat else...
shooot.... hey, if u wanna know, and if they're willing to say... ask these two people (but i won't say who these 2 are... u know who u are... but u think it's u, but it's probably not... or not... sooooo) ... i had to drink some truth serum of mine to get it out of me, but at least it's out... cuz es kinda likea this... i feel like a hose attached to a fire hydrant and no one holding on to it... the water r my words and my body is the hose... it gets crazy and stuff like that like..... like parkensons desease or somethin' but hey, nothin' can match the speed in my head... that's y it's hard to type everything or say everything... cuz if i don't say everything i need to say then, ya'all might get the wrong impression... or u might get it, but i'll tell u ur wrong so it'll mistrack.... derail ur thoughts and u'll get conPused, and i won't get conPused and i win, cuz ur conPused and i'm not conPused... get it, mi padre??? or amigo... *shrug.... ok sooooooo fire hydrant and hose... yeah the water is only coming out one openning and there's lots of water gushing out... and those who r near by, i dont' want them to get soaked or drown.. but ya'all know it's fun to get wet and stuff.... yo ho yo ho a pirates life it be... haha good movie... i'll watch it again... anyhooo..... yeah,... the water can be dirty or misinterpretted to be dirty... it can be used to quench a fire or torture a person... haha symbolism
speakin symbolism... all these movies, and literature and stories... were they meant to have a deeper meaning??? i mean come on... FREAKS-IN-A-MYTHOLOGIES!!! maybe the author or storyteller or whoever meant it as a story for entertainment and excitement,... no deeper meaning crap... shoots-in-a-mythologies.... but hey... eye of the beholder right??? ... u better have ur own opinions cuz like... i usually don't like those who have opinions because others told them the same thing... cuz then their influenced and stuff... vvhatever... but opinons and adsfjh;aok okok insignificant.....damn, i used to be a freakin' good speller but i can't spell vvell... err good... err vvell ahh vvhatever... anymore...... yeah so.... ok
*scrach head... like i'm good at assuming... ha, back to my original point... (above wasn't the original point...??? haha NOPE).... i don't know if this is the point too or even if i'll stick to it... hmmmm (maybe, ya'all should read the first few para. of my first entry stating... ummm i dont' know bylines and guidelines and syllabus??? haha... things to expect... warning label... somethin'....) so... let's assume i assume vvell... but really anyone can assume well if they keep a keen sense of all other possibilities......... no matter how far-fetched..... sooooooo ... man, it's getting hot and itchy... shoots-in-a-mytholgies... ummmm okokok... lagging haha....... no i'm not lagging... i'm actually ichy and stuff now.... freakin' hot... vvheneve.r. oh blah.. i am laggin haha... okokok... so let's assume i assume vvell.. and i'll make asses out of allya'all... so i know what's goin' to happen if it happens... but i also agree with "u don't know until u try"... vvell because i assume that dang vvell, what the freaks-in-a-mytholgies ya'know??? y try, if it's not... beneficial... haha that's a good word... o no... i shouldn't have used that word... or not??? *rubs chin... i'm writin this on notepad cuz i don't know how long this may freakin' be.... and note to ur mama....haha... i can delete this... but like i've said ... or typed up before in my first entry... dont' know the exact words, too lazy to go back... but i said somethin' a... i typed somethin' along these lines.... words... "i will not delete anything, cuz once it's done it's done... i'll only add or edit it in a sense it'll be more sensible", but not... cuz i'm complicated cuz i want to be complicated and i like those who figgur out me complications cuz .... that's what i like... we're all fickle and contradictory, but i just point it out that i am... get it, get it??? hahah.... *inhale... soooooooooooooooo....*exhale... ...ummm forgot... hold on................... *scratch head................hmmmmmmmmmm............ l.............. o yeah... umm go back a bit... note to ur mama... i can delete this, but i can also not post this up.... soooo if this isn't posted up... then i can delete it... but wait... if u r still reading this... then whoa ya'know??? sweet shibby of all shibbiness.... cuz es like... vvovv i did post it.... and i probably will cuz i'm goin' to shower too... but wait... i had or have to get out somethin' else... shoooooooot.... damn u 2 girls... actually no... thank u for asking... and u know who u 2 r ... *thumbs up!!!... but hey, it's probably not significant to u... but lil things matter... just like this cartoon in Press Telegram... es kewl ROSE IS ROSE.. i've been cutting some of it out... i would post it up and show the pic and all... but i will not succamb to anything else... like music and... not junk... but yeah.. sooo... i'll describe it.... it's so kewl,,,,...ummmm the kid... okokok... ummm how should i start this.... the kid has an imaginary friend, nah.. more like a guardian angel... and he can see it and their buddies... so in the beginning panel... the kid is angry about something... like a really really frowned, angry face... bostos... (tagalog meaning rude... get it, get it??? *shrug...) so he's really angry... and then a ladybug lands on his arm and he's really really happy... supposedly ladybugs r good luck when they land on u... (side note... where did all these superstitions come from??? good luck, bad luck... luck... chance ... vvhatever... and this leads to religions hahah.... getting way off track but it's just to conPuse u... ... so the bible... how do we know it's true... it could've been made by a couple of goofballs and story tellers and jsut did it for fun... or not... i believe in a higher being... blah blah... i think i've talked about this in another blog post... i would say it... but nah... gotta stick to Rose Is Rose... just look for it... i republish everything anyway... my unclassified adventures...)... sooo... the lady bug lands on him and he's really really happy!!! in a good mood once again... (like me,.. sometimes... sorta... blah..... crap... i say i wanna be complicated... but all this is like freakin' hints... a walkthrough... a cheat code to say how to undestand me... that's not fun... oh vvell.... *inhale anywhooo....) *exhale..... he's happy... the ladybug flys away to the side of the house and it turns into his guardian angel... hold on... apparently i didn't feel my phone vibtate... whoops... hold on... gotta call back....

whoa... i can't believe i didn't hear it vibrate... haha... get it get it???... shoot y should i ask if u get it... cuz then it's hinting that u might've missed something... shoooooooot..... ok anywhoo... i'm just suprised that i'm typing a lot today... yea.... annnnd..... vvhat else... dammit forgot.... this isn't my long blog, i've been talkin' about... *fart.. 'scuse'muah

ok... ummm ... the lady bug turns into the guardian angel... and goes back to the boy saying "VVELL! I'm glad SOMETHING has lifted your mood, since I couldn't!" and the boy point scolding the angel, "You know, YOU could learn some good counseling tips from LADYBUGS!"
yeah, the end, but i wouldn't say cute, cuz girls say that... jk... i would say kewlio to the max on that cuz it's like kewl... there's other 2 panels that r kewl about it too... oh... and i have should tell the man, his boy, and his donkey story... it's moral was "PLEASE ALL, AND YOU PLEASE NONE"... hmmm to that.. i say hmmm to that... cuz like i wanna prove that wrong,... but i know i won't... but it's good to know i can try... kinda... YEAH. ... so i i know can't... so y try?/?... or... i can try... but i'm proving i know that i can't... so y bother... ok ok ok... so
but i like to be proven wrong... but if i know i'm not wrong, then y bother... cuz i can be proven wrong..l.ooooooooooooo
so.....ummmm yeah, i'm right, i could be wrong, but i'm not goin' to try cuz then if i'm right, then it feels wrong that i tried cuz i knew it wasn't goin' to feel right but i did/would/could/should? it anywyas... hahahahahahhahaha get that in ur head!!! DOH... i did it again... get it, get it... and i did it again... anywhoo.... ummmmm now what... more to say... suuuure... ummmmmmm... yeah the dayz go on, and on and on... another time another day... and stuff and junk..... like that... vvhat else... but
but don't worry about me... go on with ur life... wait a min... but we all help each other... hmmm... but then... i dont' wanna drench cuz u might not like being wet... but i like being wet... (no pun really intended, but if u wanna laugh... laughter is the best medicine...) and then i'll dry u up and get u back on ur post... feet... as for me... indirectly, cuz we all feel uncomFORTable MOST of the time to say the specific, (cuz it's not really specific... it's a collaboration of all) ////.... ummmyeah i dont' knwo what i was goin' to say now... and i need a shower... but please REALLY... vvell not really, cuz yeah... but yeah.. ya'know??/... i would type it out, but haha... my excuse is again... my fingers can't type as fast as my brain can think.... shooooooot..... if only and depends... that's history... live with it... and stuff...


i ain't sayin' shiznets...
unless asked, ya'know???

until then... farewell adieuu... vvhatever.. doo the dew, but i like pepsi... and i'm drinkin' too much of that lately.... blister in the back of my throat... what is a blister... or sore.... vvhatever that is... y and stuff...

so again although i'm not stressing it, or mayb i'm no not not.. ya'know???
i ain't sayin' shiznets...
unless asked... specifically... ya'know???


c-ya:-)


-j


one more thing... usually after posting i would reread what i wrote and make any changes to make it clear for u readers...( but i dont' have any readers cuz if i did... i KNOW they would follow directions... if u don't know what i'm talkin' about dear reader, then good... i'm not goin' to help u by saying read a recent previous blog... DOH!!!... hahah...)
but instead,,... vvhatever is done is done... kay serra serra... 2 wrongs can make a right... or not... sooooo don't... or u can.... or can't take everything above seriously... or anything.. or u can... but blah.... we all have fickle minds.. and stuff... and stuff... stop now me... stop.. blah ..shower now... and to DAD... shibby is a tight anal word... *thumbs up!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:04 PM [+] ::
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Steeeves A Robot profile:
The moment that you start worrying about what others will think about you because of what you do or how you act is the moment you give up on yourself. To worry about other people's thoughts is a suicide wish in and of itself. Stress will come with worrying which will lead to false identities and therefore leading to people not realizing their full potential in how great and wonderful they can be.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:00 AM [+] ::
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finally, i'm able to take this quiz!!!
freakin' sweet shibby of all shibbiness...
*sitting in chair with arms crossed smirking and nodding... :-j ...*bobbles head



What Finding Nemo Character Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

YAY... finally watched err... found Nemo... Thank ya vety mucho...
and i encourage others to join the search party next time... :-D
oooohhhhhhh.... (<~~hm.... pronounce it like... ummm *thinking... in interest... ur interested... uhhh... like Homer i guess... no not the poet; the Simpson and ... and.... uhhhh... so not like "oooh i learned something new",but like "ooohhhh, hey, that's kewl" kind of ooohh.... get it? or not... BLAH.. haha!!! *thumbs up!!! *scratch head...
ur in awe.... it's not aweSOME... it's aweFULL ... get it, get it??? cuz ur FULL of AWE... AWEFULL... :-D
o k...

one more thing, what's a 'leaser'??? :-j


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:41 AM [+] ::
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GStud777: so what about u man
BATMA17: nothing
BATMA17: i'm just the good friend
GStud777: so thats ur angle
GStud777: jk
BATMA17: yeah, purty much :-D
GStud777: see dude thats y u should join a frat
BATMA17: i c i c
GStud777: girls...girls..girls.girls.......
BATMA17: riiiiiiiight


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:21 PM [+] ::
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HAHAHAHAA YAY!!!
i just watched the episode where Wonder Woman kissed BATMAN on the cheek.... AWWW HOW CUTE CORNY SHIZNETS!!!
*PUKE... but not???!?!?!? i dont' know.... puts a smile on my face :-D*thumbs up!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:33 PM [+] ::
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Which [5 Elements] are you?


Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?


Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?


Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?


Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?


o k...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:40 PM [+] ::
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call me, when u read this... say "Freaks-in-a-mythologies..."
leave a message if i don't pick up...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:04 AM [+] ::
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compliments make me feel good after finishing a job... *ahem...
thanx Nychel... ~~Etai~~ Panda KIDS!!! -OO-
she made me feel like writing a poem...


Adding is simple,
Subtraction�s the same.
Multiplying is lengthy,
And Dividing is the same�


*thumbs up!!!
originally it said: And Dividing is Lame... but the rhythm of Line 3 = Line 4 with the same
BAH... vvhatever... take it as u want it...

ahh crap... i used the same twice!!!
just realized... ahh vvhatever...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:41 PM [+] ::
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