:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Thursday, December 29, 2005 ::

i blame my parents for who i am
and television and movies for who i want to be...

-_-


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:30 AM [+] ::
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the day... er...
the night just got significantly, utmostly brighter...
and i hate her so much for it...
in such a good way...
"you think you're already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours"

get the irony?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:29 PM [+] ::
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"If they feel it, they should say it."


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:44 AM [+] ::
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The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right, and finding out you love someone right after  that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you're already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them,  we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger...

:: j 11:31 PM [+] ::
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Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:39 PM [+] ::
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got this from a chick, who got it from another female, who probably got it from a guy...

GIRLS ARE STUPID ,well not entirely but probably about a good percentage of them are.

Now before you stop reading this and just send hate mail right away, STOP and actually read what i have to say before you start sending me replies that im a jerk or im the stupid because i already know but thank you for your opinion its nice of you to remind me. anyways

they were talking about how girls are always complaing that they end up with an asshole for a boyfriend and how its the guys fault for being the jerks. When it is actually the girls fault for being with the guy in the first place. i mean come on i bet that any girl out there has at least one guy friend that they can say is the nicest guy in the fucking world and know that that guy would treat them right and with respect and yet what do they do they go for the asshole the wouldnt treat them right, would probably cheat on them and make them cry, but with all that in mind they still go for them and dont act like you dont know what im talking about. Every fucking girl would look at an ass hole guy and think "oh i can change him" or "oh no theres a good little boy inside of him" Hell fucking no, DO you girls not have any fucking common sense. Guys are assholes Because they know that they can fucking get your ass that way.!!! thats how they fucking get into your lil panties while your thinking "oh my God i have good guy" while he probably fucked god knows how many other girls before he fucked you. The funniest part about it is you girls give it to them sooo easy!! Asshole guys are showered pussy by stupid girls who KNOW better but wont do anything about it. while the good guys end up just being the friend on the side that the girls call when they need someone to cry too.
When i ask some girls i know why they choose the bad boy over the good guy, they just respond
" oh hes really nice when we are alone" DUH because when your alone he get its from you!!!!


"Because bad boys are alot more fun to be with" YEA real fun its so fun that you end up callling your good GUy friend at 2 in the morning crying about how your so called fun guy just made your stupid ass cry.


"i love him and he loves me" hahahahahha man this has got to be the funniest one, he loves you cuz hes more than likely fucking you and you love him only until months later you realize that he was a jerk and now you hate him.
or my personal favorite "oh he'll change" yea fucking right you know god damn well that that motherfucker will only seem to change for a week tops just so youll think hes different then its right back to asshole asshole asshole and guess what!? you fell for it and now your crying again.

asshole guys are everywhere infact they are even evolving,there are soo many different types out there now. why because they get there way. they get what they want from you. take it from someone that is an asshole. i know i am ive gotten my ways and you know what i didnt care. but when i see my friends that are nice guys and i know would treat girls waaaaayyyyy nicest than i ever have but are single because of jerks like me i get pissed off at myself and at you dumb girls. cuz you would rather choose an asshole than a good guy.

in conclusion YOu know when a guys an asshole you can even feel it be yet you do nothing about it. next time some asshole tries to hit on you instead of throwing your pussy to them why dont you just say no for once. and when you see that good ass guy friend you have that has always been there for your ass and has always treated you nice and you know he fucking loves your dumb ass and yet you ignore him cuz hes not "fun" enough. Fuck him. Fuck his brains out. give him that gift that he deserves rather than giving it to a fuck tard asshole that probably gets it all the time. give it to someone who will actually appeciate it.

even tho you probably hate me for writting this you know for a fact its true. and you can reply to me how im wrong and i know your lying and your just lying to yourself as well. beacuse even tho this post was to serve as many a warning to you girls to stay away from jerks youll still go after them and youll still throw you pussy at them and you know what they dont give a shit about you. butt the person you will end up wanting in the end is the good guy. but youll be lucky if the person is still even there for you. soo think about it. and now you can write your hate mail.

:: j 12:32 AM [+] ::
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Y am i a fat ninja???

BECAUSE I PROCRASTINATE MY SCHOOLWORK BY EATING AND SLEEPING
EATING WHEN I'M HUNGRY AND NOT HUNGRY
SLEEPING WHEN I'M SLEEPY AND NOT SLEEPY

I HATE THYSELF IN EVERY WAY
>_<


C-YA:-)


-J

:: j 11:39 PM [+] ::
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this weekend kicked anal!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:51 PM [+] ::
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y can't i do the things i want to do?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:03 AM [+] ::
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Happy 3rd Year Blog!!!

nothin' special goin' on here...

just vvhateverthefreakever, ya'know???


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:50 PM [+] ::
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About Me: Extended Version
- ~When I left SJES, you were one of the only ones i truely called a friend.~


- Thanx for always doing what you do Best! Being you! Not only Being there for All of our DRAMA PEEPS! Dude, You are awesome! Your better then BATMAN Himself! Thanx 4 your inspirational words in the end!


- ~"Don't tell this to anyone, but out of everyone here, I'm going to miss you the most. Really."~ (don't worry, ur still anonymous, chica ^_~)


- *[angry]~"WHAT? WHAT DID YOU SAY? U THINK UR COOL JUST CUZ U CALL URSELF BATMA17. OHH-OH I'M BATMA17 - I'M COOL!"


- thanks for the support today...great advice. and thnks for that lil favor i asked u to do. | i just thought id say that u are absolutely a great friend! hanging out with u is swell hahah! i rule in cards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


- haha that's wut u get wen u assume. u make an ass out of u and me. unless you're batma17 of course. cuz all his assumptions are "good" as he puts it. and i agree wid the quiz.. he is gill from finding nemo. he's a great friend... even to people he doesn't kno or who don't kno him. and hey! [directed specifically to batma17] remember how i mentioned that sumbodie needed saving?... well, if u remember who i gave that card to yesterday, then u kno the answer. u never really kno until u try. remember that and apply it to everything.


- her mom was comin in 2 hours, so i had to go.. i was having a really bad hangover.. i didn't want my parents to see me like that.. so i called up sushi, and he came over.. thank's batma17!.. he's a true homie too..


- seriously batma17 i cann't believe u went thru all that trouble and gas money to drive around to everywun's house jus for them to sign it! geesh. now that's a true altruist rite thurr. u may need to check urself b4 u wreck urself tho cuz i kno ur not getting enuf back in return. =I dun be afraid to be selfish at times.. otherwise, how are u ever going to get wut u want in life?..


- ~"You're just too nice of a guy. You're, like, one of the only sober, level-headed guy friends i have."~


- i just needed a friend to hang out with ya know.. but everyone was occupied.. i felt really sad.. but sushi saved the nite when he scooped me up and showed me to the drinks gallore..


- Thanks so much, you're a lifesaver!


- yo batman thanks for everything yesterday man. till our next escapade!


- ~"... like you. I wish they would help me like you do. You listen and give the right amount of advice. You don't go overboard. My family? no way. my boyfriend? he doesn't listen. and my girl friends, they don't have the time anymore... Everything's just stressful."~ | ~"OMG, really? THANK YOU! [*hug] Gaw! i'd be stressed out even more - having a breakdown or something. At least you help in some ways. o, yay, i'm so excited!"


- ~"Why did you say that? I can't believe u said 'black people'. Especially, in front of... him. I got scared; I wanted to back away. haha. I wanted to be, like, 'i don't know you'."~


- hi.. i just wanted to thank you for everything you've done for me.. either it be telling me things i need to know.. or just plain listening.. THANK YOU so much.. seriously.. it means a lot to me.. i'll cya at your birthday.. k byeeeeeeeeee take cares


- I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. -Bill Cosby


- ~"yeah, u and louie r the only ones that make this place fun. You, you're funny always running around and stuff... even though ur not supposed to"~


- lol what was that all about lol u are crazy dude lol


- ~"hey, what's wrong? you're really blah today. ur, like, the only one who makes work upbeat." "yeah, dont' leave"~


- ~"OMG, what's wrong with you? can i take whatever hyper drug ur taking? ur cool!!! [*high five]"~


- ~"OMG! what r u doing?! look at that! HAHA! that's y i love you, BATMA17."~


- damnnittt batman! if it weren't for you i would've dropped it. hahaha. now you got me thinking. which is good &bad. grr. you're a good friend. even though you piss me off sometimes hahaha. well its only bc you care. :P



- hey man ima miss u. but ill keep a look out for u. u were fun to work with


- Yo! Damn it won't be the same without you at work


- you are too kind. thank you


- you outdid yourself i say..thanks for the help man..appreciate it mucho..haha we done good man


- thanks so much for helping things go smoothly on sunday. i really appreciate it :D


- ur always there when i need someone :]

I am 80% Evil Genius.
..

You are pure evil. You lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and you will not rest until all living souls bend to your will.

Take the
Evil Genius Test
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:: j 7:33 PM [+] ::
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And I'm contemplating suicide.

Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:00 PM [+] ::
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music video code by urbnmix.net & theanimenation.com
se7en - come back to me - k-pop


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:54 AM [+] ::
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Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:00 PM [+] ::
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Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:11 AM [+] ::
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Your Birthdate: June 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:06 AM [+] ::
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i'd have to be crazy to actually do something... stick with something...
i'm not crazy enough...

must be apathetic to personal feelings...
*clenches fists tightly, more than ever


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:24 AM [+] ::
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There are reasons unknown
why this is the best of all possible worlds.
. ignorance is bliss .


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:29 PM [+] ::
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i agree with everything except the watermelon...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:16 AM [+] ::
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You scored as Loner. Loner 69% Goth 56% Drama nerd 56% Punk/Rebel 44% Ghetto gangsta 44% Prep/Jock/Cheerleader 44% Stoner 38% Geek 25% What's Your High School Stereotype? created with QuizFarm.com

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:54 PM [+] ::
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i forgot to write about my techinacally last day...
who did i see... in no order since i lost the paper...
Ms. Gunther and son
aaron and christine... watched FF
i know i saw more people... i just can't remember...
o well can't remember...

082505
12:01AM
o yeah, i also saw Diq!!! haha alrighty...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:33 PM [+] ::
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myspace makes me want to leave...
y do i express myself here
i want to be the secluded, lonesome kewl guy...
but that only works with an audience
and i'm not that lonesome nor secluded...
i'm at a lost
I'm AT A LOST!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:06 AM [+] ::
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In your eyes, people see brightness in
everything.... and I mean... EVERYTHING! You're
so optimistic and think of everything as just a
new adverture! You're very energetic, happy,
fun, and loving. Everyone seems to want to be
just like you because you're a great example of
people who live life to its fullest! You don't
really have a sanctuary... That is... Besides
the whole world >.< You love to have a good
time and enjoy yourself among your friends,
family, even strangers or by yourself! However,
being so happy and energetic can also be your
downfall... Some people might see you as a
crazy person who doesn't take anything
seriously, but that's so not true! Just because
you see life better than them doesn't give them
the right to act crabby. Keep living life to
its fullest and hopefully you can drag some
other people along with you ^-^


What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
brought to you by Quizilla

well, yeah, when i'm acting "kramer"-like


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:06 AM [+] ::
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saw lots of people... i didn't write it down cuz vvhatever the freak ever...
annie and sam...
vlad and some girl *Shrug
the SJHS teacher... short, red hair Mathematics teacher... she's kewl cuz i was in her trading places class... she was in line for Harry Potter HBD at BnN...
and met new friend Harteckar's (by golly, i hope i spelled the correcto mundo; she's camBOdian... that's so KEWL!!!... i mention that cuz i don't know a lot of camBOdian peeps)... friend: Candice... hopefully i spelled that correctly too
vvahteverthefreakever... ACE or ICE????


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:23 AM [+] ::
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saw that SJHS girl and Amanda... and watch Fantastic Four and Madagascar... y am i still writing here?... i just want to stop writing here... i really do... o k ... this is a waste of my time... i think it has been for quite some time now... o k...
keep the peace in...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:31 PM [+] ::
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saw AA twins and ross miller... kewl guy, ya'know...

did some variables with Wingman, MT, SW, and Editing...

:-`


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:56 AM [+] ::
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uploaded pictures of my sister's camera from my b-day...
eeyay!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:50 AM [+] ::
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saw mark b. and his dad recently... and krizelle and rath the next day...
if u don't want to remember something, just don't type it in here, right?... well what am i referring to... well, by the time i'm reading this in the future i might've forgotten, so oh vvell har har hardy har har...

dang, i write in here a lot again...
ever since my cars been gone... WHAT i'm still moping about my car??? no, not so much, not really...

but the usual problem persists... laziness... laziness??? it's summer... u mean summer school?... no, school is kewl, the teacher is kewl... no HW... i like history... just like one big story... but ya'know... i thought i would've gotten a high B at least on exam I, but no, alas, i got a high C... actually a low B because there were 2 mistakes on the test... but still... come on... no, nothing to worry about... what else bothers me... things, everything...

wanting to change, but can't... or won't.. i can do it... i want to do it, but i will not do it... not me, buy my will... the will isn't there... ya'knowwhaahmea?

boo hooooooooo
wireless keyboard rules! but what will hapen to the effects of my back?... i think my back still hurts cuz psychologically i want it to hurt, or not... excuses, excuses... in need of muse... ringo starr was on leno,... "you have to pay your dues, if u want to sing the blue. and no matter what, choose love..." or somethin' like that... wait a min... i've been searching and i can't find the lyrics i heard on leno... i found the song, but there's a part of the song that i liked after he says "u gotta pay your due", but i can't find it, oh vvell... vvhatever the freak ever...

o yeah!!! cousin lannie is pregnant again... ha, just last september, her first child, marisela jade molina, was born... thas some crazy shiznets... apparently, she forgot to take her birth control...
also, my sister says that it's a good thing to take birth control cuz it balances out hormones, but i read in some articles that it is bad cuz it disrupts natural hormones... eh, i have my reasons...asldkfasd;lkj...

i'm helpless, i need help, but i don't want help... just like i need money, but i don't want it... i want this, but i don't want to get it... u may see me and say "o gosh, get over it... or, r u serious?" *shakes head; walks away...
weelllllll, i would be the same way to someone else, but still, it's me and i think it's worse than others... or maybe i can't tolerate it as well as others that's y it's worse for me... i don't know... who reads this?... nah, don't answer, i don't wanna know ... or do it?... it's july and the house was supposed to be finsihed by now, but apparently, the construction workers over booked themselves or something, and they have other projects to work on... come on,it's like an rpg game... concentrate on one person until they're out,... attack all at once, and u get the job done faster, then u can concentrate on someone else, and u'll have less casualties and more hp, instead of equally distributing ur attacks... ... peeps used to IM me all the time saying: "man, BATMA17, i'm sad"... and ya'know i'd listen and stuff and offer solutions, but not i'm the one sad... and although they mean well, well... i agree, i should do the things u tell me to, but i can't... i can, but i can't... the will power isn't there... i have SO MAY THINGs i want to do, but no motivation to do it... and it's too late when a situation arises and i says to myself, dang, if i just di this earlier... i would have been creditted... i want the credit, not the attention... crying but not... u won't receive help unless u ask... well i don't want to... even if i do, i'd still be stubborn to do what they tell me, cuz i don't want to do it cuz they tell me to... i want to do it because i want to...

it's the point of no return... i don't know... an external grief... with constant reminds... or an internal grief, which may or may not explode... everyone is happy, most of the time... i don't know what thehecksinamythologies...

can't time just stand still until i figgure things out... and well... i have these great plans that can be executed really really well, but i can't seem to carry it out... and i sorta kinda follow the motto: if u want something done right, u gots to do it urself... trust issues?... maybe, but i say no... cuz it's better to blame me than someone else... take the pain than inflict it which would then backfire...

i'm 20 and i could've done things... extraordinary productive things... but not... i'm "destined to be something else"... destined to be an example of something not to do... eh, what a way to go, but it's just another tally on a statistic in which no one will fully understand... or maybe i do and i'm convinced they don't... or not... my fingers hurt...

.self-abused.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:28 AM [+] ::
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in vvhatever news... saw
Jullien, Andrew's cousin... vlad?... and michael bradley... ha, he did recognize me

and i hate things...
everything

also,
i think i lost my other BATMAN beanie in my car

i want to do something, but i can't bring myself to do it...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:49 PM [+] ::
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heh,
entiresting, very
i just remembered i had a dream
and it felt good
*punches glass repeatedly


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:08 PM [+] ::
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"Aim for success not perfection... Remember that fear always lurks behind perfectionism. Confronting your fears and allowing yourself the right to be human can, paradoxically, make you a far happier and more productive person."
- Dr. David Burns


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:46 PM [+] ::
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There once was a Shogun who had three warrior sons. The Shogun was preparing to leave his kingdom to one of his sons. But the Shogun could not decide which warrior son to level his power and wealth to, so he created a test.

The Shogun had one of his bravest Samurai's stand behind a door and perch a watermelon on the top of the door. When his sons walked through the door the watermelon would fall on their heads and while distracted the brave Samurai would attack and test the skills of the sons. The greatest and bravest swordsman would have the old Shoguns riches.

The old Shogun summoned his first son. As the young man stepped through the door the watermelon started to fall and the Shogun's son turned swiftly and in a flash drew his sword and sliced the watermelon in half. The brave Samurai behind the door attacked with great ferocity. The Shogun's son, with little effort, disarmed the brave Samurai and held him to the floor until his father said, "very good my brave son you have done well and should be proud."

The old Shogun summoned his second son and the brave samurai positioned a new watermelon and hid behind the door. As the son started to push the door open he stopped before the watermelon fell. Taking his sword out he pushed the watermelon to the floor and quickly stepped around the door putting his sword to the hiding brave samurai's throat. His father was most impressed with his son's skill and expertise.

Again the Shogun summoned the last son as the brave samurai prepared the watermelon and hid behind the door. When the son arrived outside the door he stopped and said, "You, behind the door. Come out from your hiding where I can see you. I am a highly skilled swordsman and do not wish to harm you." The brave young samurai stepped out and waited for the son to push the door open so the watermelon would fall on his head when the son asked calmly and clearly, "and please remove the trap from a top of the door."

The old Shogun was most pleased and presented his last son with the prize. "The object of becoming a great swordsman is to heighten ones awareness so as not to have to draw the sword and thus preserve life. You are truly a great martial artist."

just like the movie Hero.
that is so kewl the max


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:34 PM [+] ::
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F--- THIS WORLD AND EVERYTHING IN IT!!!
ha!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:12 PM [+] ::
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saw brandy and krystal at Target, i avoided them ... haha... i dislike those awkward staring-at-each-other-do-i-know-you? faces...
o and A. Rod and Jorge's friend from Psych 10? is in my Hist. 10 class... that's kewl even though we never acknowledged each other...
what am i gonna say? small talk?... bah! vvhatever the freak ever
purpose? i wish i knew what it was already so i can just start doing it... true, there r things that i want to do and such, and maybe that's my purpose, but i want to know it'll mean something... i don't want it for nothing that means nothing to me... o sure, divert my thinking into something positive... sure, it's positive, but is it something i like/want? (was that too selfish? mah bad)
i'm not taking anything personal, but i do...
i'm writing in here too much... too many blah blah blah blahs...

i'm self-loathing again...
u may think "how pitiful", but is that helping me? no...
and if u do try and help, and i give u the cold shoulder and say "no, thanks", or "i don't need it", should u be insulted? well, mah bad for pushing u away, but at least u tried and MAYBE u shouldn't stop trying despite what may result for bad or for worse...
who says what is more important than what is said

my back hurts

friends fade... away
memories r forever... as long as u remember
i dont' know where i'm getting at... so i'm just going to sleep ;-D


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:34 AM [+] ::
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saw that English teacher at SJES... she took over the subject english and 7th home room when Mrs. Eno taught us Algebra people... she's also the one that raised her hand that it's o k to allow responsible kids to bring guns to school... (haha, hey, it helped win that mock trial)
also saw the Wrights - the brother... and my mom is debating whether that was their mom, and i didnt' really get a good look at her... vvhatever the freak ever... they're still tall... but not so much "whoa" tall anymore... vvhatever the freak ever...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:43 AM [+] ::
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first off, i saw Danielle (sorry i forgot ur name)
that was a pleasure to see
ya'know, i'm never going to watch a movie alone again
What's worse than being lonesome in an empty room?
Being lonesome in a crowded room...

and the line people Jamie, Dennis, and Cory ...???
nice talkin' to ya...

BATMAN BEGINS was GREAT!!!
...just not orgasm/ectstacy great

*WARNING*
the following is not really a spoiler,
but i do hint to some things...

bad:
- insufficient character development (Spider-Man movies' strong point was this & especially in the second one... i cried in the second one!);
- no psychological feeling (not like previous Christopher Nolan's movies: Insomnia & Memento);
- Goyer's humor - i just dont' find all of it amusing (watch the Blade trilogies);
- that pimple/mole/lump on Christian Bale's ridge of a nose (gah so annoying!!!)
- film noir? film not! (not really crime boss mafia related... he's the dark knight DETECTIVE, and he didn't DETECT as much as i wanted him to... well he interrogated, but not much work in the lab area analyzing/examining evidence... oh vvell)

good:
- katie holmes did not suck (although it would've been kewl if she died in a kewl way or some sort of twist involves with her);
- it was made as realistic as possible (even if one scene gave BATMAN a double chin)
- that small twist;
- as much as i don't want that enemy in the very end, it was a very satisfying, awe-inspiring touch nonetheless
*GASP with gaping mouth >-<

overall, i know i'm overly critical, relating it to the current graphic novels i own. i know BATMAN has many different tones in its origin story. i just need to accept this one. it's another BATMAN tale in another BATMAN timeline... that's all
did it ruin the movie???
not too much, not too much at all ^_^

everybody's a critic, eh? :-P

moving on from Tsinoitcefrep .....gnihton ro lla,
or attempting to...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:55 AM [+] ::
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Which Star Wars Jedi/Sith are you? Obi-Wan Kenobi You’ve managed to train both a great evil and a greater good, not to mention whipping the ass of the coolest looking Sith in the series. However, you do have a few weaknesses, like Count Dooku and a douche bag of a Padawan. Other than that, you are the epitome of class. The accent, the outfit, and your care for those around you is highly admirable. Arguably, you are the best Jedi that ever lived, having owned Maul, Anakin and Grievous, a total of seven lightsabres among the three.

Click Here to Take This Quiz Brought to you by YouThink.com quizzes and personality tests.

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:43 PM [+] ::
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is the positive thinking wearing out?

or is it denial?

or am i not thinking positively?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:51 PM [+] ::
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...but i don't ask for much

am i just a child?
taking little acts... personally


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:50 PM [+] ::
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last september, i had the MY FIRST TIME post
now her's the MY LAST TIME post:

LAST person i drove home: Amanda
LAST Male person I drove home: Jerry
LAST Long drive i had: Going to Cathedral City
LAST Long drive i had and made it back home: Barstow
LAST time i filled my gas tank: monday; june 6th
LAST time i cleaned the inside of my car: last month
LAST time i cleaned the outside of my car: months ago
LAST time my car was cleaned on the outside: saturday; june 4th
LAST non-family members that saw my car: Dominic & Nychel
LAST family member to drive my car: dad
LAST family member to drive my car and has a funny story to go with hit: sister
LAST family member to ride in the passenger seat: Kevin

i hate this sh--
it's like... if someone else was in my position; i'd tell them that it's o k and things will get better again... and sometimes if it's a lengthy depression, i'd tell them "yo or yoette, it's been a long time, long time... sometimes it's stupid to be sad over something stupid or something a long time ago"... but hey... vvhatever

i don't ask for much...

... but when i do, it' something big ...

... but i dont' ask for much


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:19 AM [+] ::
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saw gissel and nikita...
kris olsen and jeff oderlin...

in other crap... i've been going on-line more often than usual... as the days go on i miss my car more and more... i mean... the first few days, i've been o k... i've accepted... but i guess this cycle is going backwards cuz now i'm gettin' sadder and depressingererer...

also, too many people know about this blog, but it's not like a lot of u read anything anyways... nor do i write much specifics any more... nor have i ever written anything specific Approx. last year...

as much as i don't want to tell anyone, but i do...
so here's to those who read my blog:
y is it me who has to be in a car crash and have no ONE to massage my back...
i've said it before, and i'll say it again... there's a difference between family's love, friend's love, and one's love...
sure, i'm complete in 2 out of 3, but it's not complete as a whole...

picky, i am
others r too
what shall i do
wait or leave
my thoughts of you

it's never easy as it is
a perfectionist, i suffer
flowers of algernon
i knew from the beginning
that the end is dreary
i mustn't think much
lest forever be weary...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:58 AM [+] ::
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c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:46 PM [+] ::
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so what were u doing June 7th, 2005 at Approx. 11:50AM???

there's good news and bad news...
the past few weeks have really been grand, for the most part...
i'm not bothered by work... saw 2 bosco guys... the joseph elementary school girl recognized me... i saw the man with the camera and Cane Man... a kid asked me if he wanted to ask me a hard question: Spell: "ONOMATOPOEIA" and he was suprised that i spelled it correctly :P... saw Jullien, and Patricia... i got the BATMAN BEGINS poster for free...
i got the classes i wanted, it's just that i'm still lazy with my school work and i already dropped my english class...

so my agenda for yesterday was to go to Economics, sell my english books, buy my ticket, go to my sister's house, eat my leftover quiznos, go home, shower, then go to Irvine...
but instead, my sister's boyfriend's brother's girlfriend was supposed to wake me up by calling in the morning... she called me late, so i decided not to go to class... actually i did decide to go so i went to school... THEN i decided get a refund for my english class because i dropped it that morning... Joe "Atheist" is in that classs (no, he's not an atheist, i just don't know how to spell his last name)... then i decided not to go to class and go to Cathedral City... 91E, 60E, 10E, 111S, left on Cathedral Canyon Drive, right on Lalo Guerroro...
y Cathedral City??? well, it's the only Imax theater that's playing a midnight showing of BATMAN BEGINS... so i find the place after 2 hours driving and i buy my $10 ticket for BATMAN BEGINS the midnight showing!!! and on my way back on the 10W, around 11:50ish AM, i'm going 70-75mph cuz the speed limit is 70, and i'm on the far left lane (#1); no car pool lane... i hit a couple of bumps on my left tires, and realized those r too high of bumps to be the tiny road bumps... i started veering to the left and into the bushes and shrub... O crap, ya'know?... so i tried to turn right to go back to the road... BUT SOMETHING (i think some sort of branch stuck in the back right tire) made me lose control and turn right 90 degrees across traffic... i tried turning left but i knew it was too late so i braced myself... and WTFreaks-in-a-mythologies did i say when i was out of control??? i blurted out loud, "Oh, God, No"... i didn't hit any cars but i spun and hit a curb at the edge of the shoulder lane... which made me fly off the into a small ditch below... i put my arms in the air really far back so i felt the roof of my car... i hit a metal wall (which i kewlly damaged, by the way), and skidded down the ditch... the car landed on its passenger side and i'm facing the other way of traffic... all the glass is broken out except the windshield and the whole car is either gone or scratched... the plastic cover (with the Mazda symbol; underneath the engine door, it covers the engine itself) of the engine even went out... the trunk door openned... after the WHOLE ordeal and getting a ride to the junkyard i salvaged what i could and these r the following things i could remember that i couldn't find:

-The bigger Eeyore (he wasn't wearing his seatbelt) :`(
-The novel, BATMAN Knightfall by Dennis O'niel
-A plastic bag of coins which has to be at least 15 bux...
-5 CDs: 2xBoA, Slipknot, Josh Groban, Fate's Own... and i think Meteora
-The breast cancer ribbon on my left shoe...
-and all 3 license plates... the BAT symbol and the whole bumper was gone... BATMA17 was bent and stuck on the trunk door... and the BATMA17 that was in the front dashboard; well, i saw the tow truck driver put it in my car, but i couldn't find it afterwards :-/
-and May's hairclip... i'm sorry May!!!

all the monopoly boxes opened and i salvaged what i could find, i don't know what's missing in there... the Cutco box opened (the entertainment pack) but i think i found all four knives... anyway...

my injuries include a sprained left ankle, a bruised left bicep (now i know what purple looks like! ^_^), and my neck is really really sore now... my sister picked me up after a 2 hour drive... (it's kinda likea crazy shiznets cuz in '00, she got in a solo crash 10 days before her birthday too!!! *whispers: 10 days)... then she brought me back home, +2 hour drive cuz of traffic... on the way home, i asked my sister, "so who would replace as Magnolia's partner for your wedding?"... we bought and ate McDonalds and reported my car to insurance... went to the Memorial Hospital around 4ish? and stayed there til 10PM... and that's all i remember or feel like typing as of now...

i have video of the after wreckage cuz my cousin's camera flew out of the car... and i recorded it...

have u ever wondered what happend to that person that "dropped" the class... ya'know, what if they didnt' drop it, and they just croaked... or ur friends and family that u haven't heard in a long time... u think they're anti-social or real busy with their own life, but in fact they've been dead for a long time?... what happens if ur friend or family died... would u go down the list in their phone and call each person up? how long would it have been until u knew i was dead??? how do u think u would've found out, if u EVER found out??? who knows wear danger lurks...

so now i'm thinking, y did i say "o God No"? i have no purpose except saving the world... cuz for without the world, there is no music, dance, love and all that jazz... some things i can live with painless pain... :-P
what if i'm like anakin skywalker and i'm supposed to be bad... (but then he became good at the end... but ya'know vvhateveR)

i've said it before since my first crash and i'll say it again: SEATBELTS!!! :-P

so yeah, June 17 is still on at the BLOCK!!! but no more $5 movie... i'm thinking of buying a bicycle, but i hate wearing helmets, maybe i'll leave the world with a bicycle and no helmet...... or i'll just start saving up for my own place and a car... or not ya'know vvhatever... is that selfish??? GOOD cuz this is for all u people who think i'm a DoorMAT!!!(uh-huh i'm talking to UUU!!!) MOO HAR HAR!!! HA!!!

now for the bad news... i have nothing/no one to take me to watch BATMAN BEGINS for June 15; 12:01AM showing in Cathedral City... :-j
buy yeah ya'know vvhatever...

and for the second bad news, sh-- fu--ing dominic and cuddle girl! u got to make out in MY CAR and i never had the chance to!!! >_<


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:32 PM [+] ::
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saw, i think, that bosco teacher that was... i don't know... never had him... he didn't like klosterman...
the twins from SJES
and Fama


June 17 - BATMAN BEGINS
@ the Block - $5 per tickets

for those who don't have myspace and want the basic instruction
1) Arrive at The Block before 7:15PM
2) Call (562)754-0465
3) Receive Tickets

Everyone is invited.
First come, First serve.

Add BATMA17 on myspace.com for updates.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:09 PM [+] ::
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Gemini & Libra

When Gemini and Libra come together in a love affair, they enjoy a great relationship based on intellectual interests and mental agility. Dual-natured Gemini loves Libra's balance, and Libra is always entertained by the chatty, brainy Twins. Libra loves art and beauty while Gemini loves the beauty of an idea, but these loves aren't far off from one another.

Both Gemini and Libra have a great deal of mental energy. They can come up with all sorts of great ideas when they work together, and Libra has the get-up-and-go needed to put their ideas into action, a quality which Gemini tends to lack. In fact, in the birth of an idea Gemini is better at pontification than direction, but this is a valuable contribution to Libra's mental process. Both Signs share a need for intellectual freedom, which they can certainly provide for one another.

Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus (Love) and Gemini by the Planet Mercury (Communication). Libra and Gemini work well together; they combine the forces of love and communication. As Libra prizes harmony with their lover almost above all else, Gemini won't be able to indulge their love of a good, hearty debate too often; Libra would rather do almost anything than argue.

Both Libra and Gemini are Air Signs. Gemini loves Libra's energy and has no trouble keeping up when Libra is off and running with a new idea, art project or other pursuit. Both Signs have wide-ranging interests, giving them great material for provocative discussion.

Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Libra is a Cardinal Sign. Libra likes a position of leadership in a relationship. They most often come up with the date ideas, for example, and flexible Gemini's happy to go along -- as long as it's okay to change their minds at the last minute. Libra tends to initiate things but has trouble finishing them; Gemini is so adaptable, they won't mind switching gears on a moment's notice and moving on to something else if Libra gets bored.

What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Libra relationship? Their ability to work together as an intellectual team. Together they can expose each other to new and different points of view and areas of interest, and help one another open up their worlds.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:14 PM [+] ::
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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:38 PM [+] ::
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May 4: saw Krizelle and Rath, and Gonzalooooo
May 14: saw Bosco guy, and old school Joseph girl...

Beatles - Help!
Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me, help me, help me, oh.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:42 AM [+] ::
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but i don't wanna be leader

Your Life Path Number Is 1

1 Your Life Path is is characterized by individualist desires, independence, and the need for personal attainment. The purpose to be fulfilled on this Life Path is that of becoming independent. This is a two part learning process; first, you must learn to stand on your own two feet and learn not to depend on others. After you are indeed free and independent, you must learn to be a leader. Many of our generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path number 1. You always have the potential for greatness as a leader, and you may fail as a follower. Many 1's spend most of their lives shaking off their dependent side. When this happens, there is little time left for enjoying the rewards to be gained through independence. You may have to overcome an environment in which it is very easy to be dependent - and difficult to be independent. You have an abundance or creative inspiration - and possess the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. Your drive and potential for action comes directly from the enormous depth of strength you have/ This includes both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you are highly self-centered and demand to have your way in most circumstances. If you are not fully developed, you may express the negative side of your number. That means your demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent. If this is the case, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances and long for self-sufficiency. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Over-confidence and impatience are the weak side of your Life Path.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

holy sh--
that was freakishly accurate
especially: You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself.

and i thought i would be a 7... but, really, we are a little bit of everything, just more one way than others


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:34 AM [+] ::
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last wednesday saw roland the bass player...
last night's PCN was kick anal...
good job, all;
good job, all


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:05 PM [+] ::
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kite runner, eh?
entiresting, very...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:37 AM [+] ::
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saw Nikki Stassi
to quit or not to quit
:-/ need at least 2,500 dollars...
at the rate i'm going, i'll only reach 1,100 dollars :-(

i wanna be a pussy cat

what to do, what to do...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:18 PM [+] ::
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o! funny thing today! well, for those who get it...
i was working the Box Office, and
a couple minutes after Cane Man came, guess who i saw...
well, i didn't recognize at first... first, i saw her with an Itchy and Scratchy shirt, and i thought kewl shirt... then, i saw her face, and i was thinkin' ehhhh, kinda oogily... that sux... next, when she began to speak... OMG!... it's the DRUNK GIRL WITH THE LISP!!! u know, the one "Gerome" was with... i tried not to laugh, and i was thinking of something witty to say after i gave her her ticket... like "don't drink too much now", but instead i didn't say anything at all...
i looked at her friend, and she didn't look familiar from that night, but she could've been there, i dont' know...
hahahaha... well, they went to watch Beauty Shop... that's all...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:46 PM [+] ::
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I also saw Father Will
the eucharistic minister guy with the thick beard, but now no more
and that guy with the cane is a kewl regular guest...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:32 AM [+] ::
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could i control greed?
can i not let hell push me, but let it encourage me?
Am I Able To Control Demons For The Better?

too many thoughts at once
understandable, but trying something i wouldn't do
is that good or bad?
is that me? am i fake?
am i changing? am i growing out of?
am i growing into? am i growing at all?
am i straying from a path?
am i on a risky road... where few have succeeded?
succeeded at what cost? any cost at all?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:14 PM [+] ::
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i think i saw Megan M's bro... or not
Krizelle and Rath again
---------------------------
i also saw artoom again
then i saw Monique and Vladamir
Monique said, "tell dominic and dan 'hi'."

kewl beans


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:46 AM [+] ::
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first greed,
endless lying...
stupid reputation
i hate being on top
the taste of power
never wanting to lose it again
not concentrating well
it's taking over me
no time
i'm sad
too bad
tough love
don't shove...

don't shiv

must use them

DrPaulson76 (3:51:39 PM): Are you selling Cutco?

Auto response from BATMA17 (3:51:39 PM): favor por favor
i got this job as a sales rep recently
all i ask of u is to ask ur parent's permision to let me show them Approx. an hour one-on-one demo anytime they're available...
THERE IS NO OBLIGATION TO BUY ANYTHING; just listen
u can be present too! it's pretty sweet shibby
if ur parents say "sure!"...
tell me now or text me ur Home Phone # to my cellphone (562-754-0465)
and i'll call that house later that day to set up a definite appt. with them and u!

if not, no worries...! :-D CHEERS!

BATMA17 (7:11:40 PM): YES I AM!!!

Auto response from DrPaulson76 (7:11:44 PM): Biochem as an appetizer with MCAT as the main course


BATMA17 (7:11:51 PM): it's not even my 3rd day and i got 200+ dollars
DrPaulson76 (7:12:33 PM): oh man ....i did that 2 summers ago
DrPaulson76 (7:12:38 PM): its a cult
BATMA17 (7:13:05 PM): yeaaaaah dude... they say flexible hours, but i'm so peer pressured to do more than i should do
DrPaulson76 (7:13:31 PM): no kidding....if your like well i have an appt for 9 am they'll be like well why dont you have one for 8am
BATMA17 (7:13:54 PM): yeah, pressuring me to get more appointments when like, i still have school and such
BATMA17 (7:14:06 PM): and i like talking, but i don't wanna talk all day
BATMA17 (7:14:11 PM): i'm fine with 2 or 3 appts...
DrPaulson76 (7:14:17 PM): yea it only gets worse tho
BATMA17 (7:14:19 PM): how long did u stay? y'd u quit?
DrPaulson76 (7:14:50 PM): i stayed for half a summer cause i couldnt stand it....and the whole thing is its easy to sell that stuff to your friends and family and stuff but once you get outside of that its hard to sell
DrPaulson76 (7:15:00 PM): and i felt bad asking for refferals cause i dont like to bother people
BATMA17 (7:15:20 PM): YEAH
BATMA17 (7:15:26 PM): i'm lucky to have a big family still
DrPaulson76 (7:16:00 PM): i made a little less than 5 grand and i got to the point where i was making like 25% off all sales....but then it just started to suck
BATMA17 (7:16:34 PM): so like, it was a great boost in income, but it died down after that
BATMA17 (7:16:40 PM): yeah, i figgured that as much
BATMA17 (7:18:04 PM): anything else to say on it?
DrPaulson76 (7:18:23 PM): the knives are cool
DrPaulson76 (7:18:34 PM): i still use em here at college
BATMA17 (7:19:04 PM): . nice .
DrPaulson76 (7:19:37 PM): have you gone to a conference
BATMA17 (7:19:58 PM): no
BATMA17 (7:20:09 PM): i just finished Advance Training I today
DrPaulson76 (7:20:47 PM): oh
BATMA17 (7:24:43 PM): well thanx for ur input man...
BATMA17 (7:24:44 PM): ttyl
BATMA17 (7:24:47 PM): c-ya:-)

still thinking...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:12 PM [+] ::
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stupid greed...
don't let my own agendas sway me from being an altruist...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:42 AM [+] ::
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yeah, that was exciting
my H.S. was on tv: a 15 and 16 yr old students threaten to kill teachers and other students
CH. 7 ABC news rocks... wahwahwah
:-P

http://www.nbc4.tv/education/4286836/detail.html


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:43 AM [+] ::
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saturday i saw daniel? fremgen? :-/ sorry for the mispelling or wrong name
today i saw Sally?, Cindy, Danny, the mom, another woman, another man, and a baby georgie... i presume...
and Divinia

none of which saw or remembered me :-/ vvhatever
except (Ricky?) the Bass player from Footloose... he's a kool kat

helping people is kewl.
but don't take my word for it, try it! badum bum!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:58 AM [+] ::
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DAVID y RAMON!!!
kewl beans!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:49 AM [+] ::
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last wednesday i saw Ms. Manlove
she probably doesn't remember me
es all good
Be Cool mah bebies
Black people don't like Be Cool,
how do i know?
they're the only ones who want a
freakin' refund 45 min. into the movie


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:38 AM [+] ::
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well, i'm making it a point till BATMAN BEGINS.
and then i might as well wait till my sister's wedding.
by then, it's too close for christmas... so in Approx. a year...
Approx. a year...

Cinyc .....Msimissep fo tnih a\w


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:37 AM [+] ::
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saw Rayniel... he's a zipzop


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:37 AM [+] ::
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before i forget, last thursday:
Danny boy
friday:
the youngs
Sunday, today:
the lady i usually see at church
Parkin's cousin?... went to my old school and shtuff... the kid who go his head stuck underneath the monkeycagebars thing
hahahaha


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:15 PM [+] ::
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The Parking Lot Tram: The uncredited workhorse of
the Disneyland resort. You take visitors from
the largest parking lot on earth to the front
door of Disneyland and back again. You aren't
the picture of glamour and most wouldn't even
think you provide any sort of excitment, but
without you no fun could be had at all. You
don't mean to, but you seem often sour. You
get little respect and sometimes get losts of
scorn, but yet you are faithful and eager to
please. People need you and you need them.
Your simpleness is the perfect backdrop to
showcase the eager smiles of children riding
you for their first time to the Happiest Place
on Earth.


What Disneyland attraction are you?
brought to you by Quizilla


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:34 PM [+] ::
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it's been a long time, long time:
ricardo
jean louise
joanna
April OOOOWEEE
brian
dan or BEEL... or crippled's brother

and new peeps:
erin
elaine
angeline
eona
may
and even though i didn't really meet her: beth-lehem


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:21 AM [+] ::
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Krizelle, Rath, Tin, and Tita Nelia
-----------------
Mr. Leon
Jeng Jeng

What Beatle are you? John Lennon You enjoy poetry, painting & a fine wine. A lover not a fighter.

Click Here to Take This Quiz Brought to you by YouThink.com quizzes and personality tests.

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:34 AM [+] ::
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Andrew Kobsi
Andrew Parkin's mumsi
Cindy Georgie
HEHE HEHE
o yeah, and Aaron's friend: David?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:14 PM [+] ::
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the priest from our lady of refuge?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:25 AM [+] ::
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let's just make this quick:
Amy & Ali twins
Mark Bloeser and his dad
it looked like Nicole Burke, but not really sure; i'll just call her Blossom haha
and a kid wearing an SJ Knights sweater
and Brock Jones


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:26 AM [+] ::
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Holy Crap! Inu Yasha plays Every Heart!!
i never knew that!!! kewl beans!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:46 PM [+] ::
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maybe blogging will help...
so... in Approx. 8 hours my Final Draft of the first of five essays are due... all 5 essays must be turned in to receive a C-grade... 3 or more absenses in the class could get me dropped... i've already missed 2 classes. one of which includes the rough draft and peer editing due date :-/... no late papers accepted...
the purpose of the essay: What is my realization? and how did it change my way of thinking?
i have some that come to mind...
making goals, accomplish, repeat
post-graduation syndrome
the hero walk
motivation
society sucks
i don't know... none seems to be elaborate enough for me to work with...
well, i realize i don't want to repeat english 105... i want to get it over with, but i need to go over it first, ya'know?... i realize i'm growing up and soon i'll have to grow up... well, i am growing up... but i don't wanna grow up... life is complicated...
to go on with life... i mustn't think about it, but just do it...? or not...
maybe i shouldn't be blogging... or not... what is my realization?
uhhhh... how about when i realized when i'm not as white as i thought i was... or how i never had many friends at my old school... well, i did, but when i look back ... i comparingly had less friends than others... but they were suffice, but i feel bad that i was... ignorant... which isn't bad... i appreciate my friends... but i w... don't know... *shrug :-/

my family loves me
my friends love me
but no one loves me

so left beind and far ahead...
i'm out of time

who wants to go to knotts? i have these discount coupons for up to 6 tickets... ahh vvhatever the freakever

what is my realization?
ignorance is bliss... *_*... could i write my essay on that?
i really only have Approx. 5 1/2 hours to write the essay cuz i gotta go to school and i have class at 8-9:30... and the english class is 9:30 :-/
*groooOOan

my ideas... i feel i could write about it, but not in more than 2-3 paragraphs... hmmm... of course... it doesn't need to be 5 paragraphs... just 500 words... which probably isn't bad... heck, can't i just copy paste my blog? if i organize it i'll probably have less than 500 words... but if i do have more than 500 words, it's probably just sentences i'm reiterating! it's 2AM now...
i liked the way my eng 809 teacher made us brainstorm... just write 15 min. straight about the topic nonstop... after that... just reorganize the paper! and poof u got an essay! well, i'm sorta kinda tryin' to do that now... but it's not working!

well, let's see...

a couple nights ago i snuck into my old school's playground. things were unburied and i was bothered... thinking in a third person point of view, i thought i shouldn't be trouble about it at all... what a waste of time... i could be doing productive things... so i thought i'd get out of the house 2 at night and just walk the relatively empty streets and walk to my school. i walked around the parking lot thinkign... i want to go on the swings... and i didn't wanna go to the park... it's a bit farther... so i looked around front of the school gate... read the no trespassing sign... and i figured i could easily jump over the gate it really is not that hard... BUT (does this essay be plausible to convict me of trespassing?) haha trespassing... it's a catholic school BUT it's doors r shut... private school, sure but catholic none the less... sometimes u can't just have faith, u gotta have something in front of you and see it... isn't that we have sacred symbols and other such icons??? having bars in front of a church and school i grow up makes it an oxymoron... anyway... i understand... society's protection... back to what i was saying... BUT i was afraid there were sensors on the gate itself :-/ soooo i went to the side of the gym... nothing there... and looky here... there's a ragged old towel over the barbed wire... and the barbed wire is stretched out and lowered making it easy access... so i was hesitant sure... but come on... i really wanted to go on the swings... i wanted to go on the swings, get that rush of going up and down, back and forth... and at the same time, think of the troubles of the present and unfinished business... meditate, if you will. *rubs eyes. so i got over the first gate... took me awhile too cuz i was scurred that i'd make too much noise... i got over that blah blah blah... i don't feel like doing details but if this brainstorm works, i might as well ya'know?... so i go over the first one... then over a second one which i was suprised to see... but just as easy and difficult as the first... so after the first 2 barricades i came across the 4-8th grade tables... hey! new tables... childhood memories and such... looked at the sandpits and saw what was moved and what new equipment they installed the year right after we graduated... noticed what old slides and monkey bars were removed... i get to the swings and the swings used to face the street but now they face the school... new swings too... i start swings... moo har har! i triumph... the goal was uneasy at first but that's cuz of my own emotions and feeligns... so i got caught?... would the truth suffice my captors? i wanted to swing... and dangit i did... i went on and got the rush... i put an alarm clock for about 4 o'clock so i could get home before my parents woke up ... and i started thinking... not even 2 minutes and my mood was only better cuz i got to the swings... the things that bothered me didn't change, they were going to stay the same anyway... i could 'just deal with it' ... easier said than done... the tiems i don't worry about it is when i'm not thinking about it... i look up at the sky... there is no sky... there's space and the stars shining so bright light years away... i'm actually looking at nothing... cuz it is nothing... i can't really grasp hold of it... it's air... i could see through it... it's a far away black was i can't touch...then society in general irks me again... that's a whole other story... same with religion...
then came this... something new... nothing great but significant... i remembered an episode of the Justice League... and Vandel Savage says "gotta keep busy or else the mind goes crazy" *siiiigh maybe i am going crazy... i do love to think and i highly prefer it over taking action... y i don't take action i dont' know... laziness?... fear of [something]? who knows. if only i put as much thought of planning my ideas into taking action then i'd be more productive and such... no, i'm stuck at preproduction... i've set up a goal... and that was to go to the swings... and swing for hours... that didn't happen... i got tired of it easily... not from boredom... but, it's not going anywhere... i ahve to leave my childhood... when a writer writes, does the words he use to describe things he writes about meant to be symbolic? or did he just write it just because... well, here's something symbolic... as i slowly walked out of the playground i needed to leave my childhood unless i succumb and be stuck in it forever... time doesn't wait, it's true... life isn't a game u can just reset... i needed a goal... once i reached it... then what?... nothing... i have to keep going... that's just the way it is. i suppose. i supposed until i have another 'epiphany'. i have to keep making goals and finishing them off to keep on rollin' with life... i left the playground in less than half the time it took me to get in... "gotta keep busy or else the mind goes crazy"

now, just to organize what the heck i wrote...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:45 AM [+] ::
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Richie
and
me-"hey, uhhh, did u play basketball?"
guy="used to."
-"oh. r u a commentator?"
="Fox Sports Net: Jack Haley." *offers handshake
-"really? sweet!"

*gets a pic with him and autograph

blah blah blah


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:06 AM [+] ::
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Dr. Yorita
and today,
Janet, Tyler, Carlee and family &/or friends
Nikki and family
Meghan W.'s mom
Megan M's mom and bro
Young, Patricia, her mom Ms. G (computer teacher), Young's parents
Ms. Dellavelleeellelele (1st grade teacher)
The secrataries
Miss Considine (Principal)
Ms. Klosterman (PE teacher)
Nottage with Dominique and parents
Bloeser's parents
Faye's sister and mom
Erin and dad
regular 12:30 mass people and other mass related people
Alli D and parents
Roberts' and family ... ("no, I'm JEREMY!!!" haha)
Ms. Manlove (Teacher Aide) & Allison Lyon and parents
Kelly's parents and little sister
and Stein

hey a lil mini reunion. XD
.reminds me that i'm not white. hahahahaha!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:51 PM [+] ::
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~Mark Nieto
Krizelle and Rath
Meghan Wright's mom/relative???
That girl a grade under me in the SJES days


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:21 AM [+] ::
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I'm only laughing on the outside / My smile is just skin deep / If you could see inside I'm really crying / You might join me for a weep.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:16 PM [+] ::
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i forgot to mention that i saw the usher guy with his family earlier
and recently:
Mr. Aloooo and wife/gf?
Drummer guy from Life Teen, i think


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:11 AM [+] ::
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now THAT was suprising...
Matt Bagley... or Hernandez and his bro?
and John ... John Victor... dang, i finally remember where i've seen him...

entiresting, very...

c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:46 AM [+] ::
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just to note this past week of who i've seen of those i haven't seen in a long anal time:
Mark Nieto
Chris Cheong
Artoom ... ?
Anne Breister


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:04 PM [+] ::
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so i wanted to watch Blade: Trinity, but supposedly the projector broke...
so...
if u like/love Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon and Hero...
WATCH THE HOUSE OF FLYING DAGGERS!!!

MMM MMM Zhang Ziyi... and not just her...
the freakin' storyline and shiznets, yos and yoettes!!!
i love these Chinese movies...
Twists and Turns and ALL THAT JAZZ!!!
so yeah, i love tragedy...
and the moral is:
Love is fickle
Love is dangerous
Love is fun until it's not "there" anymore
Love makes you... do... ... things :-`

vvhatever the freak ever


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:38 AM [+] ::
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Out of Time
out of my time
falling behind
moving ahead

growing up with no experience...
i'm in limbo

i belong in a place called no where
i could explain
u may understand
but there's no place for me
no place but to go my own way.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:55 PM [+] ::
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well, just to remind myself what's been happenin' the past holidays...
X-mas was better than past X-massessees...
New Year's was kewl... havin' a last minute New Year's bash for da kids and playing a lil bit of JUSTICE LEAGUE MONOPOLY!!! moo har har...

over all...
2005 is gonna be one heck of a year eh?...
i'm gonna be 20 and i'm still not finished with those vids :-P...
we shall see what this year brings...
gettin' old... and yet... i don't know


... and so it begins
another year...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:02 AM [+] ::
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