:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Tuesday, August 19, 2003 ::

(yeah, i forgot to post this before i slept... wahwahwah...
*looks corner of eye...)


shhhh...


ummmmm i dont' wanna make u think and alll but eh... just to make note... i don't know where the line is drawn ... whether i'm crossing the line and becoming a pryor... but *rubs chin :-\ *thunks everyday, i think of the quote this fairy tale book... it's the moral of the story... PLEASE ALL, AND U PLEASE NONE... and everyday, i,... u don't have to believe me or not... (this is where a degree of trust would come to play), but i try and prove that quote wrong everyday and i think i can along with the IFs and the DEPENDs...i believe u can please all, but not at the same time...
balance... it's always there somewhere when going one way... the other goes another hmmm... how to explain... i'm REALLY trying not to put into analogies, cuz its like being overused a lot... i guess.. but ummmm
*thunks
ok being selfish isssss when u have MORE THAN ENOUGH agreed? *scratches neck... well if u don't have more than enough... u can't sound selfish, now can ya??? soooo let's say u have this amount of happy fuel in u... wahwahwah... when u have more than enough happy fuel then u can share the happy fuel with others... wahwahwah...
sooo... if u don't have enough happy fuel in ya... ur goin' to have to ration that happy fuel with others... and sinced its rationed it can only go so far... so might as well fill urself up, before helping to fill others... :-\ sure... those who r waiting for the happy fuel will be empty for quite a period of time... but maybe that period of time is worth it with what u'll bring to them in the future enough happy fuel in one sitting... and then everyone is happy
this is where time kicks in... it takes time to fill up... so yeah, others will be runnin' on empty... for only a period of time... hopefully.... ahem... anything can happen such as accidents... but it won't cuz i'm there to prevent them, so u dont' have to worry about unless ur worrying about it now cuz i'm talkin' about well then mahz bad on me... wahwahwah... ok... grrr... corny shiznets...
others say they don't like my "lectures"... but i dont' consider them lectures... just.... considerations to consider... i'm just reminding(which does get annoying but in the end it's good to know... and to stop the annoyance it might as well be dealt with and satisfied with) i'm just reminding people and stuff.... errr losing thought process hold on... i don't control people's actions... persuastion? coercian?(<~~~wahwahwah) :-\ maybe, but u can still tell me to shut up u have every right to... so i'll keep goin'... i'm not forcin' ya to read... :-( sorry!!! again... ok
friends...: variations of friends... can't touch all topics...but hey... i'll do what i can:-? *rubs chin... MY DEFINITION OF A FRIEND... is no matter what happens they'll be with ya and understand... even if it hurts... and if it hurts,... they'll vent and stuff... somethin' like that... i don't put any adjectives infront of friend... best friend true friend loyal friend... i, personllay, dont do that... it's like ranking them, if they or others were to find out, they'd feel left out or unmatched... okokokok... *scratches left ear *gulp...hmmmm *rubs chin... HONESTY AND TRUST IS GREAT... but... *scratches head... some secrets r just left to be??? y??? y does it have to be that way... vvell, for starters... appetizers... wahwahwah... if u know everything, what's the point of staying in that area... u know everything... it gets boring... use it when u need it, and u won't need it ALL the time... so, to a degree, secrets r kewl... but u don't HAVE to say every single thing... but if it's bothering u so much... it's gotta come out sooner or later... when??? when's a good time to say it... or show it... yeah, that's my problem... id ont' show shiznets... u'all think i'm showin' u??? but i'm not showin' me... (ok, shut up brain, ur giving off too much... errr daporewonwon) okokok... so if ur goin' to hide something... vvell, 100% honesty and TRUST isn't there, now is it... but that's ok... as long as u have a high percentage, then it's allll good... balance...rememba??? i dont' know if u consider me any (adj. - pos./neg.) friend... but i'm doing somethin' which i feel will be right in the end... it may not be right during... but in the end... it's right... look u can't control falling who u like or not like and stuff... agreed to the max... that applies to everyone... and things.... err spark... when it goes both ways...:-\... (except that reciprical shiznets... i personally think its a blah way to start off... but if it works out then great...) and those who get the unfavorable side... or feel they're like cast into the shadow... vvell... i, and every other friend, will be there to pull em out... they feel like they're cast in the shadow, but it doesn't mean u, or any other person, did the pushing and shoving... they're not in the shadow... ur not in the shadow... the shadow hides u... a safe haven... not a place to be a lone... it's a rock, a shell, a home... a sense of safeness... SOLITUDE... not Lonliness... big diff if ya'all didn't know... but don't stay there forever... ya'know??? U CAN CONTROL EVERYTHING, but it wouldn't feel right that's y some things r just meant to be... balance... things that can... and cannot control...to choose whether to control, or let it be freely everytime i say balance... i have deeper appreciation to Shakespeare's quote TO BE OR NOT TO Be... honestly, in the past... i'm like What the freaks-in-a-mythologies... *raises hands to the sides what's so special about that quote... and in my eyes.... my eyes of the beholder... and i'm sure there's other perspectives... and i'm always waiting for it... to be proven wrong and all... and or other POVs... now i c what that quote means to me and how III apply it to what i c don't take my word for it, try it!!! (<~~wahwahwah,... Reading Rainbow)... like i says and always will say: i'm just putting my thoughts to open others' thoughts... and as am i doing the same for them... blah blah blah what am i talkin'about? maybe i have a meaning, maybe i'm not... MAYBE, u'll find somethin' deeper than what i've thought... MAYbe u dont' understand what i mean... MAYBEMAYBEBABYwahwahwah... or u think u do understand, but u don't, but at least u've thought of something comprehending to ur own brain... wwahwahwah ... maybe we think we're on the same tracks... but they're different and MAYBE they're goin' to the same direction... or not... wahwahwah again... *scratches back... yeah yeah... i dont' always get out everything 100%, but yeah vvhatever... back to me... wahwahwah... i mean that was me... hahahah... but back to .... "funny" me??? i dont' think it's funny, but hey, if someone's laughing and has a smile on their face without me trying to make them laugh and having a smile on their face...then i'm happy (that was a freakin' long sentence i type)... *cracks knuckles... okok... when i say i'm funny i'm probably not... so i'll jsut stop right there... questions, comments, advice, other, etc... all acceptable... even if it goes against me...
wahwahwah...

sooooo yeah... i most likely will start this class Aug. 25 2-6PM.... so let's party hardy afterwards... SARS(<~~refer to Aug. 12 blog to find meaning)...
HI SEOUL!!! ... SHINE WE ARE... WAHWAHWAH...
EVERY HEART in ENGLISH almost makes me tear up... almost... read it!!! %^_^% *thumbs up to the max!!! wahwahwah...


c-ya:-)


-j

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