:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Friday, December 26, 2003 ::

maybe i'll blog my X-mas experience... it's ups and downs... ... but right now... it's frustrating that my computer is freakin' slow... freaking freakin' fraggin' frickin' frackin' crap... GAHHHHHHHH... and this here computer, the family one... the mouse doesn't work ... so i'm doin' everythin' by keyboard... the TAB buttons goin' to be all worn out... freakin' vvhatever...
(hm,... here's a fun fact... i started this site on this comp. when my comp. broke down...)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:20 PM [+] ::
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i've lost the spirit...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:42 PM [+] ::
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Wind


The Force of Nature Quiz
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flippant??? gahh... i'm afraid of that if things(I) change... so it's either 'equal to all', or none but one is all'... hmmm... like i sez: if i don't do it to one, i do it to none... :-`


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:17 PM [+] ::
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i've been debating whether to type this out or not... just cuz i'm typing now doesn't mean i'll say what i have in mind... see, it's either i type it out so everyone knows what's goin' on right now with me, and just to have a remembrance of what happened a couple hours ago... ya'know, so when i reread it, it's all... o yeah!...!! ... well now then... but then i'm not one to say what's 'special' aboot what happened a couple hours ago... all u'll know is... that something happened an hour ago or so... well, if ur reading this... eh... i won't go into detail... wahwahwah... maybe i will later, maybe not... but yeah anyway... just know i'm a stubborn J-hole... rewards and consequences mean nothing to me... i'm not afraid... well... at times i am, but it doesn't really effect my judgement... por ejemple... if someone where to threaten to kill me, yeah, i'd be like whoa and my heart is pumped, but if i gotta go, i gotta go... i have no physical prowl to physically fight... it's true... ummm so yeah... my phone wil eventually run out of batteries unless i buy another battery pack... i don't have my car keys, so no keys = no car... i can't save u as fast as i can as before... it'll be like the old dayz when i used my bike, but i dont' have my bike so i'd walk and run... and purty much i'm out of shape for that... i won't be online 25/8 anymore... and i don't cry... i may get the tingly sensation in the nose, but i can't cry... even if i dont' want to... well, even if i wanted to cry i can't, not even that tingly sensation... welps... i said more than i say... and i'm sayin' it cause i can... cuz ya'll know, years ago there's no online or cell phones, so info. is passed slower... but instead of explaining myself all the time just know that i walked away from home, not ran away... wahwahwah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:31 AM [+] ::
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thing's suck...

nothing is nothing...
:-!

Martian Manhunter and BATMAN work great together...

y am i not gettin' any???

i am so in need to know what life would be if i wasn't here... just like George Bailey in It's a Wonderful Life

yeah, so like... let's think of other things...
Like yesterday and today's episode of Justice League... every episode is at least 2 parts so an hour of fun filled action packed stuff... more like 40 min. including the commercials... let's see... so there's this guy... John D.? he's an inmate at this prison... he was having a dream in which he controlled a robot and killed the Justice League and he impressed Lex Luthor, Joker, and other bad guyz... he woke up by his friend, who is a security guard, because it was time for him to do an experiment he volunteered for; they chit chatted aboot how John D. could be approved for his parole... after the experiemnt the Doctor was holding up some cards and John D. could read minds and he got all the cards correct... the doctor was saying how long term side effects r still unknown and the ESP is temporary... his guard friend came in and said the authorities denied his parole... later on, John D.'s Girlfriend visits him and says 'it's over, i've found someone else'... he tries to reason with her, that he has a plan and things r working out for him and he'll get out of prison soon, but she doesn't take it cuz he's said that many times before... she leaves and he gets angry... that night, there's a prison break... Solomon Grundy, cobra guy?, Luminous, Volcana, and Firefly is shown escaping, while John D. hides out to where the doctor and the experiment room is... he urges the doctor to lock the door. the doctor does so, and gets hit across head, knocing him out... John D. turns on the machine to full power and soaks in the rays... he screams and all that jazz... meanwhile... Green Lantern stops Volcana and Firefly... Martian Manhunter takes care of Solomon Grundy, Hawkgirl takes care of the cobra guy, and Flash tries to catch Luminous, but they perceive him as a weak sauce so he gets beaten up... and Superman and Hawkgirl captures Luminous... meanwhile, the warden and the security friend find John D. and turn off the machine... and take him to sick bay... later on, Green Lantern, BATMAN, the warden and the security guard find everyone in the sick bay room asleep, talking in their sleep, and John D. gone... GL wonders y there's this kind experiments in a prison, and the warden says where else would there be volunteers... GL says does it matter, he's a nobody, we can get him another day, it's been days since BATMAN slept anyway... BATMAN replies that it's been 3 night and talks aboot The Odyssey scene when Ulyssessesees? pokes out the Giant's eye and says that his name is Nobody... the other giant asks the Giant who did this, and he said Nobody did it... i thought it was somewhat irrelevant but i like greek mythology and all that jazz... annnnyyyyywhooooo... BATMAN stays there and investigates... while the other heros (except Wonder Woman, she wasn't in this episode) go on their way... At a house, John D's exGF greets her new BF and they go to sleep... outside John D. is thinking... the exGF wakes up and gets a glass of water from the sink... then John D. appears (but he's really outside)... she tries to wake up the new BF but he's fast asleep, John D. is talking blah blah blah and says it's destiny... and thinks, i like that word... call me Dr. Destiny... so his face melts off and he gets a new spiffy bad guy suit... and grabs the exGF on the bed... in reality... she's having a nightmare and she's kicking and screaming, while the new BF is trying to wake her up... meanwhile... Hawkgirl and the Flash is up at the Tower which is orbitting the earth and they both fall asleep... it's been a long day... that's y... Clark Kent reads the Daily Planet about the prison break and then turns off the light and sleeps... John Stewart(Green Lantern) goes to sleep too... at a hospital where John D.'s exGF is taken to, she's given' a sedative (although she's still asleep) to relax her... the doctors leave the room urging the new BF to not stay in the room,... who knows y... but BATMAN sneaks in the window, and Martian Manhunter (aka J'onn J'onnz pronounced John Jones) walks through the wall and BATMAN tells him to do his thang... which is... read/search her mind... he figures out that she's having a nightmare being controlled by a man calling himself Dr. Destiny... in Flash's dream: he's babysitting these kids and the kids get hungry and try to eat him, he runs away, and when he slows down, everyone, the whole world is still standing still... Dr. Destiny appears and everything except them turns black and white... Flash is afraid of going too fast and unable to stop and he dies of old age in a split second... although to him that split second is a whole lifetime to him... Clark is having a dream of having dinner with Lois Lane but then his eye beams start getting out of control, he tries to hide it, but Lois is suspicious and she gets caught in his blast... John Stewart walks along the street and everyone is afraid of him... Dr. Destiny appears and says that he's not human anymore and no one will accept him... Hawkgirl is trying to wake up Flash, and Martian Manhunter appears saying that something is wrong,,, but MM turns in to DD (haha, get me?) and clamps her wings, then she falls down from the sky unable to fly into a coffin... the coffin closes and is buried underneath, she's frantic(i think Hawkgirl is clausterphobic)... in reality, BATMAN phones Clark and tells him to not fall asleep... but too late... MM checks on GL and can't wake him up... BATMAN checks a lead at the house where the exGF and the BF lives... nothing... no lead, he thinks: if he's using his powers mentally, he has to be vulnerable physically and would have to be at a place where he thinks it's safe... he asks for MM help, but MM declines saying that on the news that escapee John D's exGF as passed away... dead... he's goin' to enter the minds of the other Leaguers and try to wake them up while BATMAN searches Dr. Destiny... MM enters Superman's mind where Metropolis and the Daily Planet building is half demolished... Perry White is dead on the ground, and Superman is bulky and tall and is afraid to touch anything... he can't control his powers and they're still growing and evolving... Jimmy Olsen appears and says hi... Superman rushes to him and gives him a hug, which broke Jimmy's back... whoops... MM appears and reasons with Superman to calm down and wake up... Superman flies away to Smallville and MM follows him into the Kent's farm where Superman is curled in his spaceship... MM somehow wakes him up... so from there BATMAN is driving and is listening to a recording aboot John D's profile... BATMAN is fallin' asleep a bit and then he's aboot a hit Dr. Destiny on the road... he swerves and it's actually a truck he almost hit... he listens to the recording... John D. used to have a low income job at Lex Corp... BATMAN turns the BATMOBILE around and drives away... MM goes into GL's dream and tells him to concentrate and that nothing is real... GL has to go into a giant Green Lantern (an actual Lantern) and succumb himself with the green aura to stop the nightmare... MM says don't do it and Dr. Destiny attacks, saying he's worthless and MM replies, that's y i brought a friend... Superman appears and attacks Dr. Destiny... DD is taking care of Supes and MM while GL walks into the... well, the giant GL... haha... but the giant GL explodes and GL the superhero captures DD, but then DD fades away and disappears... BATMAN is fallin' asleep again, but then goes into a coffeeshop and orders 3 cups of coffee... haha... cuts in line of everyone there... MM, Supers, and GL enter Flash's nightmare and Flash is happy, but then the 3 heroes start to slow down and turn black and white... MM mutters slowly... "think inside urself"... now Flash isn't a smart lad, he's a trickster jokester guy and so a min. goes by and he closes his eyes and concentrates... DD appears and tries to snap Flash out of it, but it doesn't work... Flash slows down to normal speed and everyone is fine and dandy... BATMAN then continues his drive, an image of DD tells him to fall asleep... BATMAN punches out the windshield cuz it was cracked when he crashed it before... and turns on the radio... the music sounded like JPOP when Sean Cabanilla first intro. it to me... haha anyway, it was a catchy tune and i hummed to it, but now i forgot... ohvvell... BATMAN then gets to his destination and it's purty much an abandoned building... DD tries to read BATMAN's thoughts but blocks it out humming to the music he was listening to in the car..., and BATMAN has been in this situation before,... pfff amateurs. wahwahwah... so BATMAN blocks it out and DD insults him by saying he doesn't have any real powers and that he'll infiltrate his thoughts... BATMAN says his mind is a scary place... DD tries to perform an illusion where the area turns into like that picture with the stairs upside down, sideways, and it leads everywhere, but BATMAN hums to the music he was listening to and just stands there till the illusion is gone... wahhawahhawaha... soooo BATMAN takes care of John D. easily... ... dadada... back at the Tower, Hawkgirl wakes up and everyone is sayin'.... blah balha blah ... and then on the side... BATMAN is sitting on a chair knocked out sleepin... yup yup yup... o k...


*think of what it lead to
(this blog took a long time cuz i was watching 24 on Ch. 11)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:49 PM [+] ::
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Gosh darns it all
oh vvell...
entiresting, very
let's just see
what happens next
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c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:20 PM [+] ::
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how sweeeet. Martian Manhunter did the hero walk... well, actually, he shapeshifted and left... but he still did the hero walk... and let's remind ourselves who else did the hero walk... Clark Kent from Smallville... Eminem in 8Mile... 'Mario'(well his name isn't Mario, but the actor played him in Super Mario Bros. movie) sorta did the hero walk in Maid in Manhatten... oh, and i thought aboot this just now... Peter Pan in Hook was in the process of doing the hero walk, but didn't complete it... oh and i did the hero walk... :-j


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:59 PM [+] ::
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i want to finish those videos but i can't seem to bring myself to it... literally, my whole day isss... :-/ unproductive... eat, computer, TV, movies... my sleeping habits r not stable... i sleep a few hours at a time at different times a day... i don't wanna go back to school, but i know i should... it's goin' to make me do something... i dont' excercise... although my tummy has gotten flatter... i eat more or less... (pizza every week)... i mean... i eat too much or too little? i can't really tell... hmm odd... there's nothing on TV... nothing online... i want to finish the videogames... Final Fantasy VII, X, X-2, Kingdom Hearts, and Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic, but i don't even feel like playing it... i can't bring myself to do anything, unless they're simple buttons, on and off... click click click... turn nob, ding... chew... extract, intake... but nothing else... driving has become scary... i'm more and more daydreaming... i can't do it literally... i mean it's right there... i have MORE than enough time (obviously), but i can't... what is restricting me? now that i dont' understand... i know what's wrong, i know what to do... but i don't do it, why?... it's odd to the max really... it's not death, it's not over a girl, it's not health, it's not anything... this 'learned laziness' has really affected me... learned laziness - receiving awards without work... but honestly... rewards nor consequences will effect me... which is good in a sense... force me to do it, i'd do it, but not well as i'd like it to be... i'm afraid of failing others yeah, but then i'd just go into hiding... *shrug... there's no reward or consequence for me to do anything... i just wish i would be able to do something... it's sad... i have all that is needed to work... but i don't do it... simple as that... i don't work... afraid? fear?... i dont' wanna say i'm bored, cuz then i should do something aboot it... i mean... i'm bored when i don't have anything to do... but i do have something to do, so i'm not bored, but i dont' wanna do it, but i do, but can't bring myself to do it... i'm on the f---in' computer where i could finish these vids... but no... the living room is clear and i could play those video games, but no... there's books i could read, but no... am i dying?... haha... arghh... music isn't doing anything good either... i'm not mad for rage... i'm not sulking to brood... i'm nothing... freakin' A... i'm not goin' to do well in school... even IF i have just one class... i probably won't even do the work... cuz if it's 'too hard' i'll say freak it; do it later... 'too easy'... i'll still do it later... my goodness, what have i become... i know what i am, this is the first time i'm writing this out... typing this out... i'm hungry... yet i dont' wanna eat... this morning... i was hungry, and my internal (sh-- i can't remember simple words or math or anything anymore)... internal... DIGESTIVE (that's the word!!!) functions were whack... i mean.. my stomach sorta hurt, but not as bad as i've felt it before... but i just kept goin' back and forth to the bathroom... but i'm fine and all... but dang... what's happening... this sux a bunch... yeah, it's easier said than done... all i have to do is double click that icon, or turn on the power... and use my brain and think of complex things and to get my work done... but i can't... i only seem to work on complex things when there's no credit to it?... kinda... right? no?... not too sure on that... but somethin' is wrong... i'd like it to go away or be solved so i can be productive... but it doesn't seem like it will.. i'm me, u can't change that... i act weird and those of u who say be urself... well, believe it, that is me... this is me... or that is them... hmmm... schizophrenia, my sister has been telling me things she's learned... people literally hear voices, but don't know where it's coming from... paranormal stuff... i Want it to happen to me, but when it's like a moment for it, i freak out and pray it doesn't happen... what a pussy... haha... like right now... i could look behind me or mirror, outside or anything... power goes off... i faint... dream, nightmare... and something 'kewl' happens to me... but i know if it does, i'll freak out... and so i hope it doesn't happen... but then... it's a good thing, cuz it's something i can't actually control, but it turns out i could... or not... :-P... ever thought aboot what would happen when u die?... what would people say or think?... and then after a while... everyone goes on with their life... can't remember everyone... things go on... i want to be crazy... i just dont' wanna know... cuz then i'd get scared and be what r u talkin' aboot?... but then i want to be crazy cuz then... i won't be accountable for my actions, but i will, though i won't know i actually did it... hmmm... schizophrenia... kewl/scary to have... hmmm... i was tellin' a friend... whenever i've thrown a punch, i hesitate before the impact... i've thrown a few... but just when my fist hits it's living destination, i hestate and my fist goes soft and i try to retract my arm, but it's too late... the damage (if any) is done... and then she said "well, that's because ur such a nice guy..." and i thought... yeah i am... i suppose... but yeah, my mind ain't that nice... think of the worse things and ur not thinkin' like my mind... y am i typing this?... heck if i were to tell anyone, and something does happen... then that person can be a witness to my karazy talk... heck, this blog can be evidence.. . but doesn't a number of people, not everyone, think like this... they dont' necessarily tell everyone cuz they dont' think it 25/8... where ami gettin' at... o h yeah... i'm a lazy anal


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:09 AM [+] ::
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dang, i was hopin' i'd get Parts 3-? before the month is over... oh vvell... yeah, was thinkin' of random thoughts, now choosing to think of girls that stick to my mind whom i've never or rarely have talked to:
- girl who used to work at Chik-a-file (looked like dead-end-job-Rachel Leigh Cook)
- girl at mass (in Confirmation, but different group; she grew her hair longer!!! entiresting, very)
- Zavanna's cousin... ( no comment ) (it's stupid, that's y it's no comment)... ( i don't... ahh! vvhatever) (nice skirt)
- girl at auditioning studio (is there a pattern? somethin' aboot the eyes... possible syndrome related to first crush?) *rubs chin, rubs chin indeed...
- that one guy'z lil sister... (*shrug) :-P... :-/ *places right index finger across mouth virtually horizonal and thumb sticks out resting on the left cheek... middle finger underneath chin, then the other two one after the other,... ... OMGoodness... how old is she??..?. ... *thunkin'... she's probably 6,7,8th grade... AHHH vvhatever... they all grow up and mature anyway... ahahha what am i talkin' aboot... i'm supposed to list them, not elaborate... y am i typing here... WTH?... hmmm... i can't even write with writing material anymore... i usually write cursive... and i can't even read it anymore... :-`... doesn't that just sux a bunch... *scratches back of neck... *rubs/scratch between lip and nose
i'm bleeding a lot recently... through my left nostril and not in my right pinky toenail... ^_^ ... heheheh...ok ummmm *yawnn... so like... the past summer i've been sleeping even before 11:30 PM... now, it's winter, and i can't sleep till well past 3 o'clock... vveird, very... entiresting, very *yawnnn.....
-ummmm ... yeah... that one guy'z lil sister shouldn't be on the list... only the other 4... o wiat... how aboot... ummm... lemme think... eh, can't remember... but since i'm not sleepin'... let's document my sightings and thoughts aboot each one... talk aboot 'not' prejudgin' someone... *shrug...
o k... the Chik girl... she was a cashier when i talked to her... and then... i got a combo... and she asked what drink i wanted, but i said, 'yeah'... and then she stared at me... and i'm like... 'o, yeah, a coke'... haha... saw her like 2 more times with months in between since then... and then... she looked unhappy with outside her job... but yeah
(soo like... these r the ones that stand out the most... i'm not just focusing on them ONLY,,, ok???... if i don't do it to one, i do it to none... some more than others...)
-ummmm... the girl at church... or mass... usually see her at the sunday 12 o'clock mass... now that 12 is gone, it's now 10:30, but i've been goin' sat. afternoons now... so anyway, she only goes if her dad goes... if that's her dad... and if the mom, or GF, or stepmom of the dad goes with them, she tries noticeably hard to avoid lookin', talkin', and sitting next to her... spoke to her once after a confirmation meeting, just makin' conversation... with Tyler... found out they see each other, but rn't close at the same school they went to,... Poly... *fart... 'scuse'muah... not fart to Poly... i just farted.. heheh. sooo she doesn't smile nor laugh... and even if the priest jokes and it's actually funny and i listend... she's either not listening, or is deeply in thought of somethin'... or just daydreaming... (hm,... i purposefully looked like a bum at church yesterday,... jsut keepin' my head down with my hair over my eyes... maybe cuz i felt grungy... feelin' dirty... cuz like... i haven't showered... :-P... yum... yeah, been showering every 2 dayz the past week... but how is she outside of church, ya'know?... ghetto?... (what defines ghetto, honestly... really... "oh that's ghetto"... fu-- man, what's the definition of these slang words... vvhatever)...(really, u say ghetto, but does everybody have the same idear of it... no, it's more like where u live... and i don't live in one place... i'm happy... or content (that's the word i've been readin' a lot lately)... i'm content of being a filipino in a white-washed (turning 'ghetto' or not) neighborhood... east side long beach to be broad... having friends in very different areas and groups... knowing almost everyone takes their sides, and the some who have good points to why they choose their sides... in other words, i like me cuz i get the viewpoints of all,... ('nuff said?)... anyway... is she smart?... what kind of friends?... is she talkative... (spelled correct?) talkitive.... ahh vvhatever... ahh... i'm freaked when goin' back to school... ummm or is she quiet... what's her story...?or yeah... ok...ummmm yeah, she grew out her hair last i saw her... ummm...
- Zavanna's cousin... haha... seeing her at Zell's b-day party at her house September? '00... yeah, zell went to St. Anthony HS... (then to Cabrillo?, now back at SAHS?)... i still remember where she lives, not exactly... but haha i had trouble findin' her house, then my sister takes the phone and bluntly asks "Hello? yeah, where do u live???"... anyway ... i get there... lookin' at somethin', sitting down in front of the house... and being bombarded with water balloons from peeps i don't even know... i didn't know anybody but Zell... :-/ ... es kewl... i made my presence...ummm one tolchocked me real good in the head/chin... vvhatever... ummm her BF at the time was a guy who went to school at St. Anthony Elementary... told me... Noel, u reading?... 2 things come to mind... how he knew he was on ur "hit list"... and ... ummm at the school dance... a girl was sitting on ur lap... then got up... then the guy just kiddingly (OMG, i am not a articulate writer) sat on ur lap and felt that u had a boner... *Shrug,... just reiterating what he told me and what i remember out of it... but yeah... when zelle's cousin came out of her car... the first thing i noticed was her... pleather? skirt... i don't... not too short of a skirt, but tight enough that her out line of her legs stretch the pants when walkin'... but yeah... it was... nice. equal's nine. no nono.. not delicious... just like... ... umm haha 8-) ... haha... eyepopping?... eh,... just an eyecatcher... ... ... ummm... didn't really chill with her, she chilled inside, and i chilled outside... then it got darker... zell's friend's left except... this one white? guy... maybe partial mexican, or maybe he is... always had a smile... fun guy... could imagine him gettin' annoying sometimes, but alls kewl... zell's bf? i think he was still there... her cousin, (o yeah!!! her two lil cousins... they were afraid of me... but i talked to them on the phone, and they called me "Captain Kuya BATMA17 sir"... ok vvhatever) ummm one time in the night... fireworks started banging and everybody got scared thinkin' it's gunshots... and i knew it wasn't gun shots... but the first sound did scare me... ... just a lil :-P... okokok... so ran to the backyard... chilled inside... sang kareoke... very bad Nandito Ako singing,... yes, by me... and they were singing... ummm 'girls keep ur man at home? this club is bumpin' bumpion' biashdfpainhsdfk ablha blah ablha" yeah, they sang it, and haha, man this is messed up, but i didn't like to hear that song ever again... and there's a time outside...i think the BF was gone by this time... and it was only us 4 outside... the girls would swing their arms as if holding a lasso and throw it to catch me, then they would reel close to me... that was kewl... heheh... i'm just being me... and then the white guy was smiling too, but like wonderin' if he'd get lassoed too... but no, he didn't... and that guy,... i dotn' remember if he actually told me, or i just saw it in him... but he liked zell's cousin too... sayin' i like her and stuff... haha, i thought there's more, but that pretty much sums it up... oh goin' upstairs... i went into zell's room and while leavin' i accidentally knocked down her CD case... but she said it's ok, and just put me out of the room, while her and her cousin girl-talked and did vvhatevers ... o... yeah... best for last... i dont' know exactly how it happened,... it was nice... y'aknow?... i can't remember who sat on the car hood first, but me and the cousin sat on the car hood outside... and zell, her BF, and the white guy just goofin' around chillin' standin' in front of us... a small group circle ya'know? just chattin'... but we were sitting next to each other, she was on my right... and either she scooted closer to me... or (i don't know y i'm sayin' this... spur of the moment since i'm like vvhatever and can't sleep so yeah, flash back of me, eh? good for u reader) or i put my arms back just to lay against it... either way... heheh ... (this is so corny, dont' ruin it for me, reader, i like the thoughts... "i save my happy thoughts and use it accordingly") well, i put my arms back and she scooted closer and put my arms foward a bit and then she laid back , not using her whole wait against it, but a nice a touch... and none of us moved... shoooooot, i'm fine, she's fine... (cuz it's the lil things if u didn't know... LITTLE THINGs... DAMMIT, if u dont' know what i'm talkin' aboot, u dont' think that much do u... or not... SHUT UP, ME...) so yeah, that's kewl... that was kewl, cuz zell saw this and said "hey, what's goin' on here and then i just shrugged :-j ... and i forgot how it ended, but it's good, can't remember how got of the car hood first.... anyway... i left when my sister picked me up and i said thanx even though i've met everyone once for the first AND LAST that night... (even zell... i've met her twice or three times in person... and her BF only twice)... the first time i met her was at Milikan and then we went to McDs... oh sh-- reminds me of her friend there... and that other girl at knotts... Elena Santos's friends... (Elena Santos sounds familiar? well she went to SJHS... but didn't graduate :-(... hope she's well) yeah... dang, crazy shiznets... but yeah... ummm i remember zell telling me later... that zell (hmmm, what order should i put it, me first, or white guy first; does it matter? possibly maybe; maybe possibly)... zell said that her cousin said that i'm kewl... can't remember the exact words nor can i say it in broader terms... i can just say in generally, it was a pleasureable comment... was it meant to be pleasureable? or was it meant to be a neutral friendly compliment,... y do these things get to my head?... and then she said (i don't remember whether i asked or not) that the white guy was annonying... heheheh... maybe she just hung out with me just to avoid annoying guyz... that's not uncommon with me... girls rather goin' with me than other annoying guyz... but the thing is, once they find the cute guy they like, or would like to be cutest petutsy with, they'd go with them... eh, not a big problem right?... i least i kept them company... and again, y do these things come to mind?... so yeah... wouldn't that be sad if that meet that girl later in life again... is it sad that i still remember it... well she is remembered... but yeah... another thing comes to mind... we want what we want... but we also want it from someone we want... reread it over and over again... i don't wanna cut ur coccoon people... and what i mean by that is this... haha...: there's a coccoon... and a friendly chap comes by and watches it, fascinated... how often do u see a coccoon open into a butterfly in person? (holy crap, it's 5:25 AM ... mi madre hates it when she finds me awake still ... anyhoo) the guy watches its progress but then it stops half way... thinkin' that the butterfly is stuck... so he cuts open a bigger openning so that the butterfly can fly and live flyingly away... soo yeah flutters and.. stuff. but instead... the butterfly slides out and with brittle and crumpled wings drops to the ground and slowly picks itself up... well gets up and crawls away... turns out... while getting out of the coccoon, fluids of such r still being developed in the wings... so that when the wings r strong enough... it can break through the coccoon on its own... but alas, it didn't happen... and the butterfly crawled around with withered wings, never being able to fly... should i tell u A moral of the story?... ok... God gives personal obstacles so only u can grow and into a stronger being... can't ... or yeah... that's it... so yeah ... reread or not... my back hurts... nowadayz... how saddend... and i'm not sleepy but i'm screwed if mi madre finds me awake still... (and those that dont' like butterflies... do u feel sorry that it has to live like that FOREVER??/... or for the rest of its life... i read somwhere that some butterflies only live for 2 dayz? that true?... naturally not cuz of being splattered or ... DdddDEATH by unnatural (or natural) causes...)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:31 AM [+] ::
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j, the Right Job for you will allow you to be:

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took what kind of a right job for me type of test... gotta sign up and pay to get the exact answer, but i dont'... so i got the brief answer and all the blahs in it... but not really blahs... okokok uhmmmm got the test in the e-mail after signing up from the previous post thing-a-ma-gig...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:31 PM [+] ::
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The Original IQ Test

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here's the link...
there was one question which i was a hmmm to the max type of question...
True Knowledge exists in knowing that you know _________.
a - everything
b - nothing
c - the truth
d - the wheather
e - the meaning of life

i was leaning more on A or E, a lil bit on B, but no on D and E... in everything u know every false, truth, and in between... but it is saying TRUE knowledge so that's y i went with true.... and then knowing nothing means u know something... which is nothing... y would u choose nothing, unless u dont' care or u don't know... or not have the knowledge to comprehend what is being asked... or to some of that sort of degree...
:-`
entiresting, very to the max... vereally...

gah, i meant to go back and think/ponder/wonder/construe on that question, but i accidentally went to the next page.. so it was kept on C... nothin' wrong with that... i jsut wanted to ponder on it more... thas all...

but, as always, tests r just tests... based on the majority usually... for ejemple... u can be smart academically, but what aboot realistically, and vice versa... u got the education, do u have the talant...i mean yeah u can learn and all that jazz... but there's a limit or possibly no use in some things u learn in school... theory is kewl, most don't care... but it's good to know, ya'know???
we're all different people, get it in ur head... or not... accept it... or not... if we were all the same... then where's the fun of being different?... i mean... yeah, i was thinkin' somethin' earlier today... heheheh... like like like... hahaha i don't know y i was thinkin' this, but it relates to what i'm talkin' aboot... so like... uhhh at a formal dance... if everyone was the same... everyone would either dance... OR not go to the dance, and bone the freak with each other... and so everyone would know, and everyone would get in trubl... and all that jazz... but if we're different... the sneaky ones wouldn't go to the dance... while those who r afraid, or didn't think aboot doing those stuff, and would rather enjoy the party would cover up those who ditched/snuck out of it... ya'know... blah blah blah... funny how i thought of that... but the reason i thought of it was the same reason.... yeah... hahha... blah blah blah.. school start January... =-o...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:05 PM [+] ::
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okokok
Part II so like yeah,
i forgot to mention... hahah i think... ummm what was it??? o yeah, i meant for Carolyn to write down Elenor's name, but i forgot oh vvell... alrighty so i gave the starbucks and dropped off carolyn and i'm home in Approx. 15 min... Approxing 80-90 MPH on the freeway... so kewl so kewl... anyway... then now it's friday... i had a couple things to do... call people up STILL and then... wait i was thinkin' KNOTTS day... mahz bad wahwahwah,.. ummm vvhatever wait... Friday was G-tar day also...sweeet... right?...noooo, wait... what day was G-tar day?... that wasn't the same day... okokok... G-tar day was in September... *scratches lip... *rubs chin... okokok... sooo i wake up and go home... and then... *scratches neck... refresh meself... and derrick comes over and we're headed back to UCI... and then we get there... seperate our ways... and... dang... wait... hmmm maybe corlyn should've wrote in that card too... ahh.. ya'know, dont' leave anybdy behind.. .doode!!! i'm talkin' aboot friday the 10th... so we go to UCI and seperate our ways... THEN WHAT??? dammit... i call people from time to time and try and get a number... still had to call to make reservations, IF they made reservations.... *exhales... sooo *rubs nose.... *thunks... o... I remember... okokok... i get to Karen's dorm and there's already peeps there... i bump into carolyn too i think... ok... so there's a lot of peeps in the room... did tin and derrick go to class? i think they did...*rubs chin... o! noel brought aknee that day... and aaron brought dominic!!! ah! i remember... o k... rewind... around 6:45AM Patrizha calls me up... let's eat breakfast, bring dominic... so i only had a couple hours of sleep... i knew i didn't sleep that long... okokok... so i pick up dominic and i still hadn't showered for more than a day... but it's ok the AC makes it fresh, a lil... *pinches thumb and index to show lil... ok so we go to to Josephs and we talk and then go to drive-thru at Jack in the Box... Patrizha got a The Mummy's bucket as a toy and was gettin' Grace food too, cuz it was both their birthdays... so we get our food and go back to josephs, the parking lot filled up fast and Patrizha saw the mean security guard, the hispanic one (not to be racist, just saying which security guard, but he is the unreasonable one, AND i hear he left the school now)... so she sees him and gets scared and gets out of my car in a hurry... and no she didn't kiss us on the cheek... well... dominic said my food wasn't there... so we go back to carl's Jr... get my food, take him home, i go home... at home, my nanay is eat breakfast, so i eat too.. AND THE FOOD i ordered originally is THERE... whoops wahwahwah... the nuggets... and i got another toy bucket for 'all the trouble'. the bucket is now used to hold the dish soap in the kitchen or garage sink... heheh...okokok... so then i'm tired and i sleep for an hour... wake up from Derrick's call... i think... we probably went to UCI early... and then... the packed room... and the party room... and all that jazz (still haven't watched Chicago... those movies have been in my car for months... wahwahwah...)... so the peeps who ate at... ummm that food place... pippin?... ok so.. ashley, her roomate christina?, and another floormate eats with us... DOMINIC whom apparently took 4 busses to UCI ... a couple hours to get there... and it seemed like yesterday it was when we went to Josephs... aaron was there for school, ummm *paces room... and then... one side of table were the ST. Anthony peeps... aaron, dominic, noel and carolyn... and then on the otherside were the joseph peeps, aknee, me, karen, and ashley... wahwahwah... and the conversations were entiresting, very... and then... :-`... i had a piece of paper of who could go, who was asked and all that jazz to go later that night... soo... o k... so that day Sn, had a test... and Derrick met up with me and Karen at her Sociology class... kewl teacher and all that jazz... culture and languages... and this is after aaron and carolyn went back to class, noel and aknee went back home... okokok ... so i go somewhere else... wait wait... was it the same day or was that knotts day???... hold on... getting those days conPused... eh, vvhatever... so i do stuff and meet Karen at Ashley's apartment, and i go online there,get a number, and try and make reservations for BJs... no reservations possible and it's already close to 5 i guess, and i told peeps 7:00? or 8?... but really i was aiming for 30 min. after that cuz u know, us filipinos... always laggin'... heheh... o k so emergency situation... call up chamuel and derrick to see if they can get a table early... derrick and tin can't... chamuel goes, doesn't wanna go alone, call up aknee to see if she can accompany him... she goes... okokok.. so traffic on the freeway... and it's gettin' dark... Binh couldn't go, feelin' sick... and all... and all and... goes to Karen's home and can't find Jen, her mom comes home, then we go to BJs... barely make it, had a table for like 10 min. empty... wahwahwah... and then... so noel and neil were there at the g-tar place with karen... o and i c ballons up in the sky, that's sad... Sy and her cuz is there... aknee and chamuel... and everyone eventually come... the seat was 20... later that night it added to 25... so chair situation... i was scouting for empty chairs that's y i wasn't sittin' down... there were... let's see if i could remember the arrangement... heheh... well some of u dont' realize... but i'll say it now... some of the arrangements of seating were coerced by others... not I, said the fly... o k... ummm... at the end startin' with B-day girl: Karen, Noel, Aknee, Sn and Derrick or vice versa (dang, too much cheese), Neil, Christina Sy(Sy's cuz left halfway through), Aileen, Michelle/Randy... (Michelle said... Denny's night after Shipwreck that if it wasn't for me, we wouldn't all be able to hang out with each other... somethin' like that... kewl anal compliment *thumbs up to the max!!!) (heheh... i'm all over the place... so much for chronological order...) okokok... and then Muckey and his lil sis... Alexandria... tight name... and then the cousins of Karen, her mom and sis... ( o sorry all, for those who wanted Jaycee and Neil to sit acroos from each other, more peeps were comin' in, gotta scooch them all in somehow...) then dominic, aaron, Sy's cuh, and chamuel... okokok... Derrick relieved me of command... (I KNEW though, wait... i knew that the 2 seats i was waiting for were goin' to be available after i stopped waiting there, so it's a good thing Derrick was made ready... to get the chairs after takin' over... he got one of 2, es all good... i think...*burp) (just mentioning i have magnificant powers :-P...)... ok... so i eat a bit... order more pizza... suave with the waiters and waitresses... *does the clicky sound and pointing of fingers like a gun... yeah, ok... so... derrick and tin helped me out with what to order and the money situation... it was funny... we were counting the money out in the open... i was thinkin' of goin' by the table... but no, we kinda flaunted the money... wahwahwah... 15 dollars over... and we give the money back to Karen's mother dearest... and then we go outside... chamuel waits in his car by himself for a long time, that was funny... and then... the family leave and we hang out in the parking lot... i heard... (argh... *contemplating) freak it... this is my POV... i won't leave anything out... muckey asks me if he did the right thing... i reply, as long as he thought it through... then i hear someone told him to talk to aknee... and in my mind, i was "o shItzer, that's not good" :-/... but anything could happen... but it did... and Sn wrote on my car with her highlighter in which Derrick did not steal... i didn't wash that off till the day before shipwreck... heheh... all dirty or did i clean it on holloween... either way it was covered in ash by the fires... *scrathes head... so aknee, derrick and Sn go home... i go to Sys... they're dancing... chillin' and all that jazz... sooo from there... the last peeps left were me, domnic, christina, and karen (haha, i was all tryin't o think hard... mahz bad)... the girles fall asleep... i'm just waitin' and all... and then... i take the 3 home... but chill in the car longer... eh, from all bad comes good and vice versa... jsut know, one will always come after the other, so u can have fun while it lasts, and look to something foward when it doesn't... that's optimism :-D... and then after takin' them home, i believe i treated myself to Jack in the Box.... or not... then, i probably went to sleep in the church parking lot... or not... i forgot that too.... :-`... that was that day... so... hmmm... *thunkin'... *counting (with fingers... wahwahwah) 4 left... 4 left... ;-)... or not...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:44 PM [+] ::
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PART I - 2:42 AM 11/8/2003 -
hmmm... i'm up... and as always... i wanna do something productive... and as always i tell ya'all that 'i'm not'... in a sense... wahwahwah ... Karen wrote aboot her b-day which was a month ago... so i mightsen well tell ya'all... MY POV ... i'm writing in notepad... feels like a noel blog comin'... *scratches neck... let's timestamp this ish... (12:25 AM 11/8/2003) ... o k ... *exhalessssss... a couple days before her b-day the friday... binh IMed me sayin' paaaartay for Karen on Thurs. night at BJs in IRVINE... being the party liaison, he asked me to inform her 'high school friends'... so i'm like kewl... he already told Tin and i think Aknee also... or tin told aknee... yeah... vvhatever (i suck with names, REALLY... like i may know someone and not know their name the whole time... i may even Porget to mention,... mahz bad to the max, ya'know???) yeah so... i'm like kewl... well, by tues, wed... it's obvious... THURSDAY NIGHT... (School night) late, at 9:00PM... in IRVINE... hmmm... well since i got the time, i'm there fo sho fo sho... then i try to convince others to go, but no good... then i'm iffy whether to go or not... well, talkin' to Binh, he says it's o k... didn't really expect ya'all to make it anyway... then i'm like... dammit... i'm not goin' to leave them behind... grrr... i must do something... i was thinkin' of JUST goin' to BJs by myself and vvhatever... but these r ... dundundun... the URVS.... wahwahwah (copyright me... jp, no hate, just spicin' up my blog with ..... words... ok..) Noel and others have told me to represent our side... so i'm like ... i shall... but i'm not goin' to show up by myself, with peeps r hardly know anywhooo... so i'd be sittin' there... listenin' in the convos... which is all dandy... but dammit... i'm not goin' to be there 'by myself', i'm goin' to bring a piece of everyone (i could think of... wahwahwah) ... sooo... it's Wed. night... Thurs. morning... from 1 - 3AM i was pacing my sister's house thinkin' of all the IM convos i had that day... hmmm what to do what to do... Eureka... earlier that wednesday, i brought my nanay (lola; mom's mom) to the doctors at Talbert for her checkup and and prescription... at the pharmacy, waiting for the prescription... ((lots of possible flashbacks, so keep up... i won't organize it in chronological order... cuz like... that'll take extra thought processes... i could, if i wanted to ;-P)) ... at the pharmacy, there was a rack with a small assortment of cards... entiresting, very... in the morning, i could buy a card and start gettin' peeps sigs... signatures... soooo... kewl... slept at 4:30AM and planned to wake up at 6:30ish to check what time the pharmacy opens and then if it's not open, eat at McD's across the street... and then go home, plan my route... go to Josephs and get sigs from there... and then before dominic and noel go to school, get their sigs and continue my routes... at 2:30 go to bosco, get sigs there... *cracks my neck... and go go go... (oh, En Taro, Derrick... sorry i'm not at home right now to play with ya... ;-P... Sn knows aboot us now... she can join... if she wwwwaaaaants to...)... yeah... sidetracking... sorry... (wait... *thunkin'g... *sigh... keep in mind, i don't know where everyone is at... so i had to call peeps up still)... haha Conan's sooooo kewl!!! just looking at him puts a smile on my face (12:38 AM 11/8/2003)... ha ha he said GIF... anyway... anyway... ummmm but i wokeup at 9:30... yeah... no time to shower... don't need to impress anyone... by AC in my car which is practically always on will freeze the smell... or i could use Febreeze... o k... i woke up at 9:30AM... went to Talbert, bought the 2 cards, then went straight to HOME and planned my route... now, i wanted everyone (i knew) to sign the card... cuz i CAN'T LEAVE ANYBODY BEHIND... OR OUT... ya'know???... so dammit... i can't go to josephs and bosco at 2:30, not possible... I CAN'T RUSH the Priends of the Priendless... they gotta think it through... ya'know???... i was thinkin' of goin' to Irvine by 5 and have her friends there sign it too... but yeah, i woke up at 9:30AM... already behind... SOO, i gotta limit somewhere :-( ... (o and those who have signed, thanx!!! ur all kewl... but doubtful u read this, unless u just so happen to be bored and read it... but hey, just be glad i got ya'all) so the limit, the restriction, to signing the card was... only getting the '03 peeps... so that leave college people out, and leaves out the high school peeps... so... yeah, it made it easier... but hmmm... (%n, u must be wondering y i got some peeps and went out of my restriction criteria... but yeah, can't leave anybody behind... adn there's a time issue) i have to be at BJs by 9:30, don't need to order anything... just gogogo... good to go... ya'know???..... *siiiigh... o k... *takes of sweater... wait... hahahaha Triumph skit (12:46 AM 11/8/2003)... continuing...(12:51 AM 11/8/2003) hahahha funny... wait results... heahhahaha... oh hey, he's there... the American Idol loser... hahaha sux kinda but ok... Jesus references :-/ vvhatever... all funn... o k where am i???... sisters house... where did i leave off???... ummm yeah... so woke up at 9:30... (haha i'm still there???) o k... so i go buy the cards... and the cashier has trouble with the... cashing thing... and then go home... stay there for Approx. 50 min... first off... i call up... Tin and ICky... cuz were there's one, there's the other, so i didn't have to worry about goin' to BOTH of their houses... wahwahwah... es true, es true... okokok... so they're leaving her house and goin' to ummmm... somewhere... well, randezvous point, McD's near Knotts... (oh knotts... whoa... another story for that... wahwahwah)... so... 695 north, 91 east... dang, 91 is always trafficky... exit knotts... go down... i think... then i miss the left on la palma... U-turn... then right on la palma... left on beach, i believe and to McDs... they're not there yet... es kewl,i wait for them, (if all goes well i could be at Irvine by 7) i get there first apparently... and while waiting, i get to try out Time Crisis 3 for the first time... entiresting game, very... *yawn... ok... so... yeah i got 2 cards cuz i knew i'd be getti'n a lot of sigs... Tin signs first, then Icky (damn, while driving to Irvine that night, i realized i forgot to ask EACH person to do something after signing the card... Timestamping it... dang, that woulda been tiiiioght) so Approx. 11-11:30AM ish... i get their sigs... i ask Sn, hm who else should i get, that i don't know well of... ummmm she suggested... Elenor???... (dang... i brought a Notebook with me tryin' to figure out my route and stuff and names numbers and addresses and directions...) there were other names mentioned like Darwin and Michelle Merza... but it was said that they're too far... so ok... if no, then i do what i do, i wont' get them... but Eleanor... she lives near the McD's, call her up (a stranger...) and quickly get her sig... i call her up... apparently she's goin' to school at CSULB... whoops am i not supposed to give out personal INfo...??? vvhatever... wahwahwah... just blame me, i'll take responsitility... okokok... so yeah, check my gas tank... it started at 3/4... and now it's half way to the 1/2 point... sooo hmmm gotta meet up with Randy(no contact yet), Sy(haven't contacted her yet, Aileen(no contact yet), and Eleanor... sooo before i leave them and take a couple fries... (thanx Sn, for yesterday the 8th... saving my wallet and all... o, and u 2 derrick... but remember if one is there, the other is too (o k kinda gettin' old with that........ eh, or not).... take a couple of fries and some numbers... Aileen's cell number...(but in actuality her home number... whooooops) okokok so... dang,... if i have to go to CSULB, i'll need a parking permit... dang my sister is at her nursing study group at Marina Pacifica in Barnes and Nobles... okokok... i'm near mark's house... he's out of school... i could make some phone calls there... while he's writing his sig... i go to his house, side streets... he's buying food for himself... es alll good... i make phone calls.... brb Patrick Stewart secrets (1:08 AM 11/8/2003) ... continuing (1:09 AM 11/8/2003)... i contact Markulis, Randy (o Michelle and Randy is one person... go to Mt. St. Mary's... it had crossed my mind... IF I WOKE UP EARLIER ENOUGH), no answer from Sys, and with aknee and jon, i ask for their souls, and jon freaks out... i get their stats and schedules for the day from them... ooook... sooooo... mark gets there ... signs his sig and, i'm makin' good time... o k... go to CSULB... but first... get the parking permit... i go take 605 South and learning from previous mistakes... i take 22 W... okokok... so i get to Marina... then sidestreet to CSULB... Lot 17... where Randy gets dropped up and picked off... (wahwahwah) ... okokok ... i walke around the campus a bit... haven't been there before... walked up to the Brochman Hall??? 'the midpoint of the school' sort to speak... then call Elenor again... she left school already... does she want someone to sign her name for her??? suuuuure... o k... i'll get one of the girl's to sign it... (later, i learn she's not fond of strangers... mahz bad...) call Aileen's cell and i believe her tita picked up... she asked who's this and i say 'j'... who? i mean, 'BATMA17'... who???.... i mean 'SUUUUSHI'... heheheh... ooo SUSHI, that's a name??? o k... give her my number and alls well thus far... call Sy, no answer... closing to 1 or 2 o'clock PM ... the time he gets out of school(Conan's funny, he scared Shannon doherty with a chucky doll) (1:20 AM 11/8/2003) ... i talk to randy... get his(&Michelle's) sigchill at my car... i'm at least 2 hours ahead of schedule... (so YTFREAKS-IN-A-MYTHOLOgIES did i reach URvine at 10:45PM???) okokok... i call up aknee... she's at home and is hungry... ok buy her food and get meself some breakfast too... ya'know???... sooo from CSULB... 405 N to 110 S... exit Carson... make 2 U-ies (U-turns)... cuz that exit on Carson is hard... and i won't even tryin makin' a left into In and Out on that freakin' street... (suprised the In and Out was really close to my Mom's work at Harbor UCLA Medical Hospital)... ok ... so i turn into IN and OUT, hooray a call from Aileen... i was driving, ordering and getting food and talkin' to her... so whoa... ok... she's goin' to hang out with Sy at Sy's house then go to CSULB together... sweet shibby of all shibbiness... i could get a 2 for 1 sale... wahwahwah... okokok ...alls kewl thus far... i go to aknees... we eat... (dang, my eyes r tripping in this bright white screen... dang... hmmm after typin' this blog... i'll watch Finding Nemo... to treat meself... ... ... neBErmind... the movie is in the guest room and my sister's kappa friend, Charlene?, is sleepin' there... okokok) *yawn (1:30 AM 11/8/2003)...ummm dang yesterday, i actually felt sleepy and i planned to sleep early... but i had to protect Aiur with Icky... *shrug... oh vvell... o k ...sooo at aknee's house... i was goin' to go to muckey's and markulis afterwards but muckey was comin' over and markulis works at Startbucks from 3-12... sooo aknee signs the card(s), i get my hands smell like In and Out, and eats over the bad i was keeping the cards in... :-/ it's o k aknee... we're UR friends remember... wahwahwah... (stay at LBCC)...(or Cypress)... (LBCC)... okokok... i'm making really good time, i could be at Urvine by 6:30... aknee suggest Michelle Merza again... i get her stats... so Krizia calls aknee up and come over ...'blah blah blah' in aknee's terms... o great... ... then muckey comes by... he signs his soul...muahahhaha...jp...so alls well... (lemme change the channel right now... 1:36 AM 11/8/2003) oh Bruce Lee bio... Dragon:The Bruce Lee Story...continuing(1:37 AM 11/8/2003) it's half way over... dang... i wanna watch the move..."do not punch with clenched fist until moment of impact... , hit with a snap" kewl kewl kewl... o k o kok... ummm i was goin' to stay there for Approx. 45 min... i stayed, i think like 90 min. or so... Krizia comes and writes in the card(s) ... they play couple of games... and all... i watch... okok... i gots to go... i'll call everyone up once... ya'know? make it easy on me... no one at bosco... i get Liza... kewl kewl... i get her stats... i sidestreet to Noel's house... and i take my usual piss break... haha... he signs it, shows me his present and all... Michelle Merza is mentioned again... it's just passed 4:30ishPM... well, noel calls michelle and i get her stats... she's in La Marada... kewl beans with jeans!!! my third time to pass by La Marada, hopefully without getting lost this time, within 2 weeks... o k... i go to StarBucks... i wait for Markulis to write his stuff, but he's busy... i wait for Approx. 15 min. and i gotta go... i'll be back... o k... i remember this clearly... i kept looking at the time... by the time i leave Starbucks it's 18:55, (as some of u know, my car clock is military time)... 405S, trafficky,,, 605S, smooooth.. 91E... oh bother... exit...Beach Blvd... make a left... SIDESTREET WAS WORSE... lots of automobilias... long distance... it's entiresting, very to know what it feels like to live a ways away from the nearest freeway... i think... anyhoooo... i listen to BoA CD which will last Approx. 80Min... by the time it finishes, i should be headed to Urvine... sooo i get to the house after going the wrong way in the neighborhood... no need to put in that password thing... okokok... so at Merza's house she writes her thang and sig and i go upstairs and find my next destination...... get it, got it, good... off to Liza's... sidestreet it... on the way there it's 19:55... BRUCE LEE IS KEWL... ok... so... i get to Liza's and there's a piano teacher and all... waiting wait wait waiting... she's at K-mart or soething... i wait 40 min. Aileen calls... she's gotta go and seperate from Sy... oh ShIzters... ok... i'm on my way... BRB, Liza... i go sidstreets then decide to go 5S-91W... but daaaamn... no 91W entrance from the 5... i go 91E for at least 5 min... i couldn't find a recognizeable exit... then i got exit go back on 91W and get to Sys with Aileen almost leaving... dang i wasted 15 min. gettin' lost... well it's not wasted... i figured out in those 15 min. not to go 91W from the 5S... yes, think positive...and such... okokok... so Sy signs it... then... a friend comes by... i forgot who... i'll edit this when i get home... she signs her sig too... ok i'm gone... i sidestreet back to Lizas... OMG... within' Approx.7 min. eye... i meant I... hahah... watchin' Bruce Lee... hold on... (2:02 AM 11/8/2003) haha, he's filming the Green Hornet... how kewl... GH and Kato team up with Batman and Robin before...... okokok... i go to Liza's get her sig and get some entiresting, very info... which is unsure which i'll need in the Puture... or not...:-o... vvhatever... okokok as i leave... check the time... its' 20:55... i go sidestreet to Bobi's... boom boom boom and i'm out... go to Chamuels... i'm in and out... go to Dominic's, and Aaron and D-money is there... kewl kewl... go get gas cuz the light was near to turning on... i head back to StarBucks and i call Carolyn... where's BJs??? AHHH... i get the number and directions... Markulis makes a drink for Karen and i'm off... it's 21:40... okokok kewl kewl... dinner is 90 min. - 2 hours cuz socializing and all... so i'd get to UCI and do my thang... and then reach BJs by hopefully 10:30... i'll do the in and out deal... won't stay at BJs... Approx. 80MPH on freeway... purty tight... few on the road an all... 15 min. from StarBucks and i'm at the parking lot of Karen's lot... i wait a couple min. to 3rd floor... and at that time i draw on the envelope... whooops... by the time i got to Dominic's house, the only room left is on the back of the cards... okokok... then i'm like Carolyn's here... she could accompany me too... but first i need access to her room... after finishing her name... Kara*... i wait a couple more min... then her fellow floormate, Julie, let's me in sweeet... and her roomate, Christine?, is inside the room anyway... sweet shibby... i was goin' to slip it under the door, but now i figgured to put it on the top of her closet cabinet thing so that when she opens it, it'll fall on her... but her towel and plug was in the way... i could've moved it, but naaahhh... so i put it in her notebook folder that's open on her bed... but i had a feeling she wouldn't see it... (the next day on noel's mission,,... i slipped up and told her the cards were in her NB... so darn it, i shouldn't have told her, she woulda been.. err hella suprised in class... or not... but i think i told her cuz all that work all gone if it was lost or somethin') soooo... from there i pick up Carolyn... and then i'm on Jamboree for a long time... there's a part where the road has no stop lights for a loooong while... then at the next stop light... seatbelts r kewl... but i don't have ABS... oh vvell....... i break HARD... screeching hard... red light, yos and yoettes... almost ran it... and i didn't really notice until i saw a car making a left turn, i coulda hit it... Burnt Rubber... crazy shiznets... (my sister has been callin' me time to time askin' me to be home by 10... ha... i ask another hour... till 11)... so we find BJs... i call Karen to check if she's still there... she is!!! o k... kewl!!!... in the car, carolyn tried helping open the envelope, but she was afraid to open it... wuss...:-P ...WEAK... es kewl... i kinda ripped it too... so as i was writing the card in a hurry and mispelled 'cordially'... sooo Carolyn couldn't find them... dang... then we go on... incognito...kinda.... haha... the thethe... the person who takes down the number of people in a group at a restaurant.... dang, what r they called???... well she was laughing at my antics... but we couldn't the group... then i go outside and i notice the patio... it's empty... dammit... i call her again... they already left... they were at the patio, i think... sooooo i 'decide' to go back home... wahwahwahwah... my sister called again... almost ran another red... she found out i'm in Urvine... whoops... anywhoo... she's kewl, but she's turnin' into an adult... dammit... okokokok... *yawn... okokok... so, i go.... ummm dang hold on... emotional scene in Bruce Lee...(2:35 AM 11/8/2003)... ok soooo... they're chillin' at Ashley's eh??? i know where they rrrrrrrRRRrrr... muahahhaha... *twiddles fingers... here's the plan, Carolyn, we're in we're out... no more than 30 sec... 1 min. max... then move move move...haha... we're in, give the card, avoid the dog, and we're out... sorry to interrupt u Binh (ex. "BaBe, Babe, ur missing the show! look look look...) and others watching the Television set... o and i give the starbucks drink Markulis made... drop off Carolyn and 15 min. later i'm at my sister's house... she's kewl but i don't wanna push her... she's a workin' girl.. her sleep time is around 10ish and she stayed up waiting for me till almost 11:30... :-/ mahz bad... so yeah... that was that day... purty much started and ended the day on the same tank of gas... the next day, was the G-tar and BJs... but i'm purty tired... i could stay up.. but i'll continue this later today... alrighty, yos andyoettes... i'll put PART I on the top of this blog... there i put it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:44 AM [+] ::
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SWEEEET...
okok...
these r the songs that past few dayz...(or minutes)
Duck Tales - Aknee thought it was Doogie Howser; but i told her the answer
Step By Step - Karen and Sy and maaaaybe Binh (Christina got hints...)
Tales of the Crypt - Carolyn and/or roomate, Jullien (with hints...)
Tiny Toons - Carolyn and/or roomie (Not Animaniacs!!!HAHAHA)
X-Men - Carolyn and/or Roomie
Inspector Gadget - Carolyn and/or Roomie
Addams Family - Carolyn and/or Roomie
Baywatch - Carolyn and/or Roomie (CHEATERS!!!)
Chip 'n' Dale - Carolyn and/or Roomie
this one u hear now is an intermediate one... u'd have to watch the show to know(DUHHHH!!!) but the next one i p... nevermind... i can't find it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:52 AM [+] ::
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i turned into the hulk last night... but dammit... i don't wanna hurt anyone... but if i could i would... this whole situation happened after i blogged last night too... it was like forshadowing... anyhoo, i feel like Lex Luthor... destined to be bad... but yeah... lots of blogworthy stuff last night... but i dont' feel like typing it all out... only that... hmmm... does everyone need to know what life is? in other words, my thoughts on situations... :-/ *shrug... yeah... i wish i could go to China, i think... where u can go pay for a room and smash things up... yeah, i exploded...
o and i was thunkin'... hmmm, maybe i could turn all the 7 deadly sins into virtures somehow... somehow... just thunk aboot it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:07 AM [+] ::
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i'm not pleased, not pleased at all...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:02 PM [+] ::
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i won't go in detail about the dream i'll just list the events...
dead/skinned/meaty dolphins...
catching fish...
rug over water...
some can walk on it flawlessly...
others sink and swim across...
2 people commenting on me and the person i'm with...
couldn't fill the bags in time so we had someone give us the fish to fill up our bags...
he walks across and gives the bag... i sink and swim, kinda scared, acroos and give my bag...
i talk to a jack nicholson look alike... he was tryin' to sell me checks... the whole idea was to give other people checks and give the profits back to him... but i asked how long do i have... his face lost interest and said 10 min. and i'm like ha! i got ur scandalous plot... anyhoo...
then people in formal clothering were walking out...
i think i was looking for my friend...(if he was a friend... maybe he was God or the Devil or some other thing being)... but there was someone else... no face or appearance... like only a silhouette... ummm then walking around the partyish thing... like the rooms were like Eyes Wide Shut, but no sex... just everyone in formal... no, it's more like the picture of the formal scene in my BATMAN: War on Crime book in my car... ok so... then there was a couple with problems... and there was a bearded guy with hair like josh grobAn who was taunting the guy... the couple leave and i follow them up the stairs just like the stairs in Queen Mary where from the dancing/arcade area to the outside... only the starcase was longer... the bearded guy sits down amused and somewhat out of breath and i tell him something like... 'how do u know those 2 can't make it together?... u dont' know till they try' and other 'lecturish' thing... and the guy was 'yeah well vvhatever' ... then i leave the party and i see this hot/cute/sexified girl... and clearly she was older than me... and since i knew i was dreaming... (yeah, when i dream... i usually know i'm dreaming), i'm like yeah, vvhatever i think comes true... so don't hold back... so yeah... so the slick guy i am goes up to her and chit chat... she was heading towards her parked car which was parked in a mixture of disneyland and UCI parking structure... and the elevator like queen mary i suppose... so i chit chat with her and i forgot how i asked her age... i think i said... so ur like 20 right???... and she said no, i'm 27... then i'm like kewl... and using my mathematical skills i asked "u don't mind anyone 9 yrs younger right?" and she just made a sound of amusement... but i kept following her to the elevator... (i just thought of this: 27 - 18 = 9... yes, equals nine... wahwahwah) ... so then we enter and go down the elevator... and while going' down the elevator... okokok how explicit should i be, cuz it wasn't that long.... but it was nice... eh, if ur that interested just ask... cuz... blah blah blah... it felt silky smooth... it was... niiice... and then out the elevator and towards her car... a jeep similar to, but not, ralph moreno's... seems bigger and roomier... in the parking structure, there were remnants of people there... but the parking structure was relatively empty... but that presense was still there... *shrug... so she makes a phone call saying she'll be wherever she'll be late... and i'm like... yeah... 15 min.... or 30 min... 0o0o0o... *shrug... shut up, it's my dream... take it as u want it... so then... she goes to her car and who do i see/who walks up to me??? ODERLIN!!!... Jeffrey Oderlin... HAHAHA... so we have our small talk and he has that laugh and i laugh at his laugh... and we laugh holdin' our fat guy stomachs... then us 4: me, the woman, Odie, and the presense go back in the elevator... me and the girl leave the elevator and heads towards the bathroom... hard to choose... the men's room or the women's room... but at this point i knew i was waking up so i was like dammit... so i fast fowarded my dream... well... we get to the doors of the restrooms, but the scene changes like the ballroom of aknee's debut and only neil playing the bass and rockin' all over the floor... so the girl was gone now... and then...
something about CGI and another girl... only bigger and i think Odie was still with me... or not... soooo then i woke up ... oh vvell...
yeah... watched Approx. 3 min. on Maury about a 42 year woman marrying her son's best friend who is 14... cuz in Alabama, it's legal to get married at the age of 14... they were dating since he was 13... then i had to leave... my thought of it was.... that's *scratches head... nice... vvhatever ya'know... they're happy... blah blah blah... so i go and pick up the dry cleaners... and then while trying to back up from my parking spot... a honda accord silver stops behind me so i'm stuck... and a couple... black man, latina woman... kiss long good-byes... 3 times... when i think they're done... they're not... and then i put my hand in the back of the passenger seat head rest and tap my fingers... watching them on my rear view mirror... i was thinkin' of HONKING A LOUD ONE... and how funny it would've been... but the guy saw me and then they drove and parked... but that's all.... :-`
ttyl... and stuffall that jazz...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:22 PM [+] ::
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i don't wanna be like my sisters... it seems that their ONLY friends is their boyfriends... seems like it... they have friends elsewhere but i know they don't hang out with each other on monthly basis... cuz they're satisfied with their BFs... they're kewl fellas... and all that jazz... BUT it seems that if they were to break up... who would they turn to???... *shrug... that's my POV... i know i'm missin' somethi'n blah blah blah... so what do u do... daily...? what else... y am i sucker for the ones who r sad...? easy,...girls r to bad boys as i am to sad girls... the girls want to help the bad boys.... i want to make the sad girls happy... but y be with someone with problems...? ok, so if u get with them, and make them happy... then what... now what?... what then?... i'm a boring ... really... i believe i am... and if i believe it... i probably am... honest... i really thought about it...hmmm... ... what else... suuure i am bum... in ur eyes... haha... but i am my own bum... and blah ...getti'n weird......................................... fooooog....fog... fog is soooo kewl... its' scurry....hmmm.... there should be rain... now a flood... to drown and quench and extinguish the fire... yeah... hmmm... dang... my cousin was just kidding and all, but now it's bothering me... he told me... 'dang j,... u better have babie and they better be boys so u can continue ur jemenez family name...' (yes, he mispelled my last name...) ... so yeah, if u never read my previous... or older posts... i'll tell u that i'm the only boy to bring down the family name... my dad's dad... has a brother... but hmmmm... i don't know... did he have children... i think he did... vvhatever(wait, i dont' even know what other siblings my lolo has...) ... well my dad's dad has 2 boys... my dad and his bro... my uncle... isn't married and most of the family thinks he's gay anway... mid 30s i think... and there's my dad... who's had many GFs in his day,... haha... and my petite smart mom whom is innocent and my dad is her one, first, only, and last... and from them 2 gave out 3 children... me, and my 2 older sisters... wahwahwah... they meant to have 2... one boy and one girl... but the first 2 were girls... oh vvell... so they say i'm a 'suprise'... well tisn't that grand, eh???,... blah blah blah... tha'ts not bothering me,... wahwahwah... well yeah... what else what else... o ok... we want what we don't have... and when/if we get it... then what?... people hear what they want to hear... nonono... that's not what i'm talkin' aboot.... hmmmm... people want people who don't want them back... which isn't bad,... the other isn't just feelin' it... and alll that jazz......... when gaining one... somethin' is gonna go... some examples that come to mind (dang laptop... freakin' Fn and numlock)... anywhoo... there examples that come to mind... but don't feel like sayin' it and stuff and stuff and stuff blah blah blah *sigh....hmmmm:-`....... change change change...i hmmm i can't...or too lazy to... sux eh... i do not know fo sho fo sho... people want to hear certain words... from certain people... u know a way to not like someone??? make a simple thing u can tolerate... and don't tolerate it... like like like... if they have a habit which is simple to live with... force urself to not tolerate it... and it's easy...yeah... i dont' like those who can dance... wahwahwah... i mean... like if i can't dance... y dance with someone who likes to dance... i don't wanna constrict them... so simple... hehehehe ....... yuP yuP yuP... it's hot in here... and the fan is on... i'm not saying what imean... or not.... *whistlessesessesseseseseseee... :-` yeah sooooo continue... yeah i'll continue... na.. yeah... i read that it doesn't just happen, u have to make it happen... y not risk it... if u want it badly enough... i guess i don't want it that bad... heheheheh... yeeeeah ... how sad... no it' snot... i'm just typing here... i'm nbot different than anybody... it's just dealt different and stuff... it's ok to feel... but how to act... hmmmmm... what was i just hinkin'???... dang it... y can't my thoughts just type... my hands can't interpret fast enough.......n*scratches nose........*yawwwwn.... sahmmmm ummm rereading... yeah... feelings unknown... that's life... things r fickle... andbecause my mind... i can and will always doubt... but i don't have toact upon it... i dont' know stufffffff... u want something, but it doesn't want u... u offer to give it... but they don't want it from u... understandable... what other situations... oh yeah... there's always more than one... yeaaah... more than one... options.... nahhh.. yeah... pros and cons... but not... cuz they have experiencccce... hehehee bhohoho...ummm... expereince and movies... and stories....and imagination...hmmm one wonders what the heck do i do everyday... hmmmm.... what else whatelse... ummm yeah... i'm not goin' to rebound... once the ball is out of my hands i'm not goin' after it... frea kit... the hardest part of doing is starting... and u know.. i'mafraid i'll be so apathetic that i'll say freak it and go for it... and then after i'm finished... i'll feel ill regret what i say... and not only wiould it hurt me,,... it would hurt them... o k ok ok ok ... *rubs nose... my back still hurts... that's so not kewl anymore... it'll happen when it happens... hmmm is this all i think about... no ... no it's not... it's most of the time.. but it's not... yeah... playing games... that keeps minds off things... i wanna try that mafia game it looks fun... but who has the time to play with that... i don't know anymore bruce... it's hot... i'm like wha... hey, ever heard a recording of ur voice???... do u think that's ur voice??? do u think u sound like that???... i don't like the way i sound... it doesn't like me... really... in a recording i sound like a geek... do really??? freakin' crap yos and yoettes... i sound like nerd... like an actually nerd... do readlly sound like that... dang that sux... hmmmmm i'm boring... really... maybe i'mbipolar... nah.... maybe i'm not that extreme... or not not... doobie doobie dooooo... i read that the adult age is moving up... and adolescent age is longer... it used to be 21 when people see u as an adult... in general... not law wise... but supposed wise... ummm like back way back in the day... 15-16-17... u'd have kids and become adults and work with the familia... *scratches nose... 10-15 years ago... its like 21 when people start gettin' married and lookin' for stable jobs... now... it said that adolescents r until their 25... cuz their all mature by then... marriages and births r becoming later in life like in the 30s... and it's somewhat better that way.. .cuz by then... it's possible to find the right job... dag job... i dont' know what i wanna be anymore... senior year screwed me... freakin' BraveVision screwed me over... not the people... the name itself... i'm lost... and all... i dont'knowmath anymore... i don't write essays anymore... i don't want a job which needs reports... HA!!! where am i goin' to find that... like like like... assembly line... just specify and expertly work in one area... but in my terms... become a CSI... yeeeeeah... just analyze the body and solve cases... but no reports... wahwahwah... but yeah... realistically... i'm afraid to write something which would convict me or piss off the good and bad guyz..... my neck hurts... hmmm.... yeah ok... so wow... old... wow... i'm 18... remember being 13... supposedly an unlucky number... wahwahwawh... through the yeeeeears and stuff.. how is eberyvody??? *scratches mouth... what else... *scratches head... :-1


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:31 PM [+] ::
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happy 1 year day thing for my blog... YAY!!!


in other news: "that's life"
want someone who wants u
but of course... concentrate on urself... as in, GO TO SCHOOL and BE PRODUCTIVE in others' eyes...
just cuz i'm not in school doesn't mean i'm not productive... ya'know? and vice versa that jazz

what else??? Porgot... oh vvell... oh and for the second time in a row... i think... or from my records... i have pulled another all-nighter... last year i was in depressed mode, that's y i stayed up all night and started this blog... u know, succambed like almost everyonline else... and this year... i stayed up just chillin' with Dominic, Edwardo, and Edwardo's 'geek' Berkeley friends/club thing... o, and natalie... haha... es alllll good... it ended on a "that's life" note... y hate?... if u gotta hate, back up ur reasoning... y feel?... damn freaks-in-a-mythology of a brain and stuff... yeah... feelings r unseen... only felt... internally individually... expressed miscommunicatingingingly sometimes...

Mafia sounds like a fun game... let's play!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:04 PM [+] ::
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What is Love?
by Haddaway

What is love
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
What is love
Yeah
Oh I don't know
why you're not fair
I give you my love
but you don't care
So what is right
and what is wrong
gimme a sign
(chorus x2)
uoh oh...
Oh I don't know
what can I do
what else can I say
it's up to you
I know we're one
just me and you
I can't go on
(chorus x2)
uoh oh..
What is love
What is love
What is love
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
I want no other
No other love
This is your life
our time
When we are together
I need you forever
Is it love
(chorus x2)
uoh oh..
(chorus x2)
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
Baby don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
no more
what is love?!...



c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:22 PM [+] ::
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You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

kewl kewl... *yawn...
and then...


You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

hey!!! it's Shiva from FFVIII... kewl kewl...
there were other possible answers that sounded kewlio (and i liked better), but these r the two i got first...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:52 AM [+] ::
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i've said it before, and i'll say it again (even if i never do it, and say i'll do it later)...
i gotta oregonize my shItzer... okokok... eh... i gots to do what i gots to do... yeah...

"There are no perfect men in this world only perfect intentions."

"Nobility's not a birthright. It's defined by one's actions."

- Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:25 AM [+] ::
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Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

how kewl!!! i didn't even notice the words were messed up until after the first comma... crazy shiznets... entiresting, very...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:42 PM [+] ::
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�If you don�t start opening up to people, you will always be alone.� - Lana Lang
(OH!!! damn it...)

�I may not have a choice.� - Clark Kent
(YES!!! Good answer!!!)

�There�s always a choice.� - Lana Lang
(AWWWW dammit...)
DIABOLICAL SCHEME!!! *clench fist in air


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:59 PM [+] ::
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freakin' awesome... i mean... awefull...
on CSI: Miami... LT. Horatio somethin' aka actor's name David Caruso did the Hero's Walk...
*thumbs up to the max...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:01 PM [+] ::
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YoMama 0274 (11:42:00 AM): whozis?
im hungryblabla (11:42:07 AM): asl?
YoMama 0274 (11:42:18 AM): 13/m/va
Captain Hybrid (11:42:35 AM): 18mca
im hungryblabla (11:42:35 AM): hello craig
YoMama 0274 (11:42:53 AM): who r u?
im hungryblabla (11:42:53 AM): u are stupid
im hungryblabla (11:42:57 AM): my name is evan
im hungryblabla (11:42:59 AM): remember me
im hungryblabla (11:43:05 AM): last name fullop
YoMama 0274 (11:43:09 AM): oh yea hard to foget you
im hungryblabla (11:43:12 AM): fulop
im hungryblabla (11:43:14 AM): my bad
im hungryblabla (11:43:30 AM): remember i always used to pick on u for having a small penis
im hungryblabla (11:43:39 AM): thats right
im hungryblabla (11:43:48 AM): ur a fagot
YoMama 0274 (11:43:56 AM): yea this penis that u reckoned u'd seen
(11:44:06 AM) YoMama 0274 has left the room.
im hungryblabla (11:44:22 AM): ok captain
im hungryblabla (11:44:27 AM): what part of cal
im hungryblabla (11:44:33 AM): mill valley
Captain Hybrid (11:44:39 AM): yeah
im hungryblabla (11:44:53 AM): do u know alex henry
Captain Hybrid (11:45:00 AM): yeah, iknow them
Captain Hybrid (11:45:01 AM): haha
im hungryblabla (11:45:06 AM): rele
Captain Hybrid (11:45:36 AM): vereally
im hungryblabla (11:45:51 AM): cool
im hungryblabla (11:45:53 AM): i know him
Captain Hybrid (11:45:58 AM): which one?
im hungryblabla (11:45:58 AM): what does he look like
Captain Hybrid (11:46:04 AM): which one?
im hungryblabla (11:46:22 AM): haha there is noone named alex henry there
im hungryblabla (11:46:25 AM): tricked u
Captain Hybrid (11:46:34 AM): but which one?
im hungryblabla (11:46:40 AM): u dont know him
Captain Hybrid (11:46:48 AM): ur right, i know both of them
im hungryblabla (11:46:53 AM): fuck u
Captain Hybrid (11:46:56 AM): i shall
Captain Hybrid (11:47:02 AM): not here... though
im hungryblabla (11:47:09 AM): suck my dick
(11:47:10 AM) xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx has entered the room.
im hungryblabla (11:47:11 AM): ur gay
im hungryblabla (11:47:14 AM): u dont know him
Captain Hybrid (11:47:20 AM): i know THEM!!!
im hungryblabla (11:47:27 AM): ur just makin up shit
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:47:27 AM): well hey
im hungryblabla (11:47:31 AM): no u dont!
im hungryblabla (11:47:44 AM): thats nt evan a person u ass hole
im hungryblabla (11:48:09 AM): i will beat the shit out of u
(11:48:11 AM) im hungryblabla has left the room.
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:48:26 AM): fuck
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:48:27 AM): haha
Captain Hybrid (11:48:49 AM): huh?
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:04 AM): what was that all about
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:05 AM): ?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:07 AM): *shrug
Captain Hybrid (11:49:14 AM): do u know him/her?
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:25 AM): yes
Captain Hybrid (11:49:27 AM): o ok
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:29 AM): do you?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:30 AM): kewl kewl
Captain Hybrid (11:49:32 AM): noPe
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:49:40 AM): so hes yelin at u for the hell of it?
Captain Hybrid (11:49:49 AM): well... yeah... he's tryin' to f--- up my mind, but ...
Captain Hybrid (11:49:50 AM): *Shrug
Captain Hybrid (11:49:51 AM): haha
Captain Hybrid (11:49:57 AM): vvhatever
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:01 AM): haha
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:03 AM): yeah im out
Captain Hybrid (11:50:05 AM): k
xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx (11:50:05 AM): later
Captain Hybrid (11:50:07 AM): c-ya:-)
(11:50:09 AM) xiMaSnEaKySnAkEx has left the room.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:53 AM [+] ::
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my back hurts... like a lot... :-/
since Friday night...
first time, i must admit...
mAssAge anyone???... female preferably... :-P...equals nine...
okokok...
g'night...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:24 AM [+] ::
...

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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haha, xanga is currently down...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:38 AM [+] ::
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LW~~! (9:51:28 AM): so THATS what all those tapes wereon ur chair
LW~~! (9:51:32 AM): ohhhHhHh
BATMA17 (9:51:34 AM): hahahha
BATMA17 (9:51:36 AM): FOOT LOOSE
BATMA17 (9:51:38 AM): fetish!!!
LW~~! (9:51:40 AM): uhuh
BATMA17 (9:51:40 AM): hahahhaa
BATMA17 (9:51:41 AM): jhahhahahha
BATMA17 (9:51:43 AM): hahahhahah
BATMA17 (9:51:45 AM): footloose
BATMA17 (9:51:47 AM): hahahhaha
LW~~! (9:51:51 AM): i get it *nudge
BATMA17 (9:51:51 AM): that can be a porn title
BATMA17 (9:51:54 AM): HAHAHHAHA
LW~~! (9:51:56 AM): foot LOOSE!
LW~~! (9:51:58 AM): hahahahhahaha
BATMA17 (9:52:14 AM): or a masochist porn title :-/
LW~~! (9:52:19 AM): footloose i get it i get it *nudge nudge
BATMA17 (9:52:20 AM): *shivers
LW~~! (9:52:24 AM): eww
LW~~! (9:52:25 AM): haha
BATMA17 (9:02:10 AM): stop nudging; that hurts... jk... or not??? or ... it's not hard enough...or not... ok i'll stop... or not...


HERE's UR FREAKIN' POST PEOPLE!!! dang, y u'll gotta ask if i posted yet... check the freakin' website!!! HAHAHAHA... no i'm not mad or annoyed... i just think it's funny that u'd ask when the website is just a couple clicks or keyboard types away... vvhatever... we're all lazy to the max, eh??? wahwahwah...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:57 AM [+] ::
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in the end... i'll have to go back to school and work for money... but i wanna think... even if it tears my mind... or is that bad...?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:35 PM [+] ::
...

haha, here's a pun...:
so Friday, a knee came with Jon Muckey... Sat... after practice, I got Syked into goin' to Bolsa Chica with Mike-o and Robin, then got Syked to hang with her mom and bobi... Sun... I got Lade with her mom and sister and Binh... Mon... I've Binh with tin and we got Lade... then her mom came and i brought tin to her car (supposed to be a metal funny joke thing... blah!!!)... then went to noel's and tagged along with him to get his bro... Tuesday... i ate with kate without fish but with trish... saw a nik nak paddiwak, no dog to give a bone, then a gilb trip... haha... then this ol' bat came driving home... *shrug... Wed. the tin got icky and aaron and noel went to get Lade... i just tagged along... and I was carolyn along... hahaha... i dont' know... but not...
i got to do aknee's pics now/later...*bobi l's head... cuz if i'm late, unlike kate... i'll get a knee in my gut, then have a tin metal plate to cover the bruise... that would look icky and muckey... then i'll need to get lade to make myself feelin' better while carolyn along songs... i'll need aaron my lungs or in my lungs... yeah... yeah... i'll just neil down now... and eat fish on a dish, right trish? SYKE!!!... haha... hahahhahhaha i'm crazy... or WIERD... yeah, i'm WIERD... cuz No L is wierdier-o than mike-o... what's the difference between BATMAN and a black man? BATMAN doesn't need robbin' to go in a store... id on't know man, i heard that joke somewhere... blah blah blah... what a nik nak this is... i hope i don't get a gilbt trip aboot it... i best stop this post now... this whole post has binh gay...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:46 PM [+] ::
...

so like entiresting, very the past dayz[go to last paragraph for summery]... aknee and jon came over friday... hung out at my place... wow... friends came over to MY house... unusual, tisn't it... congrats to aknee to be the first female Joseph friend to come over and Muckey to be the 6th Bosco Bro... talked about pics and what not... ... slept over at my sis... woke up early and brought her to her friend's house at 5 AM in Buena Park... (NOTE: KEEP TRACK WHERE I HAVE DRIVEN THIS WEEK) from there, drove home, excermicised, ate McD's, slept an hour then went to aknee's debut practice... wow i didn't realize it was the last practice until everyone started to leave :-(... anyhoo... that was from 10-4 good food... and still not everyone was there to practice... everyone got there but came and went at different times... i was in the picture takin' mark's place... sux for him... cuz when krizia and her sis kristine? were leaving, we took the pics before they left... and then aileen's sis kristine? took over Sy's place and stuffff... blah blah... fun fun billy willy MMM mmm ahhhh... *scratches tummy and back... soooo afterwards Sy was goin' to be taken home by Karen and her mom, but she wanted to go to a friend's house... near Bolsa Chica... so we said our good-byes, and what's odd is i hugged the parents bye... ya'know??? bye hugs??? if u know me, and i've met ur parents, i usually just wave... wierd... i gave bye hugs to parents... haha.. so i took her, found the place... hung out with Mike and ROBIN... yeah, yeah... then we left around 10:30ish PM... (sweet... ok so it's been an hour and a half since i continued to write in this haha... where was i? ok... left at 10:30ish then she called home and said somethin' was wrong... i dropped her off home... headed towards Karen's then had to make a U-turn to Sy's... then her, her mom, and i went to bobi's... from there picked up bobi and took him to sy's house... chilled and ate pizza... then went to karens round 2ish then left at 3 ish... went home, sleep, church at 10:30... then the bank and gas, then went to karens... tried to time it all but it didn't go as planned... details in my long blog... yuP, the long blog will still come haha... so packed my car with her stuff... brought binh to my house and he got ready there... from there go to noels... noel wasn't there dammit... change of plans... so from there went to karen's cousin's house... now if u must know my route thus far on this Sunday... it was ... haha read the route info on the last para... ok so... from the her cousins, played toys then off to UCE... haha... ummm... her, her mom, and her sis in one car... me and bing... imean binh... in mine... o yeah... binh's the first nonschool friend to enter my household... entiresting, very eh???... so yeah... ummm parking stuff... walking stuff... eating stuff... then buying stuff... her mom and sis left, then unpacking stuff... then off to home... from there Sn wanted me to accompany her to her orientation... miscommunication with my ears... thougth hang out with her after her orientation... so instead... i got to UCE around 10:30AMish went to binhs, Sn met up with us... then Karen was already at Binhs'... i'm all like... WTFreaks-in-a-mythologies... crazy shiznets... i thought she was at her dorm... haha... any hoo... talked and chillaxed... then went to her dorm... then...ummmm... binh left, went to go check out if Sn can still dorm... on the way we saw Aaron and Carolyn... kewlio to the max :-D... then checked out the clubs... saw my tito's nephew... (not my cousin; no blood relation)... he's AJ... kewlio to the max... invited me to go to a party Thurs. night... but sounds like i can't go cuz gotta get stuff ready... sux a bunch dammit!!! i was planning to too... oh vvell... then went to get Karen's books... her mom met us there... Tin... i mean... Sn (Speak... haha)... anywhoo... Sn had to go so i dropped her off at her car... and we left for our designated areas.... then i went to noels... chillaxed and ate popeyes... then i was in and out of Dominics then home... that was monday... so then... tuesday rest day, but i at breakfast in the SJHS parking lot with Patrizha and Kate... then to IHOP with titas and tito and nanay and my mom... meant to work on stuff but no... oh vvell... yeah, that's my problem... not workin' when i have stuff to do... anywhoo... then today... or yesterday wednesday... went to noels... aaron brought me and noel to karens... suprise suprise... maybe someone will blog or xanga about that... then... saw carolyn again... then home for us... and work for aaron...actually noel had his lola anniv. thing-a-ma-gig and i had my lola b-day thing-a-ma-gig... then family stuff... es allll good... but dang... that's another story... it's not a huge problem... but it's somethin' that gets me to think... i guess i'll blog that later... along with my ... okookokok... sooo i have my long blog still comin'... my education decisions blog... and then my family blog i owe u readers... haha SWEET SHIBBY OF ALL SHIBBINESS!!! i lasted 3 weeks of 7 dayz worth of blogs... it was hard enough to do 2 weeks... i'm kewlio about it cuz i dont' wanna be a loser who blogs everday... so i try not to... wahwahwah...

so in the end... in summery... [summary???]: On friday...Aknee and Jon Muckey came... to my house... Sat. sister's friend's house in Buena Park... then Aknee's practice in Long Beach... then i got SYKED and went to Bolsa Chica... then Cerritoes... then... Paramount??? then Cerritoes... then Karen's in Lakewood? right? dont' know... ... [buena park... 405N... 710N 405S... 405N 605 N... back and forth then back... then home... okokokok] SUN. Lakewood? then Long Beach... then West Long Beach... then... ummm what's Karen's cousin' house at???... then my house then noel's then UCE then home... [Lakewood... then 605S 405N to my house on those cross streets... then 405 N to Noels... then 710N 91W 605N to the cuzzes of Karen... then 605S to 405S to UCE... funny stuff on the freeway... blocking and all... anywhooooo... then home 405 N] Mon. 405S then 405N... haha... UCE then to noels then sidestreeted to dominics... then home... Tues... ate breakfast in SJHS eating Carl's Jr... and IHOP(just drank coffee)... wed... 405 S... to UCE again... and then 405 N... ate at... a vietnamese restaurant for my nanay's b-day??? (but in this case my nanay is my mom's mom... and my lola is my dad's mom... just to tell u the differentiationtiontniont....) anyhwooo... home now... and talked on the phone and sleep... now...


hmmm....dont' WONDER, don't ASK... well F U then... i will wonder and i will ASK.... i wanna know.... Ignorance is bliss..... well, if it is.... i don't want bliss.... i want to know what everyone knows, even if it causes pain(i'll take the risk, i may regret it, but i am i askin' it upon myself and i'll take responsibility for it)(Again, Pandora's box...)
vvhatever - Oct. 30 2002


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:11 AM [+] ::
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