:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Friday, July 25, 2003 ::

O k� the tapes have been lingering for too long� just like on my Apr. 29 blog� I refer to that� I need to get sh� done� I am a lazy sons of an A-hole� I don�t even clean� just my own dishes and room� shooooot� I believe that if u just do ur own crap� everything would be clean� vvhatever� since nobody asks and I have a feel of talking about myself� I�ll just elaborate as much as I can� ya�know???� Hopefully, I won�t lag anymore and stuff like that� ya�know???� okie dokie pokie� elaborate a lot for, hopefully, the long brief (? haha) period of time, in which I�ll be productive� :-/

O k� elaborating, even though it doesn�t ask� I�ll elaborate�

Section 1: GENERAL
1. Name: Jeremy (haha, no one doesn�t really know the full name so I�ll just talk about� w� type about my first name�) my mom named me after an actor she liked at the time� Jeremy Irons� o and� I never hear any good Jeremys, persay� ahhh� too much� I�ll stop elaborating there� haha�� I�ll just say there�s a lot of bad Jeremys� rapists, porn, etc.
2. Nickname(s): vvovv� so many� o k BATMA17(the N was takin� by the comic book character), little J, j (derived from little J), DJ, Double J, Jerms, Jermany, Dork, dorkuss, that guy holding the camera, JJ STOKES (Petrov), u over there, *waves arm to signal to come here, wierdo or weirdo, Sushi (first day of school of Freshman year; 7th period Study Skills; Ryan Perez talking to Augusto and Raul), that kid walking around with a BatCape(SJHS), HoodMan(Mr. Brindle telling me to clean up trash), Sushi BATMA17:the shorter version GarciaParra (GarciaParra - Augusto and others ummmdared me to go up to the cheerleaders and say really loud "GARCIAPARRA!!!" and walk away... the football game was giving out Nomar Garciaparra advertisements and stuff), Ron Jeremy, Jerry (my friend's grandpa or uncle repeating my name), Jermey, Jeremie (o k, now I�m just writing what people think my name is or how they spell it, not vereally nicknames)
3. Feet size: 10-11
4. Do you have a crush: many (so much for elaborating�) wait� do I?� not how many?� what an idjut� vvell, the answer is � of course�
5. Birthday: June 17, 1985 (my sister asked... y dont' they have like a conceive day?... and i said... cuz u dont' know when the actual sperm reached the egg, it takes time... and then... u really wanna know what day ur parents did it?!?!? ahhhh ewwww OHHHH!!!)
6. Age you act: varies
7. Where Do You Live: Long Beach
8. Where you want to live: a nice place
9. Birthplace: Memorial hospital, I believe
10. Favorite Salad Dressing: I suppose ranch�
11. Ever gone skinny dipping?: no� I need to workout, (I say I do and I plan, but I never do it� everyone can, but who does??/)
12. What are you watching?: the computer screen with words appearing after another�
13. Last person you talked to: Mother.
14. Favorite movie: (too many to say)
15. Favorite Book: (too many to recall)
16. Favorite Type of music: (same as 14, 15)
17. Favorite types of cars: not too into cars� just something that looks kewl, who cares about the inside, jk� as long as it doesn�t give me problems�)
18. Favorite Saying: freaks-in-a-mythologies, If I were an animal, I would be a toothpick� (there�s a lot more out there, hehehheh� so much for elaborating�:-P)
19. Favorite Fast Food: (almost all out there)
20. Favorite Ice Cream: currently Mint Chip, Chocolate Chip, or Neapolitan�
21. Favorite Alcoholic Drink: none, I hear European beer is the best though
22. When Do You Go To Sleep: I like the night, and I don�t wanna grow up� so the past few days, I�ve tried to wake up early� I only succeeded yesterday, and I didn�t like it� I guess I�ll just sleep when I�m tired� but if I say that, then It�s all the time� damn lazy procrastination and all�:-/ saddened to the max�
23. Most Embarrassing Moment: I don�t believe it�s THEE most embarrassing Moment,� and when I recall, it shouldn�t have been� but uhhhh� June 17, 1993, I believe (yes, I can cry if I want to)� every year my mom takes the birthday person to church� it was the last week of school and I didn�t really wanna go to church with my mom� I�d rather go with my fellow classmates to school� so the church is located on the school anyway and I cried cuz I didn�t wanna go to church� then as mass was about to begin� the assigned class of the day went to mass� that assigned class was my sister�s class so most of them knew me� I just cried some more� eh, it�s over now�
24. Stupidest Person you know: ME
25. Funniest Person you know: varies�
26. Favorite holiday: Christmas... it�s cold and it�s good time to snuggle up, but I wouldn�t know:-P� no school, no work(supposed to be)�
27. Favorite Food: good food�
28. Favorite Song: vvhatever the trend is� just go with the flow�
29. Favorite Television Show: since high school I rarely watch TV, but good shows to watch r Justice League, CSI, and Amazing Race 4�
30. Favorite Radio Station: normally KROQ, rarely, vereally rarely POWER (if u have a comment on this :-D and I know at LEAST one of u readers do, please tag and state ur crisis of situation of sort or� stuff�), everything else is purty equal�
31. Favorite junk food: eh,� usually chips and soda, pizza, microwave able or conventional oven foods� haha!!! I�m the master at cooking those��
32. Favorite sappy love song: hmmm, let�s keep this BATMAN related� I Never Even Told You � Shirley Walker� is that a love song???
33. Favorite color: BLACK� although it is a combination of all colors, I thunk�
34. Favorite Shoes: eh� vvhatever I bought�

Section 2: THE FUTURE
1. School: California State University of Long Beach� but if I change majors it could be Dominguez hills or� somethin��
2. Where You Want To Live: I believe I�ll never leave Southern California, LA area�
3. How Many Kids Do You Want: 6� to name each on after the letter of BATMAN� HAHA I�ll elaborate here� okokok� B - the first must be a girl� I kinda like the name Brianna or Bethany or somethin� or maybe Barbra??? Eeyuck neBermind� cuz it is a BATMAN character name� � A - if it�s a girl Arianna???�. or a boy Azrael??? Haha� it�s a BATMAN character name� in the dictionary, it�s Asriel which mean help of God� T � MUST be a girl.. I�ve always like the name Talia, another BATMAN character name� if it's a boy, which i PRAY NOT...(vvell pray if i even get with a girl errr woman... ahhh opposite sex... female... o k...) it it's a boy.... a BATMAN character is Timothy/Tim... eh... M � don�t know� another A � vvell, hard to say on the second� if the 2nd was a boy, then this MUST be a girl... then� N � if it�s a girl, Natalia, it�s a Sims name, supposed to be based off of Talia� or maybe Nora� if it�s a boy, Nemo� haha� that IS a kewl name!!!� IF the first child is a boy, hopefully not, or not???� I don�t� know� then Nemo would be first� Nathanial� ahhh vvahtever�. vvhat a freakin� loser eh?� vvell, let�s elaborate more�
I got the idea from my dad�s family� they didn�t plan it but it just happened to be like this� the siblings with him is in this order.. Felicia, Annie, Renato(my dad), Marie, Edith, Roland, Stella�.Now, I don�t� want to spoon food� uhh.. whoops HHAHA� food spoon� wiat�what???.. ohhhhh HAHAHa.. wait.. I Porgot� spoonfeed!!! Whoops� :-P�. ok� I don�t� want to spoonfeed ya�ll cuz I know u have ur brains� I hope or not��
Ok so� my dad and Tito Roland r the only boys� my dad only has one boy, me� Tito Roland isn�t married, I feel freakin� bad for him too� sux a bunch to the max� so since I�m the only one that can carry on the family name, it freakin� sux a bunch� it doesn�t annoy me on a daily basis, but when it comes up (such as now)� it makes me paranoid� I�ll probably be like my Tito Roland :-/ sux and saddened a bunch to the max� *whistle whew��..
4. What Kind Of Job Do You Want: I did ideally want to be a Film Director or ANYTHING at all in the movie busy-ness� I�ve always wanted to be apart of it somehow since Approx. 2nd grade or Kindergarten� BUT now, just this year, I�m having my doubts on it� :-/ practically each family member in my family has some sort of medical, or works at a medical place� and the rest r mechanics in the airport� so� yes, I am the oddball of the family� I like the classics, like a pocket watch� that�s y I bought a BATMAN pocket watch� just like back in the day� 20�s 30�s� Karma? Reincarnations??? Vvhatever� anywhoo�. Maybe somethin� along CSI� working with the hands� I would do those, but I�m afraid of putting the wrong person in jail or have guilt trip or anxiety on messing up a person�s life� I think I think� haha� I think I think about more of the bad things than good things in life� not to be pessimistic, cuz I consider myself more of a realist� I know there r the good things, but I guess I am afraid� probably of not the dark, or paranormal� but afraid of failure� (u can apply that to everything about me�)
5. Wedding song: uhhh, I�ll just have noel and dominic write that� (Turn around� )
6. Song in your head: Eternal Flame�by the Bangles, is it??? Don�t know� it�s hard for me to dl now� I guess� damn it, oh vvell� it was good while it lasted�

Section 3: HAVE YOU EVER
1. Done Drugs: 2nd hand, ya�know??? The smoke gets in the way of the oxygen� It�s bad, I don�t� bother doing those things�
2. Run Away From Home: in a sense yeah� got pissed went out the window� I knew I didn�t have anywhere to go anyway, so I just went back to the front door, just to prove to mother that she best be careful with her mouth and actions� HA!!!
3. Hit A Girl: no, �but if it�s a life and death situation, u gotta do what u gots to do
4. Lied: no :-j
5. Stolen Anything: yeah� they�re free!!!
6. Broken A Bone: no, I can�t...actually, yeah... chicken bones... i heard that bone marrow is good for ya...
7. Cheated On A Test: yeah, but not too good with it� I just take the F� *shrug� and say next time I�ll study, but wait high school�s over� eh, I�ll study for college� we�ll see�
8. Cheated On A Boy/Girlfriend: no� never had the chance to anyway, and I hope I�m not tempted to� my fear is actually having more than 1 girl like me (HA!!!), cuz then if neither understands the situation and makes ME choose� it would hurt either or�. But if they understood, one would get hurt and live on OR they would stand by my side and stuff� uhh losing concentration on my point� vvhaever�
sooo� I guess I�ll choose neither or none(depending on the (low) number), better if we all get hurt, or one gets hurt??? all or none?/? eh� too many ifs and depnds here� but if the girl really underd� wait lost my thought� honest�
9. Gotten Drunk: maybe just a lil faded, but I don�t� drink a lot nor often� I�m the damn driver, and u noel� u should�ve drank at least once before getting ur license� that�s how I thought when I was� peer pressured � into doing it� cuz if u don�t have ur license u won�t drive� but anyhoo� I�m usually the driver and proud of it� and no matter who u r� (Note: get bags for vomit JIK in my BATMA17mobile� I mean� JIC.. Just in case�) I�ll drive ya, if I�m available� it�s just a thank you to all those who drove me even if u didn�t know me� around or to my home� when I didn�t have my license�
10. Been With Two guys/girls At Once: yeah�
11. Been In The Hospital: yeah�
12. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: hmmm� never really cried, but they did tear up� but helping them makes me feel better,� ahhh clich� everyone else probably says that� but vvhatever � I hide in a mask� :-/ but it�s a beacon of light to show that I�m there� ahhh blah� so much to say�
13. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: not really, just closed my eyes, and think and think� I waste water that way, but it�s relaxing� I think that�s my number one place to think, followed close by second for just before sleeping
14. Gone to Church: at least once a week�
15. Never slept during a night: yeah, I miss those dayz� err nights� I believe I started sleeping late around 3-5th grade� and then my peak for really staying awake� or sleep after school then wake up then go back to sleep was 8-11 grade� now adayz� it�sl ike� I don�t� wanna grow up� I kinda answered this question in a previous� uhh thing above� just scroll up�
16. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: yes, my dad got a motorcycle because of the movie Top Gun, and he ONLY ride it around the block� he only road it out in the road no more than a couple of times� my mom was afraid of it and knew it was a waste so she made him sell it� I rode it around the block with him�
17. Been to a camp: camp?� Basketball camp� it was alright, I felt dorky� eh� camping in the woods?� I memember when I was younger once�
18. Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering: yeah, but someone in the group would order somethin��
19. Seen someone die: on TV, other than that� it�s Classified�
20. Gone a week w/out shaving: yeah
21. Didn't wash your hair for a week: maybe at the most 2-3 dayz� but that�s when I had shorter hair�
22. Broken something valuable: I believe so� yeah, my dad's g-tar... that was a mah bad... i wanted to play something, but then... :-( ... maybe that's y don't play ... or not???
23. Thought you were in love: thought�? Infatuation counts?� then yeah, many�
24. Streaked the streets: no
25. Screamed at someone for no reason: yeah, it�s funny� or when in a loud place or a cell phone�
27. Been hurt by a guy/girl you loved: eeyuP, failure is not an option� so if I don�t choose� or try� then I won�t fail, persay� get hurt trying, or not tryin at all� :-P
(hmmmm� it�s almost over now, it's over... i can't escape it... apathy can ease it... apathy will allow me to be free, but ruin me... at what cost� I do not know� fo sho� fo sho??? � fo sho�)
28. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: yeah�hmmm yeah I talked to this one girl, she�d call me, she lived in San Jose� we had those awww online liking blah things� but I was always cautious and skeptical� she was a friend of a friend, that�s how we met online� but anyhoo� it was a turn off when me, her, her friend were talking� and then they tried to talk in numerics, stupid, y in front of me?, but it�s a good think I knew numerics at the time� �I really need to uhhh 51770153 now� and I was like aww man, this sux� but then I thought about it, told her and stuff and she was like sorry� she sounded more sad and then never spoke a lot since� vvhatever� and then!!! Haha stupid online stuff�I was right in the first place� I�m inhuman, Liza confirmed it along with many others� I�m never right� (but u don�t� know till u try)� anywhoo� chris bravo� hrmmm� maybe I shouldn�t have mentioned his name� ehh vvhatever� I won�t go into detail with him� but I warned him � and now they�re both hurt� and Bravo, IF U READ THIS, which I highly doubt cuz we never talk about anything anyway anymore� she still wants her necklace back� send it back to Oregon� uhhh ahhh don�t bother, reader, � if u say, that�s messed up� pssshh.. vvhatever it�s no big of concern with ya� but eh� I said it�

Section 4: WHICH IS BETTER
1. Coke Or Pepsi: Pepsi
2. Cats Or Dogs: cats� but babies r always the �here�s a word� ADORABLE (too many peeps say cute toooooo much)� so kittens and puppies r a plus but when they get older� I tend to see their adorableness� eh� and I�ll have a pet, if I�m not the one taking care of it�s crap� literally� everything else about �em es kewlio�
3. DVDs or VHS: DVD, just cuz of the special features� and the chapter selections, but I feel bad, cuz VHS is being extinct :-/ � I like keeping memories� it�s hard for me to throw away �trash� as others would say�
4. Deaf Or Blind: hmmm after much thought� ahhh neBermind� hard to choose�
5. Pools Or Hot Tubs: eh� no preference� which reminds me� the only thing close to swimming I�ve had is my bathtub, but just as relaxing with the music and all� the last time I swam was the Philippines and before that was the Footloos�. errr� Bible Study�
6. Television Or Radio: eh� I like visuals� I�m a visual learner� Television.. TV�
7. CDs Or MP3's: eh� since MP3s will most likely be limited from now on� CDs
8. Apples or oranges: apples�

Section 5: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
1. Took a shower: before blogging�
2. Cried: vvell, in the dream I had last night� it was like whoa I was crying so much tears and � uh kulangot??? Eh� it was a good cry� it�s like all the crying I�ve been holding just went out� so much crying that u know when u gasp for air� it�s hard cuz u wanna put out than put in� but that was a dream� I teared up from waking up from it� but actual tears coming down� eh� couple years ago� when I couldn�t take my sister�s teasing anymore, even though it was a little thing, but little things add up,� ya�know???, but yeah, I�m kinda sad that I can�t cry anymore� it�s hard for me to cry� cuz before I also made a vow not to cry unless it�s really meaningful� I guess I haven�t cried recently, cuz it wasn�t the meaningful� *shrug�
3. Watched a Disney movie: Pirate of the Carribeam � Curse of the Black Pearl� oh and that other movie The Haunted Mansion the music in the preview IS the music of BATMAN RETURNS� listen�
vvell� when u get the chance�
4. Given/gotten a hug: as always� with good friends�
5. Been to the movies: yuP, yuP� my sister and her BF r still getting used to paying for movies�

Section 6: WHAT IS
1. Your Fondest Memory Of This year: :-/ undecided really� the year�s not over� thus far�
2. Your Most Prized Possession: anything BATMAN I suppose� eh� that�s the closest thing of me being considered Materialistic or� ummm what�s the �disease� of buying too much� uhhmmm�..Influenza??? nono haha� that�s a medical term� Porgot what it�s called�
actually� friends r always the best� cuz u don�t see them everyday unlike annoying family members, and u make every moment count, I suppose�
3. The Thing That Makes You The Happiest: a good, lasting conversation
4. Your Favorite Food For Breakfast: vvell-cooked hashbrown� with other stuff� but hashbrown�
5. Your Favorite Food For Dinner: eh,� vvhatevers� good food�
6. Your Favorite Slow Song: anything!!! Cuz I can DANCE to slow songs� but if I only had a partner worth holding to� *shrug
7. Your Ideal BF/GF: not BF, � ok so� ideally, she�d understand me, preferably without asking, but es kewl if she�d ask cuz she wants to know� she has to adapt to me� I only say this, cuz I adapt to SO MANY other things� I guess it�s hard to understand, but adapting to me would help a bit� or a lot� if she can put up with me and my antics, vvell hey, vvhatever goes ya�know???�

Section 7: WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
1. Bill Clinton: the president in which I THINK he wasn�t that bad, cuz I think he lowered taxes a bit, but everyone else says he sucked, not because of the scandal� and stuff�. In one quote �in years time, he�ll be considered one of the worst presidents ever�� *shrug� something to the same mistake as Thomas Jefferson� cuz they both lowered funding for military, which saved money, but at the same time� provoked attacks on US� ex. War of 1812 and 9/11 (I don�t� see(understand) how 9/11 is the FIRST attack on US soil� eh� vvhatever)
2. Love at First Sight: eh, there has to be some truth to it in order for it to be said�
3. Abortion: pro-choice� but u BEST think about adoption at least!!!� I mean, come on� no questions asked at hospitals� just give it to them�
4. Teenage smoking: peer pressured people that have no will power� I say it�s bad, but it�s their own will power� who am I to say something??? yeah, I�ll say something, but if they�ll just listen� cuz I�m always right� :-P� ummmm one more thing� lemme think� I Porgot dammit�. Damn� shooooot� o yeah!!! (�evil triumphs when good people do nothing��)
5. Pot: with plants� or other artsy stuff, ya�know???
6. Eating disorders: yeah, some people use it to escape, such as alcohal and sleeping a lot a lot� but it�s a temporary solution�:-/
7. Rap: not too into it� bopping my head is all u�ll see me dancing� except� a Billy Joel song� we�re I�ll go crazy� although it may not be considered dancing� more like a .ummm� aneurism� or� ummm a tick� or that other word� oh SPASM ATTACK�. Honest!!! That�s y I don�t� freakin� or can�t freakin� dance� I can�t move in rhthym to music� ehh�. I can�t shake my thang, naw wha ah mean?
8. Marilyn Manson: entiresting, very�
9. Premarital sex: as long as ur together forever � Semper Fi (Always Faithful�)
10. Suicide: Vincent Van Gogh� �this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.� hmmmm�. *rubs chin� hope they thought it through� but overall, no� *scratches neck�
11. Drinking: didn�t I answer this before???... o wait no I didn�t last time it was mentioned, it was about drinking before my license� I�ll tell when I realized I was somewhat faded� but this was like a year or 2 ago� ummm someone asked me a question� I had gum in my mouth and was wearing my glasses and holding the drink� I meant to put down the drink, take out the gum, and answer the question� instead� I took off my glasses, spat out the gum (more like fell out of my mouth), and drank while answering the question� :-P� I just finished that bottle and that�s aboot it�
12. Death: Evil backwards is to livE� get it get it?� so does that mean,� evil hides in living� or if u weren�t to live, that�s evil� which goes to the suicide thing� vvhatever� my fear is dying stupidly� ya�know???� ummm overall� I�m not goni� to die� vvell, yeah I will, but I hope and wish for a productive lifestyle� or, I dont� know, everyone will know my name and stuff� die with an impact� or die without anyone knowing I have an impact on them� eh� who do I impact?� compliments greatly r appreciated, but PLEASE don�t� say it cuz I appreciate it, say it cuz u mean it A LOT, not a lil� I guess� eh�
babies and other die because I guess there purpose is to show those living what not to do� by example and consequence� blah blah blah�
DEATH� always wondered� I�ve always thought of it, ur mind and thoughts wonder� it�s just ur eyes r forever closed� just like ur laying in bed before u sleep� ur mind will wonder forever�.hmmmm
So if u go to heaven� can u have any tempting wishes u want� or do u still have to do this obligations stuff (sounds lazy, eh?� mah bad)�. Eh� vvhatever works out for the best� eh??? *exhale�

everything here is literal� but there�s always the ifs and depends� :-/
there's also the fact that i can't type everything that should or want or need to say...
as always, the thoughts work faster than my bod...
(*NOTE: this isn�t the blog entry that�s meant to be the long one� cuz this has like an outline and stuff� ehhh let�s see if I still write that entry I�ve been talkin� about, then maybe u�ll get what I�m talkin� about� or not�)

o and one more thing� ( haha anyone watch Jackie Chan Adventures???)
I WANT to remind myelf and others on this July 13 post�

Steeeves A Robot profile:
The moment that you start worrying about what others will think about you because of what you do or how you act is the moment you give up on yourself. To worry about other people's thoughts is a suicide wish in and of itself. Stress will come with worrying which will lead to false identities and therefore leading to people not realizing their full potential in how great and wonderful they can be.


c-ya:-)


-j

hmmm false identities� if I�m not BATMA17, then who am I???� I shall keep the name, but will always question it� or not� :-P*shrug�


c-ya:-)


-j

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