:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Monday, May 31, 2004 ::

ahhhh grad nite... it was all right... i'm SO not a dancer... sorry edward if i pissed u off that night...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:44 PM [+] ::
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okokok... i meant to blog this the day of the bosco/joseph prom... what did i do that day?... was that the day of the beach?... i had to go somwhere afterwards too... o yeah, mark's thing... no wait, then it wasn't that day... no, wait... yeah it was... so i go to the beach with tin and her cousin then meet up with icky and eat some pizza... purty purty good equals 9... and then go to mark's and take care of the kids... then met up with dominic and went to... La Marada? area... saw Liza, she said our prom was better... troy, junior, jon was there... justin... and other girls i can't seem to remember... D4 to be exact kinda... ummm then went to look for another party, but that was over... brought Karessa home, and then dominic and mark at mark's house... SO... FLASHBACK...
ahhhh prom... just as it was last year... it WAS last year... wahwahwah... so yeah, at the time, didn't want to go, and i'm still proud that i didn't go... cuz like i said, if i were to go, it had to be with a special someone, the first and last and only... but alas... no... but i was being persuaded to go with anyone... so i was like... ohhhh alrighty... let's see... one afternoon at SJHS... karen takes me to the side and whispers that Liza is still looking for a date, and that she had a dress for our prom for months... and i was thinkin'... WTH? it's not even her prom... but o k... i'll ask... so i get home... call her up twice, no answer... and it's good thing i never leave messages... so next day... markulis is pissed... *shrug... who knows y... but it wasn't about the vids... (i'm still workin' on it FYI):-P... mark's happy... ahhh the answer reveals... mark is going to prom with Liza... entiresting, very... read some blogs, xangas, chatterboxes, tagboards... thanx to noel... and all that jazz... es alll goooood... i'm no dancer... that would be pretty dumb to mix a dancer with a nondancer... no fun... yup yup yup... then v-ness says she'd go with me... but i decline... a week later... WTH... y not?... and then she says yes... then a couple hours later No... cuz she doesn't want jon to be pissed off... soo awww tooooo bad for her... and then... the day before prom... people said to keep asking someone ... so i'm like fine vvhatever... i ask nikki... but it's too short of a notice... soooo nope... but es all good... me and dominic went to the prom anyway... but he dressed up!!!... i didn't... yup... me in my usual clothing... attire... MR. Linares stops us... we leave... go to a debut... he picks up Athena? we go our separate ways... he goes to wilson's queen mary prom... i go back to ours... takes pictures... and it turns out only one was good... :-/ mahz bad... i see markulis angry... sux for him :-/ ... ummmm chill at noel's ... da end


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:04 AM [+] ::
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blah, i don't like this new layout of blogger... but then again... i might get used to it... that's if i return... so then... i dont' know if i'll ever 'bbl' as it says on the highlighted note... hm, kymee's right... i "get into other people's lives cuz i dont' have one of my own"... Karen's recent post May 8 post says it all... Paragaphs 4,5, beginning of 6 (up to before the shy part), and 7 says it all... but none if u will ever know how it feels unless u feel what i feel ya'know?... hm seems like this post wil be longer than i expect... well, i'm feelin' worse than ever... and it's just as stupid as me self-pitying myself for not doing my HW... and ... other... corny shiznets and noncorny shiznets... and the fact that... i love/hate being me... psh... 'nuff said... no more... i want to cry, but i can't see to do that anymore... literally ... ... either i'm too concerned of the future, of other people... they are only thoughts and not actions... or i criticize myself too much... or not enough... or my viewpoints isn't with the norm of this society... which i'm happy/unhappy... it's hard to support thyself when i'm the only one supporting it... and it's hard to trust others if there's a chance that they can't help u fullheartedly... yup, i said it... i'll say it again... i dont' expect anything from any of u... i'd like to do it all by myself, but it's hard enough as it is... and if i just rely on someone, either they wont' pull through or it's not to my liking... then that's a setback already... or maybe i'm just setbacking myself... ya'know what?... think of every LITTLE negative thing and i'll enhance it and it'll just put me down... and i do it purposefully too... 'I don't know' is a scary phrase... cuz i don't know y, i don't know what specifically to do... i dotn' know if i could do vvhatever... i dont' know... hm... i can only get those tingly feelings in the nose but no tears... i hate this sh--... i want to but i dont' want to...

i'll always have a morbid mind... heh, or not

dissonance


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:57 PM [+] ::
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HAHAHA i just heard a funny story...
my mom just told me, learning from her various sources today

so there's this tall, black guy that liked my eldest sister (no, that wasn't the funny part, but thinking about it now makes me smile)... so the guy liked my sister... and he came over our house sometimes... i never really knew him... my sister didnt' like him back, cuz supposedly his attitude blegh, so they became OK friends and then there was a time my sister, when she turned 18, moved out of the house and into an apartment... trying it on her own (which ultimately didn't succeed, but props for trying)... during this time, she borrowed 500 dollars from this tall, black guy... then over time, the guy asked my sister to give back the money that is owned... but my sister didn't have the money, so she fessed up to my parents and asked the money from them... so my parents agreed and he came over to our house... my sister wasn't here (coward :-P), but my dad was and paid him and made him sign a paper saying that they paid him back... that's the last (only?) time i've seen of him... *burp... ok... so my mom finds out some information today... the black guy, his name is Milton Bradley (not the board game company) is really good Baseball... yes, Baseball fans(which sure as hell doesn't include me)... the same Milton Bradley who's being asked by the Dodgers to sign up with them (or is he already signed?)... entiresting, very... eh?... well, my mom found the contract that they made him sign for the debt he was owed... soooo they're all excited and hoping he makes it big...

for more on Milton Bradley, just type his name in any search engine... he grew up in Harbor City, CA (near Carson/Torrance right?), born in 1978, went to Poly High School... soooo yup yup

entiresting, very

wahwahwah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:10 PM [+] ::
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