:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::
As you wish...Natalie Portman, Ziyi Zhang, BoA Kwon, Maggie Q equals nine
I try not to look for the good in any situation.
That way I find I'm not disappointed by anyone. - BATMAN
what is said now isn't always meant to be forever
ideally, Encalab .....learrus s'taht won
what was Cinyc .....Msimissep fo tnih a \w,
Tsilaer .....Noisserpxe fo yaw a no more
:: Sunday, May 09, 2004 ::
blah, i don't like this new layout of blogger... but then again... i might get used to it... that's if i return... so then... i dont' know if i'll ever 'bbl' as it says on the highlighted note... hm, kymee's right... i "get into other people's lives cuz i dont' have one of my own"... Karen's recent post May 8 post says it all... Paragaphs 4,5, beginning of 6 (up to before the shy part), and 7 says it all... but none if u will ever know how it feels unless u feel what i feel ya'know?... hm seems like this post wil be longer than i expect... well, i'm feelin' worse than ever... and it's just as stupid as me self-pitying myself for not doing my HW... and ... other... corny shiznets and noncorny shiznets... and the fact that... i love/hate being me... psh... 'nuff said... no more... i want to cry, but i can't see to do that anymore... literally ... ... either i'm too concerned of the future, of other people... they are only thoughts and not actions... or i criticize myself too much... or not enough... or my viewpoints isn't with the norm of this society... which i'm happy/unhappy... it's hard to support thyself when i'm the only one supporting it... and it's hard to trust others if there's a chance that they can't help u fullheartedly... yup, i said it... i'll say it again... i dont' expect anything from any of u... i'd like to do it all by myself, but it's hard enough as it is... and if i just rely on someone, either they wont' pull through or it's not to my liking... then that's a setback already... or maybe i'm just setbacking myself... ya'know what?... think of every LITTLE negative thing and i'll enhance it and it'll just put me down... and i do it purposefully too... 'I don't know' is a scary phrase... cuz i don't know y, i don't know what specifically to do... i dotn' know if i could do vvhatever... i dont' know... hm... i can only get those tingly feelings in the nose but no tears... i hate this sh--... i want to but i dont' want to...
i'll always have a morbid mind... heh, or not
dissonance
c-ya:-)
-j
:: j 11:57 PM [+] ::
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