:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Friday, December 26, 2003 ::

maybe i'll blog my X-mas experience... it's ups and downs... ... but right now... it's frustrating that my computer is freakin' slow... freaking freakin' fraggin' frickin' frackin' crap... GAHHHHHHHH... and this here computer, the family one... the mouse doesn't work ... so i'm doin' everythin' by keyboard... the TAB buttons goin' to be all worn out... freakin' vvhatever...
(hm,... here's a fun fact... i started this site on this comp. when my comp. broke down...)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:20 PM [+] ::
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i've lost the spirit...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:42 PM [+] ::
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Wind


The Force of Nature Quiz
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flippant??? gahh... i'm afraid of that if things(I) change... so it's either 'equal to all', or none but one is all'... hmmm... like i sez: if i don't do it to one, i do it to none... :-`


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:17 PM [+] ::
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i've been debating whether to type this out or not... just cuz i'm typing now doesn't mean i'll say what i have in mind... see, it's either i type it out so everyone knows what's goin' on right now with me, and just to have a remembrance of what happened a couple hours ago... ya'know, so when i reread it, it's all... o yeah!...!! ... well now then... but then i'm not one to say what's 'special' aboot what happened a couple hours ago... all u'll know is... that something happened an hour ago or so... well, if ur reading this... eh... i won't go into detail... wahwahwah... maybe i will later, maybe not... but yeah anyway... just know i'm a stubborn J-hole... rewards and consequences mean nothing to me... i'm not afraid... well... at times i am, but it doesn't really effect my judgement... por ejemple... if someone where to threaten to kill me, yeah, i'd be like whoa and my heart is pumped, but if i gotta go, i gotta go... i have no physical prowl to physically fight... it's true... ummm so yeah... my phone wil eventually run out of batteries unless i buy another battery pack... i don't have my car keys, so no keys = no car... i can't save u as fast as i can as before... it'll be like the old dayz when i used my bike, but i dont' have my bike so i'd walk and run... and purty much i'm out of shape for that... i won't be online 25/8 anymore... and i don't cry... i may get the tingly sensation in the nose, but i can't cry... even if i dont' want to... well, even if i wanted to cry i can't, not even that tingly sensation... welps... i said more than i say... and i'm sayin' it cause i can... cuz ya'll know, years ago there's no online or cell phones, so info. is passed slower... but instead of explaining myself all the time just know that i walked away from home, not ran away... wahwahwah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:31 AM [+] ::
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thing's suck...

nothing is nothing...
:-!

Martian Manhunter and BATMAN work great together...

y am i not gettin' any???

i am so in need to know what life would be if i wasn't here... just like George Bailey in It's a Wonderful Life

yeah, so like... let's think of other things...
Like yesterday and today's episode of Justice League... every episode is at least 2 parts so an hour of fun filled action packed stuff... more like 40 min. including the commercials... let's see... so there's this guy... John D.? he's an inmate at this prison... he was having a dream in which he controlled a robot and killed the Justice League and he impressed Lex Luthor, Joker, and other bad guyz... he woke up by his friend, who is a security guard, because it was time for him to do an experiment he volunteered for; they chit chatted aboot how John D. could be approved for his parole... after the experiemnt the Doctor was holding up some cards and John D. could read minds and he got all the cards correct... the doctor was saying how long term side effects r still unknown and the ESP is temporary... his guard friend came in and said the authorities denied his parole... later on, John D.'s Girlfriend visits him and says 'it's over, i've found someone else'... he tries to reason with her, that he has a plan and things r working out for him and he'll get out of prison soon, but she doesn't take it cuz he's said that many times before... she leaves and he gets angry... that night, there's a prison break... Solomon Grundy, cobra guy?, Luminous, Volcana, and Firefly is shown escaping, while John D. hides out to where the doctor and the experiment room is... he urges the doctor to lock the door. the doctor does so, and gets hit across head, knocing him out... John D. turns on the machine to full power and soaks in the rays... he screams and all that jazz... meanwhile... Green Lantern stops Volcana and Firefly... Martian Manhunter takes care of Solomon Grundy, Hawkgirl takes care of the cobra guy, and Flash tries to catch Luminous, but they perceive him as a weak sauce so he gets beaten up... and Superman and Hawkgirl captures Luminous... meanwhile, the warden and the security friend find John D. and turn off the machine... and take him to sick bay... later on, Green Lantern, BATMAN, the warden and the security guard find everyone in the sick bay room asleep, talking in their sleep, and John D. gone... GL wonders y there's this kind experiments in a prison, and the warden says where else would there be volunteers... GL says does it matter, he's a nobody, we can get him another day, it's been days since BATMAN slept anyway... BATMAN replies that it's been 3 night and talks aboot The Odyssey scene when Ulyssessesees? pokes out the Giant's eye and says that his name is Nobody... the other giant asks the Giant who did this, and he said Nobody did it... i thought it was somewhat irrelevant but i like greek mythology and all that jazz... annnnyyyyywhooooo... BATMAN stays there and investigates... while the other heros (except Wonder Woman, she wasn't in this episode) go on their way... At a house, John D's exGF greets her new BF and they go to sleep... outside John D. is thinking... the exGF wakes up and gets a glass of water from the sink... then John D. appears (but he's really outside)... she tries to wake up the new BF but he's fast asleep, John D. is talking blah blah blah and says it's destiny... and thinks, i like that word... call me Dr. Destiny... so his face melts off and he gets a new spiffy bad guy suit... and grabs the exGF on the bed... in reality... she's having a nightmare and she's kicking and screaming, while the new BF is trying to wake her up... meanwhile... Hawkgirl and the Flash is up at the Tower which is orbitting the earth and they both fall asleep... it's been a long day... that's y... Clark Kent reads the Daily Planet about the prison break and then turns off the light and sleeps... John Stewart(Green Lantern) goes to sleep too... at a hospital where John D.'s exGF is taken to, she's given' a sedative (although she's still asleep) to relax her... the doctors leave the room urging the new BF to not stay in the room,... who knows y... but BATMAN sneaks in the window, and Martian Manhunter (aka J'onn J'onnz pronounced John Jones) walks through the wall and BATMAN tells him to do his thang... which is... read/search her mind... he figures out that she's having a nightmare being controlled by a man calling himself Dr. Destiny... in Flash's dream: he's babysitting these kids and the kids get hungry and try to eat him, he runs away, and when he slows down, everyone, the whole world is still standing still... Dr. Destiny appears and everything except them turns black and white... Flash is afraid of going too fast and unable to stop and he dies of old age in a split second... although to him that split second is a whole lifetime to him... Clark is having a dream of having dinner with Lois Lane but then his eye beams start getting out of control, he tries to hide it, but Lois is suspicious and she gets caught in his blast... John Stewart walks along the street and everyone is afraid of him... Dr. Destiny appears and says that he's not human anymore and no one will accept him... Hawkgirl is trying to wake up Flash, and Martian Manhunter appears saying that something is wrong,,, but MM turns in to DD (haha, get me?) and clamps her wings, then she falls down from the sky unable to fly into a coffin... the coffin closes and is buried underneath, she's frantic(i think Hawkgirl is clausterphobic)... in reality, BATMAN phones Clark and tells him to not fall asleep... but too late... MM checks on GL and can't wake him up... BATMAN checks a lead at the house where the exGF and the BF lives... nothing... no lead, he thinks: if he's using his powers mentally, he has to be vulnerable physically and would have to be at a place where he thinks it's safe... he asks for MM help, but MM declines saying that on the news that escapee John D's exGF as passed away... dead... he's goin' to enter the minds of the other Leaguers and try to wake them up while BATMAN searches Dr. Destiny... MM enters Superman's mind where Metropolis and the Daily Planet building is half demolished... Perry White is dead on the ground, and Superman is bulky and tall and is afraid to touch anything... he can't control his powers and they're still growing and evolving... Jimmy Olsen appears and says hi... Superman rushes to him and gives him a hug, which broke Jimmy's back... whoops... MM appears and reasons with Superman to calm down and wake up... Superman flies away to Smallville and MM follows him into the Kent's farm where Superman is curled in his spaceship... MM somehow wakes him up... so from there BATMAN is driving and is listening to a recording aboot John D's profile... BATMAN is fallin' asleep a bit and then he's aboot a hit Dr. Destiny on the road... he swerves and it's actually a truck he almost hit... he listens to the recording... John D. used to have a low income job at Lex Corp... BATMAN turns the BATMOBILE around and drives away... MM goes into GL's dream and tells him to concentrate and that nothing is real... GL has to go into a giant Green Lantern (an actual Lantern) and succumb himself with the green aura to stop the nightmare... MM says don't do it and Dr. Destiny attacks, saying he's worthless and MM replies, that's y i brought a friend... Superman appears and attacks Dr. Destiny... DD is taking care of Supes and MM while GL walks into the... well, the giant GL... haha... but the giant GL explodes and GL the superhero captures DD, but then DD fades away and disappears... BATMAN is fallin' asleep again, but then goes into a coffeeshop and orders 3 cups of coffee... haha... cuts in line of everyone there... MM, Supers, and GL enter Flash's nightmare and Flash is happy, but then the 3 heroes start to slow down and turn black and white... MM mutters slowly... "think inside urself"... now Flash isn't a smart lad, he's a trickster jokester guy and so a min. goes by and he closes his eyes and concentrates... DD appears and tries to snap Flash out of it, but it doesn't work... Flash slows down to normal speed and everyone is fine and dandy... BATMAN then continues his drive, an image of DD tells him to fall asleep... BATMAN punches out the windshield cuz it was cracked when he crashed it before... and turns on the radio... the music sounded like JPOP when Sean Cabanilla first intro. it to me... haha anyway, it was a catchy tune and i hummed to it, but now i forgot... ohvvell... BATMAN then gets to his destination and it's purty much an abandoned building... DD tries to read BATMAN's thoughts but blocks it out humming to the music he was listening to in the car..., and BATMAN has been in this situation before,... pfff amateurs. wahwahwah... so BATMAN blocks it out and DD insults him by saying he doesn't have any real powers and that he'll infiltrate his thoughts... BATMAN says his mind is a scary place... DD tries to perform an illusion where the area turns into like that picture with the stairs upside down, sideways, and it leads everywhere, but BATMAN hums to the music he was listening to and just stands there till the illusion is gone... wahhawahhawaha... soooo BATMAN takes care of John D. easily... ... dadada... back at the Tower, Hawkgirl wakes up and everyone is sayin'.... blah balha blah ... and then on the side... BATMAN is sitting on a chair knocked out sleepin... yup yup yup... o k...


*think of what it lead to
(this blog took a long time cuz i was watching 24 on Ch. 11)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:49 PM [+] ::
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Gosh darns it all
oh vvell...
entiresting, very
let's just see
what happens next
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c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:20 PM [+] ::
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how sweeeet. Martian Manhunter did the hero walk... well, actually, he shapeshifted and left... but he still did the hero walk... and let's remind ourselves who else did the hero walk... Clark Kent from Smallville... Eminem in 8Mile... 'Mario'(well his name isn't Mario, but the actor played him in Super Mario Bros. movie) sorta did the hero walk in Maid in Manhatten... oh, and i thought aboot this just now... Peter Pan in Hook was in the process of doing the hero walk, but didn't complete it... oh and i did the hero walk... :-j


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:59 PM [+] ::
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i want to finish those videos but i can't seem to bring myself to it... literally, my whole day isss... :-/ unproductive... eat, computer, TV, movies... my sleeping habits r not stable... i sleep a few hours at a time at different times a day... i don't wanna go back to school, but i know i should... it's goin' to make me do something... i dont' excercise... although my tummy has gotten flatter... i eat more or less... (pizza every week)... i mean... i eat too much or too little? i can't really tell... hmm odd... there's nothing on TV... nothing online... i want to finish the videogames... Final Fantasy VII, X, X-2, Kingdom Hearts, and Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic, but i don't even feel like playing it... i can't bring myself to do anything, unless they're simple buttons, on and off... click click click... turn nob, ding... chew... extract, intake... but nothing else... driving has become scary... i'm more and more daydreaming... i can't do it literally... i mean it's right there... i have MORE than enough time (obviously), but i can't... what is restricting me? now that i dont' understand... i know what's wrong, i know what to do... but i don't do it, why?... it's odd to the max really... it's not death, it's not over a girl, it's not health, it's not anything... this 'learned laziness' has really affected me... learned laziness - receiving awards without work... but honestly... rewards nor consequences will effect me... which is good in a sense... force me to do it, i'd do it, but not well as i'd like it to be... i'm afraid of failing others yeah, but then i'd just go into hiding... *shrug... there's no reward or consequence for me to do anything... i just wish i would be able to do something... it's sad... i have all that is needed to work... but i don't do it... simple as that... i don't work... afraid? fear?... i dont' wanna say i'm bored, cuz then i should do something aboot it... i mean... i'm bored when i don't have anything to do... but i do have something to do, so i'm not bored, but i dont' wanna do it, but i do, but can't bring myself to do it... i'm on the f---in' computer where i could finish these vids... but no... the living room is clear and i could play those video games, but no... there's books i could read, but no... am i dying?... haha... arghh... music isn't doing anything good either... i'm not mad for rage... i'm not sulking to brood... i'm nothing... freakin' A... i'm not goin' to do well in school... even IF i have just one class... i probably won't even do the work... cuz if it's 'too hard' i'll say freak it; do it later... 'too easy'... i'll still do it later... my goodness, what have i become... i know what i am, this is the first time i'm writing this out... typing this out... i'm hungry... yet i dont' wanna eat... this morning... i was hungry, and my internal (sh-- i can't remember simple words or math or anything anymore)... internal... DIGESTIVE (that's the word!!!) functions were whack... i mean.. my stomach sorta hurt, but not as bad as i've felt it before... but i just kept goin' back and forth to the bathroom... but i'm fine and all... but dang... what's happening... this sux a bunch... yeah, it's easier said than done... all i have to do is double click that icon, or turn on the power... and use my brain and think of complex things and to get my work done... but i can't... i only seem to work on complex things when there's no credit to it?... kinda... right? no?... not too sure on that... but somethin' is wrong... i'd like it to go away or be solved so i can be productive... but it doesn't seem like it will.. i'm me, u can't change that... i act weird and those of u who say be urself... well, believe it, that is me... this is me... or that is them... hmmm... schizophrenia, my sister has been telling me things she's learned... people literally hear voices, but don't know where it's coming from... paranormal stuff... i Want it to happen to me, but when it's like a moment for it, i freak out and pray it doesn't happen... what a pussy... haha... like right now... i could look behind me or mirror, outside or anything... power goes off... i faint... dream, nightmare... and something 'kewl' happens to me... but i know if it does, i'll freak out... and so i hope it doesn't happen... but then... it's a good thing, cuz it's something i can't actually control, but it turns out i could... or not... :-P... ever thought aboot what would happen when u die?... what would people say or think?... and then after a while... everyone goes on with their life... can't remember everyone... things go on... i want to be crazy... i just dont' wanna know... cuz then i'd get scared and be what r u talkin' aboot?... but then i want to be crazy cuz then... i won't be accountable for my actions, but i will, though i won't know i actually did it... hmmm... schizophrenia... kewl/scary to have... hmmm... i was tellin' a friend... whenever i've thrown a punch, i hesitate before the impact... i've thrown a few... but just when my fist hits it's living destination, i hestate and my fist goes soft and i try to retract my arm, but it's too late... the damage (if any) is done... and then she said "well, that's because ur such a nice guy..." and i thought... yeah i am... i suppose... but yeah, my mind ain't that nice... think of the worse things and ur not thinkin' like my mind... y am i typing this?... heck if i were to tell anyone, and something does happen... then that person can be a witness to my karazy talk... heck, this blog can be evidence.. . but doesn't a number of people, not everyone, think like this... they dont' necessarily tell everyone cuz they dont' think it 25/8... where ami gettin' at... o h yeah... i'm a lazy anal


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:09 AM [+] ::
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