:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Monday, October 27, 2003 ::

i don't wanna be like my sisters... it seems that their ONLY friends is their boyfriends... seems like it... they have friends elsewhere but i know they don't hang out with each other on monthly basis... cuz they're satisfied with their BFs... they're kewl fellas... and all that jazz... BUT it seems that if they were to break up... who would they turn to???... *shrug... that's my POV... i know i'm missin' somethi'n blah blah blah... so what do u do... daily...? what else... y am i sucker for the ones who r sad...? easy,...girls r to bad boys as i am to sad girls... the girls want to help the bad boys.... i want to make the sad girls happy... but y be with someone with problems...? ok, so if u get with them, and make them happy... then what... now what?... what then?... i'm a boring ... really... i believe i am... and if i believe it... i probably am... honest... i really thought about it...hmmm... ... what else... suuure i am bum... in ur eyes... haha... but i am my own bum... and blah ...getti'n weird......................................... fooooog....fog... fog is soooo kewl... its' scurry....hmmm.... there should be rain... now a flood... to drown and quench and extinguish the fire... yeah... hmmm... dang... my cousin was just kidding and all, but now it's bothering me... he told me... 'dang j,... u better have babie and they better be boys so u can continue ur jemenez family name...' (yes, he mispelled my last name...) ... so yeah, if u never read my previous... or older posts... i'll tell u that i'm the only boy to bring down the family name... my dad's dad... has a brother... but hmmmm... i don't know... did he have children... i think he did... vvhatever(wait, i dont' even know what other siblings my lolo has...) ... well my dad's dad has 2 boys... my dad and his bro... my uncle... isn't married and most of the family thinks he's gay anway... mid 30s i think... and there's my dad... who's had many GFs in his day,... haha... and my petite smart mom whom is innocent and my dad is her one, first, only, and last... and from them 2 gave out 3 children... me, and my 2 older sisters... wahwahwah... they meant to have 2... one boy and one girl... but the first 2 were girls... oh vvell... so they say i'm a 'suprise'... well tisn't that grand, eh???,... blah blah blah... tha'ts not bothering me,... wahwahwah... well yeah... what else what else... o ok... we want what we don't have... and when/if we get it... then what?... people hear what they want to hear... nonono... that's not what i'm talkin' aboot.... hmmmm... people want people who don't want them back... which isn't bad,... the other isn't just feelin' it... and alll that jazz......... when gaining one... somethin' is gonna go... some examples that come to mind (dang laptop... freakin' Fn and numlock)... anywhoo... there examples that come to mind... but don't feel like sayin' it and stuff and stuff and stuff blah blah blah *sigh....hmmmm:-`....... change change change...i hmmm i can't...or too lazy to... sux eh... i do not know fo sho fo sho... people want to hear certain words... from certain people... u know a way to not like someone??? make a simple thing u can tolerate... and don't tolerate it... like like like... if they have a habit which is simple to live with... force urself to not tolerate it... and it's easy...yeah... i dont' like those who can dance... wahwahwah... i mean... like if i can't dance... y dance with someone who likes to dance... i don't wanna constrict them... so simple... hehehehe ....... yuP yuP yuP... it's hot in here... and the fan is on... i'm not saying what imean... or not.... *whistlessesessesseseseseseee... :-` yeah sooooo continue... yeah i'll continue... na.. yeah... i read that it doesn't just happen, u have to make it happen... y not risk it... if u want it badly enough... i guess i don't want it that bad... heheheheh... yeeeeah ... how sad... no it' snot... i'm just typing here... i'm nbot different than anybody... it's just dealt different and stuff... it's ok to feel... but how to act... hmmmmm... what was i just hinkin'???... dang it... y can't my thoughts just type... my hands can't interpret fast enough.......n*scratches nose........*yawwwwn.... sahmmmm ummm rereading... yeah... feelings unknown... that's life... things r fickle... andbecause my mind... i can and will always doubt... but i don't have toact upon it... i dont' know stufffffff... u want something, but it doesn't want u... u offer to give it... but they don't want it from u... understandable... what other situations... oh yeah... there's always more than one... yeaaah... more than one... options.... nahhh.. yeah... pros and cons... but not... cuz they have experiencccce... hehehee bhohoho...ummm... expereince and movies... and stories....and imagination...hmmm one wonders what the heck do i do everyday... hmmmm.... what else whatelse... ummm yeah... i'm not goin' to rebound... once the ball is out of my hands i'm not goin' after it... frea kit... the hardest part of doing is starting... and u know.. i'mafraid i'll be so apathetic that i'll say freak it and go for it... and then after i'm finished... i'll feel ill regret what i say... and not only wiould it hurt me,,... it would hurt them... o k ok ok ok ... *rubs nose... my back still hurts... that's so not kewl anymore... it'll happen when it happens... hmmm is this all i think about... no ... no it's not... it's most of the time.. but it's not... yeah... playing games... that keeps minds off things... i wanna try that mafia game it looks fun... but who has the time to play with that... i don't know anymore bruce... it's hot... i'm like wha... hey, ever heard a recording of ur voice???... do u think that's ur voice??? do u think u sound like that???... i don't like the way i sound... it doesn't like me... really... in a recording i sound like a geek... do really??? freakin' crap yos and yoettes... i sound like nerd... like an actually nerd... do readlly sound like that... dang that sux... hmmmmm i'm boring... really... maybe i'mbipolar... nah.... maybe i'm not that extreme... or not not... doobie doobie dooooo... i read that the adult age is moving up... and adolescent age is longer... it used to be 21 when people see u as an adult... in general... not law wise... but supposed wise... ummm like back way back in the day... 15-16-17... u'd have kids and become adults and work with the familia... *scratches nose... 10-15 years ago... its like 21 when people start gettin' married and lookin' for stable jobs... now... it said that adolescents r until their 25... cuz their all mature by then... marriages and births r becoming later in life like in the 30s... and it's somewhat better that way.. .cuz by then... it's possible to find the right job... dag job... i dont' know what i wanna be anymore... senior year screwed me... freakin' BraveVision screwed me over... not the people... the name itself... i'm lost... and all... i dont'knowmath anymore... i don't write essays anymore... i don't want a job which needs reports... HA!!! where am i goin' to find that... like like like... assembly line... just specify and expertly work in one area... but in my terms... become a CSI... yeeeeeah... just analyze the body and solve cases... but no reports... wahwahwah... but yeah... realistically... i'm afraid to write something which would convict me or piss off the good and bad guyz..... my neck hurts... hmmm.... yeah ok... so wow... old... wow... i'm 18... remember being 13... supposedly an unlucky number... wahwahwawh... through the yeeeeears and stuff.. how is eberyvody??? *scratches mouth... what else... *scratches head... :-1


c-ya:-)


-j

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