:: Dnubirom .....reverof dna dne eht tilnu won ::

:: Sunday, December 24, 2006 ::

my dad just killed small rat... or mouse...

i feel sad... i would've left it out in the cold...

well, my dad is hyped up and into the Christmas spirit now...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:32 AM [+] ::
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maaaaan,

one nite in mongkok is a sad movie
old boy is a taboo movie

casino royale is a good movie, though i swear someone is reading and stealing my ideas! I thought up that a bond girl would die by drowning. James would witness it and wouldn't be able to save her!!
Just like Kill Bill! That's my idea too. A 2-part movie in which a lone hero and the villain would meet at the very end! A personal conflict of the hero to which his weapon would be a samurai sword!

*siiiiigh


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:46 PM [+] ::
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I think I'll go for the rough look until February...
until the...

.baptism.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:07 PM [+] ::
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God, what do I do?

A double commitment clashing.\\u_u


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:51 PM [+] ::
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"Be young and careless, be old and wise all at the same time."
-Copyright Sam...

iiiii like it!!!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:30 PM [+] ::
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Why does it have to be the thing that i do "wrong" have to be unforgiven?

I preach forgiveness and I give it willingly, yet none gives it to me.

Did I expect it? yeah,
it still... sux though

.misunderstood.

or is it that I'm the one misunderstanding?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:32 PM [+] ::
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After reading a couple of notes to myself:

Okaaay, I don't know what the hell I was thinking...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:33 AM [+] ::
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Why do I have to make things so complicated?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:13 PM [+] ::
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i'm losin' it again


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:03 PM [+] ::
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another fun night!

but not


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:07 AM [+] ::
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like, for seriously,...

it's getting harder and harder

heh, it sounds funny, but it's really not


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:32 AM [+] ::
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RN played a LP song... everything was kewlio!!!

except y do i feel sad?

.alone.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:34 PM [+] ::
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o schnapps, i just remembered i had a dream...
Pamela Anderson...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:21 AM [+] ::
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i myspace bulletin posted this for some reason... *shrug

.update.
on my life ^_^

i am busy! i am happy with 5 hours of nonconsecutive sleep and i feel productive! Along with 2 meals a day 6 hours apart!

I'm home for about 9 hours a day, just to sleep, myspace, eat, crap, and the occasional hygiene upkeep.
BUT, alas, I don't have a lot of 'leisure' time anymore.
I preordered lots of things from amazon.com a month or more ago and they're all arriving now, but I don't have time to enjoy them, such as 4 Comic Books related to Infinite Crisis (I heard Jason Todd is back... Booo! I think I'll stop reading comics for awhile because of that). Also, I have "The Innocent Man" which I probably will never have time to read , and I have Justice League Unlimited Season 1 and BATMAN BEYOND Season Two which I don't have much time to watch. I've seen all of BATMAN BEYOND before , but not all of JLU and i really really really want to watch it. Does anybody want to take the to time watch it with me?
Ah, vvhatever the freakever.

Why am i blogging here?... *shrug...

um o k... this is where I go every week... jealous?


oh schnapps! it's my Blog's birthday! Happy 4th Birthday blog!!
www.oct262002.blogspot.com


c-ya:-)


-j


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:55 AM [+] ::
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Your sign is that of witty Gemini, the third sign of the zodiac, the sign that is characterized by communication. Geminis are very intellectual individuals, and are forever interested in broadening their horizon - they are eternal students!

Mercury, the planet of communication, rules your sign, and makes you an articulate and versatile person. You are outgoing and sociable, and due to your lively attitude, you are the born entertainer. Clever and ingenious, you usually get what you want with your charm and wit.

First of the three air signs, you are a dexterous, multifaceted, and flexible individual. As the most diverse and eloquent sign of the zodiac, you crave mental stimulation above all. Your curiosity, combined with your ability to synthesize information, makes you the messenger of knowledge and information.

As a Gemini, you rule the third house, the sector of your chart that describes how you perceive, process, and communicate facts. It also has to do with short journeys, siblings, neighbors, and anything within arm's reach.

Your sign is a mutable sign, responsible for keeping information flowing. You are gifted in adapting to situations and making compromises. Of all the zodiac signs, you are the peacemaker and troubleshooter who actively finds solutions to tricky situations.

Your strengths, dear Gemini, lie in your cleverness, inquisitiveness, and openness to exploring new ideas. Once you have found something that interests you, you proceed with logic and scientific precision. However, as soon as you've consumed a subject, you are also able to switch your focus to a new topic. With your naturally practical and skilled approach, you excel in whatever you put your mind to.

One of your main weaknesses is that you can be shallow and hypocritical in your dealings with others. You can confuse people with your unpredictability and cynical attitude, and they might not trust you completely. Since your brain works so quickly, you tend to be nervous, restless, and anxious, which sometimes leaves you highly irritated.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:38 AM [+] ::
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I'm in pain.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:26 AM [+] ::
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my tag-board is gone, i think...

makes sense since no one has tagged it in over a year...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:23 AM [+] ::
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Amish shootings... female children dead, execution style

more school shootings...


something i just winged up:
oh, how you loved him so
for the whole world to see
you'd quite literally do anything for him
in order for him to be
though society did you wrong
for which you burdenly accepted
you did what you had to do
because you loved him so
for the whole world to see

not so much obsessed, but reminded everyday.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:23 AM [+] ::
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Is it better to prevent or counter?
Too little too late or overly cautious?
until then be jolly and merry!

.counter.

for the experience of course.
of course!


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:28 PM [+] ::
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It's like reopenning a scab... or scar.

.. Secrets are only secrets if they are KEPT a secret.

Ignoring... displacement... all temporary solutions.
.What is thee solutions?. if any

downplay or stress over?

there is no median which we all, or only I, strive for.

a forever(??) scathed division.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:23 PM [+] ::
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If interview went well, then most likely DID NOT do it.

a lot can happen in mere seconds.

stop.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:06 PM [+] ::
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The Killing Joke...
When you have one bad day. Just one bad day.
You go Looooooney...

makes it more plausible... more and more...

eeL gno eeK eeM

.obsessed.

If only ...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:19 AM [+] ::
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Why do i never sleep on the first day?

Father, mistaken for gang member, is shot and critically injured. Older daughter escapes, youngest shot in the chest...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:12 AM [+] ::
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A ball-shaped object represents innocense. not the flower. i meant innocence.

i can't spell as well anymore :-(.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:59 AM [+] ::
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i had a dream about a fight at the Kabuki restaurant...
I froze and my friend got shot...

21 yr. old Florida woman, shotgun to the head; suicide after nancy grace interview about 2 yr. old son missing...

molestor from Germany + 2 other woman

rape of 12 yr. old girl at knife point in movie theater...

23 yr. old teacher & 14 yr. old student.. 'nuff sad.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 4:46 PM [+] ::
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What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?

Teal is your Lightsaber's color.The color Teal signifies trustworthiness, devotion and healing. It is also the indication of a spiritual guide and natural teacher.
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c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:11 PM [+] ::
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3 hours of sleep in the last 39 hours...
-_-

g'night...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:16 AM [+] ::
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I'm just so excited that I'm still wearing a towel around me, and I can't remember if I shampooed or not.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:26 PM [+] ::
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"Blast 'em! Just blast the fool!!"
Approx. 1 week ago


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:07 AM [+] ::
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If you were a booger, I'd blow you.



HAHAHAHHAHAHA... copyright ME!!! 082606

I'd blow you until you came... [pause]... out.

HAHAHHAHAH copyright ME again!!! 082606


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:37 PM [+] ::
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i dont' know y i feel like posting a lot now, but i just felt like blogging this.
So much so, that I took a detour home.

My plan was to go to the bank then straight to school.
I go to the bank and there's this semi-elderly lady... More than middle-age, less than elder. Anyway, she's just sitting in front of the bank asking for donations. GRRRR!!!... just because we have money... right?... look, i'm MORE likely, and would feel good to give money in front of a grocery store or shop. But at a bank? what bi0tch! so what? Are you or she going to think of us that don't give as Anals! f--- it... i think it's f---ed up and rude to ask for donations in front of a bank. Everytime I go I see her, and i know she recognizes me as well (or not). Everytime I see her, I just want to go up to her and tell her off!... that's how pissy I am! what made me want to detour home and type this out is that when I was leaving, she still asks for donations. I turn and look at her and say, "I have no money at all." I then had an ambivalent feeling of bad and amusing. I felt bad, at first, because she probably thinks I'm lying. But I felt amused because I REALLY DIDN'T HAVE ANY BILLS WITH ME. I don't have any money in my wallet! I have money in my account, but nothing in my wallet. It's easier for me to save money when I just leave it in there and not withdraw any of it out. So I'm walking to my car pissed off and happy at the same time. Take that bi0tch!
Then on my way home, the minivan and I are both turning right at an intersection. IT'S GREEN YOU MOTHER FREAKER!!! GOOOOOO!!! The man was talking to these male teenagers posting up a Yard Sale. WTF---!!! FUCK!!! GOO!!! so the light is turn yellow and he finally goes... as he finishes his turn, i'm close behind him, and he completely stops! A car making a left, turning into the same street as we, and I almost collide. Well, when the minivan stopped in front of me, I accelerated in to the next lane, whcih I think the left-turning car was going into. Also, there are 3 lanes, and that left-turning car shoooould turn into the farthest left... but vvhatever the freak ever... i'm calm... and i don't like that lady even if she means well.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:26 PM [+] ::
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*monotone voice
I feel like writing in this because I'm in such a gooooood mood.
chyeah...
so things are kewl... ya'know?... ummm
i just beat Final Fantasy X-2... and freakin' it almost took longer to beat than FFX. Honestly (of course, why would I lie?), by the time it was in Chapter 5, I was excited that it was almost finished. But after seeing ALL those Hotspots, it reallly dragged and wore me out. I didn't go to all the hotspots because it made me frustrated, so I just skipped everything and went straight to the final Boss. It was bad because he was sooooo simple!... But good because I didn't feel like thinking much strategy and I just wanted to finish the freaking game.
I feel I don't have much time playing video games anymore. I'm starting a lot of things and finishing everything that I've started. (gawd, i hope i didn't jinx myself)
So yeah, I finished the game, and MAYBE i'll go back to playing it for 100% completion when I feel like it and have time. I bought Kingdom Hearts II, but because of all the things that are going on, I don't think I could take the time to appreciate the game and take as loooong as I like. hmm...
I am freaking low on money within this past month. Food and on-line shopping is where my money goes.
the Puture is here.

carpe diem, bi0tches!

c u on the flipside


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:30 AM [+] ::
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Magnolia mentioned me in her xanga... i feel special ... *acts "special"
Then,
I was just reading my tag-board...
it reads:
1*beep*2: i dislike those awkward staring-at-each-other-do-i-know-you? faces too...
dominic: yeah, i know how it feels to lose something of that value (my party van r.i.p.).. but yeah, at least your car and trunk had SOME ACTION..
nychel: aww.. im so sorry! i'm glad you're alive though! and i'm not the last female to see you!! thanks for the movie!
annie: aww batman i'm sorry
annie: i'm a libra/virgo!
dominic: I'M THE LIBRA!
Noel: ur the gemini..whos the libra?
Noel: thankx for the reverse ride home early this morning.
me: i meant-- you shouldn't talk to me like that if you want me to hang out with you
annie: hey batman. havent talked to you in a while. miss you dude. yes, LOL to the max it is. haha.
annie: i thought it said "a realist" backwards? anyway i was watching seinfield &batman reminded me of kramer haha
dominic: yeah, and it used to say "a way of expression" backwards
Noel: yes it was backwards as well
annie: oh my goodness. i just realized the heading is backwards...does that mean the previous title was backwards?! now, i'll never know. haha.
Sun Doominal: March 5, @ Fendi's Cafe, 7pm, free w/ 1 drink min., also performing Boys of Pencey Prep
Sun Doominal: Jan 15th, @ Fendi's Cafe, 7pm, free w/ 1 drink min.,also performing Dic Quiloan.
BATMA17: es true, F.U.C't.K.I.T. or not not??? c-ya -j
Noel: happy birthday Blog!
Noel: is the Punisher movie more gorry than the original theatrikal showing?
Sun Doominal: we have a new webaddy


haha... the latest tag was Approx. Sept/Oct. 2004
and the last tag was Approx. Aug. 2005

entiresting, very


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:18 PM [+] ::
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Pluto is not a planet.
It is the 2nd largest "dwarf planet".
Among thousands of other dwarf planets.
BSXAWEr241231413-59153 is the largest dwarf planet.

I woke up noontime yesterday.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:49 AM [+] ::
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too much fun on my mind...

can't focus...
lightsabers, "SoaP", school, work... and all that jazz


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:44 AM [+] ::
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FREAKING HIGH SCHOOL ALL OVER AGAIN
>:*(


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:46 PM [+] ::
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Anna Sverdesky stabbed at McDonalds by a man in-n-out from a mental instiution; random; 6 days before her 18th birthday...
16 yr. old woman shot in the head on her way to/from(?) school; brother vandelizes police car in anger...
10+ teenage/20ish yr. old black men rape 11 yr. old black girl...
A mirror falls on top of a 3 yr. old latina killing her; witnessed by mother and grandmother...
soldiers' death in the war; family and friends heartbroken...
failing school...
gangs...
kidnappings/molestations/murder...
cancer...
smoking...
God...
higher beings...
"do you wanna fight?!"...
politics...
apathy...
sloth...
greed...
suicidal doctor; bystander/collateral damage...
ignorance?...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:18 PM [+] ::
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note to self:
take cell phone to sleep; no exceptions...

u never know when need to pick up the priest...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:01 PM [+] ::
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I am sad because I have no plans today.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:01 AM [+] ::
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.burned.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:06 PM [+] ::
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i'm such a disappointment...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:08 PM [+] ::
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what a horrible dream...
money stolen like that...
.untrustworthy..


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:48 PM [+] ::
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i was watching a movie, trying to sleep...
and 3 different thangs happened within three minutes of each other...
What the Freaks-in-a-mythologies???


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:23 AM [+] ::
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What type of Disney Fan are you?

You're a Disney Elite!You're a true Disney fan. You know all the details and you'vespent a lot of time obsessing over the hidden mickeys in Walt's earliest films. Yay for you. You're smart and you knowwhat's good in the world of Disney. Some might call you obsessive, but we know better. There are plenty of people like you in the world. You just have to search them out.
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o dang, i didn't know i'd get top rank...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:54 AM [+] ::
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what is the world coming to?
annie not flaking, but karen does??
tsk, tsk


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 1:37 PM [+] ::
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there's no one to think about anymore...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 2:35 PM [+] ::
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

Down and out again...
Current mood: confused


I wish I knew my purpose.

Listening to:
Aphasia
- Clarity at Heights
- Blue Beneath Your Skin


c-ya:-)


-j

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Ocean Waves
Current mood: :-) Agnostic *_*
Category: Religion and Philosophy


Life is like the Ocean Waves. It has its ups and downs and you know one will come after the other.

just gotta have faith...


c-ya:-)


-j

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Friday, February 24, 2006

The Process of ...Contenting...
Current mood: content


My dad and I just moved the Love Sac into my room...
Though my room is a little crowded now, I feel more content...
I feel unlazy despite I haven't studied or done any of my homework...
But that's o k!... I'm a changin'... just need that continued Motivation...

Today, I'm going job training to replace my sister when she finally leaves her job.
I won't be going to the Radio Station tonight (KPFK 90.7FM LA; 98.7FM SB). Sorry guyz... Priorities ya'know? Can't have fun all the time.

When I was a younger lad, I never really cared about turning 18 or 21. Where I'll be legal to buy and enter Adult Recreational Activities. I never wanted to grow up, but I was in denial because everyone grows up. In less than 6 months, I'll be 21, so I might as well enjoy the privelages that will be given to me. Yeah, who knew... I don't like change, but change is inevitable so I welcome it voluntarily and willingly. Now, I can't wait to be 21. That is, I don't want to do it alone, ya'know?... need a partner and ally to do the things... a Buddy System so to speak... I'm already a CHAIR Dancer... one day, I'll be dancing on the dancefloor and peeps will be like, "NINGA WHAT??? Look at Sushí!!! He look 'tupid! BUT f--- he's dancing! YEAH! Go, Sush!!!" and have fune li'dat ya'know

...and all that jazz...


c-ya:-)


-j

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Monday, February 20, 2006

I think I'm a CHAIR Dancer...
Current mood: quixotic


Using my deductive reasoning that classification of "dancing" defines it as 'moving they body rhythmically to a beat', I have defined myself as a CHAIR Dancer. Most of you know that I don't like dancing, but referring the definition, it appears that I do dance. Just not openly. I prefer to move my groove whilst I sit upon a chair. Though I may not dance on the dancefloor, I do dance in my chair. I do not necessarily lap dance, but I don't mind receiving one. The difference between a lap dance and... "CHAIR Dancing"... is the receiver of the lap dance enjoys the dancer and the receiver of the "CHAIR Dancing" dances with the dancer.
So yeah, like ya'know vvhatever... i tried it at the debut last Sunday... and ya'know... i feel that much comPortable about dancing... sorta kinda not not...

anyhooooooo, i want a job, i want credit history, i want to liiiiiiive...
i want to live a life in which i didn't want... "i didn't want," u say?... well, back in my younger days, ahem, i never wanted to conform to society, but i also knew i would conform eventually nevertheless... and i believe i am assimilating... similarly i've been thinking of my Puture... yes-sum... it seems unlikely that i'll turn into an immortal superhero (but u never know). So, until that time comes, I might as well think of ... :-/ growing up :-/

School: UCI, CSSD, Film editing?... :-/ i cannot decide... well, i read that the difference between a UC and CSU is that UC is more Theory-based, and CSU is more practical and hands-on... Entiresting, very...
Irvine: IF i choose to go here, I could finish LBCC by the end of this year, BUT i would have to overload on units... AND i can't be as adaptable to having classes with mi amiga...
@ Irvine, I'm thinking of majoring in Psychology and Criminology. I'm less than an hour away from home. It's far enough to be away, but close enough if I want to come back. I'm still close to family and friends. I met this lady who works in a juvenile delinquet/mentally ill place. If I get some experience from her workplace, it would be good because it's in the Irvine area anyway. also, i know people at Irvine and friends who are majoring in Psychology also...
San Diego: IF i choose SD, I could finish LBCC by the end of this year, but i wouldn't need to overload on units...
@ SD, It is more practical because I like helping people and it has an exclusive Social Work major which Irvine doesn't have. I do prefer helping the helpless than... eh, i'm getting ~lost~... ummmm so yeah... where was i?... uhhh haha... funny, i want to help the helpless, but i'm getting lost in my own thoughts myself... :-P... anyway! I would probably double major too. I could major in the Criminology studies also. *shrug... What else?That work experience, if i get any, would help. Also, I would have to move to SD which is kewl, ya'know?... i know at least 2 people there and i can always, hopefully, roomie-in with one of 'em... SD is far from Long Beach, but 2 hour drive... hmmm... although living away from family would be kewlio, but lonesome at the same time... Same with my friends, most of them would be far away. Of course, I could always meet new peeps... But ya'know vvhatever the freakever...
In either college, I would major in helping people...
Then, there's Film Editing School... I like film editing, but i cannot focus because I'm a perfectionist. I like it to be done in ONE sitting. (That's why i'm lagging with all those other videos I was asked or paid to do... sorry guyz and galz... goin' on 3 years!)
Hm, the school would be in the LA or Burbank area and I'd probably familiarize with the area well and i could show-off my geography skillz to whoever visits... wahwahwah... the problem is, i get really turned off by the competition. I just want to edit without too much hype. I guess i easily self-criticize myself...? i don't know... well, Film Editing... not much money there... i think...? or there's an over abundance of people who wants to make it in the entertainment field. Money?... sh--, freaking love-hate... need/want... In anything that I LOVE to do, i don't want money, BUT i need the bills... and like every other American, gotta love my materialism...
o k, back to living in LA or Burbank... yeah, i'm still close to friends and family and living on my own or what not... o k, enough of that...

vvhatever... i'm looking for a job, but none of it is fun... i don't know... nothing ever is enough, eh? i had a lot of other thoughts, but i can' t remember.

.MY MOTIVATION.


c-ya:-)


-j

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

"Voice of Wisdom"


So i'm the "Voice of Wisdom" despite me being a Gemini...
it feels really good to be called that, but
i really feel weak... in this fat ninja body...
-_-


c-ya:-)


-j


(added: 1-26-05 8:33PM)
i don't regret not getting involved...
i regret not doing anything at all...


c-ya:-)


-j




Currently listening:
Creep
By Radiohead
Release date: By 23 December, 1999


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Monday, October 31, 2005

You can't spell slaughter without laughter!!!


.whatif.





c-ya:-)





-j


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Monday, September 12, 2005

Baby girl born to brain-dead woman dies


Good-Bye, Sanity...

There are reasons unknown why this is the best of all possible worlds.

. Ignorance is Bliss .





c-ya:-)





-j


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Help! I need somebody. Help!
Current mood: cold


Not just anybody.





c-ya:-)





-j


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:: j 8:47 PM [+] ::
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.purpose.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:27 PM [+] ::
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Of delusion and shame, for so long it has caused me pain.

Nothing ever really changes.
Everything goes back to normal.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:54 AM [+] ::
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am i too emotional?


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 5:17 PM [+] ::
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Zuyi Zhang presented the Film Editing Category...
Crash won...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:44 PM [+] ::
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So alone,
I know you never wanted me.


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 7:38 PM [+] ::
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RIP Don Knotts
:-(


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 8:24 PM [+] ::
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So Lonely - The Police

Well someone told me yesterday
That when you throw your love away
You act as if you just don't care
You look as if you're going somewhere

But I just can't convince myself
I couldn't live with no one else
And I can only play that part
And sit and nurse my broken heart

So lonely
So lonely
So lonely
So lonely

Now no one's knocked upon my door
For a thousand years or more
All made up and nowhere to go
Welcome to this one man show

Just take a seat they're always free
No surprise no mystery
In this theatre that I call my soul
I always play the starring role

So lonely
So lonely
So lonely
So lonely

Lonely, I'm so lonely
I feel so alone
I feel low
I feel so
Feel so low
I feel low, low
I feel low, low, low
I feel low, low, low
I feel low, low, low
I feel low, low, low
I feel low, low, low
Low, I feel low
I feel low
I feel low
I feel so lonely
I feel so lonely
I feel so lonely, lonely, lonely, lone
Lonely, lone
I feel so alone, yeah

So lonely


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:19 PM [+] ::
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i just had a dream about watching Final Destination 3 on UPN...
just the roller coaster scene... man, i'm freaked out already and i can't go back to sleep...


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 6:19 AM [+] ::
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4 dreams last night...
it involved
D
T
N
A


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:25 AM [+] ::
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it's the third day of the second month of 2006:
i never thought this day would actually happen...
i thought i would give in first...
but nay, i stood by my friends and left none behind...
i am .thee.last.one.standing.
.proud. ^_^


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 3:41 PM [+] ::
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my cousin Lannie had a baby boy... yaaaaay...
he was born 20 days early than expected...
now that's just crazy freaks-in-a-mythologies...

his name is Jeremiah...

let's sing!
Jeremiah was a bull frog.. d-un. dun ...
was a good friend of mine...
didn't understand what a word he said...
somethin'g somethin'g ~something~...
i said, "Joy to the world...
to All the boys and girls.
Joy to the fishes
in the deep blue sea.
Joy to u and me

let's see that makes...
13 great granddaughters &
10 great grandsons
for Nanay Tuding

Rosanna, I still call ur bet about Chris & Jen... :-P


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 11:52 PM [+] ::
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.jinx.
-_-
or not


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 10:37 PM [+] ::
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f---in' dreams
and it felt so real

:*(


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 12:55 PM [+] ::
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i admit, the last few New Year's family parties have been... at best, o k...
today/last night... is a blast!!!... honestly, going out of the norm and hanging out with friends, doing what not things, i'm TOTALLY happy when my friends are happy... sure, it's not me, but it really makes me optomistic this year FOR ME...

read my past blogs, it's always so depressing about it's just another year...
ya'know... i thought 2005 would be great... BATMAN BEGINS was going to come out on my b-day... my 20th b-day... my sister would get married, i've met great new friends, workedat my first job, but in the end... it wasn't the best that it could be...
welps, this year... after Fate's hints, i believe...
i'm turning 21, i feel more focused (hopefully i ain't jinxin' myself)... i gots to do what i gots to do, and will be all right even if it goes terribly wrong

can't wait till June 6th, i feel like doing something or at least plan something big


c-ya:-)


-j

:: j 9:49 AM [+] ::
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