:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Thursday, March 11, 2004 ::

i am bothered... maybe it's just a phase... which is good... cuz a phase passes and it becomes the past... but if this is a phase, it hasn't passed yet... so i'm bothered... i don't want to be a dictator... have dictatorship... but if u don't like something, do something about it... but if it's not my business, i have the tendacy to make it my business... no no... that sounds worse than i mean it to be... feelings, i can't control them, nor can i control others... it sux... it contradicts of what our conscious says what's right... but it feels so damn good, don't it?... it feels soooo goooood, but u know it's bad... Temptation, indeed... violence begets violence... "y r they bagging on me? what did i do to them? that's all in teh past, i've changed" hypocrites... "haha, so u f---ed him, didn't u?... u f---ed her??? slut... run u over, i'll drive" hypocrites... I KNOW they're just words... to vent; to express... most likely u'all won't have the guts to do it because of the consequences and/or aftermath and/or ur guilt and/or conscious... I KNOW: not threats; just vents... but i'm bothered... but what is it doing to the other person???... making them feel worse while u feel better... i believe in walking away and forgetting about it... it's not like u'll bump into each other in life anyway... or if u do, well, u'all gotta grow up and settle it somehow... but it will never happen... the more people u have in this world, the more differences, variety... there will always be conflicts; conflicts there will be... greed or not... no matter... we challenge each other knowingly or not... that's what makes life entiresting, very... the drama... but what??? go ahead, do what it takes to make urself feel better... vent out, express ur anger... shout and dont' tell anyone y ur shouting ... u may even question: what's the point of being angry if u can't express it?... well, hard as it is, u can... but it's in a different form, a different way... true, it may not make u feel better, but u gotta try... i believe it's not worth expressing if it puts another down... no matter who they are... from the taunts to the rants, gossip, rumors, and insults... those all fine and dandy... but ur enemy has feelings too... whether u r friend or ally, enemy, acquantance, stranger, or bystander... to me, it doesn't matter who u r... U ALL ... THEY ALL have feelings... u want a person to change? tell them... in an orderly manner... no ranting... make finite reasons... reasonable reasons... no bullcrap... don't give the bull crap... dont' cut the bull up, gory and disgustingly horrid and give it... give it in its finely wrapped self and show the whole... (sorry ... the bull was just rambling... sorry)... back to what i was saying... WE ALL HAVE FEELINGS... from the neighing, to the out of the blue "ur a bi0tch"... yeah, ur feeling better... ur lifting the spirits of ur friends... but ur enemy is growing more bitterness... yeah, tough love insultsmay work... but that's too much of a risk if u weigh it out... ur enemy's esteem, no matter how low it gets or how high its pride, is gunning towards u... in a negative impact... that will only produce more and more among everyone... until... until one of u helps the other... ha!!! friends with the enemy??? become an enemy in ur friend's eyes??? that's possible??? ... sadly true, but with purpose... ... y does it seem like i'm the only one that sees it... to have a cocky sense, am i the only one that knows what IS right??? ... yet i dont' force u... y?... cuz, i dont' know *shrug... u ahve to learn it urself... and i hope ua'll learn it before it's too late... otherwise... i don't know... [insert the future unknown here]... yeah, express ur feelings, but not negatively towards anyone... and those of u who r taking the hits - whether ur the one that instigated, or its just another one of ur friend's rants that ur getting really tired of hearing or that ur actually encouraging... stop the spread of the virus that kills hopes and dreams... ... ... everyone has their limits, what/whom pushes them over the edge? don't u think it could be UUU??? ((joyfully, unfortunate/fortunate, I never get tired of hearing from uuu... y me? d0 u believe me? how long can u trust me? do u even trust me?... sorry, i do confuse u on purpose to keep u on ur toes... ur wits... ... what makes me different from everyone else?... where did i get this sense of... 'good'/'bad'... too much TV i tell ya... BATMAN and Power Rangers with a lil bit of Bobby's World, and Tiny Toons and Animaniacs for humor... O!!! and GIJOE for the blowing up action in me, and X-men and Spider-man for the adolescent drama))
??? blanked out ???
what have i become???

enemies have friends who would support them as ur friends support u...
there will always be conflict
enemies r not bad people... they r those u choose to dislike (reason or not)

the problem worsens as their feelings r provoked... hm, who provoked it i wonder...

what more can i say? is it wrong that i don't force u all what to say and do?
u all can choose to deny me as much as i can choose to do what i want...
u can do anything, just believe...
remember, it's you can, not they will accept what you do
and viiiiiice versa... they can tell u, but u don't accept them...

we can think all we want, but it's our actions that will make or break us
'nuff said...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:22 AM [+] ::
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