:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Wednesday, March 31, 2004 ::

"... has never been in love -- at least, nobody's ever been in love with him. If things don't change for him, he's gonna marry the first girl he lays, and she's gonna treat him like shit, because she will have given him what he has built up in his mind as the end-all, be-all of human existence. She won't respect him, 'cause you can't respect somebody who kisses your ass. It just doesn't work. "
- Ferris Bueller


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:18 PM [+] ::
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There will never be perfection in this world... only with... urself?... y choose a side?... good and evil... if there's already those who will be the good and the evil?... or is the only side ur own side... i do not know, fo sho... fo sho... wth am i thinking of???

Take life as it is.Fukc trying to find answers or trying to find the meaning of life..Take what life gives you and appreciate it.. ... ... ... now that's more like it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:30 AM [+] ::
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death... entiresting, very...
y kill urself at ur highest point... it makes sense in a sense... but yeah... if i die... i always wanted my body to be released in space... or maybe ashes in space?... just a thought... shoot it towards a black hole... not a planet with an atmosphere which would deteriorate my body... somewhere where other lifeforms would find it... ORRR... like that Einstien theory... maybe my body won't decay or get older?... i dont' know... hmmm, i've always didn't want recognition... but then being recognized as not being recognized is still being recognized... eh random thoughts... i would want a person who didn't like me to speak at my eulogy or say some words... would they say the truth, feel remorse or guilt, or play with the emotions and say good things cuz they don't want others to be sad?... i'd like them to say the honest truth... cuz the truth is honesty, and honesty is the truth :-P... wahwahwah... but yeah... when they say something bad about me... i hope those who support me or disagree with them doesn't debate against them... i want those to listen what that 'mean' person had to say... and let it go... it's not like i'd be coming back... or not???


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:07 PM [+] ::
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There's people out there who starve, have NOwhere to live, no families, no friends. There's people who have NOTHING..and yes, there's ALSO people out there that are just so selfish/naive and complain about how they're never satisfied.Come on people.Suck it up.Life is not about having this and that.. Take life as it is.Fukc trying to find answers or trying to find the meaning of life..Take what life gives you and appreciate it..i learned that, "u make ur OWN drama".So hey, dont blame other people for ur drama; ur responsible for ur own..(if u dont want drama, then do something about it..it'll save u the trouble of complaining).
- Surreal -

*applaud


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:44 PM [+] ::
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bold ones you've seen; italicize those partially seen...
check out International Movie Database for help...

1. X-Men
2. The Craft
3. X2
4. Swimfan
5. Fellowship of the Ring
6. Finding Nemo
7. Peter Pan
8. Home Alone
9. Aladdin
10. The Ring
11. 10 Things I Hate About You (one of four of my favorite teen romantic movies)
12. Not Another Teen Movie
13. Spiceworld
14. 8 Mile (excellent hero walk at the end)
15. Bambi (been a long time, long time)
16. Pirates of the Carribean
17. Edward Scissorhands
18. Stepmom
19. My Best Friends Wedding
20. 101 Dalmations
21. Scream
22. Scream 2
23. Scream 3
24. Big Daddy
25. Billy Madison
26. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
27. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
28. Heartbreakers
29. Dumb & Dumber
30. Two Weeks Notice (haha the potty scene)
31. Scary Movie
32. Look Who's Talking
33. Blade
34. Blade II
35. O
36. Titanic
37. Carrie
38. Carrie 2: The Rage
39. Daddy Day Care
40. Legally Blonde
41. Austin Powers (all three? yes, i have)
42. Storm of the Century (isn't that the Stephen King TV movie?)
43. Oliver and Company
44. Two Towers
45. Return of the King
46. Mighty Ducks
47. Fast and the Furious
48. 2 Fast, 2 Furious
49. A Walk To Remember (another personal favorite teen romance movie)
50. XXX
51. Beauty and the Beast
52. I Know What You Did Last Summer
53. I Still Know What You Did Last Summer
54. Sound of Music
55. Mary Poppins
56. Tuck Everlasting
57. The Patriot
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Killing Ms. Tingle
60. Crossroads
61. Now and Then
62. Pearl Harbor
63. Just Married
64. Cast Away
65. Radio Flyer
66. Final Destination
67. Lady and the Tramp
68. Shallow Hal
69. 40 Days and 40 Nights
70. Bring It On
71. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (not the beginning)
72. The Outsiders
73. The Matrix
74. Perfect Storm
75. Cruel Intentions
76. Never Been Kissed
77. Clueless
78. Bruce Almighty
79. Remember the Titans
81. Girl, Interrupted
82. SWAT
83. Sixth Sense
84. PhoneBooth
85. The Lion King
86. Urban Legends
87. Nightflier
88. Lion King 2 ("Simba's Pride" right?)
89. Little Mermaid
90. American Pie
91. Center Stage
92. Scooby Doo
93. Bedazzled
94. Mrs. Doubtfire
95. Save the Last Dance
96. My Girl
97. American Beauty
98. Romeo & Juliet (with leo dicaprio & claire danes???)
99. Lost World (too vague; too many lost world movies...)
100. Casper
101. Miss Congeniality
102. The Rock (favorite quote: Tourist in the prison: "What kind of a fucked up tour is this?"
103. Face Off
104. Moulin Rouge
105. Sleeping Beauty
106. Alien
107. Tombstone (on the plane to PI in '94)
108. Lake Placid
109. The Recruit
110. The Shining (which one? with jack or the recent version?)
111. Pocahontas
112. French Kiss
113. Pretty Woman
114. Dirty Dancing
115. Italian Job
116. Love Actually
117. Identity
118. The Mummy
119. Drumline
120. Finding Forrester
121. Monster's Inc.
122. League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
123. Spawn
124. All I Want
125. Mallrats
126. Dogma
127. Rat Race (never seen the first 5 min.)
128. Stigmata
129. Eye Of The Beholder
130. To Die For
131. Gangs of New York
132. A Clockwork Orange
133. Chicago
134. Big Fish
135. Donnie Darko (dammit, i rented like 3 movies that weekend and watched none of them...)
136. Chinatown
137. There's Something About Mary
138. National Security
139. What Dreams May Come (that girl's laugh at the end was annoying as freak)
140.Lilo and Stitch
141. Selena
142. Les Miserables; Tenth Anniversary Concert
143. Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
144. Oliver
145. The Haunting
146. Jane Eyre
147. Monty Python and The Holy Grail
148. Annie
149. Pleasantville
150. The Goodbye Girl
151. Evita
152. How to Deal
153. Drop Dead Gorgeous
154. Waiting for Guffman
155. The Breakfast Club
156. Best In Show

yeah ... does anyone remember Drop Dead Fred??? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:50 PM [+] ::
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o k, starting over... (+with new insight on what i learned today at school... and no, it's not about kymee) (o k, annie, i'm talking to u... u now know this post is not mostly about kymee ;-)... ) damn, haha.. . i'm messed up but vvhatever... taunting? yes... teaching? hopefully learn something... ok ok ... that was to her... okokok, annie, i'll bold the names about who i'm talking about... kewl? kewl... o and i'mplanning to write about someone specifically and since i feel i don't ahve a solid connection with her... u friends that know her better than thy, if u agree with me, can relay it to her... eh, vvhatever...

yesterday, all my troubles seem so far away... haha... dang a lot has happened... just as i was talking to Optitrishtic today, a lot has happened the past few dayz (not even a week, duh, haha) that i can't even remember what day i did what or what day people did what... o ko ok ok continuing...
my cousin, Kevin was brought to school by me in the morning... y? cuz his parents and lil sister is in the PI... as i was going, apparently my cousin told his homies at the escuela that his cousin drives that BATMA17mobile and they didn't believe him... so when i dropped it him off i see all the lil boys (and lil girls) "HEY IT's BATMA17!!!" and i salute them and say "yo" to my lil fans heheh.. and the girls were asking my cousin, "that's ur cousin, he drives a mazda 6."... haha yeah... they're all kewl... yeah, so i was thinkin' they'd be legal in Approx. 5 years... HEY HEY HEY, we will all wish we were younger instead of being older at least once in life, i think... ...then i went to school... got teh C+on an essay which i'm satisfied with... kinda... i shoulda got a B... but o vvell... *ahem... so at and coming from school, dominic calls saying he, trish, and edward r at S&G... i didn't really feel like going cuz i had to go to the bank, i hate to think i have to always look at my watch to see how long my next class is, and it's hard to say what we would've done... but i was hungry and it's chillin' with thy friends... so to decide whether to go home or go meet up with them, i put it up on "fate"... my mom gave me 20 bucks for gas the day before... i couldn't remember whether i put it in my wallet, my pocket, or left it at home... so i says: if it's in my pocket, i'll just get gas and go home... if not, i'll meet up with them... so it was in my pocket... got the gas and then i went home and my nanay (my mom's mom) was worried cuz my cousin's school called saying there was an accident... they said his head got hit and he's bleeding... someone had to pick him up... the school said they tried all the emergency numbers but my nanay is the only one that picked up... but she doesn't drive and doesn't know how to take other forms of transportation... so she called my tito efren... and he said okok... but my nanay was worried cuz she wasn't sure if he even knew how to get to St. Cyprian... nor does he have a cell phone to check if everything is all right... so i go... and if u know... St. Cyprian and my cousin's house and LBCC is relatively in the same area... so i go alllll the way back to his school, and he's on his cell phone talkin' to his grandparents (his mom's parents; my mom is bro to his dad)... i see my tito efren sitting there; apparently he's my tito isn't allowed to take him because he's not on the emergency list... so i come in and the staff goes... "hey!, ur the cousin BATMA17"... and i'm like "yeah... haha"... they knew me... *hmmm entiresting, very... i just thought of another thing... o k... here's where 1 of 2 "reasons happen for reasons unknown theory"... if not for my 20 dollar dilemma for either home or S&G, i wouldn't have known that my cousin needed to be picked up and my tito efren, who had to be late for work, couldn't take him home... AND NOW... the staff didn't know me previously, until last friday BECAUSE... (r u following me still??? rereading is optionally mandatory)... because i was late to bringing him to school so i had to sign him in... and that's the first time the staff has seen me... so if it wasn't for that day, they probably wouldn't have let me take him home either... okokok soooooo i take him to my house cuz he's not allow to sleep... what happened was this: during recess (ahhh recess... haha)..., he and his friend were sitting on the PIMP BENCH as they call it... two guys were fighting over the third and final seat and in the process knocked my cousin's head back and hit the rough brick part... like a pimp, he started to cry... hahaha... jk.. but he teared up and said his vision was blurry and impaired for at least 5 min... and that witnesses say he was bleeding a bit... (although i think it's his way of getting out of school since his parents r gone :-P clever)... yes, for u psychosisissis peeps, our vision nerves r linked to the back of our brain, so if u want someone to go blind without them knowing it was u, bludgeon them in the back of the head... dang... so... bought him Carl's Jr... brought him to my house... he wasn't allowed to sleep... and that's y i was sleepy, noel... i had to keep him entertained... so i couldn't take my usual nap... and he was on my screenname so my chelloveck droogs: Noel, Anthony, Daniel, sister's bf's sister MaryAnn, and cousin Brian from my dad's side... sorry for warning ya'all... he was having a blast warning all of u... hahahahaha amusintaining, very... haha new word... let's see if it sticks... amusintaining, very... and those that warned me back were anthony and maryann... ANYWHOOOOOOO... i also go to the bank and get the usual teller guy that i had a streak for like 5 visits... i go back to school for my second class of the day; got a B on my Stats class... go home, my mom just came home and she wanted me to drive back to his house... so for the forth time of the day i drove to Clark and Carson area... and thheeeeeeeeen... thas it...

that night, i coudln't sleep so i balanced my Pooh checkbook!!! it was whack yo... so i signed up to Washington Mutual online and checked my history... it is "tizzle", as my cousin would relate to as "tight"... i think... so i got that straigtened out...

then in the morning, i always get these bad stomach aches, and it's soooo not kewl to the max... i dont' know, maybe it's the cold air and stomach doesn't mix... *shrug.. trish was saying the same thing... so then Vanessa and Patrizha and I go to Denny's... fun fun billy willy mmm mmm ahhh... dang, i said this phrase that we all liked and i said "copyright me, today" but i can't remember what i said... something believing what we believe ... something'... i can't remember... o vvell... when we were finished, i paid cuz i have my reasons, and if u r dying to know y i paid then ask... haha... well then... one of the reasons was cuz i had no bills with me haha... :-P... but that's not the main reason.... it's not the ... guideline i used... ... the waiter joked that since i'm the guy i was paying it... haha... anywhoo it was so and so money and i forgot my reciept on the table... so my checkbook is going to be whacked out again so i'll have to go back online and vvhatever... then OMG but on the way back to josephs, i was dying... internal wise... don't know if u girls noticed, but OMG i was in pain... i felt worse, but it's almost just as bad... so i drop them off and i pray to get home quickly... i had time to go, y'know?... class is in another 40ish min. for me ... so i get home and just go straight to the bano... and i release... good breakfast though... :-D *twinkle... disgusted? well, it's been a while since i blogged about my day instead of a thought-fulled blog... ... so yeah... but hey!!! since V-ness is an alumnus from the "no license, no car club", we formed a new club YAY!!! :-D

then went to school... i love my psych 1 class... it's like confirming everything i believe in, i have my theories, but they confirm most of it, and if not i'm learning something too... just as the IQ test and SAT tests r unreliable... IQ tests on how well u'd do in school, while SAT, it's just one test, it shows logic and understanding, but it doesn't show determination or consistancy... grades can degrade a person's esteem or make them go crazy or worry TOO MUCH... which i think Krizia is (whom i was talking about specifically earlier in my blog)... the entire time i was thinking about her and how she wants to go to all these great schools, but like i told edward... it's just the name and money... yeah u pay all this money, but it depends on the teacher and u can just get as good of an education as u can get... ok so based off my psych 1 teacher's experience... she has a masters? from Penn something state something... i dont' know IVY league school... and currently teaches at my school LBCC and CSUDH, noel's school... even she says it depends on the teacher... she learned more when she went to community college cuz of the teachers, while the ivy league school had fresh out of college teachers who had close to none teaching college students... which isn't bad necessarilly, but she feels she coulda got better teachers to teach her from all the student loans she'd be paying for the next 20 years so since 1994... like i'm saying... it's just a name... u hear stuff, but u won't know till u get there... true... i mean... AP classes, they mean nothing unless u get a 3 or better and get accepted to a school that even accepts that class... i'm not saying it's bad to take the class, u still learn, if ur a school-minded person... (not like chonnies who "f--- school", ya'know?... sorry i'm turning stereotypically racist ... involuntarily?) but it's all in the name... a Public school means nothing unless ur have the extracurricular activities under ur name and r in the advanced classes... a Private school has more 'prestige' than others... but it depends on the inside that counts... like it says for people... dont' judge a book by it's cover(although that's talkinga bout a book, haha)... it goes with schools... come on!!! tens of thousands of dollars for an education??? they really need it to pay for the school's expenses for utilities to run and advertisements and stuff... but like i said, it's all in the name... there r smart people (doesn't only mean academically wise) in this world that doesn't go to the best of schools... or heck, dropped out of school... i'm just saying, Krizia... ease up, u worry me... and to friends of her... i tell u thisL who says it is more important than what is said... so like just cuz i'm saying it she doesn't believe me, but those close to her, she'd consider more... heck... take the credit from what i'm saying... say u thought of it... yeah, IF U AGREE WITH ME, don't mention it was from me unless u want to... i'm just saying it'll make the case more meaningful if i'm not mentioned at first... or not *shrug... i'm just saying that she shouldn't worry too much, and that it depends on the teacher... but if her goal is to get that prestigious school name, well then, work hard, i believe in her... and if she doesn't get it the first time around... complain for ONE DAY ONLY (or a couple weeks) (no need to lag and be hindered by negativeness... and then give them hell in the future to come... and she'll be good to go, ya'know??? yeah, don't worry too much... and everyone should count their blessings again... ... like this country... we are fortunate to live here, even if we don't agree with what's being done or not... well, i mean maybe it is fortunate to live in a 3rd world country cuz then ur not 'tainted' by technology and we wouldn't be lazy anal obese bums... heheheh... es true, es true... okok... sociology 1 yay, i didn't miss participation points... i'm 4.5 points until i'm in the C range... gosh dangit, this class gave me a grade sheet to show all the future works that iwll be counted for my grade... it's good, but it's not... it's just showing me how much i can slack off until my grade is in peril of the D or F... yeah id idn't do my 20 points HW i could always make it up... but if i make it up... doesn't mean it's enough to see me safely through the class... she's kewl ... former clipper/laker girl... she's a dauncer *saying with accent... so she teaches o k... she jumps around and discussions can get out of hand its like... what's goin' to be on the test or what?... well it's kinda kewl today... the last 30ish min. of class she was surveying on what U.S. dating is... like u meet a person at the grocery store, how long does the convo. usually last, what do u wear, what do u eat... and we didn't have time to finish the discussion, but it seems like she'll compare our society/culture with other countries and such, blahs... and then talked to Bob... o yeah, i only get involved if i know pain is hurting... and honestly i dont' do anything to sway the decisions... i just make people open their eyes... if i have a purpose in life, it's that people has to understand each other... conflict i'm fine with... but as long as they can answer the question WHY? then i'm good to go to stay out of it... so yeah, i'm the cause... and then there's the effect... i'm an instigator :-P... unfortunate/fortunate taht u know me... ...afterwards... my cousin didn't go to school... haha i'm telling u he just wants to get out of school...brought him to the doctors to get his mozg checked out... so then ate Carl's Jr. again... and chilled at his house and did vvhatevers... (Kingdom Hearts is a looooooooong beginning...) and then went home, sleep... and read blogs and xangas... and yeah kewlio...

how's that (*points at the computer screen) as a noelified post, eh???
there ya go annie, now u know who i'm talking about... ;-D *twinkle...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:50 PM [+] ::
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wel then... yesterday was an entiresting day, very... kinda... eh... o k... brought my 8th grade cousin to his school, St. Cyprian... cuz his parents and lil sister went to the PI... then i went to school... got a C+ on my essay in English class ... o vvell... it's better than most of the other people in the class and considering the class, it's a GOOD JOB WELL DONE to get that C+... then i come home... my nanay is worried cuz my cousin's school called the house saying he hit his head hard and is bleeding, and someone should pick him up... and every phone they're trying to call, no one is answering... and my nanay doesn't drive nor ride the bus... (the office called at 10:30ish; i came home 11:30ish)... so then my nanay called my tito efren... he said o k o k... hahaha... okok... o ko k haha okok... ummm then i was like... hmmm to go or not go... eh... this is getting toolengthy... i'll start over and continue later today...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:08 AM [+] ::
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i feel no remorse over the pain that i've caused... i'm amused... was it something waiting to happen? *shrug... maybe it was like an irritating itch... everytime it was healing, u scratched the scab away intentionally or not intentionally... the wound would never heal until i came and... cut ur fingernails shorter, taped it, bagged it, and handcuffed ur wrists together behind ur back on a chain-linked fence... yes, u r in much pain, and it hurts... U WANNA SCRATCH THE PUCK OUT OF IT... but, now, the wound will finally fully heal... u ask others to be honest with u... i am honest when i say... tough love... and... unfortunate/fortunate that u know me... but, although, my intentions hurt u... i still meant it as a good thing... the During will hurt, but the End will satisfy all... bear with me when i say: Ur still my friend...... *rubs chin... ... now, u always said u'll change... and everytime u say that, i believe u..., but it hasn't been shown... don't tell people, show people...

on a side note, isn't it sad that most information received are bad news, or something wicked, about someone else... when's the last time u heard, "o, that person blah blah blah, got an A+, was on TV, and actually went home by curfew time"... instead of "yeah, they have a kid now, got in a fight with, and ran away as a coward"... eh, it's not entirely true, but the thought crossed thy mind...

... continuing ... don't tell people, show people... and it is hard to convince those that have already lost the trust... but it's not gone for good... one of the things that cannot be controlled, but is a vereally, vereally great healer in my opinion: TIME... Time can't be controlled easily, so be patient... yeah, so... i end with this... Mature?... HA!!! i laugh at that... but it's still a grand destination to be in... take heed, don't let this message fool u... it's supposed to be inspirational to help thy on thy's journey... not to shoot thy spirits down... ;-)

need me, contact me... and that goes for the rest of ya'all...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:24 AM [+] ::
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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

isn't that entiresting, very... i took this test Aug. 14, 2003 and i got Level 8: Malebolge... i know some answers i've chosen were different then, and i did take a lot longer to choose answers last time... hmmm, things change... yup yup things change... what is said before was meant for before, not today... u can always take back what u say when u mean it... welps... vvhatever...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:41 PM [+] ::
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dammit

i gave in... i mustn't anymore...

there can't be room for... mistakes


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:08 PM [+] ::
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Spent a lot to hang out with friends... WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS ARE WE??? :-P i keed, i keed
but my trunk is all wet... that's what i get for buying ice that wasn't even used...
and mixed with wood u say??? well... that sux a bunch...
*achooo...
'scuse'muah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:17 PM [+] ::
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i am bothered... maybe it's just a phase... which is good... cuz a phase passes and it becomes the past... but if this is a phase, it hasn't passed yet... so i'm bothered... i don't want to be a dictator... have dictatorship... but if u don't like something, do something about it... but if it's not my business, i have the tendacy to make it my business... no no... that sounds worse than i mean it to be... feelings, i can't control them, nor can i control others... it sux... it contradicts of what our conscious says what's right... but it feels so damn good, don't it?... it feels soooo goooood, but u know it's bad... Temptation, indeed... violence begets violence... "y r they bagging on me? what did i do to them? that's all in teh past, i've changed" hypocrites... "haha, so u f---ed him, didn't u?... u f---ed her??? slut... run u over, i'll drive" hypocrites... I KNOW they're just words... to vent; to express... most likely u'all won't have the guts to do it because of the consequences and/or aftermath and/or ur guilt and/or conscious... I KNOW: not threats; just vents... but i'm bothered... but what is it doing to the other person???... making them feel worse while u feel better... i believe in walking away and forgetting about it... it's not like u'll bump into each other in life anyway... or if u do, well, u'all gotta grow up and settle it somehow... but it will never happen... the more people u have in this world, the more differences, variety... there will always be conflicts; conflicts there will be... greed or not... no matter... we challenge each other knowingly or not... that's what makes life entiresting, very... the drama... but what??? go ahead, do what it takes to make urself feel better... vent out, express ur anger... shout and dont' tell anyone y ur shouting ... u may even question: what's the point of being angry if u can't express it?... well, hard as it is, u can... but it's in a different form, a different way... true, it may not make u feel better, but u gotta try... i believe it's not worth expressing if it puts another down... no matter who they are... from the taunts to the rants, gossip, rumors, and insults... those all fine and dandy... but ur enemy has feelings too... whether u r friend or ally, enemy, acquantance, stranger, or bystander... to me, it doesn't matter who u r... U ALL ... THEY ALL have feelings... u want a person to change? tell them... in an orderly manner... no ranting... make finite reasons... reasonable reasons... no bullcrap... don't give the bull crap... dont' cut the bull up, gory and disgustingly horrid and give it... give it in its finely wrapped self and show the whole... (sorry ... the bull was just rambling... sorry)... back to what i was saying... WE ALL HAVE FEELINGS... from the neighing, to the out of the blue "ur a bi0tch"... yeah, ur feeling better... ur lifting the spirits of ur friends... but ur enemy is growing more bitterness... yeah, tough love insultsmay work... but that's too much of a risk if u weigh it out... ur enemy's esteem, no matter how low it gets or how high its pride, is gunning towards u... in a negative impact... that will only produce more and more among everyone... until... until one of u helps the other... ha!!! friends with the enemy??? become an enemy in ur friend's eyes??? that's possible??? ... sadly true, but with purpose... ... y does it seem like i'm the only one that sees it... to have a cocky sense, am i the only one that knows what IS right??? ... yet i dont' force u... y?... cuz, i dont' know *shrug... u ahve to learn it urself... and i hope ua'll learn it before it's too late... otherwise... i don't know... [insert the future unknown here]... yeah, express ur feelings, but not negatively towards anyone... and those of u who r taking the hits - whether ur the one that instigated, or its just another one of ur friend's rants that ur getting really tired of hearing or that ur actually encouraging... stop the spread of the virus that kills hopes and dreams... ... ... everyone has their limits, what/whom pushes them over the edge? don't u think it could be UUU??? ((joyfully, unfortunate/fortunate, I never get tired of hearing from uuu... y me? d0 u believe me? how long can u trust me? do u even trust me?... sorry, i do confuse u on purpose to keep u on ur toes... ur wits... ... what makes me different from everyone else?... where did i get this sense of... 'good'/'bad'... too much TV i tell ya... BATMAN and Power Rangers with a lil bit of Bobby's World, and Tiny Toons and Animaniacs for humor... O!!! and GIJOE for the blowing up action in me, and X-men and Spider-man for the adolescent drama))
??? blanked out ???
what have i become???

enemies have friends who would support them as ur friends support u...
there will always be conflict
enemies r not bad people... they r those u choose to dislike (reason or not)

the problem worsens as their feelings r provoked... hm, who provoked it i wonder...

what more can i say? is it wrong that i don't force u all what to say and do?
u all can choose to deny me as much as i can choose to do what i want...
u can do anything, just believe...
remember, it's you can, not they will accept what you do
and viiiiiice versa... they can tell u, but u don't accept them...

we can think all we want, but it's our actions that will make or break us
'nuff said...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:22 AM [+] ::
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GENERATION Y... yes, we are generation...
Y won't we get our social security benefits???
Y do we have to grow up???
Y can't we all just... get along???
Y must that Black Corvette driven by an asian guy have a license plate as: BATMAN V???

wahwahwah...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:56 PM [+] ::
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Yay... i beat Max Payne 2: The Fall of Max Payne in less than a day...
i started Approx. 2:30AM - 5:30AM...and then woke up watch Power Rangers Dino Thunder (they had a kick anal nostalgic history of ALL the previous power ranger seasons... damn... kids these days wouldn't even know who the 'original' (american) PRs r...) ... and then continued playing MP2 from 11:30AM - 6:40 PM... nonstop... yup... kinda hungry and all... but hey, here is an entiresting, very quote from the game...:

There are no choices. Nothing but a straight line.
The illusion comes afterwards, when you ask, "Why me?" and "What if?" when you look back, and the branches, like a pruned bonsai tree, or a forked lightening.
If you done something differently, it wouldn't be you, it would be someone else looking back, asking a different set of questions.

yup yup... fate... we wouldn't know what life would be like if things or what we chose was different... yeah, well what r ya gonna do, what r ya gonna do, what r ya gonna do right now???

well then... i thought i was goin' to watch The Passion, but i guess not anymore... vvhatever ummm next time or another time na lang...

o yeah, and Kevin Conroy (the voice actor for BATMAN on any cartoon series for the past decade or two) voice acted some in the game... not a main character... but when i recognized his voice... i'm like It's HIM!!!... and then the credits confirmed it... :-P

dang, i want to finish FFVII, havn't played that since early Dec...

okie doke... Damn, Mona Sax... equals nine...
hot diggity... <---(WTFreaks-in-a-mythologies???)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:16 PM [+] ::
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now i'm frustrated, nothing works... >:-{


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:24 AM [+] ::
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BOOO YEAH!!! does the music work??? huh, huh, huh???
turn on ur speakers!!! It's ALMOST FRIDAY!!!



o and i think this is sad :-(


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:48 PM [+] ::
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"Maybe we have more control over the future than we think."
-Lana Lang

Lex mentioned "Lazarus" to his father...

is it possible that the vials r from the "Lazarus Pit"??? O SH--!!!
MAYBE ADAM ISN'T BATMAN... but THE LAZARUS PIT is related to BATMAN's enemy Ra's Al Ghul!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:57 PM [+] ::
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