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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Down and out again...
Current mood: confused


I wish I knew my purpose.

Listening to:
Aphasia
- Clarity at Heights
- Blue Beneath Your Skin


c-ya:-)


-j

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Ocean Waves
Current mood: :-) Agnostic *_*
Category: Religion and Philosophy


Life is like the Ocean Waves. It has its ups and downs and you know one will come after the other.

just gotta have faith...


c-ya:-)


-j

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Friday, February 24, 2006

The Process of ...Contenting...
Current mood: content


My dad and I just moved the Love Sac into my room...
Though my room is a little crowded now, I feel more content...
I feel unlazy despite I haven't studied or done any of my homework...
But that's o k!... I'm a changin'... just need that continued Motivation...

Today, I'm going job training to replace my sister when she finally leaves her job.
I won't be going to the Radio Station tonight (KPFK 90.7FM LA; 98.7FM SB). Sorry guyz... Priorities ya'know? Can't have fun all the time.

When I was a younger lad, I never really cared about turning 18 or 21. Where I'll be legal to buy and enter Adult Recreational Activities. I never wanted to grow up, but I was in denial because everyone grows up. In less than 6 months, I'll be 21, so I might as well enjoy the privelages that will be given to me. Yeah, who knew... I don't like change, but change is inevitable so I welcome it voluntarily and willingly. Now, I can't wait to be 21. That is, I don't want to do it alone, ya'know?... need a partner and ally to do the things... a Buddy System so to speak... I'm already a CHAIR Dancer... one day, I'll be dancing on the dancefloor and peeps will be like, "NINGA WHAT??? Look at Sushí!!! He look 'tupid! BUT f--- he's dancing! YEAH! Go, Sush!!!" and have fune li'dat ya'know

...and all that jazz...


c-ya:-)


-j

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Monday, February 20, 2006

I think I'm a CHAIR Dancer...
Current mood: quixotic


Using my deductive reasoning that classification of "dancing" defines it as 'moving they body rhythmically to a beat', I have defined myself as a CHAIR Dancer. Most of you know that I don't like dancing, but referring the definition, it appears that I do dance. Just not openly. I prefer to move my groove whilst I sit upon a chair. Though I may not dance on the dancefloor, I do dance in my chair. I do not necessarily lap dance, but I don't mind receiving one. The difference between a lap dance and... "CHAIR Dancing"... is the receiver of the lap dance enjoys the dancer and the receiver of the "CHAIR Dancing" dances with the dancer.
So yeah, like ya'know vvhatever... i tried it at the debut last Sunday... and ya'know... i feel that much comPortable about dancing... sorta kinda not not...

anyhooooooo, i want a job, i want credit history, i want to liiiiiiive...
i want to live a life in which i didn't want... "i didn't want," u say?... well, back in my younger days, ahem, i never wanted to conform to society, but i also knew i would conform eventually nevertheless... and i believe i am assimilating... similarly i've been thinking of my Puture... yes-sum... it seems unlikely that i'll turn into an immortal superhero (but u never know). So, until that time comes, I might as well think of ... :-/ growing up :-/

School: UCI, CSSD, Film editing?... :-/ i cannot decide... well, i read that the difference between a UC and CSU is that UC is more Theory-based, and CSU is more practical and hands-on... Entiresting, very...
Irvine: IF i choose to go here, I could finish LBCC by the end of this year, BUT i would have to overload on units... AND i can't be as adaptable to having classes with mi amiga...
@ Irvine, I'm thinking of majoring in Psychology and Criminology. I'm less than an hour away from home. It's far enough to be away, but close enough if I want to come back. I'm still close to family and friends. I met this lady who works in a juvenile delinquet/mentally ill place. If I get some experience from her workplace, it would be good because it's in the Irvine area anyway. also, i know people at Irvine and friends who are majoring in Psychology also...
San Diego: IF i choose SD, I could finish LBCC by the end of this year, but i wouldn't need to overload on units...
@ SD, It is more practical because I like helping people and it has an exclusive Social Work major which Irvine doesn't have. I do prefer helping the helpless than... eh, i'm getting ~lost~... ummmm so yeah... where was i?... uhhh haha... funny, i want to help the helpless, but i'm getting lost in my own thoughts myself... :-P... anyway! I would probably double major too. I could major in the Criminology studies also. *shrug... What else?That work experience, if i get any, would help. Also, I would have to move to SD which is kewl, ya'know?... i know at least 2 people there and i can always, hopefully, roomie-in with one of 'em... SD is far from Long Beach, but 2 hour drive... hmmm... although living away from family would be kewlio, but lonesome at the same time... Same with my friends, most of them would be far away. Of course, I could always meet new peeps... But ya'know vvhatever the freakever...
In either college, I would major in helping people...
Then, there's Film Editing School... I like film editing, but i cannot focus because I'm a perfectionist. I like it to be done in ONE sitting. (That's why i'm lagging with all those other videos I was asked or paid to do... sorry guyz and galz... goin' on 3 years!)
Hm, the school would be in the LA or Burbank area and I'd probably familiarize with the area well and i could show-off my geography skillz to whoever visits... wahwahwah... the problem is, i get really turned off by the competition. I just want to edit without too much hype. I guess i easily self-criticize myself...? i don't know... well, Film Editing... not much money there... i think...? or there's an over abundance of people who wants to make it in the entertainment field. Money?... sh--, freaking love-hate... need/want... In anything that I LOVE to do, i don't want money, BUT i need the bills... and like every other American, gotta love my materialism...
o k, back to living in LA or Burbank... yeah, i'm still close to friends and family and living on my own or what not... o k, enough of that...

vvhatever... i'm looking for a job, but none of it is fun... i don't know... nothing ever is enough, eh? i had a lot of other thoughts, but i can' t remember.

.MY MOTIVATION.


c-ya:-)


-j

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

"Voice of Wisdom"


So i'm the "Voice of Wisdom" despite me being a Gemini...
it feels really good to be called that, but
i really feel weak... in this fat ninja body...
-_-


c-ya:-)


-j


(added: 1-26-05 8:33PM)
i don't regret not getting involved...
i regret not doing anything at all...


c-ya:-)


-j




Currently listening:
Creep
By Radiohead
Release date: By 23 December, 1999


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Monday, October 31, 2005

You can't spell slaughter without laughter!!!


.whatif.





c-ya:-)





-j


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Monday, September 12, 2005

Baby girl born to brain-dead woman dies


Good-Bye, Sanity...

There are reasons unknown why this is the best of all possible worlds.

. Ignorance is Bliss .





c-ya:-)





-j


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Help! I need somebody. Help!
Current mood: cold


Not just anybody.





c-ya:-)





-j


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