:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Thursday, December 30, 2004 ::

"Oh. MMM Hellooo, Jeremy. ... Can I get a Jeremy on top of my dessert?"
-Tall Gay Black Guy

HAHAHA


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:26 AM [+] ::
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. befriending the guy at Jack-in-a-Box is freakin' sweet .
. i really can't wait till school starts :-P .


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:04 AM [+] ::
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How Love-Smart are you? Young Einstein!

When it comes to love you know your stuff. It's obvious that you understand how the opposite sex think, what they like and how you can make them happy. Hey why don't you rewrite the book of love!

How Love-Smart are you? Find out at DatingTips.ws


ha!!!
a person can get a wrong idea out of this...
this just shows that i know what it takes... AND, not necessarily picky, but i know what kind of person who would make me happy and vice versa... moo har har

valentine's day is coming... bum bum bum


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:23 PM [+] ::
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i need? a freakin' GF to freakin' freak in order to relieve the freakin' disappointment the Lakers brought upon me.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:19 PM [+] ::
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You Are From Mercury

You are talkative, clever, and knowledgeable - and it shows. You probably never leave home without your cell phone! You're witty, expressive, and aware of everything going on around you. You love learning, playing, and taking in all of what life has to offer. Be careful not to talk your friends' ears off, and temper your need to know everything.

What Planet Are You From?

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:43 AM [+] ::
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To continue on with life, you must
first, let go of what you've held onto for so long.
then, accept responsibility of what you do and don't do.
No scolding or pride necessary; just flow.
yafeelme?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:04 PM [+] ::
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y can't happiness last longer than negative feelings?
it's all in the mind?
blegh, excuses and reasons can only suffice for so long
what am i doing wrong?
is there a right way?
probably so, or not?
good intentions, right way
good intentions, wrong way
bad intentions, right way
bad intentions, wrong way
:-/

feelin' so ...incomplete...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:46 AM [+] ::
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Prelude 3.0
by Slipknot
Album : Vol 3: (The Subliminal Verses)


I don’t know why I never told you
I don’t know why I never tried
Why we shed these bitter skins again (Skins again)
All the reasons come to life

But now its over
Now its over
Now its over
Now its over

I don’t know why you never asked me
I don’t know why you never cared
When we hide these little sins again (Sins again)
All the reasons have to die

But now its over
Now its over
Now its over
Now its over

Now its over!
Now its over!
Now its over!
Now its over!
No!
No!
No!
No!
No!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:09 PM [+] ::
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gaddang, 100 dollars gets spent fast :-/
Spider-Man 2 makes me cry.
Hero is .brilliant.
Daredevil Director's Cut has it's ups and downs... but overall down...:-(
the best scene is when Elektra asks Matt to stay with her on the roof so then in the next scene she'd sleep with him and convince him to go to the formal party; but instead, Matt walks away to do his duty.
and if the editing was done just a bit better, then the the sub-plot with Coolio and the movie would flow better.
so, if anyone wants to buy me the regular Daredevil DVD widescreen version, that'd be great... i accidentally bought the Full Screen :-/


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:40 PM [+] ::
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boredboredbored

-DELETED-
1:00AM
i deleted it cuz the quiz was whack and wasn't showing the same numbers...
>:| ... dang, that put me in a bad mood...grrr

and the timestamp isn't even correct!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:56 AM [+] ::
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Hero was freakin' aweFULL
Brilliant

"One person's pain is nothing when compared to the suffering of all."

A dead man begs you never to forget the ultimate ideal for a warrior.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:18 PM [+] ::
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-Duality-
Slipknot

(I push my fingers into my) Eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works its way inside
If the pain goes on…

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I waited as my time’s elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create
I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I’ll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You’re left with me 'cause you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
If the pains goes on I'm not gonna make it!

Put me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality
Is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way
Nothing is what it seems!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It’s the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it’s made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It works its way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane...
All I've got...all I've got is insane!
All I've got...all I've got is insane!!!

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the thing I am today
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on,
I'm not gonna make it!


*humming -
Lonely! I am so Lonely...
somethin' blah blah blah
blah blah blah blaaah blaaaah
ooooohhh!!!

*blahing; low monotone -
it's the most wonderful time of the
. . .yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeear. . .

*singing -

Wash away the thoughts inside...

tears of hope run down my skin
tears for you that will not dry


mistletoe can be deadly if u eat it,
but a kiss can be deadlier if u mean it

i can't sleep if . . . . . .


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:54 AM [+] ::
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it is a flippin' fact that the bad outweighs the good... think about it...
today in socio class, watched a video of My Lai Massacre in the Vietnam War... one Viet lady talked about how... when she was very young, she watched her sister, 14 yrs. old at the time, fighting against an American soldier. The soldier pushed down on top of her and her sister's closed were taken off. Then, the soldier got up and put his clothes back on and shot her. The young girl then left her hiding place and went to her burning home, where in the yard, she saw her whole family stacked upon each other, burning. She then crouched next to her mother and infant brother, who was wrapped in the mother's arms, and she cried helplessly...
in another story, a photographer took a picture of a group of Vietnamese, then turned and walked away. He then heard gunshots, turned around, and saw the group fall. Then it showed the picture he took just before they died... crazy shiznets...
but yeah... that's an open bad
yesterday, my sister, my mom, and i went to eat at a chinese restaurant... good shiznets, ya'know?... my sister saw a memory stick on the floor... i picked it up and my sister and mom said to take it home... my sister said we could use it and my mom said that even if u did turn it in or left it, someone else would use it... so i was hesitant and i took it... went home, and i checked out the 255 pix... it was mostly pictures of a baby, some duck hunting, and beautiful/pretty landscapes, and restaurant pix... judging stereotypically, it seems it was a chinese/asian baby born into a rich white family... haha or not... i could always be wrong... then,
i figgured, do unto others as u would have other do unto u... so i drove back and gave the memory card to the restaurant... the lady went wide-eyed and said YEAH... THANK YOU someone just came in looking for it... so i became temporarily happy... and thought, "it's not do unto others what others do unto u; it should be more like, do unto others that U WOULD LIKE OTHERS DO TO U" ... so if i lost somethin' ... i want it returned...
so yeah... open/closed good
then, there's me eating dinner... microwave food... and my dad and mom saying how my wife should be able to know what i could eat... save lots of money to go out, or she should be able to cook, or what not... then talked about what race she would be... american, filipina, or asian... blah blah blah... dammit it's the holidays
that's closed bad
it's all perspective... and relative... i never understood what is meant when something is described relative... but now i do... and i'll try and explain if u dont' understand... when someone says relative... think of comparing... comparing what is said with the general aspect... yes, i'm very broad, but that's cuz i'm not giving a specific example... another way to describe it, think of perspective... Point of Views... general PoVs to be exact... how does the general population think of what was said... majority and blah blah blah tomorrow my mom leaves her job from Harbor UCLA Medical Center in Torrance/Carson after 25 years... she will now work... somewhere 110N exit Slauson... supposedly she got a better job... at Harbor, she's like a Boss 1, and at the new hospital, she'll be a Boss 3... so 2 jobs higher or vvhatever... that's all


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:55 PM [+] ::
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GAH!!! believe it or not, george
but i believe in jinx...
seriously!!!
like, if i mention to anyone that i'm going to a party later that week, the party gets cancelled or i can't go... if i ever plan anything without it being finalized... it mostly doesn't work... the only thing that EVER worked was the BJs birthday party last year cuz i planned that in 24 hours and a full tank and half of gas...
*sigh
now, about those videos... last year... 2003... i had a valid reason for not finishing it soon... i went to the PI... and then post-grad syndrome hit me... i moved the due date from last day of school... to grad day... from there... to my birthday, then to july 4, then july 17... then before school started...
now... since after the summer, i would avidly work on the videos... like... boom boom boom done done done... and then... my pattern, my schedule would change cuz of vacation... or going out, or family or friend party... i would then move the release date to Holloween, THEN X-mas then new years... ultimately though, there'd be a drought again for vvhatever reason... i'd work myself... hype myself up to finish these videos before every postponed date and just when i'm in the roll of things... someone calls or IMs me asking about the tapes... and i'd give them an update... that would also break my concentration... now, i know it's been over a year and a half, and i don't blame u for asking me... but everytime it's mentioned... i don't get to finish by that due date... so after X-mas... i shot for the anniversary of the Footloose and PCN videos... sometime between March and May... but alas... i broke the silence when i'd ask someone their address and they'd ask y, then they'd get excited and then... i just jinxed myself... well,... i pushed it back to my birthday again... then, again before school started... BUT NOW... it WAS to be slated for a X-mas release... BUT... u 2 just had to happen to IM me at relatively the same time and ask me about it... maybe i'm jinxing the jinx by typing it here, we'll see... or maybe it's MY fault for even reminding u about those videos in my profile... mah bad... that's my fault then :-/ *deep breath, siiigh...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:32 AM [+] ::
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Gah! I hate that guy!!!
my psych 10 class he sits to the right of me... all the time...
fu--in' white boy red neck black talker... well that doesn't bother me
but he takes the whole freakin' arm rest!!! the desks r stadium seating...
keep ur WHOLE arm on the other side... long periods of guy contact makes me very uncomfortable... sure, giving guyz hugs and high fives... i'm all jolly good with that... (except the slapping of the butt, especially among athletes, i never quite understood that) gahhh... and get ur own f---in' supplies... mr. nice guy... hahaha in high school... i'd keep my scantrons in my locker and only take vvhatever necessity to the class... that way, they wouldn't know to ask me for some... also, with food... i'd sit with my white group to eat cuz they wouldn't ask me for food... stingy?... well, f---, give me my selfishenss...
this white guy here, last week he borrowed a pen... an eraseable... sure, i forgot to ask it back... but today, he asked for a scantron... AND then, minutes later, a pencil... i asked about my eraseable pen... he just kept silent... yah... shut ur mouth... mother freaker, i KNOW he tries to cheat off me... it's not like i could change seats... well i could, but i dont' cuz i don't wanna make it obvious that i'm tryin' to avoid him... vvhatever the freak ever... i didn't ask for the pencil back either cuz i don't wanna wait for his anal to finish his exam... which he didn't study for either... pffff... f--- everything...
there, now u know what's goin' on in my life... in important detail


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:53 AM [+] ::
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*sigh...
what a coincidence...
Mandy Moore introduced Josh Groban and he sang Remember When it Rained


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:26 PM [+] ::
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so i beat FFVII yesterday and i'm still feelin ba-la

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his lifelong friend, Puff could not be brave
So, Puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave, oh


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:27 AM [+] ::
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today, my mom had to go to LA, but she never drives that long of a distance. my dad drives her since it's his day off. the plan is:
mom takes her van and goes to work, dad picks her up, goes to LA, brings her back to work, and then goes back home...
because my dad doesn't drive the camero, aka Zorr0's Red Stallion, on the freeway cuz it's kinda old... he would use either my sister's accord or the BATMA17mobile... my sister and i both have school, but she also has work. because of our schedule, my dad chooses the accord.
all is well, but when i get home at Approx. 2, my sister is angry cuz my dad said he'd be back by 1:30 when clearly my sister has to get to work by 2 o'clock. so, instead, i take her to work. Meanwhile, my dad gets home kinda angry at my mom cuz he didn't like waiting longer than she said she would take. She did say that she'd be finished by 1:00.
Anyway, later, my dad goes grocery shopping... almost an hour later, i get a call... bum bum bum... BATMA17 got work to do... moo har har... not a life/death situation, but i'm there for ya... turns out my dad has engine trouble... battery is dying... so i bring him his tools, go to the Kragen, buy another battery, go back to the car, and replace the battery... yay!!!
^_^ Fate has saved my sister from the engine trouble. ^_^


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:23 PM [+] ::
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the BoA 2005 Calendar was shipped today at 10:52PM Japanese time!!!
YAY!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:28 PM [+] ::
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i freakin' Love the rain!!!

got a new wallet, got a new wallet
got a new wallet, hey hey hey hey!

i shall now retire my Approx. 8 yrs old Mickey Mouse Wallet *sigh... i got this wallet with my sister's bf's Disneyland discount in Las Vegas

Happy Birthday, Bloggy Woggy!!!

Memoriieeees... alll alone in the mooooonliiiiight

*relaxed
ahhhhh, it's almost X-mas time... a time when u snugglecuddle with the ones u love... *tilts head; places clasped hands to cheek; corny smile
^_^


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:22 PM [+] ::
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I noticed
I can't think of anything else
unless i do something else.
like play FFVII
or watch Van Helsing

my review:
Dialogue sucks... especially Dracula's...
i don't know if it was the script or if how it was acted... but it bothered me mucho... the CGI was kinda too much or maybe i'm just worn out of it's pazazz... and the physics of the earlier action scenes didn't impress me either...
WHAT DID SAVE THE MOVIE was the development of the story... from a nonimpressive start into a satisfying ending... Especially the outcome of Frankenstien's Monster and Anna... loved it muchos... semi-predictable, but fulfilling nonetheless...
question: soooo, how did the Female Vampire escape the clutches of Frankenstien's Monster??? *shrug :-/
and hey! Faramir (The Two Towers/Return of the King) and Beni (The Mummy) is in the movie!! that's kewl...

and... riding into the sunrise... Classic, not overdone, pleased
...a sub of the Hero's Walk...
;-)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:43 PM [+] ::
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"A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles." - Christopher Reeve

Since i don't feel like doing anything (not to my suprise... or not?) let's blog
uhhhhhhhh...
This morning... i had a 'rude' awakening... when i mean rude, i was laughing! :-D... my mom knocks/slams on my door, OPEN THE DOOR
argh... what now?
turns out she found out y am i home at 8AM?
curses, Columbus Day... my parents had the day off... well not really curses, it's not like i was hiding anything... more like not saying anything :-D...
so anyhoo she finds out that i went from 18 units to 9 units this semester... vvhatever the freak ever... "I think a man does what he can, until his destiny is revealed." i'm doing what i can... and I CAN be lazy :-D... *siiiiigh anyhoooo... they brought me to Dennys to talk and at the same time annie and i were texting...
theeeeeeeen, went to school... Mand blah blah blah... it's not working!!! anyway... then sociology, purty kewl... i should step up and study... i can... and i will... and maybe not... haha
then home, then SJHS... then tickets... saw Magnolia and there were others at the UCLA meeting in the library... blah blah blah... and blah blah blah... sleep, wake up.. sleep wake up... computer stuff... watch Superman, eat.. .and stuff and balh o!
and the BoA 2005 calendar's release date is postponed to Oct. 30 :-/ oh vvell... we'll see if i'm still alive till then... dream dream dream... dream dream dreaaaam... dream dream dream dream... what else
i want to learn sword fighting... not fencing... stupid, freakin' proper etiquitte fighting... "oh on guard... oh good move!" *british/frech accent... i want to learn Bushido sh--. moo har har!!! ... simple living and all that jazz.. .close combat... use only when necessary... discipline... sword fighting... two blades is tight... just like Star Wars: KotOR, i always have my main character fight with two lightsabers... sure his defense is a lil bit low, but ... uhh... vvhatever...
now what... ummmmmmm i hate everything still... sure sure... the whole world should die at the same time, so that no one will have time to mourn or feel sad for others... i think preservationists go sometimes a lil too far... i mean, come on... the population is growing, gotta make room somewhere... eh, but i understand their views too... i got sentimental stuffors also... uhhhhhhhhh Punisher kicks anal... the movie gets better everytime i watch it... ummmmmm yeah... not really sleepy... not in the mood to do the things i want to do... i'll just sit here and stare and think of what could be...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:40 AM [+] ::
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O I JUST REMEMBERED!!!
the BoA 2005 Calendar is RELEASED TODAY!!! WOO HOO!!!
i'm a lil bit happier now and again


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:45 PM [+] ::
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SpAzChICk119 (10:25:11 PM): CHRISTOPHER REEVES JJJUUUSSTT DIED!!!
BATMA17 (10:25:16 PM): what
BATMA17 (10:25:21 PM): :-(
BATMA17 (10:25:22 PM): awwwww


i haven't really seen the news myself yet, but it's probably true...
:`( ... dang, freaks-in-a-mythologies
plannin' all this shItzer then this comes up... i'm gonna watch his movie tomorrow...
and i'll buy the Quadrilogy Superman DVD set...
what's gonna happen on Smallville? :-/
*sigh...
and i used to pin a pillow case around my neck and some adult would hold me and i'd lift my legs and arms and fly... :-`


that sux...
well... vvhat r ya gonna do now? *shrug


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:27 PM [+] ::
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i missed Smallville!!!
freaks-in-a-mythologies
First time i watched The Apprentice... purty good, purty good

Teacher says i should watch Mean Girls and Saved!

yaaaaay... another female Padilla...
Welcome to the world Marisela Jade Molina (My cousin(female)'s first daughter; my nanay(my mom's mom)'s ?th great-grandchild out of toomanyth great-grandchildren)... soon, in years to come, u'll know that the world is not a pretty place... have fun in Hawaii though!... it's not like u'll live there after ur 2nd b-day arrives (i heard)... but when u live here in CA, u can ride with me in my BATMA17mobile and help me get chix with ur cuteness... or not...
sooo really... Happy Birthday... (Sept. 29, 2004 Approx. 8:30PM CA; 5:30 HI correction: 2:54PM HI; 5:54PM CA)

haha, my nanay is probably: "abah, another great-grandchild... been there done that... when will my great-grandchildren produce my great-great-grandchildren???!!!"
then, there's my lolo and lola(my dad's parents): "aye, by golly! we're just waiTInG por my grandchildren to get married phirst. and den, FINE-ALLY, we can have our own great-grandchildren."
kid lang, kid lang...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:42 AM [+] ::
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okok

Star Wars is purty kewl, purty kewl... movie and game-wise
neck hurts from annie's party; good food equals nine
what else...
bought BATMAN stuff from Hot Topic at Lakewood Mall;
thanx mom and daddio;
lynette saw my car;
my cousin's daughter, Marisela Jade Molina, will be born sometime in October;
my cousin, Catherine Rono, gettin' married in Approx. next year October;
as well as my sister, Lorena, and her BF, Sandy, gettin' engaged and plannin' for a Labor Day weekend Sept. '05...
a lot shall happen in '05, so we shall all wait till then...
moo har har


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:26 AM [+] ::
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it was a freakin' dream...
i finally cried, readers!!!
who knew in less than one hour, u could have a long anal dream
yay, i cried, but the reason sucked anal
my mom died suddenly, and i dreamt how i was taking it...
and not good at all... dude, dudette... i'm still trying to hold back tears right now...

i'll read this post in the future and think haha... right?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:53 AM [+] ::
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i don't want to do school stuff soooo i'll talk about...
My First

First place i went to after i got my license: SJHS
First passenger: Magnolia
First destination other than school: Cerritos Mall parking lot.
First passenger in the BATMA17mobile: Toni
First passengers in the BATMA17mobile: Toni and Nychel
First passenger to drive on the freeway & at night: Holly
First passengers to drive on the freeway: Toni and Nychel
Non-relatives to have driven the BATMA17mobile: Sandy, Alex, Karen, Lynette and Mark
First male passengers to get in a car crash: Myko and Javier aka Spider (Best Buy parking lot; no dent)
First female passengers to get in a car crash at night: Leslie and Krissa (July 4, '03; major dent harhar)
First time to hit a parked car: neighborhood outside of Bellflower HS
First time i broke hard and screeched: Dominic followed Toste, I followed Dominic, i was in a right turn only lane and i switch lanes quickly right behind D-money and almost hit him)
First time i broke hard and screeched with a passenger at night: Jamboree Road on my way to BJs with Carolyn.
First people to drink in my car: Dominic, Mark, and Christina
First person to smoke in my car (dammit!!!): Dominic
First long distance driving: Escondido (near San Diego)
Longest distance driving: Las Vegas and back
Most Gasoline spent in a day: 1 and 1/4 tanks; Oct 10, '03
First time really, really lost: trying to take Spring st. home from West Long Beach
Longest time getting lost: 1 hour and Approx. 13 min. - taking a girl home in Anaheim who didn't really know how to get home and then going back to Spider's b-day party; (damn can't remember the guy who was with me, i'll edit it when i do remember)
First person to voluntarily tip me for driving: Mendie (who was with Anne and Toni) on our way to Artesia HS (haha accendentally went to Cerritos HS first)
Another time i got really lost: with Spider, trying to find a freeway in La Marada coming from Danielle's "Bible Study"
Most people in my car including me: 6 (2 different occasions)
First time having a lot of passengers: From S&G to Bosco for PCN practice. Passenger seat: Nychel; Back seats: Toni, (ARGGGH I CAN'T REMEMBER WHO ELSE... my goodness, i thought i'd never forget but i did!!! i'm sorry!) i think the other 2 were Kate and Anne; and Front seat floor: Vanessa
Second time having a lot of passengers: Noel's house to Queen Mary. Passenger seat: Chamuel; Back Row: Randy, Michelle, Aileen; Laying down on the laps of Michelle and Aileen: Christina.
Most consecutive driving home female: Karen
Most consecutive driving home male: Dominic
First person to vandalize my car: Lynnsay?
First person to scare with my alarm: Lynnsay?
First people to scare with my alarm: Elaine and Krizia
Longest drive and talking on the phone: Patrizha; Fullerton to UCI
First time realizing Riverside is farther than Corona: 91W coming home from Riverside with Dominic, Chamuel, and Rachel
First time dancing on the Freeway: same as previous
First time to scare my passengers on the freeway: after entering the onramp to the 91W, on our way to Annie's debut with Binh, Derrick, and Jen (Binh and Derrick were like 'o sh--!' & 'BATMA17! whoawhoawhoa!' but Jen was like... 'whoa...yeah, vvhatever')
First time driving another non-related person's car: Kristine's CRV
Second time driving another non-related person's car: Dominic's sister's Mazda Protoge
First (damn!) crippled passenger: Jaycee... oooook (<--- gosh dammit, i'm saying that too much now)
Best suprised reaction of my BATMAN insignia: "WTF---? u got a motha f---in' BAT SYMBOL on ur roof!!!" -Black lady employee at the Drive-Thru window of Taco Bell. (AND YES I HAVE TO STATE IT WAS A BLACK LADY; not because it was stereotypical, but because i'm being detailed!)
Second best suprised reaction of my BATMAN insignia: "WTHell? u have a BATMAN SYMBOL on ur car... that's tight!" -Black security guard at Shadow Park
Other best suprised reaction of my BATMAN insignia: "OMG!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA" Hugs and picks me up "I LOVE IT, MAN, I TOTALLY LOVE IT!!!" -Roy... (haha, another jolly black fellow)

what else... argh... i know i messed up on spelling or who were the other passengers ... blah blah blah... this was fun... wahwahwah... always wanted to type it out... maybe i'll add/edit more later, if i remember...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:53 PM [+] ::
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ha, after posting the latest post, i said to meself, i dont' like posting quizes or such, BUT i just read somethin' entiresting, very... so instead of sleeping cuz i'm really sleepy or doing my essay cuz i MUST do it... i did this instead:

20 Questions to a Better Relationship (type it in a search engine)

eXpressive: 4/10
Practical: 2/10
Physical: 4/10
Giver: 8/10


You are a RSIG--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a People-Pleaser. (hm, entiresting, very)

Oh, RSIG! You are the most complicated and dynamic of any type. You are brilliant, tender, romantic and a joy to be with. You're the favorite of many of your friends. It's just not a party until you get there. You are bursting with feeling and sentiment and insight but you very rarely express it -- it's not how you want to present yourself to the world. Although you are always studying your non-romantic relationships -- you turn a blind eye to romantic relationships. (sweet shibby, kewl kewl)

You're highly adaptable, and you conform to your circumstances (maybe you're a youngest child?). You would probably be content with almost anyone, and almost anyone would be blissfully happy to have you. But just because you're content doesn't mean you're happy. Don't settle! (hell freaks yeah i consder myself adaptable... and i do have that ...fear)

You'd rather ignore your problems than rock the boat by creating conflict. Please understand that in the long run ignoring conflict will make you unhappy and your partner exhausted. Try picking a fight just to see how it goes. You'll find out that solving problems is so satisfying for you that it makes conflict worth it. (that's not true, i'd want to instigate and then solve it right away, ya'know?)

Your sex life could be fantastic if you could stop worrying about everything so much (did I wash my hands? how do I look? what do I need to do tomorrow?). You need a sweet, expressive lover who makes you feel at ease and never puts pressure on you. If you feel secure with your partner outside the bedroom, it will make all the difference. (hm, i do second guess a lot... :-` ... yeah, i'd need the girl to be... assuring)

You cry at movies. A lot. (although i have teared up; i've never shed tears)

Of the 70909 people who have taken this quiz, 6 % are this type.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:50 PM [+] ::
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i saw Joy Bisco and Rex Nav-something today... that's kewl... o yeah, and Invid... i dont' know them, but if they make it bigger later, at least i sat in the singer(?)'s chair after he got up from it... wahwahwah...
and my cousin? a PIMP??? *sighhhhh... haha vvhatever the freakever
on a happier note, BoA is still pretty
on a sucky note, my keyboard and mouse is getting old
AND on a suckier note, i don't want to start my essay which is due 16 hours from now. I had a month and a week to do it, but eh...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:38 PM [+] ::
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damn, had a lengthy post and the internet froze...

well, here's the shorter version... i like Se7en (the movie not referring to the Korean singer), Dogma, and End of Days... not so much Stigmata... i was ~eh~ with that movie...
i feel purty crazed by Boredom recently, but this movie calmed me down...

Fallen

here are some quotes...

- "They stalk those who prey upon them, therefore hide your good works."


- "I believe more is hidden than what is seen.

We're not supposed to know. We're not supposed to see. It's like the Mafia. They don't even exist.

There are certain phenomena which can only be if there is a god and if there are angels. And there are. They exist. Some of these angels were cast down, and a few of the fallen were punished by being deprived of form. They can only survive in the bodies of others. It’s inside of us. Inside of human beings, their vengeance is played out.

We believe that God limited demons and made them mortal. He put us here to fight them.

There's a difference between risking for yourself and someone else.
...if I had someone, I'd want to share my life and thoughts, and work with them. If I shared this, I'd put them at risk and I don't have that right."


i would reiterate my thoughts, but maybe Fate happened and i'm not allowed to share them here... haha, laziness strikes even my hygiene care...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:51 AM [+] ::
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heheheheh...
"In the year 2000...
Batman will admit he's gay.
Also, Clay Aiken will admit he's Batman."


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:54 AM [+] ::
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how funny, i just realized that Misty and May r Pokemon characters :-P


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:34 AM [+] ::
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BATMA17 (12:28:36 AM): hey
BATMA17 (12:28:39 AM): try and remember back
Egptgoofy (12:28:50 AM): ok about what...
BATMA17 (12:28:57 AM): we were on TV cuz we got 2nd place in the Mock Trial
Egptgoofy (12:29:03 AM): yes
BATMA17 (12:29:17 AM): wasn't the CSULB volleyball women's volleyball team there also?
Egptgoofy (12:29:32 AM): yes and thats where we got to meet misty may
BATMA17 (12:29:35 AM): YES
BATMA17 (12:29:36 AM): o k
BATMA17 (12:29:36 AM): kewl
Egptgoofy (12:29:40 AM): lol
Egptgoofy (12:29:45 AM): i got her autograph!
BATMA17 (12:29:46 AM): yeah i didn't kno wher back then... but now i'm excited
Egptgoofy (12:29:46 AM): haha
BATMA17 (12:29:48 AM): haha
Egptgoofy (12:29:58 AM): lol yeah she got a gold medal
BATMA17 (12:30:01 AM): cuz she used my pen to give Taylor an autograph
BATMA17 (12:30:05 AM): yeah, she's on leno right now
Egptgoofy (12:30:06 AM): at the olympics...awesome chick
Egptgoofy (12:30:15 AM): no way
Egptgoofy (12:30:19 AM): k im gonna check it out
BATMA17 (12:30:21 AM): interview's done now
Egptgoofy (12:30:23 AM): what channel
BATMA17 (12:30:24 AM): that's y i'm here asking
BATMA17 (12:30:26 AM): Ch. 4
Egptgoofy (12:30:26 AM): oh lol


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:31 AM [+] ::
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i was looking for this quiz and now i found it, yay...


Amazing Kiss


WhichBoAsMusicAreYou?
brought to you by Quizilla

i heard a lot of people got this one... vvhatever...
she's pretty, tee hee

and i'm forcibly hating everyone


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:23 PM [+] ::
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this shItzer has been on my mind for a 'hella' long time... so i'll just tell everyone now... yeah, so i haven't really celebrated my birthday... or actually, i never ever planned my own birthday shindig... soooo... for my birthday... i would like to watch a movie... anyone and everyone is invited to watch; just leave me be with the movie in peace... and it BEST be good
so far, the movie's release date is on my birthday, so they BEST not move it...

that's all...

ha!!! i just learned that my school starts in 2 weeks rather than 1 week... GREEEEAT, more time to waste my life away... or what not... blah blah blah and all that cheerios...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:39 PM [+] ::
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*smirk

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	8 1/2
your best quality is	youre responsible
your worst quality is	um...nothing =)
this is because	you were always this way
Quiz created with MemeGen!

r these fill in the blank/non-quizzes the new wave of 'bored-n-post'?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:04 AM [+] ::
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hahahahaha that's funny...

Your Love Life by lpfloatsmyboat
Name/username/nickname:
favorite color:
best physical quaility:	nothing really :(
best personality trait:	outgoing
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?	yes!
when will you get married?	May 23, 2016
your kiss is:	short and sweet
People date you because:	you're kind
Quiz created with MemeGen!

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:19 PM [+] ::
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abdication


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:32 AM [+] ::
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Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?	FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth
How will you commit suicide?	You will set your house on fire and sit alone in the corner as the flames consume you
How many tries will it take?	29
When will you commit suicide?	June 27, 2015
What will your suicide note say?	Unrequited love can kill
Quiz created with MemeGen!

i took these from the past... and now i'm posting it...

BATMA17 is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.

N POISON

Username:

From Go-Quiz.com



You are Marcie!


Which Peanuts Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

eh, there was more amusing ones, but can't remember where and all...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:29 PM [+] ::
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Went to BJs and when i first got there, i remembered the last time i was there... It was the night of the last showing of OOTI (Once on this Island)... the night Chris came to me...
It was after the show and i was getting anxious to get everyone's address so i can send them their tapes... anyhoo... all the guests were leaving, i said "seatbelts" and all... cast, crew, and friends were inside... i stayed out on the bench and Chris stayed with me... First thing i ask, "y r u out here? don't u wanna be inside?"... his response... "nah, i don't feel like it"... "what's up? what's wrong?"... he explained how he felt he had a hard time with socializing with others... sure, he has friends, but he couldn't but feel how others described him... Annoying... ... hm, unfortunate for that... can u blame ignorance?... if a person acts the way they r because it is who they r... and others perceive it as annoying, isn't that unfortunate?... acting nothing else but urself and being described as annoying... alright... well, solution... if u catch urself talking too much, simply just quiet down... take-a-tizzy, ya'know? alright, he got the point... hm, the thing i remember the most as he was explaining... "it's like... i want to be like you, BATMA17. ya'know? ur kewl and all, everyone knows u. ur popular, ya'know?" ... flattering, that made me think for a second... i responded with... "hm, well... dont' wish to be anyone else but urself... because no matter who a person is, they always have their own set of problems..."... and he's wrong, not everyone knows me... i dont' consider myself popular... people know my name, but that's it... it's easy to remember... i like it like that... it's a name to remember when trouble is needed, i'm happy he came to me... i 'lectured' and explained just as i would with any other person would come to me... i said my "from all bad comes good" quote... and he was listening, good, BUT the feeling towards him was that i was afraid of an aftermath... he kept saying, "ur right ur right... that makes sense"... i was afraid of that... i was afraid that he was listening and he would put himself down harder... i told him, just go with the flow and catch ur own 'annoyance' which others would consider annoying... dont' scold urself, just be vvhatevers about it... don't think about it TOO much... i even told him to not think about what i said... i knew what was going to happen that night he went to bed... he was going to think about what i said and he's goin' to hype himself up about how he's goin' to be a better person... and ultimately as dayz go by, not much change would have happened... so, i kept reiterating, don't think TOO much about it... i dont' know whether he did think about it a lot or not...
then we talked about his prom and how he was undecided... heck, i didn't go to my prom... but i knew he wanted to go, he told me who he wanted to go with... i told him... try it and expect a no... for if u receive a no, ur ready for it... if it's a yes, u'll be happier than if u were expecting a yes... anyhoo... the group went to BJs...
at BJs, goin' around the different tables, observing everyone and all... as we were seated, i noticed how he was 'annoying' to others... and ahhh, ic ic... that's y... some of his actions were tolerable, but everyone has there tolerant limits... i grabbed him by the arm, and all i said was "kewl it down a bit, kewl it down a bit..." and he said "ohhhhh ohh o k... alright alright, i gotchu..." so i'm like kewl... and then i ... grabbed another person by the arm and said... "kewl it on the PDA"... for all u couples out there, when u go out with friends who r single, it kills them on the inside... it twists and tightens and splatters the insides... so, as a tip to the couples who go out with the single friends... kewl it on the PDA... anyhoo, i didn't know if that person knew what i was talking about... but oh well... didn't wanna go into specifics since we were just walking past each other... *sigh... months go by, he'd IM me about other dilemmas and i'd treat him like i treat everyone else... so i didn't foresee what he would do to himself weeks ago... i remember everything and i would type it out, but this is all about BJs...
i also remember that other actor from OOTI... i assume he's gay, but i could be wrong; no hate; nothing wrong... he walked home alone and he even refused to get a ride with anyone else including me... i hope everything works out with him... *scratches head...
i read blogs, xangas, and journals about chris... and he is a good guy, just didn't work well with change... it was, as i call it, post-graduate phase... where a newly graduate feels like everything is at a loss, especially with friends... it's the summer, not everyone is hanging out everyday and by college time u lose touch... it's more of a paranoia... i think that got to him also... i was reading one journal where the girl would stay after choir practice alone after school... he voluntarily stayed with that girl until her ride came... even if he did have a car, he wouldn't go home yet... no one should stay alone... i'd like to think, i hope, that he got that from me... cuz after PCN practice i would stay until all the participants left... those were our first conversations... he'd be done with tennis and i'd be chillaxin' outside... he didn't have a car or license yet either, but that's when we'd talk in person... he's waitin' for his ride, just as i am waiting for everyone else to get their rides... heheheh... he wanted to be like me... that quote just keeps spinning in my mind since... then...
 
i guess i had the feeling to write this all down since i just ate at BJs...
that's all
*pounds chest and gangsta hand signals

to my first confirmed casualty
 
that's all

*edit - 9-27-04 5:36PM:
It can be said that a person derserves what they bring upon themself.
Godspeed, if there is a God, Chris
Hang tight, man... (pfff, Crude humor in my part...)
i'll see u in purgatory, or not not not
.sorry to those who were offended.

can i help it if i think it's funny when ur mad
trying hard not to smile when u feel bad
i'm the kind of guy that laughs in a funeral
can't understand what i mean, but u soon will
(r those the right lyrics?)
 
 
c-ya:-)
 
 
-j

:: j 3:56 PM [+] ::
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i'm growing hair on my feet, what the heck???
 
 
c-ya:-)
 
 
-j

:: j 5:48 AM [+] ::
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i was going to blog about the week of Christopher Castillo's death and my feelings towards it, about what i've learned about it (such as, Suicide only brings more pain and burden on others - not a good 'solution'; i'd only condone suicide if ur body willingly condones evil - referring back to the Gospel verse where if ur hands makes u sin, cut it off)... i was also gonna talk about the wake, the vigil, and the burial days... while at the same time dealing with my Astronomy 1 class... which i received a C in...
then talk about Spider-Man 2 which i watched with my mom... 3 quotes that stick to mind... Keeping love and feelings in by Dr. Octavius... Choices by the Doctor... and Everyone is a hero and needs an idol by Aunt May... and i must say this proudly cuz rarely does a movie do this... but i TEARED UP... to the point where my nose tingled and my lips quivered (although no tears fell)... it was when Peter Parker ran into the burning building and attempted to save the asian baby girl... (understandable if others thought it was corny)... i was so heartfelt that he did what he gots to do... my conclusion: we all can be considered heros by the choices we make... and then the second wave of emotion was when he put the suit back on and fought Doc Ock from the Clocktower to the Train... anywhoo...
then i was goin' to talk about my kewlio experience at the Anime Expo on July 4th with Gi to the second power and her friends...
then i was goin' to talk about a Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic update...
then i was goin' to talk about goin' to UCI and buying and stuff the 'things happen for unknown reasons'...
then i was goin' to talk about going out at night, hanging out with Sy, Toste, Dominic and Nychel, getting my camera back and finding a missing piece (or should i say, a piece is missing), and buying a ticket ...
then i was goin' to talk about Michelle's Birthday Part I & II
and then finally about going to the Tahitian Dance to watch Sy and Aileen with Michelle, Sy's mom and Bobi, Dominic, Nychel, and April...
and with a sentimental moment with myself during Intermission in which i stared at the Stars and watched the stars emerge from the sky as night got darker...
one last side note...
Nychel is smart... but how far will she go?* (not referring to her relationship)

well that's the overview of what was going to be said on this post... i was planning to go detail, but to lazy-anal for that...
haven't been updating much... mahz bad...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:24 PM [+] ::
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and i still question if there is a God...
a Higher Being(s)...

tomorrow is just...
another day

:: j 3:14 AM [+] ::
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so yeah, i'm going to blog now...
been up and down the past week or so...
let's see, always wanted to spend time alone on my birthday, being the "kewl" loner type, but my mom kept saying that's bad luck... AND i wanted to release all these videos in my possession but i dont' have my camera to put the final touches... so then so then... my sister's boyfriend's sister's birthday also, dang, i wanted to go, but my sis was very persistent in not letting me go, and i thought about it... vvhatever the freak ever... Full Spectrum Warrior is kewl... short game, i'm almost finished with that... i went to the various malls with my sis's bf's sis for her birthday... at Nordstroms in Cerritos Mall, i sat on a bench, and took off my shoes and sat indian style... just stretchin' out and all that... then, and old man comes up to me... Barely audible and clear, "can i sit there?" and i say sure sure and i scoot over... he tries to make conversation with me, but i seriously could NOT understand him... so i just say my ohhhs and uhhuh things when i dont' know what the other is saying, ya'know?... didn't want to badger him in repeating himself, he might feel bad, ya'know?... i think he was talking about the men's department and women's department... then he became silent, and i thought he thought that i didn't wanna talk, but i was thinkin' "no, i'll have a convo with him... he's old... old people get neglected, and it's a gosh damn unfortunate truth." so then i look at his finger, he has a ring... i ask, who r u with?... he replies... "o, my wife..." continues talking about he bought shoes and she's looking around for make-up and perfume... and i'm thinkin' "that's nice" and he asks, "r u married?" and i smile and say,... "nah nah, i'm just 19"... and then he reassures me... "bah, u have a lot of time"... and everytime someone talks about relationships, i get mix feelings ... [annie's "and then blah blah blah" inserted here] then there's a family... 2 women and a little girl and the little girl is playing around them, and we are amused... youngins' r ignorant which make them innocent and cute ya'know?... she's running around, and the old man tries to ask her a question, just to be funny, but the lil girl doesn't notice... we continue to smile and all that jazz, then they leave... then i think about life itself and blah blah blah... young old blah blah blah... then the wife comes back... and she has more life than he does (she can walk without a cane unlike him)... so i'm thinkin' at least a 5 year age difference... so then he tries to stand up, and she helps him up, and instead of him carrying his own bag, she says "o let me get that dear" and she carries his belongings... and it's like dang... now, THAT's what i call "the good in people"... vvhatever, just my thoughts... i open the door for them and the lady thanx me and says "ur mother has taught u very well" and i say, "yeah, that's so true" ... cuz it is true, i believe i'm more like my mom... unfortunately/fortunately... so then that made me have a good feeling and i texted someone saying 'f--- ... soemthing i forgot what i said'... then a black family comes in and an old, big black guy stays behind and sits next to me... while the rest of his family goes, and i'm thinkin'... dang, what would i do at that age and such... but then i had to leave... mistress was calling...
then, i get a call in the car... a person i care about goes to the ER... so, i'm not externally freakin' out... but i'm like freakin' A... WTH would i do without 'em, so i'm like damn... can't really do anything but hope for the best... and then my birthday buddies' party and my cousin's grad party, it was chillaxing, but i felt helpless about the people i care about... then the next day... another person i care about goes to the ER and i'm all... freaks-in-a-mythologies!!!... so i try and check up on both people hopin' they're not freakin dead... TRUE, the probability of either of them dying was slim, but i was worrying more than i had to... and now, both people r good to go and happy and i'm happy, but of course i dont' show it, cuz i'm a "kewl" recluse like that.
and we all need somebody sometimes..


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:47 PM [+] ::
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hmmm

i AM weird... how else can i stress this out???
not just weird, but also a morbid mind...
i know u, dear reader, that u also took pleasure in... *thinks whether to type it out or not... eh, at least everl0ng knows what the end of the sentence would be...

i, too, am tired of being nice
i, too, am tired of giving people the benefit of the doubt
all too well than allya'all combined...

and i know this road too well, and yet i still refuse to GO the other way... i THINK about it, but no... i tell myself i'm set... and whatever obstacles or pathways take me a different road than i expect, then so be it... but right now... i'll take the pathway i'm on as long as it is available... *rubs nose

i'm out like dis... *poof*


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:58 PM [+] ::
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hm i could study, but not
lots on my mind, not the usual stuff either... well... hm...
i have to pee...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:24 PM [+] ::
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i was lookin' at Angel's grad night pictures and i sez to meself "o yeah, i remember what i was goin' to put on my previous post about grad night"... so, besides that i'm no dancer... and the only ride i went on was big thunder mountain (the train one right?) with only edward and chamuel... watching matrix on the bus and not hanging out with my old school friend annnnd just walkin' around and... the HOOD thing and my pens being confiscated... that was horrible... that started the night bad... SOABI0TCH... i'm starting to get pissed off again... what else... o yeah... me, noel, dominic and carolyn walking to our cars and i distinctly remember asking what they were doing afterwards... noel said he's just gonna drop dominic and carolyn to his car cuz he has to go to court that morning... about a ticket... so i'm like o o k... i'll just go home and knock out... thinking that everyone just went home... BUUUUUT months later i find out that he and other people all ate out at Dennys ... an di'm thinking'... "mutherfuther!!!" i wanted to eat out with all ya'all... :-(... yes, i felt sad... but yeah... hmm... i only put extreme seasons... haha jk... extreme feelings on this site... mostly bad... but vvhatever... the good come from time to time and ... hmm... does it balance out... vvhatever the freak ever...
i'm out... like diz *poof*


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:03 PM [+] ::
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i hate it
it all seems in vain
faith?
trust the unknown?

i'm tired

at times like these
don't think
just do

a little bit of everything: balance


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:24 AM [+] ::
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makes me want it less, but why?
i'm just weird like that...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:17 AM [+] ::
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o yeah, one more thing about my prom post...
kymee's friend... Jessica?... she wanted me to go with her cousin... but i declined... yup yup... hah...

what a pointless post... kinda...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:26 PM [+] ::
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01: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4: "He wanted them to be remembered."

02: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: Fan.


03: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: Game 6 Pistons @ Pacers half time.

04: Time without looking?: 8:45AM

05: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 8:44AM

06: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: besides the music from the computer?... nothing... o wait... my typing and me saying what i'm typing... haha... hahahahaha... moo...haha... HA!!!

07: When did you last step outside?: Last night... Approx. 10:45ishPM

08: What were you doing?: just got home from watch The Day After Tomorrow

09: What are you wearing?: take a wild freakin' guess

10: Did you dream last night?: probably yeah...

11: When did you last laugh?: a little laugh?... typing number 06... a bigger laugh... a scene of the reversal of immigration between USA and Mexico in The Day After Tomoorrow.

12: What are on the walls of the room you are in?: 3 Star Wars Episode II toys: Padme, Anakin, and Obi-Wan... FFVIII hanging poster... 8 FFVIII toys... BATMAN BEYOND Portrait/picture/sculpture thing ($250)... Eeyore's "Above the clouds there is always a rainbow."... a BATMAN picture i painted in Painting class... a BATMA17 self-portrait i painted in Painting class... 5 BATMAN BEYONE: RETURN OF THE JOKER toys... [my name]'s meaning that i got from the carts from the mall... 1st grade little league baseball picture... Taz stick picture from Mexico... 2 of my thingys; uhhh what do u call 'em? talis... hahah uhhh u hang it on ur graduation... hat? thingy... it's strings with the year thingy of ur graduation... i forgot... one for my elementary and the other from highschool... 2 pictures of the illusion pictures; the ones where u have to blur ur eyes to see the picture... My Christian Service Award in 8th grade... my 8th grade class picture covered by the South Park 3rd grade class picture... o yeah, 2 rosaries... a bosco feather metal thing i taped to my wall... string as boobie traps for my GI JOE... a hanger with a lei... clothes, attire, money, more rosaries and a santa hat... o and the door, if that counts as a wall... a mirror...

13: Seen anything weird lately?: me taking a long time typing number 12.

14: What do you think of this thing?: what thing?

15: What is the last film you saw?: The Day After Tomorrow.

eh, gotta stop... i have school in less than 2 hours and i gots stuff to do before then...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:01 AM [+] ::
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ahhhh grad nite... it was all right... i'm SO not a dancer... sorry edward if i pissed u off that night...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:44 PM [+] ::
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okokok... i meant to blog this the day of the bosco/joseph prom... what did i do that day?... was that the day of the beach?... i had to go somwhere afterwards too... o yeah, mark's thing... no wait, then it wasn't that day... no, wait... yeah it was... so i go to the beach with tin and her cousin then meet up with icky and eat some pizza... purty purty good equals 9... and then go to mark's and take care of the kids... then met up with dominic and went to... La Marada? area... saw Liza, she said our prom was better... troy, junior, jon was there... justin... and other girls i can't seem to remember... D4 to be exact kinda... ummm then went to look for another party, but that was over... brought Karessa home, and then dominic and mark at mark's house... SO... FLASHBACK...
ahhhh prom... just as it was last year... it WAS last year... wahwahwah... so yeah, at the time, didn't want to go, and i'm still proud that i didn't go... cuz like i said, if i were to go, it had to be with a special someone, the first and last and only... but alas... no... but i was being persuaded to go with anyone... so i was like... ohhhh alrighty... let's see... one afternoon at SJHS... karen takes me to the side and whispers that Liza is still looking for a date, and that she had a dress for our prom for months... and i was thinkin'... WTH? it's not even her prom... but o k... i'll ask... so i get home... call her up twice, no answer... and it's good thing i never leave messages... so next day... markulis is pissed... *shrug... who knows y... but it wasn't about the vids... (i'm still workin' on it FYI):-P... mark's happy... ahhh the answer reveals... mark is going to prom with Liza... entiresting, very... read some blogs, xangas, chatterboxes, tagboards... thanx to noel... and all that jazz... es alll goooood... i'm no dancer... that would be pretty dumb to mix a dancer with a nondancer... no fun... yup yup yup... then v-ness says she'd go with me... but i decline... a week later... WTH... y not?... and then she says yes... then a couple hours later No... cuz she doesn't want jon to be pissed off... soo awww tooooo bad for her... and then... the day before prom... people said to keep asking someone ... so i'm like fine vvhatever... i ask nikki... but it's too short of a notice... soooo nope... but es all good... me and dominic went to the prom anyway... but he dressed up!!!... i didn't... yup... me in my usual clothing... attire... MR. Linares stops us... we leave... go to a debut... he picks up Athena? we go our separate ways... he goes to wilson's queen mary prom... i go back to ours... takes pictures... and it turns out only one was good... :-/ mahz bad... i see markulis angry... sux for him :-/ ... ummmm chill at noel's ... da end


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:04 AM [+] ::
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blah, i don't like this new layout of blogger... but then again... i might get used to it... that's if i return... so then... i dont' know if i'll ever 'bbl' as it says on the highlighted note... hm, kymee's right... i "get into other people's lives cuz i dont' have one of my own"... Karen's recent post May 8 post says it all... Paragaphs 4,5, beginning of 6 (up to before the shy part), and 7 says it all... but none if u will ever know how it feels unless u feel what i feel ya'know?... hm seems like this post wil be longer than i expect... well, i'm feelin' worse than ever... and it's just as stupid as me self-pitying myself for not doing my HW... and ... other... corny shiznets and noncorny shiznets... and the fact that... i love/hate being me... psh... 'nuff said... no more... i want to cry, but i can't see to do that anymore... literally ... ... either i'm too concerned of the future, of other people... they are only thoughts and not actions... or i criticize myself too much... or not enough... or my viewpoints isn't with the norm of this society... which i'm happy/unhappy... it's hard to support thyself when i'm the only one supporting it... and it's hard to trust others if there's a chance that they can't help u fullheartedly... yup, i said it... i'll say it again... i dont' expect anything from any of u... i'd like to do it all by myself, but it's hard enough as it is... and if i just rely on someone, either they wont' pull through or it's not to my liking... then that's a setback already... or maybe i'm just setbacking myself... ya'know what?... think of every LITTLE negative thing and i'll enhance it and it'll just put me down... and i do it purposefully too... 'I don't know' is a scary phrase... cuz i don't know y, i don't know what specifically to do... i dotn' know if i could do vvhatever... i dont' know... hm... i can only get those tingly feelings in the nose but no tears... i hate this sh--... i want to but i dont' want to...

i'll always have a morbid mind... heh, or not

dissonance


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:57 PM [+] ::
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HAHAHA i just heard a funny story...
my mom just told me, learning from her various sources today

so there's this tall, black guy that liked my eldest sister (no, that wasn't the funny part, but thinking about it now makes me smile)... so the guy liked my sister... and he came over our house sometimes... i never really knew him... my sister didnt' like him back, cuz supposedly his attitude blegh, so they became OK friends and then there was a time my sister, when she turned 18, moved out of the house and into an apartment... trying it on her own (which ultimately didn't succeed, but props for trying)... during this time, she borrowed 500 dollars from this tall, black guy... then over time, the guy asked my sister to give back the money that is owned... but my sister didn't have the money, so she fessed up to my parents and asked the money from them... so my parents agreed and he came over to our house... my sister wasn't here (coward :-P), but my dad was and paid him and made him sign a paper saying that they paid him back... that's the last (only?) time i've seen of him... *burp... ok... so my mom finds out some information today... the black guy, his name is Milton Bradley (not the board game company) is really good Baseball... yes, Baseball fans(which sure as hell doesn't include me)... the same Milton Bradley who's being asked by the Dodgers to sign up with them (or is he already signed?)... entiresting, very... eh?... well, my mom found the contract that they made him sign for the debt he was owed... soooo they're all excited and hoping he makes it big...

for more on Milton Bradley, just type his name in any search engine... he grew up in Harbor City, CA (near Carson/Torrance right?), born in 1978, went to Poly High School... soooo yup yup

entiresting, very

wahwahwah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:10 PM [+] ::
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I was gonna do my Sociology HW but i didn't... maybe hopefully i'll turn it in late... so then i went back to sleep at 6:30AM... had an entiresting, very dream... this is one of the dreams where i could control my actions, and possibly other people... but it cArAzy kinda... sequence might be out of order:
I was in th Philippines... or i was in a Final Fantasy video game, no particular number... and i beat the boss... and i watched the cinmatic and when talking to another person i chose the different options of what to say... and then i resetted the game cuz i wanted to see what happened if i chose the other options... there was a black girl there... somethin' with a dilemma there... my uncles and their drinking somethin' about that... and then... here's the kewl part that i liked... we had to, or the black lady wanted to leave wherever we were... PI or something... so we were sneaking her out... 2 ladies, a guy, and me helping her... and we were entering my old school, St. Joseph Elementary, gym... the lady gave up and broke down... she didn't want to leave now... but i urged her to move on... the other 3 people didn't stop for her... so i picked her up and aided her out the door... then there was a mustached, mullet guy with a gun... we were in the parking lot of St. Joseph Elementary... i guess he wanted the black person to stay... and then another guy came out with a gun... he had a different agenda... then the guy we were with took out a gun... and i was like nono... not kewl... so i calmly got the gun from the guy i was with and said, alrighty i'll put down this gone, dont' want violence, don't want death... i'll even empty it... and as i was saying it... i was walking away from them towards our car... and both started to lower their gun slowly and follow me to my car, while the other 3 (1 lady(don't know what happened to the other one), black lady, and one guy) stood where they were... the gun i had was a magnum... one of them rolling chambers instead of magazines... so i openned it and started taking out 2-3 bullets at a time... and so i did and the other 2 guys dropped their gun... and i was REALLY tempted to use the gun on them when they put their guns down... cuz i held 1 bullet left in my hand... all i had to do was insert it and shoot... but i didn't and dropped it... then the black lady ran to the parked car and the mullet man ran to the church and came out with a hunter's rifle... i was like o crap... helped the lady in then i got the magnum and i was thinking... but i don't want to use it... but i gave in and picked up the gun and a couple bullets, loaded it, and aimed back... it was far; some time went by... then i shot him, so i was suprised that my first shot hit him... aimed shot him again... loaded more bullet... hoped it was in the right chamber... shot it again and the guy went down... i don't think i hit him that time,... i think i missed as he collapsed... and then we all went in the car left... o yeah... i guess i 'resetted' the scenerio... and i dont' know... i just went to a phone and called 911... and i was thinking... do they have 911 in PI?... so then a ladies voice saying something different so i did get the wrong number... ... then i thought dang, i need to be home by monday cuz i have school... so i was thinking of calling my mom and tell her to buy me a ticket back for sunday night... cuz Approx. when u leave PI at a certain time u arrive in US almost the same time... so i was thinking that... and then i remembered i had some errands to run, one for my sister... and then flashback of noel calling my cell to ask for something... vvhatever it was... i remember more detail in the dream, but no time to fix it... so vvhatever... and i picked up and dropped too many bullets than i said... vvhatever... O!!! i remember in the beginning part of a dream... i was in a Warner Bros. store... looking at one of the "Clix" toys... vvhatever... looking at each one for a long time... at one display case... then a lady asked if i needed any help or was considering buying anything i said no... then she asked if i'd like to see one of these... pointed at something... and i was saying ok... then she went behind a counter where there was a long line for the register/cashier... she took out the box and the styrophone?... styrofome... vvhatever... and it wasn't exactly like the display case, but the idea was there... it was a Mrs. Teapot from Beauty and the Beast... is that the character's name?... and then my sister calls or comes up to me asking where i am... and that's it for that... o k... i WANT to sleep... i hate sleep... makes me lag... eh, excuses, excuses...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:57 AM [+] ::
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some funny convos stuck to mind:

Conversation at Red Lobster a couple weeks ago [Tito Efren's B-day]...:
- Black Waitress to cousin Krizelle: And what would u like to have?
- Krizelle: uhhh... can u just give me one more minute?
- Waitress: sure [goes to next person]
- Me: [*points a number one at her] OK, but for only 1 minute, ok? you only have 1 minute.
- Carol [cousin]: [*laughs]

:-D

Conversation today at Khourys [Tita Ching's B-day]...:
- Anne [cousin's wife] to cousin Kevin: Kevin, r u going to Poly or Bosco?
- Kevin [sitting left of me]: O, I'm gonna go to Bosco.
- Me: WHHAAAT!!!??? don't go to Bosco!!! go to Poly with Rosanna(Anne's daughter)!!! Don't go to BOSCO... U KNOW Y??? ... cuz there's GIRLS there!!! GADDANG it, it's AN ALL BOYS SCHOOL!!! Poly has Girls!!!
- BJ [short of Beverly Jane; Carol's daughter]: *laughs hysterically
(just thought of this: Positive Reinforcement... entiresting, very)
- Tita Mila [mother of Carol; grandmother of BJ; sitting right of me]: Wait, what?... what?
- Me: [*talking with some food in mouth; stares at Tita Mila] Have u met my girlfriend?
- Tita Mila: [*stares back; silent]
- Me: No, right? Because I went to AN ... ALL ... BOYS... SCHOOL!!!
- Carol, Kevin, BJ: [*laughs even more]
- Me: Ur all laughing, but i'm really sad on the inside. Y must u all always laugh whenever I'm serious???

purty, purty funny ... heheheh :-P

(10:42 PM)
- Dad: so did the AC make ur room cold enough?
- Me: well, it's cool, but not cold enough.
- Dad: ya'know, outside is really cold.
- Me: yeah well, the news said that it would go from 90 to 70 degrees in 48 hours.
- Dad: o wow... it looks like we'll have to wear mittens, huh?
- Me: yeah, we'll have to stick our hands in our butts to keep warm.
- Dad: heheh
- Me: and then to make sure we can still breathe, we'll have to smell our hands.
- Dad: o sh--, hahaha.

hahaha ;-P


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:58 PM [+] ::
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i am in a pleasurable mood despite that i missed English class again... y??? cuz this is what happened... just got back from the bank... the teller that helped me was a purty purty girl... but that's not it... when she was done processing my checks, she asked, "anything else?" and i responded no... she put the receipt and as i grabbed it, she said, "Thanks, [my first name]." now, fur sore, fur sore i don't know the lady, but she said Thanks and my name... we have no personal connection and we are complete strangers to each other... that's how the world should be... friendly to each other... like that Seinfeld show where they thought everyone in the world would wear name tags... but then one of them didn't like the idea because they didn't want strangers to say hi and there name... they felt invaded with their privacy... anyway, she said it in a friendly Washington Mutual manner that it made me feel good... now... unlike earlier today, I went to MacDonalds for breakfast... drive thru and all... now, i was a little insulted, but was it his intention not to even look at my direction?... the cashier guy didn't even make eye contact nor look at the direction i was... the lines weren't long and it didn't seem busy... but even when he handed me my change and receipt, and the bag of food,... he didn't even look outside the window... he just stared down at the register or looked towards the kitchen... now, that seems unpleasant to me... but it wasn't even a little thing... i think the common (any person but me) person would notice it too... which made me think of a recent question(s) on the drive home... :
+ When a person does a cruel thing without knowing they did a cruel thing, does that mean they are a cruel person?
+ If a person does/says a nice thing, does that mean they're a nice person?
Both questions r debatable... but i would lean toward NO on both questions... because True Ignorance is Bliss... i say true, cuz only the person doing the action knows whether they are playing dumb, or they just r ignorant (NOT dumb)... either the actions come naturally, or they r in working/job persona and has the responsibility of being nice and friendly... ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING... or not... but it is the external point which everyone can view... u dont' know what the other person feels unless they say the true feeling... anyone can lie and say they're not hurt, just so that they don't want guilt trip upon u... but who knows... even when a person says they're honest can still be lying... and that's where trust and faith applies... but IMPORTANTLY: how bad is the conflict... the conflict was at the time, not now... it's a movie dilemma of the week/day/month/year... so, u dont' forgive them, it doesn't ahve to be dealt upon unless frequent repetition has noticeable outputs... other than that... there r Approx. 6 classes left per each class/3 weeks left of school (excludes finals cuz i love finals cuz finals r more sleep time and more think time)... hurrah!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:09 AM [+] ::
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if u had a fight, a disagreement, with a close family member(s), where the argument was o so bad that u couldn't forgive each other... and the very sight of the other person sickens u... would u still be kewl enough to at least go to the same family get-togethers even if they r there, or is it ... if they go, u don't go or vice versa?

any thoughts?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:30 AM [+] ::
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for the one who has faith, questions are not neccessary.
for the one who lacks faith, answers will never suffice.
~ yourethesortofgirlwho ~

he who makes a beast of himself
takes away the pain of being a man
- Storyofphish -
(he got it from
Fear and Loathing
in Las Vegas)


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:23 PM [+] ::
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i have a morbid mind...

so many thoughts, i only hope to express it all here

y is it that i feel so sleepy when it pertains to any sort of work? then when i say screw it, i wake up... yeah, 5 years ago, 8th grade, i've had trouble with Algebra HW... my mom suggested that i sleep and wake up in the middle of th night, do it, go back to sleep... it worked... but then i got lazier and lazier... freshman and sophomore year i did all my homework late night/early morning before the suns shined... junior year, i always did every single assignment the day it's due... senior year, it got to the point where i didn't do any assignments... and yet i pass the class... i shouldn't be here... what am i doing here?... is there a purpose?
should teachers lower standards for students?... this isn't the core of the problem

i'm sullen

i paralyze myself on purpose... i have a goal, i want the goal, but i don't do it... y? afraid of the outcome whether it be good or not... afraid of failure = low self esteem, afraid of success = gotta keep the responsibility up... don't wanna up my standards...

my mind is so sick and disturbing i do not want to say what i've thought... cuz it's not true... i get disgusted of what i think up... and yet i understand the pleasure it gives... scurry...to the max... i dont' like it, but i do, but it's o so not kewl... i'm afraid of cracking up, become insane... if i do, let me say beforehand that i'm sorry, and that i probably led myself to do it... i don't want to feel when/if i do the things i'll do to hurt...

my mind hurts, but it's not in pain

my sister said that i like to have power... cuz i'm influential whenever i talk (help) people... but i say, well they don't have to listen to me, but i make sense don't i? or not... rn't we all power hungry?... if we wanted something all the time, wouldn't we be savages and get what we want... no thoughts contradicting... but my thoughts contradict... but does it contradict too much?... i have no limit

i don't want to feel... but then what's the point? when should u follow emotions and feelings? ... reminds me of what Vandal Savage said in Justice League: "Gotta keep urself busy, or else the mind will go crazy." ... i can't (won't?) keep myself busy... i mean it when i say: "i like thinking"... gotta think... through and through

for a time, i didn't think of this... i read the article inside the Kill Bill Vol. 1 DVD... my mind left this bad place and just read the article... nothing of it...

i believe there is a difference between good, bad and right, wrong... i had the words to explain it, but now i don't know what to think

in the show 24 last sunday... The Bad Guy (Saunders) ordered the Good Guys (The President, CTU, and Jack) to kill a fellow companion... reminded me of Mr. Mesta's class... he gave a story in which it talks about the life of a man... it was a type of story where the reader (or the majority of the class) chooses which path to take)... the Man's life (an emporor or leader) goes through so many trials... one trial was... if u want peace in this world for hundreds of years, kill this one baby... or he was accused and all he had to do was do thing one (bad) thing, then he'd be set free... well, the class chose to not do those bad things... in the end... when the man died of age, there was peace in the world forever...otherwise, if he gave into one of those trials, yeah, there'd be peace... but it would end... Back to 24... they had to kill a fellow ally (Ryan Chapelle) or else Saunders would release a deadly virus into the "innocent" population of a major US city... ... .... secrets ... conspiracies... hmmm... anyway... so Jack killed Ryan cuz time ran out... and so, the good guyz bought more time for the people of the US of A... kinda disturbs me... killing one life to save all the rest... hiding fear; preventing panic... just like the movie SWORDFISH... there was one conversation in the movie that i couldn't really understand, but i suppose i get the idea... it's when Hugh Jackman talks to John Travolta in the bus John says asks, "if u wanted peace in the world, all u have to do is kill one person, would u do it?" ... hugh repllies, "no, but what's the point if u kill one person... y not 10, y not 100, ynot 1000?" something like that... and then John agrees with him, "exactly"... making things worse than it should be... making up the worse case of scenerios so that when the real bad scenerio happens, our emotions r degraded to the thought, "it coulda been worse"

but still, my mind is disturbing... into the future unknown... i'm afraid... more emotions than it is... i'm a vicarious learner... i don't know almost anything first hand... yet it makes sense... i feel the pain... it hurts... i understand... yet in the end of the day... tomorrow is just another day... i guess i'll have to stick to "what was said at the time was meant for THAT time... right now is a different time"... i guess this is the mind at work... odd, how i feel better... even if thoughts r still there or not being thought of... i do believe the bad outweighs the good... but take an apathy pill on the bad, and the good is alllll good, baby;-P... hehheheh... still not in the mood to do HW

i had a morbid mind


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:18 AM [+] ::
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my sister and i just had a long, agreeing conversation about procrastination... there r no rewards nor consequences that will motivate us to do our work even IF we have LOTS of time to do it... no motivation - 'nuff said...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:45 AM [+] ::
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so this vacation had its high tides and its low tides... where shall i begin...??? i meant to blog when i wanted to blog but i just gotta get up and goo ya'know?... okokokok let's start with what happened last year... i've always meant to blog about my time at PI... so let's, not recap but cap... vvhatever...
hmmmmm... so i leave on a wednesday... my sister, sister, boyfriend of sister, and... dang it... was it my cousin too that brought me to the airport??? i forgot o vvell... but while boarding the plane i called each one up.... *reclines in chair... my parents were already at the PI for almost 3 weeks... on the plane it was virtually no one on the plane... slept, listened to CDs... worked on my script for Mr. K's class which i wouldn't turn in, like almost all other assignment, for a grade and i'd ultimately get a C in that class... watched the beginning of Treasure Island and fell asleep, i've seen the ending before... woke up to end of Modonna's song for 007: Die Another Day... and then watched that movie... still kinda confused.. i zoned out so i wasn't really paying attention... fell asleep, ate, woke up to Maid in Manhatten... watched the last half... Bob Hoskins (the actor who played MARIO in Super Mario Bros. movie and acted in Enemy at the Gates) kinda did the hero walk after talking to J-Lo... so i left Wednesday, Arrived Friday morning, cuz of the International Date Line... 15 hour flight... seemed purty fast... i arrive and i'm kewl by myself... in and out of the lines... i go outside; no one's there to pick me up... i wait for almost and hour and a half and the airport terminal is abandoned and i'm the only one inside... i worked more ont he script and fell asleep... used my BATMAN pocket watch as the filipino time... and yes, i still wore my sweater in the Philippines :-D... go picked up... stopped at 7 eleven... blha blah blah met the cousins... napped... pulled a statue for the Jesus parade thing... met a cousin... she looked 15 but she's really 12... it' slike whoa... learned most of the names, met up with most of the cousins... me and my cousin kevin (who's from here int he USofA) did a easter egg hunt, played a musical chairs thing were guyz hold a fruit near their genitals and then the girls would have to grab it when the music stops... funny thing at church... went to Baracuy which is freakin' paradise there, but i had grownups around me so that sucked... went to another resort had fun with the cousins even though i don't know what the freak theyr'e saying... one time my lil cousin (well, more like cousin's daughter)... came into the room and said "kuya BATMA17![insert tagalog phrase]" and my mom over heard... and said "o how cuuuute, she said" Kuya BATMA17!!! Come on, let's go out and play"... i don't know if they could understand me or not... played cards... taught them addition with it... poker... i dont' know y, not purposefully, but i turned fobbish voice to talk like them... i dont' know if that was insulting or not but i just talked like they talked... *shrug... watch sabong (cock fighting = ROOSTER (not actual cocks, u A-holes) FIGHTING)... baracuy was kewl... kinda... sand like sugar powder... clear water where u can seet the sand at the bottom... green algae which was more beautiful than disgusting... blah blah... to get to baraguy from where i lived (Las Pinas)... 45 min. flight to the island... then 1 and a half hour drive... then 15 min. boat ride to get to Baracuy... on the Travel Channel they talked about Baracuy... what else... o! i watched old BATMAN episodes... they still play it there!!! from Fox... ummm incident with money and the easter egg hunt... i'm all over the place... i woul'dve been more detailed if i blogged right wehn i came back... :-P... uhhh hung out with the cousins... massage and manicure...(the nails; not the toes, right???...)... met wup with more cousins blah blah blah... family history... some boring stuffors...ugh blah blah blah...so i stay for just over a week, and i leave sunday night, plane ridescary... lots of turbulence... i was ready if we crashed... heheheheh... can't remember the movies on the plane ride... o vvell... then i arrive in USA on sunday night... sister picks me up... and then i check my voice mail... hakel called saying there needs to be more people at palmer's b-day party... but that was like 2 nights previous... o vvell... he still has my utility purse... anyway... eat out with both my sisters at spires... story story story... and within'8 hours of me arriving home, i have to go to school the next day... meanwhile back at the states, some of u went to KNOTTS :-(... i wanted to go , but ovvell...uhhhh...

so wednesday, April 7 i meet up with dominic and tells me to take him to Riverside... Excel... i have my doubts, but it's not like i'll forcefully stop them... it's just that i feel those that signed up for it didn't give much thought on the Cons... cuz u know ... THey're businessmen too trying to get u for THEIR leverage... it would ONLY WORK... if ur a motivational speaker urself... if u like to talk and meet new people and expect the obvious outcome of not everyone not listening to an 18 year old teenager about switching phone services... drove back rachel, chamuel, and d-money back to S&G... thursday... i have right here... o wait me and dom ponder... for the weeks that u'all had spring break, even if me and dom had school we still got to go out... and even when u were in spring break u'all still didn't go out... vvhatever... i understand... and not all of u r complaining anyway... so es allllllll good... ummm Thursday... what a day... the 8th... i won't go detail... i'll go by hours... BACKWARDS... start at FRIDAY 11AM...after 11 AM slept for half an hour on carolyn's floor... then walked to karen's dorm... then brought her to her cousin's house... drove home... got home slept at 5:50ishPM... 11AM: tell carolyn about my day in hours... and wrote it on a piece of paper... 10AM... i got lost going to carolyn's dorm and thought about writing this paper... 9AM talking to Patrizha on the phone while driving the freeway from her cousin's homein Brea to Irvine... 8AM: I arrive to Patrizha's cousin's apartment in Brea for the second time to give back her sweater... 7AM Driving her and Dominic to the cousin's home for the first time... 6AM: I walk up the stairs to look for Patrizha to tell her it's time to take her to her destination... 5AM: Looking at the pictures on Martine's computer's screensaver... 4AM: i do what i was asked to do... 3AM: Chit Chatting walking around... dog humping... 2AM: talked about Captain Planet and other old school things like Pogs... 1AM: tried to watch Gothica but didn't... 12AM: walked marked to his car as he left the co-ed sleep over... 11PM: asked to leave Jack in the Box and We r still talking to the Army guy about his familly and army experiences after almost an hour of him talking for a vereally, vereally long time... 10PM: finished eating Jack in the Box and about to leave there to go to Martine's...10PM: we go to 7 eleven and Jack in the Box... 9PM: with dominic and his sister at Ralphs.... 8PM at church (Holy Thursday) with family... 7PM: Arcade with Mark and Dominic instead of bowling... 6PM meet with chamuel mark and dominic to go to Chino Hills at S&G... 5PM:gettin' ready for the night ahead... 4PM-2PM: Cleaning the car 1PM: eat lunch or thinking lots??? 12PM: talk to my mom on the phone... 11AM: heading home from school... 10AM: taking another open book pop quiz for my psych 1 class... 9AM: finally wake up, get out of bed, and go to school... and that was my... 24+ hour day.... from then on my dayz were all mixed up... hang out with dominic almost everyday at starbucks and play cards then go somewhere else eventually like CTC, sam Ash, Carrows, TGIF, Marriot... ... but we'd never order drinks...hmmmmm... i know that on sunday i tried to find something to convince not to go to excel... uhhh slept over the sister's house like 3 times... brought my sister's bf's sister whereever she needs/wants to go... didn't edit vids (i think i can't stay in one place for a looong time, i have to keep moving; maybe i'll do my HW in the other room... i'll try to at least... no distractions ya'know?)... *siiiigh what else... talk to Cameron Fortner about excel and how he got his 1000 dollar profit the first month and then get Approx. 20 dollars a month since then... not much, but he understand that it is NOT a "quick cash" situation; unless ur DEVOTED to the job... uhhh... what thing bothered me... o yeah... the 4 things i wanted to do but didn't do... 1. do the vids ... 2. go to berkeley for business... 3. go to the beach... 4. hang out with annie and go on an adventure :-/... didn't even hang out with her at all; and she's the only other person i know that has spring break the same week as me... and i thought it would be me and her everyday visiting everyone else... but nope... i have a penis... on Easter day, ate out with my mom, sister and boyfriend, other sister and boyfriend and the sister of the boyfriend... the cappucino was goooooooood... ='s nine to the max... hmmm... got lade once... what else... o yeah... wait... o yeah... uhhh dang, it seemed like i had more to say... o yeah... so Rochelle at the bank last thursday, but she didn't recognize me cuz I WASN"T WEARING A SWEATER... JUST A PLAIN WHITE T-SHIRT... crazy eh?... and i have a longer mustache and much shorter hair since she last saw me... (should i grow out my hair for a year again? i think i will so that u galz can play with it :-P or not i dont' know hmmmm)... helped martine with her drinking problem.... neil's b-day with singing and motownopoly... MONOPOLY IS FUN if u have SERIOUS players to play with y'aknow?... uhhh what else... i dislike liars, but it's o k... just cuz i dislike that quality of u doesn't mean i'll abandon u... uhhh... u think u know me, but u really don't,... or u do... yesterday, saturday... went to Chinatown to bring my cousin kimberly (who was in the front page of the entertainment section in Press Telegram the other day) to her singing class led by that chinese actress who was in the ART OF WAR with Wesley Snipes and in the Transporter with that one bad ass guy from Snatch or The Italian Job... uhhhhh.... this is a blah blog... vvhatever... bothered with not knowing to quit or not... but hey... i'll just be blasphemous and say i'm God's Hand... :-D *twinkle... if not, kill me now if i'm doing such a bad job... let's jsut think of it this way... It could have been worse if it werent' for me... or not... id ont' know hahahaha... ummmmmm walked around Chinatown... o and the friday before that went to ChinaTown to leaern how to get there... went there with cousin kevin and his mom... then back to the saturday, watched Hellboy, purtykewl... and The Punisher... it's kewl, but it' snot gory... i bet there'd be an uneditted DVD version and i'd sooooo get that... it would be too... so sad... everyone gone...uhhhhhhhhhhh then that night was niels b-day... o and... i could be doing hw, but i'm not... and thinking thinking thinking... i can't stop thinking... i just want to think and not do... and that would be my downfall probably... or one of the downfalls... i believe nothing happens because of one thing... maybe a domino effect, BUT, still, i think it's mult. reasons... so i supposed dont' blame one person... i'm talking in general no specifics... and i'm tired... with typing but i have to... dnag, i know i HAD more to say, but i never blogged about it... eh, i plan to have more "what happened a year ago blogs" just cuz i didn't blog about it last year... wahwahwah

heh, not as long as i thought it would be...


c-ya:-)


-j

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