:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Friday, October 31, 2003 ::

i turned into the hulk last night... but dammit... i don't wanna hurt anyone... but if i could i would... this whole situation happened after i blogged last night too... it was like forshadowing... anyhoo, i feel like Lex Luthor... destined to be bad... but yeah... lots of blogworthy stuff last night... but i dont' feel like typing it all out... only that... hmmm... does everyone need to know what life is? in other words, my thoughts on situations... :-/ *shrug... yeah... i wish i could go to China, i think... where u can go pay for a room and smash things up... yeah, i exploded...
o and i was thunkin'... hmmm, maybe i could turn all the 7 deadly sins into virtures somehow... somehow... just thunk aboot it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:07 AM [+] ::
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i'm not pleased, not pleased at all...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:02 PM [+] ::
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i won't go in detail about the dream i'll just list the events...
dead/skinned/meaty dolphins...
catching fish...
rug over water...
some can walk on it flawlessly...
others sink and swim across...
2 people commenting on me and the person i'm with...
couldn't fill the bags in time so we had someone give us the fish to fill up our bags...
he walks across and gives the bag... i sink and swim, kinda scared, acroos and give my bag...
i talk to a jack nicholson look alike... he was tryin' to sell me checks... the whole idea was to give other people checks and give the profits back to him... but i asked how long do i have... his face lost interest and said 10 min. and i'm like ha! i got ur scandalous plot... anyhoo...
then people in formal clothering were walking out...
i think i was looking for my friend...(if he was a friend... maybe he was God or the Devil or some other thing being)... but there was someone else... no face or appearance... like only a silhouette... ummm then walking around the partyish thing... like the rooms were like Eyes Wide Shut, but no sex... just everyone in formal... no, it's more like the picture of the formal scene in my BATMAN: War on Crime book in my car... ok so... then there was a couple with problems... and there was a bearded guy with hair like josh grobAn who was taunting the guy... the couple leave and i follow them up the stairs just like the stairs in Queen Mary where from the dancing/arcade area to the outside... only the starcase was longer... the bearded guy sits down amused and somewhat out of breath and i tell him something like... 'how do u know those 2 can't make it together?... u dont' know till they try' and other 'lecturish' thing... and the guy was 'yeah well vvhatever' ... then i leave the party and i see this hot/cute/sexified girl... and clearly she was older than me... and since i knew i was dreaming... (yeah, when i dream... i usually know i'm dreaming), i'm like yeah, vvhatever i think comes true... so don't hold back... so yeah... so the slick guy i am goes up to her and chit chat... she was heading towards her parked car which was parked in a mixture of disneyland and UCI parking structure... and the elevator like queen mary i suppose... so i chit chat with her and i forgot how i asked her age... i think i said... so ur like 20 right???... and she said no, i'm 27... then i'm like kewl... and using my mathematical skills i asked "u don't mind anyone 9 yrs younger right?" and she just made a sound of amusement... but i kept following her to the elevator... (i just thought of this: 27 - 18 = 9... yes, equals nine... wahwahwah) ... so then we enter and go down the elevator... and while going' down the elevator... okokok how explicit should i be, cuz it wasn't that long.... but it was nice... eh, if ur that interested just ask... cuz... blah blah blah... it felt silky smooth... it was... niiice... and then out the elevator and towards her car... a jeep similar to, but not, ralph moreno's... seems bigger and roomier... in the parking structure, there were remnants of people there... but the parking structure was relatively empty... but that presense was still there... *shrug... so she makes a phone call saying she'll be wherever she'll be late... and i'm like... yeah... 15 min.... or 30 min... 0o0o0o... *shrug... shut up, it's my dream... take it as u want it... so then... she goes to her car and who do i see/who walks up to me??? ODERLIN!!!... Jeffrey Oderlin... HAHAHA... so we have our small talk and he has that laugh and i laugh at his laugh... and we laugh holdin' our fat guy stomachs... then us 4: me, the woman, Odie, and the presense go back in the elevator... me and the girl leave the elevator and heads towards the bathroom... hard to choose... the men's room or the women's room... but at this point i knew i was waking up so i was like dammit... so i fast fowarded my dream... well... we get to the doors of the restrooms, but the scene changes like the ballroom of aknee's debut and only neil playing the bass and rockin' all over the floor... so the girl was gone now... and then...
something about CGI and another girl... only bigger and i think Odie was still with me... or not... soooo then i woke up ... oh vvell...
yeah... watched Approx. 3 min. on Maury about a 42 year woman marrying her son's best friend who is 14... cuz in Alabama, it's legal to get married at the age of 14... they were dating since he was 13... then i had to leave... my thought of it was.... that's *scratches head... nice... vvhatever ya'know... they're happy... blah blah blah... so i go and pick up the dry cleaners... and then while trying to back up from my parking spot... a honda accord silver stops behind me so i'm stuck... and a couple... black man, latina woman... kiss long good-byes... 3 times... when i think they're done... they're not... and then i put my hand in the back of the passenger seat head rest and tap my fingers... watching them on my rear view mirror... i was thinkin' of HONKING A LOUD ONE... and how funny it would've been... but the guy saw me and then they drove and parked... but that's all.... :-`
ttyl... and stuffall that jazz...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:22 PM [+] ::
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i don't wanna be like my sisters... it seems that their ONLY friends is their boyfriends... seems like it... they have friends elsewhere but i know they don't hang out with each other on monthly basis... cuz they're satisfied with their BFs... they're kewl fellas... and all that jazz... BUT it seems that if they were to break up... who would they turn to???... *shrug... that's my POV... i know i'm missin' somethi'n blah blah blah... so what do u do... daily...? what else... y am i sucker for the ones who r sad...? easy,...girls r to bad boys as i am to sad girls... the girls want to help the bad boys.... i want to make the sad girls happy... but y be with someone with problems...? ok, so if u get with them, and make them happy... then what... now what?... what then?... i'm a boring ... really... i believe i am... and if i believe it... i probably am... honest... i really thought about it...hmmm... ... what else... suuure i am bum... in ur eyes... haha... but i am my own bum... and blah ...getti'n weird......................................... fooooog....fog... fog is soooo kewl... its' scurry....hmmm.... there should be rain... now a flood... to drown and quench and extinguish the fire... yeah... hmmm... dang... my cousin was just kidding and all, but now it's bothering me... he told me... 'dang j,... u better have babie and they better be boys so u can continue ur jemenez family name...' (yes, he mispelled my last name...) ... so yeah, if u never read my previous... or older posts... i'll tell u that i'm the only boy to bring down the family name... my dad's dad... has a brother... but hmmmm... i don't know... did he have children... i think he did... vvhatever(wait, i dont' even know what other siblings my lolo has...) ... well my dad's dad has 2 boys... my dad and his bro... my uncle... isn't married and most of the family thinks he's gay anway... mid 30s i think... and there's my dad... who's had many GFs in his day,... haha... and my petite smart mom whom is innocent and my dad is her one, first, only, and last... and from them 2 gave out 3 children... me, and my 2 older sisters... wahwahwah... they meant to have 2... one boy and one girl... but the first 2 were girls... oh vvell... so they say i'm a 'suprise'... well tisn't that grand, eh???,... blah blah blah... tha'ts not bothering me,... wahwahwah... well yeah... what else what else... o ok... we want what we don't have... and when/if we get it... then what?... people hear what they want to hear... nonono... that's not what i'm talkin' aboot.... hmmmm... people want people who don't want them back... which isn't bad,... the other isn't just feelin' it... and alll that jazz......... when gaining one... somethin' is gonna go... some examples that come to mind (dang laptop... freakin' Fn and numlock)... anywhoo... there examples that come to mind... but don't feel like sayin' it and stuff and stuff and stuff blah blah blah *sigh....hmmmm:-`....... change change change...i hmmm i can't...or too lazy to... sux eh... i do not know fo sho fo sho... people want to hear certain words... from certain people... u know a way to not like someone??? make a simple thing u can tolerate... and don't tolerate it... like like like... if they have a habit which is simple to live with... force urself to not tolerate it... and it's easy...yeah... i dont' like those who can dance... wahwahwah... i mean... like if i can't dance... y dance with someone who likes to dance... i don't wanna constrict them... so simple... hehehehe ....... yuP yuP yuP... it's hot in here... and the fan is on... i'm not saying what imean... or not.... *whistlessesessesseseseseseee... :-` yeah sooooo continue... yeah i'll continue... na.. yeah... i read that it doesn't just happen, u have to make it happen... y not risk it... if u want it badly enough... i guess i don't want it that bad... heheheheh... yeeeeah ... how sad... no it' snot... i'm just typing here... i'm nbot different than anybody... it's just dealt different and stuff... it's ok to feel... but how to act... hmmmmm... what was i just hinkin'???... dang it... y can't my thoughts just type... my hands can't interpret fast enough.......n*scratches nose........*yawwwwn.... sahmmmm ummm rereading... yeah... feelings unknown... that's life... things r fickle... andbecause my mind... i can and will always doubt... but i don't have toact upon it... i dont' know stufffffff... u want something, but it doesn't want u... u offer to give it... but they don't want it from u... understandable... what other situations... oh yeah... there's always more than one... yeaaah... more than one... options.... nahhh.. yeah... pros and cons... but not... cuz they have experiencccce... hehehee bhohoho...ummm... expereince and movies... and stories....and imagination...hmmm one wonders what the heck do i do everyday... hmmmm.... what else whatelse... ummm yeah... i'm not goin' to rebound... once the ball is out of my hands i'm not goin' after it... frea kit... the hardest part of doing is starting... and u know.. i'mafraid i'll be so apathetic that i'll say freak it and go for it... and then after i'm finished... i'll feel ill regret what i say... and not only wiould it hurt me,,... it would hurt them... o k ok ok ok ... *rubs nose... my back still hurts... that's so not kewl anymore... it'll happen when it happens... hmmm is this all i think about... no ... no it's not... it's most of the time.. but it's not... yeah... playing games... that keeps minds off things... i wanna try that mafia game it looks fun... but who has the time to play with that... i don't know anymore bruce... it's hot... i'm like wha... hey, ever heard a recording of ur voice???... do u think that's ur voice??? do u think u sound like that???... i don't like the way i sound... it doesn't like me... really... in a recording i sound like a geek... do really??? freakin' crap yos and yoettes... i sound like nerd... like an actually nerd... do readlly sound like that... dang that sux... hmmmmm i'm boring... really... maybe i'mbipolar... nah.... maybe i'm not that extreme... or not not... doobie doobie dooooo... i read that the adult age is moving up... and adolescent age is longer... it used to be 21 when people see u as an adult... in general... not law wise... but supposed wise... ummm like back way back in the day... 15-16-17... u'd have kids and become adults and work with the familia... *scratches nose... 10-15 years ago... its like 21 when people start gettin' married and lookin' for stable jobs... now... it said that adolescents r until their 25... cuz their all mature by then... marriages and births r becoming later in life like in the 30s... and it's somewhat better that way.. .cuz by then... it's possible to find the right job... dag job... i dont' know what i wanna be anymore... senior year screwed me... freakin' BraveVision screwed me over... not the people... the name itself... i'm lost... and all... i dont'knowmath anymore... i don't write essays anymore... i don't want a job which needs reports... HA!!! where am i goin' to find that... like like like... assembly line... just specify and expertly work in one area... but in my terms... become a CSI... yeeeeeah... just analyze the body and solve cases... but no reports... wahwahwah... but yeah... realistically... i'm afraid to write something which would convict me or piss off the good and bad guyz..... my neck hurts... hmmm.... yeah ok... so wow... old... wow... i'm 18... remember being 13... supposedly an unlucky number... wahwahwawh... through the yeeeeears and stuff.. how is eberyvody??? *scratches mouth... what else... *scratches head... :-1


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:31 PM [+] ::
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happy 1 year day thing for my blog... YAY!!!


in other news: "that's life"
want someone who wants u
but of course... concentrate on urself... as in, GO TO SCHOOL and BE PRODUCTIVE in others' eyes...
just cuz i'm not in school doesn't mean i'm not productive... ya'know? and vice versa that jazz

what else??? Porgot... oh vvell... oh and for the second time in a row... i think... or from my records... i have pulled another all-nighter... last year i was in depressed mode, that's y i stayed up all night and started this blog... u know, succambed like almost everyonline else... and this year... i stayed up just chillin' with Dominic, Edwardo, and Edwardo's 'geek' Berkeley friends/club thing... o, and natalie... haha... es alllll good... it ended on a "that's life" note... y hate?... if u gotta hate, back up ur reasoning... y feel?... damn freaks-in-a-mythology of a brain and stuff... yeah... feelings r unseen... only felt... internally individually... expressed miscommunicatingingingly sometimes...

Mafia sounds like a fun game... let's play!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:04 PM [+] ::
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What is Love?
by Haddaway

What is love
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
What is love
Yeah
Oh I don't know
why you're not fair
I give you my love
but you don't care
So what is right
and what is wrong
gimme a sign
(chorus x2)
uoh oh...
Oh I don't know
what can I do
what else can I say
it's up to you
I know we're one
just me and you
I can't go on
(chorus x2)
uoh oh..
What is love
What is love
What is love
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
I want no other
No other love
This is your life
our time
When we are together
I need you forever
Is it love
(chorus x2)
uoh oh..
(chorus x2)
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
what is love?!...



c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:22 PM [+] ::
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You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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kewl kewl... *yawn...
and then...


You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

hey!!! it's Shiva from FFVIII... kewl kewl...
there were other possible answers that sounded kewlio (and i liked better), but these r the two i got first...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:52 AM [+] ::
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i've said it before, and i'll say it again (even if i never do it, and say i'll do it later)...
i gotta oregonize my shItzer... okokok... eh... i gots to do what i gots to do... yeah...

"There are no perfect men in this world only perfect intentions."

"Nobility's not a birthright. It's defined by one's actions."

- Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:25 AM [+] ::
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Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

how kewl!!! i didn't even notice the words were messed up until after the first comma... crazy shiznets... entiresting, very...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:42 PM [+] ::
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�If you don�t start opening up to people, you will always be alone.� - Lana Lang
(OH!!! damn it...)

�I may not have a choice.� - Clark Kent
(YES!!! Good answer!!!)

�There�s always a choice.� - Lana Lang
(AWWWW dammit...)
DIABOLICAL SCHEME!!! *clench fist in air


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:59 PM [+] ::
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freakin' awesome... i mean... awefull...
on CSI: Miami... LT. Horatio somethin' aka actor's name David Caruso did the Hero's Walk...
*thumbs up to the max...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:01 PM [+] ::
...

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im hungryblabla (11:43:48 AM): ur a fagot
YoMama 0274 (11:43:56 AM): yea this penis that u reckoned u'd seen
(11:44:06 AM) YoMama 0274 has left the room.
im hungryblabla (11:44:22 AM): ok captain
im hungryblabla (11:44:27 AM): what part of cal
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Captain Hybrid (11:44:39 AM): yeah
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im hungryblabla (11:46:25 AM): tricked u
Captain Hybrid (11:46:34 AM): but which one?
im hungryblabla (11:46:40 AM): u dont know him
Captain Hybrid (11:46:48 AM): ur right, i know both of them
im hungryblabla (11:46:53 AM): fuck u
Captain Hybrid (11:46:56 AM): i shall
Captain Hybrid (11:47:02 AM): not here... though
im hungryblabla (11:47:09 AM): suck my dick
(11:47:10 AM) xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx has entered the room.
im hungryblabla (11:47:11 AM): ur gay
im hungryblabla (11:47:14 AM): u dont know him
Captain Hybrid (11:47:20 AM): i know THEM!!!
im hungryblabla (11:47:27 AM): ur just makin up shit
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:47:27 AM): well hey
im hungryblabla (11:47:31 AM): no u dont!
im hungryblabla (11:47:44 AM): thats nt evan a person u ass hole
im hungryblabla (11:48:09 AM): i will beat the shit out of u
(11:48:11 AM) im hungryblabla has left the room.
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:48:26 AM): fuck
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:48:27 AM): haha
Captain Hybrid (11:48:49 AM): huh?
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:04 AM): what was that all about
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:05 AM): ?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:07 AM): *shrug
Captain Hybrid (11:49:14 AM): do u know him/her?
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:25 AM): yes
Captain Hybrid (11:49:27 AM): o ok
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:29 AM): do you?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:30 AM): kewl kewl
Captain Hybrid (11:49:32 AM): noPe
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:40 AM): so hes yelin at u for the hell of it?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:49 AM): well... yeah... he's tryin' to f--- up my mind, but ...
Captain Hybrid (11:49:50 AM): *Shrug
Captain Hybrid (11:49:51 AM): haha
Captain Hybrid (11:49:57 AM): vvhatever
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:01 AM): haha
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:03 AM): yeah im out
Captain Hybrid (11:50:05 AM): k
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:05 AM): later
Captain Hybrid (11:50:07 AM): c-ya:-)
(11:50:09 AM) xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx has left the room.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:53 AM [+] ::
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my back hurts... like a lot... :-/
since Friday night...
first time, i must admit...
mAssAge anyone???... female preferably... :-P...equals nine...
okokok...
g'night...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:24 AM [+] ::
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You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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haha, xanga is currently down...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:38 AM [+] ::
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LW~~! (9:51:28 AM): so THATS what all those tapes wereon ur chair
LW~~! (9:51:32 AM): ohhhHhHh
BATMA17 (9:51:34 AM): hahahha
BATMA17 (9:51:36 AM): FOOT LOOSE
BATMA17 (9:51:38 AM): fetish!!!
LW~~! (9:51:40 AM): uhuh
BATMA17 (9:51:40 AM): hahahhaa
BATMA17 (9:51:41 AM): jhahhahahha
BATMA17 (9:51:43 AM): hahahhahah
BATMA17 (9:51:45 AM): footloose
BATMA17 (9:51:47 AM): hahahhaha
LW~~! (9:51:51 AM): i get it *nudge
BATMA17 (9:51:51 AM): that can be a porn title
BATMA17 (9:51:54 AM): HAHAHHAHA
LW~~! (9:51:56 AM): foot LOOSE!
LW~~! (9:51:58 AM): hahahahhahaha
BATMA17 (9:52:14 AM): or a masochist porn title :-/
LW~~! (9:52:19 AM): footloose i get it i get it *nudge nudge
BATMA17 (9:52:20 AM): *shivers
LW~~! (9:52:24 AM): eww
LW~~! (9:52:25 AM): haha
BATMA17 (9:02:10 AM): stop nudging; that hurts... jk... or not??? or ... it's not hard enough...or not... ok i'll stop... or not...


HERE's UR FREAKIN' POST PEOPLE!!! dang, y u'll gotta ask if i posted yet... check the freakin' website!!! HAHAHAHA... no i'm not mad or annoyed... i just think it's funny that u'd ask when the website is just a couple clicks or keyboard types away... vvhatever... we're all lazy to the max, eh??? wahwahwah...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:57 AM [+] ::
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